Twenty Six Years an Addict

1985 - 2011

Ricky Cooks

• Publisher: Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.
• Year: 2020
• Print ISBN:
  9781098033651
• eBook ISBN:
  9781098033668
• Topic: Literature
• Subtopic: Religious Poetry
• Index: Literature

If you had met me or had any type of relationship with me in the years from 1985 to 2011, you really never knew me. You only encountered a façade covering the residue of what I used to be and were witness to the onset of my withdrawal from reality. My life goals and accomplishments were becoming meaningless. They were dissipating into a cloud of smoke coming from the end of a pipe that was never satisfied as it consumed my life.After recognizing my plight and realizing the finality of the dilemma I was in, I cried out to Jesus. About one month later (January 1, 2012, 12: 30 a.m.), my eyes were opened. I was led away from darkness to light. I changed from a fornicating crack smoker (I had incorporated drug use and sex into a single act) to a celibate and sober man with a hunger for the truth. On that same day (January 1, 2012, 1: 30 p.m.), I entered into Mama Delta's Love House.I have thrown away years of my life and I would like to help others from making and/or maintaining the same mistakes by sharing my feelings, situations, confrontations, and resolutions. I pray that I can make a positive impact on those who have become entangled in one or more of Satan's devices that are designed to draw us away from the divine light of God into eternal darkness. He who created us without our help will not save us without our consent.

On The Lighter Side

I Can’t Wait (to Do It Again)

I couldn’t wait to get my first job

I couldn’t wait for that first paycheck

I couldn’t wait to be out on my own

It’s only money, what the heck

I couldn’t wait to wear my new suit

I couldn’t wait to party all night

I couldn’t wait to try to remember

“Did I do anything wrong? Did I do everything right?”

I couldn’t wait to meet that woman

I couldn’t wait to go on that date

“Go with you to church tomorrow?

Sorry, Mom, that will have to wait.”

I couldn’t wait to buy my first car

I couldn’t wait to find my own place

“Give you a ride to church tomorrow?

Sorry, Mom, I’m not going that way.”

I couldn’t wait to try one of those pills

I couldn’t wait to try some of that crack

I couldn’t wait for the weekend thrills

On Monday I couldn’t wait to get back

I couldn’t wait to hit rock bottom

I couldn’t wait to meet my fate

That downhill slide was not a pleasant ride

I didn’t want to do it, but I just couldn’t wait

The things that I cherish were no longer there

I lost them during my fall

I called out to the Lord in my despair

And Jesus answered my call

Now I’m in this spiritual house

My priorities are being rearranged

I didn’t realize what I was asking for

When I cried out to God for a change

This praying and fasting is making me wait

I can’t wait to get out of here

I’m as broke as a joke, my reputation is at stake

I can’t wait to get a blunt and some beer.

Ms. Jackie, Ms. Jackie, Let Me In

Ms. Jackie opened up her door

Have a meal, rest your head, and there’s more

You can’t put a price on things that are nice

That God has predestined from before

Open your ears and open your eyes

Keep your focus on the prize

With your mind full of sod it becomes easy to lose God

And pick at your neighbor who you despise

“Be at peace, be at one

It’s alright for now but this ain’t no fun

I aint gettin’ nowhere and its poppin’ out there

A little while longer then I gotta run.”

“Well, Ms. Jackie, I ain’t no hatter

But things out there are starting to look greater.

I got a woman and a car and I plan to go f...

Table of contents

• My Personal Experiences
• Maintaining Salvation
• Apologies
• Devotion
• On The Lighter Side
• Smoking
• The End