How Dante Can Save Your Life

The Life-Changing Wisdom of History's Greatest Poem

Rod Dreher

• Publisher: Regan Arts.
• Year: 2015
• ISBN:
  9781941393772
• Topic: Theology & Religion
• Subtopic: Religion

The opening lines of The Divine Comedy by Dante Alighieri launched Rod Dreher on a journey that rescued him from exile and saved his life. Dreher found that the medieval poem offered him a surprisingly practical way of solving modern problems. Following the death of his little sister and the publication of his New York Times bestselling memoir The Little Way of Ruthie Leming, Dreher found himself living in the small community of Starhill, Louisiana where he grew up. But instead of the fellowship he hoped to find, he discovered that fault lines within his family had deepened. Dreher spiraled into depression and a stress-related autoimmune disease. Doctors told Dreher that if he didn't find inner peace, he would destroy his health. Soon after, he came across The Divine Comedy in a bookstore and was enchanted by its first lines, which seemed to describe his own condition. In the months that followed, Dante helped Dreher understand the mistakes and mistaken beliefs that had torn him down and showed him that he had the power to change his life. Dreher knows firsthand the solace and strength that can be found in Dante's great work, and distills its wisdom for those who are lost in the dark wood of depression, struggling with failure (or success), wrestling with a crisis of faith, alienated from their families or communities, or otherwise enduring the sense of exile that is the human condition. Inspiring, revelatory, and packed with penetrating spiritual, moral, and psychological insights, How Dante Can Save Your Life is a book for people, both religious and secular, who find themselves searching for meaning and healing. Dante told his patron that he wrote his poem to bring readers from misery to happiness. It worked for Rod Dreher. Dante saved Rod Dreher's life—and in this book, Dreher shows you how Dante can save yours.

PART I

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FROM THE GARDEN TO THE DARK WOOD

1

THE CHILD IS FATHER TO THE MAN

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My lady, therefore, who saw that I was freed

from staring upward, said: “Cast your sight below

and see how wide a circle you have traveled.”

—Paradiso XXVII:76–78

How Family and Place Shape a Life

Florence has the Arno; Starhill has the Mississippi. Aside from that, the fields and orchards of the rural Louisiana settlement where my family has lived for five generations is about as far from the Tuscan capital as any place in the Western world.

This is the story of that place, and of two men who grew up there and whose lives have been defined by its traditions: my father and me.

Ours is a southern family, and that means one steeped in history and tradition, especially among the men. My father, Ray Oliver Dreher, named his only son after himself; he and my mother, Dorothy, called me “Rod,” after my initials. Daddy wanted nothing more in this world than a son, a vessel into which he could pour all his considerable knowledge.

If there was something about the parish of West Feliciana—in Louisiana, counties are called parishes—that Ray Dreher did not know, it was probably not worth knowing. He had grown up in Starhill during the Depression in a cabin he shared with his mother, grandmother, and older brother, Murphy junior. Their father, Murphy senior, was on the road for much of Daddy’s childhood, working on highway construction crews throughout the state to send what he could back home to his young family. The Dreher boys raised livestock to keep the family fed, but some lean nights, if they hadn’t shot squirrels with their air rifles that afternoon, there was no meat in the pot.

My father never told these stories to me as a recollection of misery. To the contrary, these memories were dear to him. Daddy learned about his world through his family and through the land—woods and ponds, swamps and fields, bayous and rivers. And he loved that land. Even before he was old enough to drive, he bought a patch of Starhill farmland and a tractor and began to till the soil. This was Ray Dreher’s land, and the land was Ray Dreher. He was a high school football star, a raiser of 4-H Club champion steers, an accomplished deer hunter, and a self-taught mechanic who applied his powerful intelligence to fixing anything. He believed there was nothing he could not conquer with sufficient force of will.

Perhaps he learned that from his mother. Raising two boys and caring for a mother-in-law in rural poverty, without a husband at home, was not easy for Lorena. The Dreher boys fought constantly. Ray was younger, but barrel-chested and strong. Murphy was skinny and clever. Unable to stop their backyard scrapping, Lorena gave her boys boxing gloves one Christmas in the hope that they wouldn’t hurt each other too severely.

Murphy junior almost always started the fights; he teased the combustible Ray constantly. Ray came to think of his brother as a wily trickster who lived by his wits. But in the schoolyard, whenever Murphy junior got in a fight, even though he usually started them himself, Ray always joined the scrum in defense of his brother.

When he would tell me these stories as a boy, I couldn’t make sense of them. “Why did you fight for him?” I would ask. “He started it. And he was mean to you at home.”

“Honey, that’s what family does,” he would respond, as if I had wanted to know why water ran downhill. No matter how they treat you or you treat them, loyalty to family is the natural law.

