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Starting an improvisation
Often, I decide before a concert that Iām going to play this or that area of material at the beginning. But I bend how I play it depending on what the other musicians are doing. For example, today I decided to concentrate on noise. So no matter what you were doing, I was going to stick with my material but bend it so that hopefully it would work with what you were doing. I think I made that decision earlier because I donāt like it when a group starts and thereās one person who starts and youāre thinking: āWhat do I do with this?ā Itās an inevitable, slow process ā the group getting into gear. In order to overcome that, I always have an idea of what Iām going to do. Sometimes though I change my mind completely ⦠. [04B]
I think a crucial moment is the beginning of a piece. You donāt know if and how the other musicians will start and how this will relate to how you start. You can either make a decision (ānow Iām going to startā) and then youāll see how it comes together with what the others do ā maybe youāre alone or somebody else starts at the same time and itās unpredictable how these two sounds come together ā or wait until somebody else starts and you can connect to something thatās already there. I try to vary it deliberately. Sometimes, a few minutes before the concert starts, I think: āTonight I should start with thisā, and sometimes I actually play that sound. But if Iām walking on stage and have had no thoughts about it a couple of minutes before, I try not to think about those things at that point. On stage, however, concentrating, just before starting, there are so many aspects of the actual situation that come to me that I might recognize that what I thought beforehand is not a good idea. So I skip the initial idea and start in another way. Or I alter my initial idea.
Quite often, during the day of the concert, Iām more or less already kind of working myself towards the moment of starting to play. Sometimes itās very conscious, sometimes itās rather subconscious. Iām already concentrating. Thinking about the group weāre going to play with in the evening, I try to make myself aware of the elements that are relevant in this group context and, even more, what is not relevant, what I should leave out or which preparations and objects I shouldnāt bring with me. Itās about coming to the concert with an awareness of what that group is for me or the fields we are working in, the sound of the group, the range of structures, the energy and so on. But if it becomes too specific, if you have too many clear elements, this can be a disadvantage for the concert. So I try not to do that too much. Itās kind of unavoidable to think about these things but I donāt force it. I donāt want to anticipate the music too much. [44]
The first sound, of course, is important. And in a group situation, who makes that first sound is very important. What can that first sound be? It can be anything, of course. Weāre interested in the chance, the arbitrary, almost, because we feel confident that we can make sense of anything. And thatās what we try to do. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnāt. Sometimes itās a bit sticky ā or you put your foot down and thereās no solid ground there. You thought: āAt least we can make this step and weāll know where we areā but ā no! The foot goes into a hole, puddle, mud ā that wasnāt a good idea. Those first decisions are almost a religious moment because they set such a train of events in motion ā even if it goes wrong a little bit at the beginning it can still come right later. But itās much better if you get the understanding from the beginning. You could say itās like a serve in tennis or something: a nice return and then we have a rally. Thatās obviously a great way to start. But if I serve an ace, and then another ace, itās not great tennis to watch ā even if itās great for the guy serving aces. But I donāt plan my first sound hours in advance. [16]
Once, Derek Bailey was asked how he started an improvisation and he said: āI usually start on a D.ā So you can do that; you can just make any sound. I quite like that with groups Iāve worked on for a long time, where nobody plays a full idea at the beginning, somebody makes some suggestion and then you pick up on a suggestion and slowly the suggestions become a piece. [14]
During a soundcheck, it occurred to me to say to myself: āHey I wouldnāt mind starting with that particular sound.ā But once Iād done that once or twice, I came to realize that this was the worst thing to do, that it completely blocked me. So I never do that anymore. This means that at the beginning of a concert, things go very fast.
If I donāt know the musician Iām going to play with, Iām interested in knowing who it is, so Iāll try to listen to them beforehand. Out of curiosity, to find out something about what they do. To listen to them and choose what set-up Iām going to use. Especially if itās someone who also plays electronics. You can find yourself in some kind of ridiculous mirroring so itās good to have something that places you somewhere else. But Iāve also turned up saying to myself: āI donāt know who the person is but Iāll see at the time.ā
If I bring my Revox, thatās a strategy in itself. Reworking things using another musicianās sounds is a type of strategy. Thereās a strategy in how you build your set-up. Deciding how youāre going to position yourself in relation to the speakers, in relation to the feedback, how youāre going to do it, are strategies, but more of a technical nature.
