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Felix Callahan sat on the rusted exercise bike, naked. He had hung up his dripping clothes bachelor-style and they were drying against the opposite wall. As they stiffened they dripped a line of dots onto the dirt floor below. Old men pedal slowly, but with each turn of the coiled copper wheel the light bulb above him shimmered brighter and cast a wavering halo on the ceiling, a small, insistent glow against the dark. āJesus bids us shine,ā Felix told himself. āYessir, He does.ā
Over his head was the shack proper, laid out like many a single manās lodgings ā part bar, part mausoleum ā but here in the room below was where Felix did his best work. The light played over the piles of books on the floor, the bronze instruments on the makeshift desks, and the ancient Califone tape player settled on a cardboard fruit box. When Felix finally climbed down, his withered thighs shaking, heād charged the swollen eighteen-volt car battery enough for forty minutes of power, maybe an hour. It would have to do.
He limped over to fetch a cracked glass from a crate. Felix liked things nice. He set the tumbler on the table and filled it halfway with a brown liquor that looked like cough mixture and tasted worse. It made his eyes water but ā goddamn! ā it sure woke you up.
He turned, his skinny shanks flexing, and opened a drawer. The rusted Llama Danton was under a stack of maps, some printed, most hand-drawn. He nodded a greeting to the gun and laid it carefully on the table next to the bottle. He sat in the better of the chairs, and behind him the tape player waited like a patient on a drip, connected to the battery with wire interrupted by nodes of brittle duct tape.
Felix needed to get his head straight. Two days ago heād been out looking for chickadee eggs when a woman stumbled past him, calling for her dog, Pavlov. Felix had stayed hidden in the fescue and watched her go. Sheād caught something bad. Brain viruses started with dementia and only went one way. He was willing to bet there was no dog. Maybe there never had been. But she thought there was, and that was what counted.
When he was sure the woman had gone, Felix came out, rubbing the small of his creaking back. He could handle most of the viruses. There was something comfortingly medieval about the boils and rashes, and they ended pretty quick, anyway. It was the speed at which the sicknesses ate their hosts that freaked him out. Renard had engineered that, Felix thought. He was the kind of asshole who would want results. Old-time viruses had taken a couple of days to incubate, but the ones that had started blowing in after The War were different. And Renard had had time to observe disease, Felix supposed. All that time up north, watching and learning as the president gave him his head ā and all the laboratory equipment he needed. That was the kind of man that made Felix afraid: one who hadnāt been bad at the outset, but found that he liked the power ā the kind that would poison someone, take notes as they died, and call it science. Like Pavlov, now that he thought about it.
But the kind of crazy that came with lonely was what spooked Felix, because you couldnāt fight that. Dog Lady had once had a family, hadnāt she? A place people knew her name, somewhere to bunk, a husband, maybe, or a wife ā Felix wasnāt inclined to judge, and even the fur traders had a right to live. The War had wiped out all of those pernickety permutations. And, really, what was there to hang onto now, if you were the only one left? Survival was fine, but Felix thought that a man needed a purpose. And a purpose went hand in hand with community. āLove and service,ā he said softly. Take that away, and the mind went with it. How did you hold on to your sanity? It wasnāt enough that he had set up the weather boxes, though that sure as fuck filled his days. The longing had gnawed at him for a long time, and soon after that heād wired the car battery to the exercise bike.
Heād laid his story down on tape, everything he figured worth knowing, in two thirty-minute segments. One for each side, like the North and South. And when someone like Dog Lady wandered past and rattled his cage, heād sit down and listen to the tape. He promised himself that if the voice on the tape began to sound like someone else, or began to talk about things he didnāt recall, heād pick up the pistol and eat it. And he would not think too hard before he did it.
The speaker in the tape player was gone, taken long before Felix had picked it up near Hayden, stashed in a tin box in the rotting ruins of a holiday cabin, but he had found a pair of headphones in an abandoned music store days later ā pink, with a pussycat on each side. āCool cat, looking for a kitty,ā Felix sang to himself whenever he saw them. Now he fitted the headphones over his ears, running the cable over his shoulder like a tail. He took a long drink from his tumbler and leant back in his chair so he could press play on the old machine. It whirred, and his recorded voice was deep and distant, stretched out a little further each time he played the tape. He rested a hand on the gun, breathed deep and closed his eyes.
āFelix,ā his past self warned, āI hope youāve still got the balls to have that gun on the table.ā He nodded and smiled.
āOkay. Here we go. My name is Felix Callahan, but you know that, donāt you? I was born in Norman, Oklahoma, back when it was still a place.ā Felix had done the math. Heād kept track of his birthdays as best he could, adding another year to his tally each fall when the buckeyes turned orange. He figured there wasnāt a lot left to celebrate, so they were important ā a reason to save up rations, a night to get drunk. He poured himself another drink and raised the glass in the gloom: āHad more than my three score and ten, so amen to that. Seventy-nine shitty birthdays ā give or take a few of those times I was laid so low I didnāt see the seasons changing.ā He downed the drink and went back to listening to his younger voice and the mystery of his old life.