Ray Dreher was intelligent, but he was not a scholar. He hated books, and hated to be indoors at all. He preferred to work with his hands. In the 1950s he went to Louisiana State University on the GI Bill because his mother wanted him to be the first in their family to earn a college degree. Every weekend he made the thirty-mile journey north from Baton Rouge to get back to Starhill and his land.

When he graduated, Ray came home to Starhill and began working as a state health inspector. In a rural parish like West Feliciana, that meant that he had the opportunity to help a number of poor country people bring running water into their houses. He knew all the back roads of the parish, and most of the people who lived on them. During deer season, he would take his rifle and head with his buddies into the Fancy Point swamp, along the banks of the Mississippi. When he married my mother, Dorothy, in 1964, she, like many West Feliciana women of her generation, had to accept that for weekends in the late fall and early winter, she would lose her husband to the hunting camp. That was just the way it was; the idea that anything could or should be different was scarcely conceivable.

I tell you all this because Ray Dreher brought into this world a lone son, an heir to his kingdom who was ambivalent at best about the role tradition assigned to him. I was a bookish child who preferred to get lost in my storybooks instead of the swamp. My father has said many times that he did not know how to deal with me. Most boys in the rural South could only dream of having a father like mine, one who loved sports, hunting, and fishing, who knew how to build anything, and who was loving. His father had been on the road for much of his childhood and emotionally distant when he was at home. Daddy was determined to give his son the paternal love and attention he had been denied.

When I was a boy, very little mattered as much to me as making Daddy proud. I loved my mother, but I worshiped my father. He was the center of our family’s life, and for my sister and me, he was the center of the universe. He was the sun around which Mama, my sister, Ruthie, and I orbited, and this too was a natural law of our family.

This was much easier for my sister to accept than for me. She was just like Daddy. Alas, I was a weird little kid, and Ray Dreher was not built for weird.

Before I started kindergarten, I had a habit of naming myself after characters in my favorite books. For the longest time, I would only answer to “Pedro,” the name of a burro in one of those books. My father finally had enough of this nonsense and asked me where he could find the little boy Rod that he and Mama had brought home from the hospital.

“He’s in the top of the sweet olive tree at Loisie and Mossie’s,” I said.

Daddy marched me through the pecan orchard to the antebellum cottage where Aunt Lois Simmons and her widowed sister, Aunt Hilda Moss, lived in retirement. They were ancient, wise, and well traveled: both had been born in Starhill in the final decade of the nineteenth century but had served as Red Cross nurses in France during the Great War and had lived cosmopolitan lives before returning to the country for their final years. I loved them both.

Neither woman had children, but they were revered as matriarchs of the clan. Daddy had a special affection for Loisie, who had financed his boyhood 4-H Club trips and shown him something of the world outside West Feliciana.

I adored them because they doted on their eccentric great-grandnephew and taught me about art, books, and European travel. I would sit on their red leather couch under three framed first-edition Audubon prints, reading the daily newspaper and listening to them explain faraway places—Paris, Dijon, Moscow, Tegucigalpa, New Orleans—and people with strange names like Brezhnev and Kissinger.

Daddy, on the other hand, would stand in the woods and try to teach me how to recognize the presence of a whitetail buck by antler rubbings on a sapling. But my mind was perpetually lost on the Western Front, on Esplanade Avenue in New Orleans, or in any number of magical places I visited every time I walked through the door of the old aunts’ tin-roofed cottage, nestled under the protecting canopy of a pink-blossomed Chinese rain tree. Daddy thought they were making a sissified bookworm out of me, and he fretted greatly over this.

On the afternoon Pedro was to meet his doom, Loisie and Mossie watched from their front porch as Ray stood under the sweet olive tree with me, trying to make the four-year-old kid see reality. Daddy pointed to the crown of the fragrant tree and told me to observe that no one was there.

“Rod!” I called out. “Ro-o-o-d! Come down!” Finally I said, “Daddy, he’s not coming.”

“Keep calling.”

I kept calling. At last I walked over to the base of the tree and started shaking it, trying to loosen Rod’s grip on the upper branches. My father’s face turned as fiery red as his hair. The old aunts tittered. He grabbed me by the arm and said gruffly, “Come on, we’re going home.”

In my family, that story became a legendary example of how vexing it was for Ray to deal with me. I laughed at it too for many years. And then decades later, from the bottom of my depression, I saw it in a different light. It appeared to me as a story in which my father tried with disproportionate vigor to compel me to see the world his way.

There has never been a time in my life when I have not acutely felt that I was disappointing my father. Something mysterious was turning in my depths during the Pedro era. I did a finger painting titled “For My Daddy” and signed it “Pedro.” It is dark and turbulent. My father pinned it to his bulletin board at work, where his boss, a physician with the state health department, spotted it on one of his periodic visits.

