I. Of pathways, both straight and winding
Turning Points (1)
Back then, they called me Baldy â lice infestation had cost me my hair. There were five of us. The other boy was alone. His lanky figure was easily discernible in the darkness. He was coming from the direction of the church of St. Nikolai â the venue for the afternoon market â and took the short-cut through the park. That was his mistake. He was wearing sandals, swinging his fabric bag back and forth as he walked, and looked rather cheerful. Then he stopped, noticed our menacing group, and considered running for it. But the boys were already upon him and he went to the ground. He covered his face with his elbows, tried gaspingly to call for help, his bottom lip was split open. He whimpered, loudly at first, then more quietly and increasingly fearfully. I was stood to the side, staring into the darkness, and felt â nothing. What we took from him was hardly worth talking about: just a few coins. For that, we rewarded him with a few extra kicks. He remained on the ground whimpering as we ran off.
That was in Göttingen in 1953. At the time it had not been clear to me that my life could not go on like that. It wasnât the only mugging I was involved in. I was merely 12 years old, an emotionally neglected and desolate child in search of attention and appreciation.
Childhood in the transition from war to peace
Today, memories of my childhood during the wartime years remain tranquil and idyllic, even though we were bombed out in Berlin three times. My father was an ardent national socialist and economist who pursued a successful career in the propaganda ministry (one of his colleagues in the ministry, and a family friend, was the later Federal Chancellor Kurt Georg Kiesinger). As late as March 1945, my father volunteered to serve on the Eastern front. My mother was later informed that he had run into the Russiansâ hail of bullets. Like many children of my generation, I grew up without a father.
After the war, my mother lived with my brother and me in Berlin in a small flat in the Prenzlauer Berg neighbourhood. The house had been badly damaged by the bombing runs, many window panes were missing, and at night I could see the stars and the moon from my bed. Firewood and briquettes were always in short supply, and I was always hungry. On the streets, wood was traded for potato peels, and I pilfered briquettes and coals from moving handcarts.
We often sought refuge at my grandmotherâs house on a manor near Buckow in the MĂ€rkische Schweiz region, roughly fifty kilometres east of Berlin. Green fields, gentle hills â it was a beautiful and peaceful world. Back then, I did not understand why all women, young and old, were brought into barns and cellars during the nights to hide them from the Russians. By day, the Russian soldiers were my friends â we roared across the fields and meadows in their T-34 tanks.
In 1948, my mother decided that something had to change. My grandfather was living with his second wife in Göttingen â a cosy and intact world compared to Berlin: barely any war damage, stable supply conditions, and a more gracious and merciful occupation force. My grandfather told my mother that he would take one of her boys in.
Flight to the West
In March 1948, my mother brought me to the zonal border in Thuringia, where I was handed over to paid escape helpers. âBe a brave boy, youâll be fine!â, she said. Then she was gone.
Late in the evening, the freezing cold westward march through the Harz began. I was carrying but a small backpack containing the essentials, and a man said: âThis way, always keep up!â. Our column of maybe twenty people marched through seemingly endless hilly forests. The ground was mushy. I was frozen solid; my fingers were stiff from the cold. I had no idea where Göttingen was, nor where the Soviet zone ended. All I could see was the person in front of me with his small leather suitcase. âJust keep up with him, donât lose him, then youâll get there eventuallyâ, I reassured myself.
Dogs were barking behind us, we heard shots being fired somewhere. I could barely see my hand in front of my face and started to panic whenever I lost sight of that small suitcase. I canât remember how long we marched. Eventually it became light again.
My grandfather and step-grandmother, I referred to her as Aunt Gustchen, gave me a warm welcome at our agreed meeting place on the border. We drove into the historical city centre of Göttingen, NikolaistraĂe 21. Intact houses everywhere, no bombing damage to be seen. The flat was heated, I got my own room, and there was more than enough to eat.
However, that first impression was deceiving. Aunt Gustchen was strict and dismissive of me. My grandfather always seemed to be sad â likely a consequence of the war â and allowed his wife to incessantly boss him around. Their relationship was cold and marked by lovelessness. I soon felt that, to them, my presence was more burdensome than enriching.
