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Forgiveness
The path to emancipatory hope for black/white mixed-race young women as well as all African-descended women and girls begins with forgiving those who have hurt them. Forgiveness is a process freely engaged in by individuals and communities to âmove away from the overwhelming power of an experience of hurt or an injustice.â Forgiveness requires that one holds persons accountable for hurtful and unjust actions that include abuse, disloyalty, betrayal, and unfaithfulness. Such betrayal occurs among friends, coworkers in religious and secular institutions, in marriage relationships, among siblings, and among parents and their children. Those most intimately connected are particularly hurt by betrayal, and most in need of forgiveness. Pastoral theologian Joretta Marshall describes forgiveness as yielding liberation from bondage that allows one to live into a new relationship. She writes:
A disrupted relationship that causes âintentional or unintentional pain, injury, trauma or injusticeâ signals the need for forgiveness. We are created to relate human-to-human and human-to-divine. Relationality makes us human. When a relationship, a core aspect of our humanity, is fractured the natural inclination is to find ways to gather together the pieces of the fractured self, and this process of reconstitution begins with forgiveness.
In his instructions on prayer, the writer of the Gospel of Matthew indicates the importance of this relationality and the reciprocal nature of forgiveness for humankind. When we pray we are to say, âForgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtorsâ (Matt 6:12). This instruction comes with clarifying conditions in verses 14 and 15: âFor if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you; but if you do not forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.â The failure to forgive in the human-to-human relationship jeopardizes the human-to-divine relationship with God. A focus on relationality merits specific attention given its relevance for a discussion on relationships among African-descended women.
Among women of African descent, any discussion of relationships has to go beyond blood kin to include othermothering and fictive kin. Othermothering describes the action of a woman who cares for a child not biologically related to her. These two persons are fictive kin to one another, just as are any number of persons in relationship who survive by helping one another. Patricia Hill Collinsâs epistemological framework for African American women notes such an ethic of care as one of several ways of knowing among black women. The ethic of care informs the historical and theoretical understanding of âothermotheringâ in the black community. âThe concept of othermothering grew out of a survival mechanism prevalent during slavery when children and biological parents were separated at auction, and âfictive kinâ would take on mothering responsibilities for the orphaned children.â Black teachers in historically black colleges and universities as well as in predominantly white institutions of higher education have noted their practice of othermothering black students. These relationships are captured in familial terminology that usually endears the black teacher to her students. Monikers that include mom, Mama Hawk, and auntie all signal some level of othermothering between a black teacher and her college students. The practices of othermothering in the context of a college or university are mutually beneficial when they provide connectedness, fulfillment, and interethnic support and advocacy. They become harmful when boundaries are breached, teacher-student roles are confused or violated, and caring for a multiplicity of studentsâ needs leads to teacher exhaustion or âcare-sickness.â As with any relationship, othermothering practices between black teachers and their black and black/white mixed-race female students can result in overwhelming hurt if the relationship is fractured. Likewise, the practices of othermothering or fictive kin relationships among any and all African-descended women can be a tinderbox for injustice that requires forgiveness.
While intimate betrayal is typically obvious to others, institutional betrayal of groups of people can be subtle, elusiveâand covered up by the institution. The hurt caused by institutional betrayal often causes unidentified pain that is difficult to locate, difficult because the responsibility for the hurt is often shared among many persons and systems and cannot usually be attributed to a single person. Consider religious institutions that fail to create policies that protect children and women from violence and abuse in their congregations, or that have such policies but fail to enforce them. Ordinarily, women, children, and men go to church and to its many ministries expecting a safe and spiritually uplifting environment. So after, for example, a pastor rapes a teenager in that church, she is particularly traumatized; she is betrayed not only by a trusted leader but by the institution that employs and endorses him, an institution that perhaps even allows the leader to continue in his role when his crime has been revealed. So while this chapter focuses on forgiveness of intimate betrayal between mixed-race young adult women and their mothers, as you read, keep in mind also this connection between intimate and institutional betrayal, particularly betrayal by the institutional church.
Countless memoirs, poems, novels, biographies, and movies describe the powerful pain one feels from being betrayed by a friend, lover, sibling, or parent. I describe only three here, and do so only briefly: Sonia Sanchezâs Wounded in the House of a Friend, Toni Morrisonâs The Bluest Eye and Beloved, and Judith Stoneâs biography of Sandra Laing When She Was White and the movie Skin based on it. Poet and activist Sonia Sanchez describes the trauma of betrayal between a married couple in âWounded in the House of a Friend.â Sanchez suggests that when a husband betrays his wife, the wife often seeks reconciliation. Yet despite many attempts to do so, the wounded wife in Sanchezâs poem does not reconcile with her husband. Indeed, neither the husband nor the wife suggests their ultimate goal is forgiveness. Sanchez leaves the reader with the sense that betrayal in an intimate relationship can cause unspeakable pain that sometimes cannot be healed.
Toni Morrison captures the pain of betrayal that a vulnerable little girl feels when her father rapes her and her mother does not rescue her. Such was the experience of Pecola in Morrisonâs novel, The Bluest Eye. Pecolaâs drunken father, Cholly, rapes her while she is washing dishes. Chollyâs violent act of betrayal was so traumatic that Pecola passed out from the pain and shock. Morrison writes: âSo when the child regained her consciousness, she was lying on the kitchen floor under a heavy quilt, trying to connect the pain between her legs with the face of her mother looming over her.â Earlier in the novel Morrison makes it clear that Pauline, Pecolaâs mother, does not love her children or her husband but the white family, the Fishers, for whom she works. Pauline found beauty in the Fishersâ home and their praise of her service. For her part, Pecola found beauty in the blue eyes of little white dolls and she wondered how it felt to be loved and longed for like that. Desire for love and beauty is entangled in the morass of betrayal that Pecola experiences from her mother who also experiences ongoing pain from her fighting with Cholly. And Cholly also has a history of childhood pain, the result of being abandoned and abused. However, the bookâs pri...