PART I
Teacher Reflections/Reflections on Teachers
Three Perspectives on Freedom Writers: Considering Teaching Across the Career Span
Jaime L. Beck
Based on a true story, the film Freedom writers (DeVito, Sher, Shamberg, & LaGravenese, 2007) follows Erin Gruwellâs entry into teaching in an urban high school in California. Despite having been on track to be a lawyer, Gruwell chooses instead to become a teacher, a âgood teacherâ: one who is personally involved in the lives of her students, even âat great personal costâ (Dalton, 2004, p. 39). As often happens to beginning teachers (see Anhorn, 2008; Darling-Hammond, 2003; Ingersoll & Kralik, 2004), Gruwellâs first teaching assignment is one of the schoolâs most challenging, and she is offered very few resources or supports to meet this challenge.
This chapter presents a multi-faceted examination of Freedom writers from the perspectives of three teachers at different stages in their careers. These perspectives serve to highlight some of the core tensions within education the film presents, tensions that might be overlooked in a surface viewing of the film as a âfeel-goodâ teacher story. Drawing on past research I have conducted with beginning teachers (Beck, 2010, 2017; Servage, Beck, & Couture, 2017) and teachers in their mid-careers (Beck, 2016), and framed by a developmental approach to teacher growth (Britzman, 2003; Day & Gu, 2010; Flores & Day, 2006), this chapter examines Freedom writers from the monologue perspectives of: a teacher about to enter the profession; a teacher in her third-year confronting the realities of a life in teaching; and a teacher in her mid-career continuing to teach.
Following Leavyâs (2011, 2013) arts-based literary approaches to research, I have crafted each monologue, not as a direct representation of a particular research project, but as research-informed creative non-fiction based on my now thirteen years of inquiry into teacher experiences. Freedom writers is an authentic touchstone for each of the perspectives as, through the course of my research, I have learned how teachers view these teacher-as-isolated-hero narratives differently, at different career stages. Perhaps most significantly, in my inquiries with teachers I found that teacher experiences continue to be hidden and misunderstood as a teacherâs career advances. As a result, I see dialogue and empathy across perspectives as being sorely needed in education. Thus, a primary driver for drawing on fiction is its ability to facilitate a more âempathic understandingâ as readers are invited âto vicariously experience events from a different perspectiveâ (Barone & Eisner, 1997, p. 78). Fiction, of any kind, âis uniquely able to draw readers in and express subtlety and connectivityâ (Leavy, 2013, p. 36).
Questioning Educationâs Status Quo
The monologues that follow also serve as critical perspectives on some of the dominant educational imagery of teachers in films. As Barone (2003) articulates, prevailing imagery in these popular films âis, to a large extent, educationally debilitating [âŚ] composed of a cluster of negative stereotypes of public schools, teachers, and studentsâ (p. 202). In Freedom writers, two of Gruwellâs more senior colleagues represent Educationâs status quo: a more veteran teacher, Mr. Gelford, and Gruwellâs administrator, Ms. Campbell. These colleagues seem unenthused about the new challenges presented by a recent demographic shift at the school. A new âvoluntary integrationâ programme has brought students to the school who seem, to these more veteran educators, a burden. Conversely, Gruwell is drawn to the school because of the policy, and therefore the opportunity to make a difference. By the end of the film, despite her successes as a teacher in this context, Gruwell leaves the school, its students, staff, and all of its existing policies behind, and intact.
The end credits tell us that Gruwell did not âquitâ teaching full stop, rather she moved on to the same college as some of her students â they âgraduatedâ together, in a sense. This part of the story is one we recognize as âa happy and known ending, one that makes [the story] to leave acceptableâ (Clandinin, Downey, & Huber, 2009, p. 146). It becomes easy to âshrug offâ the fact that Gruwell leaves high school teaching because she âmoved up.â We are thus led away from a critical discussion of why this highly skilled and passionate teacher could not continue doing a job she seemed both destined and committed to doing. By the end of the film, we too leave the schoolâs status quo behind, unquestioned as a hopelessly fixed reality. However, if Erin Gruwell is the kind of teacher we want for our students, and I believe she is, then we need to take a more critical look at why too many teachers, both in film and in real life, leave the K-12 classroom.1 The following offers an opportunity to reframe the Freedom writersâ narrative, and perhaps to being to imagine a system in which exceptional teachers thrive and are able to sustain their capacities for the course of their career.