I was alone, trapped in a life with old people who were foreign to me. Still I never reproached my mother for giving me away. A war widow in post-war East Berlin with two adolescent boys, she was constantly overburdened and acted out of existential necessity.
Alone in an alien land
My relationship with my grandfather and his wife continuously deteriorated. I was rebellious, unable to accept him as a person of authority. At the same time, again and again I felt that Aunt Gustchen treated me unfairly.
To this day, I still vividly recall an occasion one April 26th, the day on which both my grandfather and I shared our birthdays. It was early in the morning, the old man was sat in his armchair, and Aunt Gustchen said: âBernie, congratulate your grandfather right now!â. I replied: âNo, I wonât! Itâs my birthday today! My birthday!â. What has also stuck in my mind to this day is the martinet â a wooden handle with seven long leather lashes â that Aunt Gustchen used to whip my naked backside over and over again whenever I disobeyed her.
The attention and appreciation that I was denied at home I sought and found on the streets. At age eleven I joined a gang of youths whose fathers had not returned home from the war. The oldest were sixteen or seventeen years old, I was the youngest by far. I was full of admiration for the gang leader, a tall, authoritarian lad who spoke a clear language and who stopped at nothing. He made me feel like I was his friend.
Years later, I read in the newspaper that in the 1950s in Göttingen, the first rockers had assaulted harmless pensioners in the park armed with chains and brass knuckles, and realized that we had been the precursors of these rockers.
At the time, we saw ourselves as a clique that wandered the historical city centre of Göttingen. The criminal energy that developed in our group little by little was not a consequence of material deprivation. After all, all of the boys came from middle class backgrounds. It was rather an expression of fatherlessness and the general crisis of authority after the war. At first, we shoplifted in stores or on the market, later we robbed and burgled. Being the youngest, I usually stood on the street and kept lookout while the others burgled homes and subsequently split the loot among themselves.
I had no say in anything and never got a share of the swag. However, I was one of them and was allowed to be there whenever the boys carried out their deeds. And that was all that really mattered to me anyway. I found a sense of belonging, felt solidarity, could put myself to the test, received praise, appreciation, and also criticism. In order to impress my peers, I started stealing from my grandparents and splitting the loot with the others on the streets. I would sometimes borrow large illustrated books and pictorials from the city library and cut the pictures and photos out. Of course, I knew that I would get into trouble for it â but it was a form of protest and revolt that was obviously important to me.
In hindsight, one might be able to say: so what? Life was haywire anyway. Back then, most people will probably have experienced lovelessness or are likely to have stolen something. During wartimes and in the years that follow them, almost all people commit terrible crimes. And besides, in the end, I actually made something of myself.
While all of this might be true, I know now that my fate had not been in my hands. I just got lucky. I was inches away from sliding further and further off the rails. Back then, I had no-one in my life who could have had a positive and reassuring influence on me.
At school, I slipped further and further into the role of the outsider. I skipped school, got bad grades, and felt like a failure. Soon, the teachers, too, viewed me as a difficult pupil who could not be reached.
A social worker from the youth welfare services visited our home several times, and eventually she wanted to shuffle me off to a care home for difficult youngsters. âIt cannot go on like thisâ, she said, âsomeone needs to teach this boy some boundaries!â. I was standing right next to her, my grandfather said nothing, Aunt Gustchen nodded. I thought about the martinet, and just wanted to get away.
Nowadays, the things that transpired in such institutions are common knowledge. Discipline, order, beatings, and sexual abuse were the order of the day. Children were to be broken. I cannot imagine the impact that such injurious experiences would have had on my personality and on my life. Later on, I met many people who had to endure such educational or corrective measures. Their emotional wounds were often still far from healed, and at the very least they bore painful scars for the rest of their lives.
My salvation
And then, something like a miracle occurred. It was July of 1953, the last day of school before summer break. I was seated in the very back row of the classroom, indifferent as ever. Suddenly the door to the classroom opened. A beautiful young blonde woman entered. âIs Bernd Maelicke here?â, she asked the teacher, her gaze wandering the rows of young faces.