At the same time, I often think many different things beforehand so that I can forget them afterwards. I come with lots of ideas that I have thought about, consciously or unconsciously, so that way I donāt have to think while playing. I try to do the thinking beforehand. I prepare and then I forget. Itās enough that youāve thought about it. [36]
I donāt know if what we call the first sound is really the first sound or if it hasnāt actually started beforehand, in the period of concentration that there is between us when weāre about to make it. Thatās what I like to believe: that the silence that precedes a concert is actually the first sound. [12]
I often start a concert saying to myself: āIām going to do something Iāve never done beforeā, deliberately starting with a sound that I know almost never works, the riskiest sound possible, just to make sure that Iām attentive to what might happen right from the beginning. Sometimes this doesnāt work, and if it doesnāt work three times in a row, I end up falling back on things Iāve worked on. [13]
Once, I recorded a loop before the concert, but without listening to it. I asked someone to press play before the audience came in and I came in last. Then I discovered the loop myself. It was a way of planning without knowing. [02]
If I know the people Iām playing with, if I have an idea of what they are going to play, I could have a strategy before playing. [28]
I choose the first sound of the concert in the same way as the second, the seven
th or the fifteenth: either arbitrarily, I look at my stopwatch and say: āIāll play on minute Xā, or in a more felt way, because I feel that Iām relaxed enough physically and that in any case Iām going to have to start playing at some point. All the ceremony of the beginning of a concert often annoys me. [25]
I play different instruments. But I wouldnāt decide which instrument I want to play five minutes before leaving the house, it would be a conscious choice. [06B]
The only real decision is about technical equipment. So, for instance, in the second concert the other night, I played amplified. That was my decision. For the first concert, I decided to play acoustically. Other concerts I decide to play with a computer. Things like that. What is decided is more or less the technical set-up, not the music. There are no musical decisions beforehand. Sometimes, of course, I have a āpre-imaginationā of how it will be, but things could turn out to be different too. And, in a way, Iām prepared for change, of course. [17]
Before playing, I think about lots of things, but I think less during and after. [41]
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The mental state during an improvisation
I donāt think things through at all while Iām playing. Somehow, I sort of short-circuit. If I do any reflecting, it happens beforehand, or afterwards, but not during. Sometimes, while Iām producing a sound, I hear another sound produced by another musician, and sometimes I can respond to that sound, find the same granulation. How does that happen? I canāt say how. Thereās a kind of state, but I donāt know how it happens, how the desire to make a sound, the desire to change sound, is born. Each sound has a beginning and an end, and sometimes I start a sound before abandoning it and making another one. Often, itās in the actual playing itself that this happens. I mean I make a sound and after a while I start thinking ⦠not thinking but ⦠my attention, my eyes focus on other objects I have brought with me with which I can make another sound. [02]
I donāt know what is going on in my brain when I play. Very complex processes. I can tell you about my memories or my imaginings, what might happen. I kind of have a picture of the music. So in some ways itās visual but, in other ways, it isnāt at all. Itās a multidimensional picture. It wouldnāt be possible to paint it but I can see it. Itās like a space or something ā I could conceive of a graphic approach but it would be very incomplete. For me, music is a very interesting way of being in time because nobody knows what time is. Music is a way to be in the present. So Iām completely in the present and I also have this picture, this image in my mind. Sometimes I have associations too. Like the associations you have when you listen to music. Sometimes it reminds me of a ventilation system or a fridge or insects ā it could be any sound, a car ⦠. Or Iām reminded of other music, from history. A history of music, which I have in my head, comes to the fore and my memories, all I know about music history, come into this ⦠. Suddenly, if I lose my consciousness of the present and I drift away, I might think suddenly about washing the dishes but that rarely happens. It can happen if I find the concert uninteresting; then I fade away. But that rarely happens either. There are a lot of different levels. What happens in the brain is very complex. There are so many different levels. Sometimes, because I never play with my eyes closed, I might see somebody coming into the room or somebody leaving, and I might become aware of it during the concert. Or somebody might be looking really intense, for example. My eyes are open but Iām not looking at anything in particular. Iām concentrating. I look to a certain point but not consciously. I fix my eyes on emptiness. It might happen that Iām suddenly looking around when something happens. It wasnāt a decision I made, it just happened that way. I donāt think I ever close my eyes to play. [17]
I donāt know whatās happening in my brain while I perform and thatās whatās really exciting. I think what goes on is outrageously complex, far more complex than we know. And improvisation has the possibility to access some of this complexity, beyond the current social, historical, scientific tools that exist for analysing how the brain works. I feel that some physical things happen as well. Sometimes it happens without me knowing.