Monologue I: Nysa
Nysa
Today I had an orientation at my practicum school. I had to wake up ridiculously early but it wasnât hard, I mean, I barely slept anyways. By the time I got to the school my stomach was kind of a wreck. Practicum feels like Christmas morning, combined with the scariest job interview ever. Iâm ready though. Part of me feels like Iâve been ready my whole life. And, after all the courses Iâve just taken, I can handle anything.
The programme has been amazing from day one. We started by sitting in a circle and sharing our reasons for being there. There are so many stories I remember. Like Haydenâs story of that one teacher who saw past the juvenile delinquency to the university-bound student beneath. Hayden told us, through tears, that success as a teacher means passing that help along, even to just one student. There was Avery too, who just wanted to share her passion for math, and wow, she loves math! We all had other things in common too, like, we all âplayed schoolâ when we were little, and observed the habits of our best teachers. We also all have our favourite teacher movies.
We were asked at one point to write a paper on our favourite teacher film. I chose Freedom writers. I love that movie! Especially because itâs based on a true story. I wrote about how itâs tough for her at first, for Erin Gruwell. She has practically no help from anyone; the other teachers have already given up. One of them even tells her to just bide her time until the students âquit coming,â like everyone expects. They obviously donât really care about their students. Itâs going to be tough to work with teachers like that. But Gruwell sees potential in her students, and tries to understand their lives. Her classroom becomes a safe space, and then she offers them notebooks where they can just write. They write about their lives, and she spends the time it takes to read them all, and to encourage them.
To me, the film just reaffirms my teaching philosophy. Itâs about creating a safe place for students, and believing in them, seeing their potential, and giving them an opportunity to use their strengths. Gruwell took the time to do that, even though the school practically told her not to and she had to sacrifice a lot to do it, but, many of her students went on to college. She made a difference in so many lives. Thatâs definitely the kind of teacher I want to be, and Iâm ready!
Monologues II and III: Brenna
Brenna
November. Iâve been teaching for three years. Itâs not quite what I thought it would be. I keep trying to figure out why. One obvious reason: Iâm still teaching dance. That was, and continues to be a pretty big curve ball! When I started teaching I had a bit of a dance on my CV, and they told us in Teacher Ed., âTake the job, put whatever you can on your CV, and then take the job!â So I did. Most of the job is teaching English, which is my teaching area. I thought, after a year or two, once Iâm no longer the newbie, Iâll transition out of dance and teach strictly English. What I didnât realize is, that even with just one class, I was the dance teacher at the school. That means, âThe drama production this year is a musical, can you help us with our choreography?â and âWe want to start a dance club, can you be our sponsor teacher?â I thought it was a great idea â not choreographing the musical, that was tough for a first year teacher to fit in, especially one with zero experience choreographing musicals â but the dance club. It was a GREAT idea, and I couldnât say no to students.
Fast-forward two years and Iâm so established as the dance teacher that I see I canât really transition out. But also, I am not sure that I want to. Yes, it adds a lot to the already heavy English teacher workload: in-school events, weekend field trips, after school practices, dance meetings with the students, guest instructors, and of course, taking more dance classes myself. But itâs really where I connect with students, where I am most able to become a meaningful part of their lives. Yet, itâs still not what I thought it would be. Why? Because Iâm always drowning in paperwork? Or, because I did report cards wrong the first time? Why do I let those things get to me?
My students keep telling me I should watch that new movie, Freedom writers, apparently I remind them of her. Iâve been avoiding it. I used to love movies like that but now, I donât really want to compare myself to a âgood teacherâ in some Hollywood film. Sure, I know Iâm a good teacher sometimes, with the dance club, in my English classes, but most of the time I feel like I have no idea what Iâm doing, and I donât feel supported. At the end of each day, thereâs still so much left undone, and Iâm exhausted. Iâm exhausted but I canât sleep, I keep losing weight but Iâm not hungry, not that I really have time to eat anyways. I am starting to worry about these things, about what my health will be like a few years down the road. There are only so many nights of sleep or meals you can miss, right? Most days, I just donât feel well. Thereâs even a tiny part of me thinking about doing something elseâŚ
June. I finally watched Freedom writers. I had to. My principal gave me the book as my farewell gift. It was meant as a nice gesture, but it didnât feel that nice. During our last staff meeting she made this farewell speech; it started with that long list of the things I have done since starting at the school. Some of the things I didnât even remember, and hearing it all at once like that â it was a bit surreal. She listed all the levels of English I have taught, the English Language exchange I organized, etcetera, etcetera. Then of course, she talked about dance. She shared some notes written by my dance students â those were also stories full of time, all the time I put in, all the things we had worked on together. I was touched. But, I still donât feel âsuccessful.â I mean, here I am, getting a farewell speech after only three years of teaching. But, I need a break. Itâs not normal, right, to faint at work for no reason? Anyways, Iâm at the staff meeting and Iâm having all of these mixed feelings, and then the principal ends her speech by saying, âSo, now that weâve burnt her out, sheâs heading back to grad school.â Her tone was slightly sarcastic, and many people laughed. I guess it was funny? Now that theyâve burnt me out? Is that whatâs happened? I just felt kind of stunned, I didnât even hear what she said after that, I just shook her hand and took the copy of Teach With Your Heart that she gave me, and went home and watched that damn movie.