“It looks like someone lost in the woods at night, trying to find the light,” he told Daddy, and suggested taking me to a child psychiatrist. My parents did as they were told, but the visit was inconclusive. When he asked, I told the shrink that the painting was so dark because I had run out of bright colors. That’s the story my parents tell, and maybe it is true, but when I look at the painting today, I find that explanation implausible.

Fortunately for my father, Ruthie, who was born two years after me, was the son he never had. She was a strawberry-blond tomboy, a country girl who loved all the country things and, more than anything, being with her daddy. Before she was out of diapers, Ruthie would go with Daddy to mend fences in the pastures behind our place; I would stay home with my head in a book, or hide out talking with Loisie and Mossie. Ruthie excelled at sports; I floundered. Ruthie loved being with the men skinning buck deer after the hunt and poking through an animal’s guts to learn how its digestive system worked; I, with my queasy stomach and tender heart toward animals, couldn’t take it.

We were both straight-A students, but Ruthie earned her grades through hard work and grit; academics came much more easily for me. Ruthie was socially at ease and friends with everyone; I was anxious and insecure. When we were teenagers, Ruthie was all about cowboy boots and Hank Williams Jr., while I was into thrift-store paisley shirts and the Talking Heads. You see where this is going.

Despite those fault lines, ours was a close family. Mama, ever the conciliator, never played favorites. Daddy tried not to, though his personality was so strong he could not easily conceal his preferences. Our family had peace whenever our wills were aligned with Daddy’s. This was fairly easy to do, because he showered Ruthie and me with so much love and care that we wanted to do as he expected.

When I’m working till late in the evening on a deadline and hear myself telling my children no, I can’t play a game with them because I’m busy, I think of how Ruthie and I never heard that kind of thing from our dad. He built a pond on our place, and on the weekends he took us fishing there. There wasn’t a ball game of ours he missed (often he was coaching). “Hey, podna, get your glove,” he would say to me, and we would go into the backyard and toss the baseball for an hour or so.

Cooking, cleaning, and managing the household were Mama’s realm; Daddy took care of everything outside the house and on the farm. Mama drove a school bus, and no matter how cold or rainy it was outside, Daddy was awake early to get the bus warmed up, and on some mornings he’d heat buttered honey buns for Ruthie and me to eat when we padded into the kitchen.

We had wood in our fireplace because Daddy chopped it. When things broke around the house, Daddy fixed them, and he did repair work for other family members too. One gray winter day, he hung on a ladder out over the bayou, fixing a cracked water pipe for his mother and father. Daddy had told them to drip the line, but they forgot. It didn’t matter; Ray would fix it. There didn’t seem to be anything my father could not do, or would not do to help others.

When I think of the greatest gift he gave to my sister and me, I remember the many nights we would clamber into his lap as he sat in his Naugahyde-covered recliner just before bedtime. We would each claim a shoulder and snuggle close, the aroma of black coffee and tobacco and sweat from the labors of the day strong on him. He would ask us about our days, tell us about his, and talk to us about right and wrong. There was no worry we could not bring to him and no dilemma he could not resolve.

I swear Ruthie and I thought he held the world up on his big, broad shoulders. In Daddy’s arms, Ruthie and I felt safe, loved, and at home in the world.

Unsurprisingly, Ruthie and I fought a lot, and like Murphy junior a generation earlier, I was almost always the instigator. Ruthie had a sweet nature but a hot temper, and I knew exactly which buttons to push to get a reaction. She was a smart girl, but her gifts were in mathematics and science, not the language arts. I was a clever rascal and could tie Ruthie up in knots with my teasing. The goal was to make her so mad she balled up her fat little fists and lit into me. I was bigger than she was and would curl up on the ground and absorb her blows, laughing the whole time—which only made her angrier.

These incidents brought forth from my father the Murphy-and-him fight stories, the telling of which always ended with a warning that we ought to show each other more love than that. He was right, of course, but our sibling rivalry didn’t break our family’s unity; the tumult of my teenage years did that.

I was not a bad kid, just a peculiar one by the narrow standards of my outdoorsy family. To my father, that was a distinction without a difference. The world of books and the imagination was more important to me than the mundane world I actually inhabited. On Sunday afternoons in the late fall, Daddy would load the family in the car and cruise the country back roads looking for deer. “Get your head out of that book,” he would inevitably bark at me in the back seat.

To him, preferring the world of ideas to the natural world was no mere aberration on my part. It was personal, and constituted a failure to love. If I loved as I ought to love, I would desire the things he desired.

I cannot recall what issues began the cold war between my father and me, but these clashes were always fundamentally about the same thing: that I was not like him. We had intense arguments in which I would disagree with him about something—usually matters of politics, history, culture, or religion—and he would accuse me of calling him a liar.

“I’m not calling you a liar,” I would say. “I’m just disagreeing with you. This is not a matter of factual truth; it’s a matter of opinion.”

He couldn’t grasp this concept. I remember standing in the living room during one angry exchange, his face as tigh...