Scarred

The True Story of How I Escaped NXIVM, the Cult That Bound My Life

Sarah Edmondson, Kristine Gasbarre

• Publisher: Chronicle Prism
• Year: 2019
• Print ISBN: 9781452184265
• eBook ISBN: 9781797201467
• Topic: Social Sciences
• Subtopic: Social Science Biographies
• Index: Social Sciences

As seen in the HBO docuseries THE VOW: The shocking and subversive memoir of a 12-year-NXIVM-member-turned-whistleblower, and her inspiring true story of abuse, escape, and redemption."'Master, would you brand me? It would be an honor.' From the second I climb onto the table, acutely aware that I am lying in the sweat of my sisters, I will have blocked that out. Lying there completely naked, I am at my most vulnerable but determined to prove my strength. I try to keep my legs closed as my body wills itself to protect my most private area.... I tell myself: I am a warrior. I birthed a human. I can handle pain. But nothing could have ever prepared me for the feel of this fire on my skin." Scarred is Sarah Edmondson's compelling memoir of her recruitment into the NXIVM cult, the 12 years she spent within the organization (during which she enrolled over 2, 000 members and entered DOS—NXIVM's "secret sisterhood"), her breaking point, and her harrowing fight to get out, to expose Keith Raniere and the leadership, to help others, and to heal. Complete with personal photographs, Scarred is also an eye-opening story about abuses of power, female trust and friendship, and how sometimes the search to be "better" can override everything else.• In the tradition of Unorthodox by Deborah Feldman, Escape by Carolyn Jessop, and Troublemaker by Leah Remini
• This tell-all follows Sarah from the moment she takes her first NXIVM seminar, to the invitation she accepts from her best friend, Lauren Salzman, into DOS, to her journey toward become a key witness in the federal case against its founders
• Evokes questions about friendship, ethics, good and evil, making it a brilliant selection for book clubs Audio edition read by the author.

Table of contents

• THE SCAR
• PROLOGUE: THE INITIATION
• THE WOMEN
• PART ONE: ETHICAL VALUE EXCHANGE (2005–2009)
• PART TWO: THE GOLDEN YEARS (2009–2012)
• PART THREE: BLOWING IT UP (2013–2017)
• HEALING
• ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
• ABOUT THE AUTHOR