The Heroin Diaries: Ten Year Anniversary Edition

A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star

Nikki Sixx

• Publisher: MTV Books
• Year: 2007
• eBook ISBN:
  9781416525325
• Topic: Art
• Subtopic: Popular Culture in Art

A brutally honest rock memoir, The Heroin Diaries chronicles Mötley Crüe bassist Nikki Sixx’s descent into heroin addiction and his harrowing fight for recovery at the height of fame.

When Mötley Crüe was at the height of its fame, there wasn’t any drug Nikki Sixx wouldn’t do. He spent days—sometimes alone, sometimes with other addicts, friends, and lovers—in a coke- and heroin-fueled daze.

The highs were high, and Nikki’s journal entries reveal some euphoria and joy. But the lows were lower, often ending with Nikki in his closet, surrounded by drug paraphernalia and wrapped in paranoid delusions.

Here, Nikki shares the diary entries—some poetic, some scatterbrained, some bizarre—of those dark times. Joining him are Tommy Lee, Vince Neil, Mick Mars, Slash, Rick Nielsen, Bob Rock, and a host of ex-managers, ex-lovers, and more.

Brutally honest, utterly riveting, and surprisingly moving, The Heroin Diaries follows Nikki during the year he plunged to rock bottom—and his courageous decision to pick himself up and start living again.

Table of contents

• Cover
• Dedication
• Epigraph
• Acknowledgments
• A Short Medical Dictionary
• A Short Alternative Medical Medical Dictionary with Dr. Lemuel Pillmeister
• Key Players in These Torrid Tales (Otherwise Known as Partners in Crime)
• Ten Years Later
• Introduction
• October 1987: Merry Christmas. Well, That’s What People Say at Christmas, Right?
• January 1981: One Could Say That I’ve Been Having a Locc Love Affair
• February 1987: When I’m Losing my Mind, The Only Thing that can Save me is Heroin.
• March 1987: Blood was Spurting all Over the Closet...and I was Just Slamming the Drugs Anyplace Under my Skin Praying They Would Take the Pain Away...
• April 1987: Does my Illness Hang Off of me Like a Fucking Smell?
• May 1987: He Asked me to Get on my Knees and Pray to god to Lose this Obsession With Drugs
• June 1987: Maybe Having These Dealers Follow us is a bad Idea
• Intermission: A Head-On Collision was About to Happen yet I was too Stubborn to Take a Hint
• July 1987: This has Become the Airport Blowjob Tour
• August 1987: Pretty Good Show Considering the Squirrels and Ice Cream Trucks
• September 1987: I’m Over the Drugs and I know They’re Over Me...
• October 1987: Drugs Make it Better–Drugs Make it Worse
• November 1987: P.S. I didn’t tell Anybody but I Scored a Balloon of Pers
• December 1987: ...He Says if you don’t Change your Ways you Won’t Live Until the end of the Year
• My Life After Death: That’s not Very Rock N’ Roll, is it?
• More Post Humous Adventures
• About the Author
• Copyright