āI had older brothers, once upon a time, and a mother and a father, the way it ought to be. I was the youngest by far. Not remembering it much probably means it was pretty smooth. There was milkshake vomit in footwells ā that I remember ā and broken arms from trampolines, and crackers in turds. The usual.
āThe War was where it all went wrong. Hitlerās war, though thatās not saying much, is it? I mean the Second World War. I remember the feeling at the end there, of the narrow escape we had all had, the West. When I heard about how my older brothers had stormed ashore and saved the Allied asses ā that there was the first unpicked stitch that turned into the unraveling of civilization. Our corner of the quilt, anyhow. My brothers re-enacted those war scenes when they came home, like it was a game, gunfire coming from the hills: gack-gack-gack. Afterwards, when the show was done, there was always a silence when you were supposed to remember the soldiers who had died. It made me feel like Clark Kent, when he takes off his glasses, you know? America was invincible if young men would die before letting it fall apart. Thatās what I believed. We all did.
āBut while everyone was slapping backs and shaking hands, the real threat was creeping up on us ā and no one took any notice. I heard about it first years later on the radio. It was playing through the window of a corner shop in downtown Manhattan, that tinny newscasterās voice, the smell of deep-fried yeast and sugar. I stopped to listen since Iād not heard news for some time. That, along with the Yankee scores, was the first I ever heard of the proposal: a Unified America. Another guy had stopped there too and both of us shook our heads and smiled.
āāSame money works here as it does in Montana and Utah and the Dakotas. Thatās as unified as it gets,ā the man said. I nodded and bought a donut and a soda like I was trying to prove the point.
āWhat was I doing all the way up there? Iām glad you asked, Future Felix. Youāre a nice guy. I ended up opening an appliance store in Greenwich Village when I was twenty. I mainly sold TVs ā installed them myself, too. There were only so many times I could hear my brothers go on about the war. They could make each other laugh or cry by saying things like, āRemember Frosty Joe?ā or, āAbbiamo surrender!ā Me, I was an outsider: too busy dirtying my diapers to fight the Germans when it all began, and by the time I was eighteen the whole damn thing was done and the carpet had been rolled up and packed away for next time.
āI had to get out of Norman. New York was the only place I knew anything about. I thought I knew it because we used to listen to Lights Out on the radio every Wednesday. Man, I loved having the bejeezus scared out of me back then! One story stuck with me ā about the ghosts of the animals from the Natural History Museum living in the sewers beneath the Empire State Building. That was where I was heading ā to stand on the sidewalk and peer in through the manhole covers, just for kicks ā when I stopped for the soda and the donut and heard about Unified America for the first time.
āSoon after that came the legislated slum clearance of Greenwich Village. The Northerners wanted parks and new buildings: rent was cheap for those brave enough to pioneer. Or dumb enough, I hear you. I bought three television sets from a store in Jersey and ferried them, one by one, to Felixās Television Emporium, clutching each set like a newborn on my lap as the Hoboken Ferry bobbed across the Hudson. Got a cat, a tuxedo, and called him Dallas because he was a cowboy. He was good for business: made people come in when they saw this fat-ass tomcat curled up in the window. Reeled them in. Whenever I sold a TV, I could buy two more. Then I made enough to afford a car and save my back from the newer sets, those motherfuckers with their twenty-pound glass screens. Twelve years I was there, and that included a failed marriage. I remember that part real good, let me tell you. But you donāt need to know all that. I still had Dallas. We sidewalk specials got to stick together.
āI didnāt pay much mind to politics until the day that a UA member was voted into the US senate. As soon as he was in, he called for a national vote on the topic of unification. I laughed at the idea. It became the new Howās-this-weather? āHowāre you gonna vote?ā Iād ask as I approached a customer, and theyād smile and say something like, āSame money works here as it does in Utah. Canāt see how much more unified we need to be.ā Then, when the customer came over to pay, Iād finish the joke by taking their money and looking at it closely, turning it over in my hands a few times and saying, āThis aināt Iowa money, is it?ā We sure yukked it up.
āThe joking stopped a few years later when there were enough Unified America supporters in the senate to force a vote. Over the December of .Ā .Ā . jeez .Ā .Ā . nineteen-something .Ā .Ā . sixty-five? Seventy-five? Shit. It all looks the same to us geriatrics. Anyhow, one December came when every American was forced to return to the state of his or her birth. Kinda like Bethlehem in the wayback, know what I mean? The population of New York halved overnight. I closed shop and took the cash from the register and waited for a taxi to take me to the airport. Iād packed my things that morning. Not much: a couple of changes of clothes, a toothbrush, a copy of The Martian Chonicles I meant to reread. Iād need to be back in the city pretty soon if I wanted to make up for the loss of the best business weeks of the year. The Jamaican lady in my building, Mrs Bishop, promised to feed Dallas.