When youāre improvising and you hear something, depending on how you hear it and how that resonates with what youāve heard before and what you think, it influences your decision-making process. But everything is going on very quickly.
Iāve always felt suspicious if I go into a trance while playing with musicians. On one level I really love it, itās beautiful to feel lost, but the critical part of me thinks: āWhat are you doing, whatās this about, was that predictable?ā
The way you interpret or hear a sound is very ambiguous. When you improvise with ānoiseā, you become aware that what you listen to is quite subjective. You can listen to the timbre, the volume, the envelope and so on. Itās actually getting to the roots of your listening systems and bending your notion of how you assume sounds to be or what you expect to hear. There is also some super-realist type of awareness of the physicality and the implication of what your fellow improvisers are doing. Because what you are doing will connote in a number of systems, it connotes simultaneously. It connotes in terms of your understanding of musical structures, real-time composition and the sonic potentials of a particular instrument. [21]
I trust sound. I go with the sound. Sounds feed vibrations back into the body, the vibrations of the instrument back to my ears or my body and the vibrations of the instrument back into my hand, something very primitive. When the sound is there, Iām confident. Itās more difficult when the acoustics are dry because the sound isnāt really there, and you really have to create the metaphor of resonance inside yourself.
Everything is constantly oscillating. We find ourselves in the oscillation and our sole job is to make sure weāre right there in the place where itās oscillating. In the Western world, weāre a bit binary and this artistic work makes it possible to see that there arenāt only two poles, but a multitude of them. And thatās what affords us the wonderful happiness of contradicting ourselves, in actions themselves, because theyāre something and its opposite, a variation and its opposite. Itās an extraordinary journey. [15]
Iām interested in following sounds. Maybe you could liken it to when you repeat a word over and over. After a while it acquires a different meaning. Itās the same with sound as well. If itās played long enough, it starts to be something different to what it was at the beginning. At the moment, Iām interested in finding another voice that comes in, to make the sound a bit more complex than it first appears to be, but in a subtle way, not in an obvious way. It sounds as if I only do ālong soundsā but I also work on how they exist in silence as well. Silence before, during or after has an effect on the whole thing as well. [10]
I certainly canāt remove myself, but when I perform I consider myself to be more in the service of the sound, rather than the sound being in my service. [03]
Limitation is really important. Sometimes, though, you just do what you feel like doing. [04A]
Two recurrent images come to mind when Iām playing. In the first thereās the feeling of really setting the piano in motion so that it becomes a sort of sound machine that I just stoke up. And I feel that thereās a moment when the piano kind of takes off from the ground and exists on its own, without me doing anything. From the outside, it looks like Iām hyperactive, but from the inside I feel like Iām not doing anything and Iām just listening to this kind of brouhaha, this machine, and just adding a few bits inside it. Pushing a little in one direction, and then in the other, holding it but without really giving anything. I just give the initial impetus, but it happens on its own. The instrument and I vibrate together. The other image is that at some point, my body ⦠but in fact, itās related to listening. Listening is so much focused on space, that the piano extends to the whole space, to the room, to the air, and I feel as if Iām inflating. It feels as if the act of listening and my body encompass the whole room, people, everything. It feels as if ...