My Seventh Life: Something Big
2001ā2004
In June 2001, I received an unusual summons. At the time I was at al-Qaedaās Tarnak Farms complex near the airport in Kandahar and was due to leave for the UK within days. The summons came from Abu Hafs al-Masri, bin Ladenās right-hand man, which made me distinctly uneasy. Did the leadership somehow suspect I was working for the British? I couldnāt imagine how, but ahead of the meeting I spent hours trying to work out whether and where I might have slipped up.
Al-Masri had a way of pursing his lips that only underscored his severity. One of the Egyptian group around bin Laden, he was not given to levity.
He was sitting behind a desk in a library that doubled as an office.
āWhen exactly are you travelling to England?ā he asked.
āIn four days,ā I replied.
He did not invite me to sit down but stared at me for a few seconds in a way that turned my stomach.
āI want you to take a message to some of our brothers,ā he said. He spelled out the four names slowly and clearly, as if I was an imbecile.
āThey must leave the country and come here before the end of August. Something big is going to happen and we expect the Americans to come to Afghanistan.ā
I failed to find words to respond as I tried to take in the enormity of what he was suggesting.
āDo not be tempted to come back to fight alongside us here. Stay in England; do not leave your post. We will contact you.ā
It was clear the meeting was over. It had lasted two minutes, but set my nerves jangling and sent my brain into overdrive. Why these four men? Why now? What was āsomething bigā?
I was not stupid enough to ask. Al-Masri was obsessive about operational secrecy. He had literally drafted a āneed-to-knowā policy and posted it prominently in the camps.
At least I was beyond suspicion; he would not hint at āsomething bigā unless he had complete confidence in me. It seemed that to al-Qaedaās leadership my ability to travel, apparently unsuspected, continued to make me a precious commodity. On several occasions I had been given letters for al-Qaeda supporters then in the UK ā letters expertly unsealed and resealed by MI6 before reaching their recipients. But this time the message was simple, verbal and direct: get out.*
I knew three of the four individuals well. One was Mohammed al-Madani, who had introduced me to Abu Qatadaās circle in London. The second was āAbu Hudhaifa al-Britaniā,** who had been in Afghanistan and knew Abu Khabab and many others within al-Qaeda. The British intelligence services had Abu Hudhaifa under surveillance but were frustrated by his expert navigation of the line between militant free speech and explicit involvement in a terrorist organization. I knew just how closely he had been involved with al-Qaeda because I had seen him in the camps, but that was hardly admissible in court.
The third was Abu Walid al-Filistini, the Palestinian cleric close to Abu Qatada who had almost blocked me from applying for a British passport.*
The weather was muggy in London when I arrived five days later. At Heathrow I noticed the news stands were full of headlines about Tony Blair, who less than two weeks previously had been re-elected for a second term as prime minister. Within hours of arriving I was ensconced in another conference room with bad coffee and a car park view.
I told Alan and Richard of the cryptic message from Abu Hafs, and about his ominous phrase: āsomething bigā.
āI donāt like the sound of that,ā said Richard. āWere there any other clues at all?ā
āIt was a two-minute conversation,ā I replied.
āWas anyone else in the camps talking about a big operation?ā Alan asked.
āNo; like I said, the words came as a shock to me.ā
āGo through it one more time,ā Richard said. āEvery tiny detail, even if they donāt seem relevant right now.ā
I repeated Abu Hafsā instructions.
There were a few moments silence.
āWeāll see what else, if anything, is being picked up and of course raise this with our colleagues across the pond,ā Richard said, referring to the Americans. āIn the meantime, go ahead and deliver the messages,ā Alan said as he closed his briefcase. āObviously, itās absolutely vital for us to know exactly how they react.ā
I never found out. When I met Mohammed al-Madani, he curtly thanked me for the message and said he would tell the others.
There were other straws in the wind. I told them munitions and other equipment were being transported from the camps to secret locations in Afghanistan and possibly into Pakistan, but I had no idea why.*
I reminded MI6 that influential figures like al-Suri were arguing that a confrontation with the Western powers was inevitable ā and that large-scale attacks, ideally with weapons of mass destruction, were necessary. The one man who might be able to deliver such weapons ā Abu Khabab al-Masri ā had relocated to a facility next door to al-Suri alongside the Qargha reservoir. I had seen them both at a sprawling Taliban base on a recent trip to the Afghan capital. Abu Khabab revealed that he had developed a final blueprint for the poison gas mubtakkar, one that could be built by someone with no more than basic training. Al-Suri had told me there was an urgent need of a fatwah permitting the use of such weapons.**
āAbu Khabab told me that Zawahiri and others in the al-Qaeda leadership were interested in the technology,ā I told Alan and Richard.**
āThatās not good,ā Alan said drily.
āNo, itās not good,ā I replied. āThe only glimmer of hope is that he wonāt hand it over to al-Qaeda for free. Heās always complaining to me about how al-Qaeda never paid him enough to train recruits.ā
āItās not much of a glimmer,ā Richard said. He doodled on a notepad for a few moments. āIs anyone missing from the camps?ā he asked.
I didnāt know ā people were moving in and out all the time. The camps were like a luggage carousel. Bags are added and taken away, but there are always bags. Their body language suggested my handlers had also heard people were on the move. But I could hardly go back. Abu Hafs al-Masri had told me to stay put; to reappear without permission would be insubordination and might, my handlers believed, provoke suspicion.
It was already abundantly clear that al-Qaeda was ready to intensify its war against the West. The previous autumn it had carried out a suicide bomb attack on the USS Cole, a naval destroyer, as it was moored in Aden, killing seventeen American sailors. Then, in late June, the Arabic television channel MBC reported bin Ladenās āpleasure with al-Qaeda leaders who were saying that the next weeks āwill witness important surprisesā and that US and Israeli interests will be targetedā.6
We all wondered about the magnitude of an event that would ābring the Americans to Afghanistanā. It suggested to us a plot of greater ambition than the bombing of the USS Cole*.
At lunchtime on 11 September 2001, I was walking along Oxford Street in London. It was a bright and breezy day, and central London was breathing again after the hordes of summer tourists.
A small crowd had gathered at a store window. It was a branch of Dixons, the electronics retailer. Curiosity slowed my pace, and, as I reached the store, a large television screen was playing on repeat an image of a plane hitting a skyscraper. Black smoke was billowing into the blue sky above.
āNew York,ā said a man, glancing in my direction. Itās a strange thing about the British that they rarely talk to strangers unless provoked by a crisis ā a snowstorm or road accident. āSeems like an airliner hit the World Trade Center,ā he continued.
This was no catastrophic accident ā rather, the most spectacular act of terror in the modern era. I knew it instinctively, and I knew it was al-Qaeda.
Immediately, my thoughts returned to Kandahar and my brief encounter with Abu Hafs al-Masri. āSomething bigā. The vague, teasing phrase reverberated in my head.
In the preceding weeks, some of the best minds in British intelligence had tried to discern what āsomething bigā might be. I myself had repeatedly gone over the meeting with Abu Hafs with my handlers, until they had extracted every last drop of informat...