Before she even noticed me, I jumped up, ran to the front, and fell into my motherâs arms. She wanted me back! Words cannot describe how happy I was.
Everything changed from that moment onwards. In the meantime, my mother had remarried and moved to Lake Constance with my brother. We drove there on the very same day. Despite my catastrophic report cards, she had somehow managed to enrol me in the 5th grade of Singen grammar school. This marked the beginning of a new era for me. I could reinvent myself. I was two years older than my classmates, knew the âbig wide worldâ, and spoke perfect High German. My scholastic performance promptly improved, I was soon appointed class spokesperson, and had real friends without criminal interests.
Returning to my mother was the pivotal turning point in my life. In criminological recidivism and desistence research, âturning pointsâ are life-changing experiences that can completely change a personâs orientation, direction, and trajectory.
Today I am certain that returning to my mother, and the new life that came with it, saved me from prison. Without this fortunate twist, my chances of leading a fulfilled and crime-free life would have been minimal. For that, I remain thankful to her to this day.
I have met many people in the course of my life who have not been as fortunate as I was back then. People who have not experienced such turning points, people who no-one saved. People who saw no alternative for themselves other than deviant behaviour.
Does their misfortune excuse their crimes? Of course not. But at the same time, punishing and thus marginalizing people is always the easy route. Doing so contributes nothing to their rehabilitation. Showing them a more promising route and actually helping them navigate it might be more arduous, but it is well worth it â for victims whose victimization is avoidable, for potential offenders, and for society as a whole.
Becoming a criminal
Evil is all around us, always
Letâs assume a violent offender breaks out of prison. Lots of time went into planning his perfectly organized escape. He is now on the run.
Public reactions to such a scenario are always the same: the papers print alarming articles; television broadcasters report live from the scene. Mugshots are distributed along with a notice that the offender could be dangerous and is possibly armed. The gutter press asks the typical questions: how could this happen? Why canât the justice system guarantee our safety? First calls for the state minister of justice to resign are voiced. Concerned citizens ask themselves whether the escapee might already be in their street, even in their front yard. They compare the mugshots with the faces of the people queuing behind them at the supermarket check-out. They double-check whether their front door is locked before they go to bed at night. They demand more walls, more barbed wire, and stricter controls and monitoring by correctional officers.
While such reactions are understandable, they are even more irrational, because the heights to which the security standards in prisons are escalated are essentially irrelevant â 96 per cent of all prisoners will someday be released from prison, either after having served their sentence in full, or after being granted early release.
There are currently around 63,000 prisoners in the 180 prisons in Germany. Roughly 48,000 are convicted offenders serving sentence, while the remainder are in secure pre-trial detention. There are only around 3,600 women prisoners, which is why this book largely focuses on the prison system for males. Women who offend require a gender-specific approach, one that was, for example, presented in 1995 by Hannelore Maelicke titled âIs the imprisonment of women a manâs business?â (German: Ist Frauenstrafvollzug MĂ€nnersache?).
Roughly 4,000 persons are being held in youth detention centres, around 2,100 are in socio-therapeutic institutions or wards, and about 500 are in preventive detention (German: Sicherungsverwahrung). About 40 per cent are serving sentences of up to one year (half of them shorter than six months), while almost 7 per cent are imprisoned as a substitute penalty for failing to pay a financial penalty (German: Ersatzfreiheitsstrafe). About 83 per cent of prisoners are in closed enforcement settings, while 17 per cent are serving sentence in âopenâ, i. e. less severe, more ârelaxedâ enforcement regimes. This latter figure shows a great deal of variation between the different federal states, ranging from 5 to more than 30 per cent. Only a very small minority of prisoners, currently about 2,500, is serving life sentences.
About 50,000 people are released from German prisons each year, which corresponds to the population of a city like Passau. There are currently around 800,000 released prisoners living right among us. These releasees become neighbours, workmates, club colleagues, and customers in shopping centres, but also homeless...