āJFK Airport hadnāt ever seen so many people, all of them muttering about the crush and the reason for it, the waste of our time and our money. I didnāt know one person whoād voted for Unification. The moaning reinforced the feeling that weād all be back here in a fortnight, bitching about the same things, being crushed under the same armpits and shoveled through the same doors ā only in the opposite direction.
āWhen the plane took off, I didnāt even look out at the city, I was that sure Iād be back. Of course, I never was. Poor Dallasāā
Felix snatched the headphones off his head in mid-sentence, as though heād been stung by a hornet. He stood and pressed stop on the tape, listening. In the sudden silence he heard the shack above him creak, expanding its joints in the midday sun. Whenever he was down below he heard the ghosts walking overhead. He couldnāt count the number of times heād climbed up to peep out and found nothing. He was getting that creepy-crawly feeling again now, but he could talk himself out of it. Today the tapes had made him paranoid, the unquiet eye of a gathering storm. Some days they were a comfort; some days they were a torture. Felix wasnāt sure what was worse ā knowing that everyone you loved was gone, or knowing that they were still circling in some less than friendly form. He shivered. He needed to lay down. This was the time he missed Dallas the most ā the furry warmth in the darkness, solid and familiar, even though the cat had been surrendered to history. Somewhere his small bones were littered, from the teeth in his clean skull to the bones of his tail.
Felix went over to his bunk and stretched himself out. Imagine if he was out there now, stumbling into the storm that was coming, calling, āDallas! Dallas! Where are you, boy?ā Heād shit his pants if anything came out of the trees to answer his call.
2
The two brothers fled through the mesquite and along the valley ridge. Some way behind them came the Callahans, stocked with rifles and rage and vengeance.
Garrett thought that he ought to be used to it by now, it being a week since Bethlehem Callahan had given up her thin ghost, but he wasnāt. Some part of his mind was back there with Bethie, watching, hidden, as she lay dying, and maybe it always would be. He pictured her egg-yellow soul coughed up out of her chest and into the wind, where it would join the rest of the dead as they swooped over the living left behind on the Colorado plateau.
Dyce watched his brother side-on but knew better than to say anything. At least they were making good time, not running, exactly, but moving fast, following the course of the Yampa River and zig-zagging over the places where they would leave heavy tracks. The morning had been fair and, anyhow, they could take a couple of rain showers and keep going as long as the chafing wasnāt too rough. The jeans theyād traded in Glenwood Camp had been a bad idea and the boys had swapped them some days back. Now they hiked in cargo pants like an advert from the adventure catalogue theyād used for fuel ā one where the dudes were outdoors because they chose to be, not because they were being chased across the country by lunatics.
It was only the wind that slowed the boys down, because then they had to find shelter until it died. No one was crazy enough to be outside when there was a chance of new viruses blowing in ā crazy, or suicidal.
The stopping didnāt hurt their escape much: if they were hunkering down someplace then the Callahans were doing the same. Stopped like a paused TV, Dyce thought, reruns of the Road Runner and Coyote in a rictus till the dogs stopped their barking outside and Garrett pressed play again.
Dyce had learnt to feel the windās slow rising in his sinuses, a primitive thickening between the eyes as the air pressure changed and the cells responded, as if he were regressing: now man, then amphibian, reduced at last to bacteria, ready to start the cycle all over.
He was grateful that no one traveled at night. That was one quick way to meet your maker, and it could be something simple, too, something laughable and deadly at the same time ā a missed turning, a wayward root, a blind fumbling for a place to shelter from a sudden gust, a rabid field mouse striped with panic.
The boys checked each other a couple of times a day without knowing they did it. Their ears had become attuned to the cough that turned wet, the sneeze that propelled a virus six feet through the air to the next carrier. So far, so good. Dyce laughed at himself. Being pursued like cowboys in an old-time Western, and all he could think was that he wasnāt sick yet. God darn, boy! You git goinā and donā stop till you hit the Klondike! Garrett looked at him funny, and Dyce sobered up.
āāMember that time Dad took us to that cave up Salida way?ā
Garrett nodded, saving his breath. It was hard to forget. Turned out to be the last road trip theyād all take together before he died, before even the dregs of gas ran dry and folks left their cars abandoned on the roadside ā the American Dream scoured for cloth and stuffing and engine oil and radiator water that turned out to be bitter with standing. Any color, Henry Ford had said. Any color as long as itās black.
The rock face had looked close enough until they were all out in the dust, treading the soft shale. Dyce had on his Batman pajama top, Garrett remembered that, a size too small already, and that their father offered to carry their backpacks even though he was sick by then. Proper s...