The film is, well, my students were right, it is my story, right there, in plain sight. And in some ways thatâs a good thing and Iâm honoured to be compared with this dedicated and talented new teacher. But in other ways, itâs not a good thing. This is a heavy story to bear. Here is this amazing teacher, who works a second job to buy her students supplies, who spends all her time and energy working for and with her students. Her husband leaves her because sheâs so dedicated. Then, at the end of the movie, sheâs leaving the classroom, after all that sheâs invested, after all that sheâs lost. The reason? Well, they say it directly: âher methods are impractical, impossible to implement with regularity.â Her principal asks, âDo you honestly think you can create this family in every classroom, for every grade, for every student?â I didnât have to hear Gruwellâs answer. I canât keep this up. So what does that mean? Leaving? I mean, shouldnât âgood teachersâ be the ones who stay?
Monologue IV: Dara
Dara
This year, Iâm not taking a student teacher, and Iâm not going to feel guilty about it either. Itâs about self-preservation. Every year, I take a student teacher, and I do my best but, itâs challenging. I mean I know that kind of teaching, that all-consuming-Iâm-going-to-change-every-single-studentâs-life type of teaching, itâs just not sustainable. And I try not to be discouraging, to offer gentle guidance. But even the smallest suggestions I make are met with that critical look, that look says, âOh, youâre just jaded or old school or burnt out, make room for me!â And I remember, you come in, youâre raring to go, your headâs full of students standing on desks for you and â I get it. You want to experience that. But as you continue to teach, like I have, you start to realize that going the distance means keeping things in perspective, in balance, and I wish I could somehow prepare them for this. But balance is definitely not the message you get from Hollywood films.
The latest, Freedom writers, was a little hard to watch. I could see where Gruwell was coming from, I mean, those students deserved better. Itâs hard to stomach the idea of turning your back on students just to save some energy for next year. But you have to make tough choices. Itâs a tough system.
That principal Gruwell has, Ms. Campbell, I can tell she is trying to be helpful. I see the gentle way she tells Gruwell to consider scaling back her lesson plans, and maybe donât wear those pearls to class. Itâs not bitterness, itâs experience. Later, she spells out the real dilemma: âWe have millions of children,â she says, âto get through the education system [âŚ] and we need a means of accomplishing that which allows as many students to benefit as possible.â Sheâs right. Thereâs only so much you can do when you have as many as forty students in a class, and you have four of those classes back-to-back! At some point, you have to look at the practicalities, or you just donât survive. You have to make choices, or you break.
I donât want you to get the impression that itâs easy; it comes with a lot of guilt. Of course, I still want the best for my students. I still have this teacher ideal in mind. Itâs just that, well, we all have limits, and there is always going to be so much more you could be doing, so much left undone at the end of each day. Gruwellâs husband, in the film, reminds me of my own partner. He watches Gruwell work herself practically to death and doesnât know what to do. Finally, he tries to explain how he feels: âWhat youâre doing is noble, and itâs good,â then he adds, âI just want to live my life and not feel bad about it.â Whatâs wrong with that? This year, thatâs me. That means no student teacher scrutinizing the corners Iâve cut. Iâll just teach and let teach, and maybe Iâll live my life just a little, while trying not to feel bad about it.
Discussion
As someone who wanted to be a teacher from an early age, I loved watching movies like Freedom writers. The teachers portrayed in these kinds of films defined what it meant to be a âgoodâ teacher. These narratives also contributed to the âculture shockâ (Britzman, 2003) or âpraxis shockâ (Kelchtermans & Ballet, 2002) I experienced. The reality of teaching is so much more complex than these films depict, and so much more challenging than our âapprenticeship of observationâ (Lortie, 1975) as students in schools prepare us. Yet, I often wonder what I would have really heard if someone had tried, as Dara tries with her student teachers, to prepare me for the overwhelming amount of paperwork in teaching, or for just how much of an impact the bureaucracy of teaching can have. I believed that any hoop I...