STELLA
Chino Odimba
Character
STELLA, a woman in her late forties
Setting
An office
Note on the Text
An ellipsis (⦠) indicates a trailing-off or pause at the end of dialogue
A forward slash (/) indicates an overlap in speech
STELLA is leaning against a table.
The table is full of boxes and plants and bits.
STELLA is holding a paper party cup.
Wine in the office eh? Thatās a treat. I mean it is five-thirty and well I donāt have to worry about getting the sack do I?
(Short beat.)
Iām not really in to speeches but if itāll shut you up here goesā¦
(STELLA hitches herself onto the table.)
ā¦This is how they do it in the films isnāt it? I mean I could āave been a film star. You should have seen me at eighteen. Legs up to here.
(STELLA giggles.
STELLA strikes a pose.)
Anyway I really want to say thanks so much for being the best people to work with. Well most of you eh! My project funding has run out and Iām out on my ear butā¦
(STELLA walks the length of the table.)
ā¦I mean donāt get me wrong. If it wasnāt for this job. If it wasnāt for them believing in me. Anyway you know what I mean. Not many options to put my ā (Gestures quotation marks with her fingers.) experience to good use if you know what I mean. Not many options at that time anywayā¦
ā¦The job. What can I say about the job? No uniform. No company car. No team-building day once in a while. I mean in all the years Iāve been hereā¦
ā¦And well all those years do you think they mean anything? Like Debenhams bonus points for all the stuffā¦
ā¦It has to right?
I mean we donāt take the job for peace and quiet do we? The good life. I mean we choose to do the job right? We choose it donāt we? To feel this well / to feelingā¦
So⦠(Raising her empty glass in the air.)
(STELLA drops her raised arm.)
ā¦Hereās to feeling something.
(Short beat.
STELLA steps down off the table.
STELLA takes a big mouthful from her wine glass.)
I mean you feel it donāt you? You feel that calling? I knowā¦
ā¦Well I know I have some personal feelings about it. I mean Iāve seen it from both sides havenāt I? That bloody three hundred and sixty degrees that theyāre always going on about.
I felt it this morning anyway. I bloody felt it. This morning usual thing you know wake up, get Mum up and Iām just getting her breakfast of porridge and / And if she doesnāt get her porridge / Donāt ask! So off it goes. My mobile on the kitchen tableā¦
(Short beat.)
ā¦I answer it. Elayne calling. (Pointing.) Yeah you Elayne. To check Iām still doing the last one today. That I hadnāt forgotten. That it was in my diary. I say ā
Of course I remembered.
ā¦Itās about consistencyā¦
ā¦And consistency is importantā¦
Didnāt I? I would never abandon one of mine. Not mine. I mean who would? Who would do that? Leave her there alone. Never. Not me. Iāll be there I say. Didnāt I? How could I forget? My last one? No way.
(Short beat.)
All this wouldnāt be worth it if we werenāt there for each other. Her waiting there thatās what itās about. Not me and my tomorrowā¦
ā¦I mean tomorrow is another day and tomorrow wonāt be like this will it? Today and tomorrow are as far apart as winter and summer. And before tomorrow wellā¦
ā¦Thereās today. So I say ā
Just as long as I can still get my hair done!
(STELLA laughs out loud.)
Seriously though that new salon has squeezed me in last minute and I want my hair to look nice for tonight.
Tonightās the night! Last chance to see your faces. Last chance to be part of thisā¦
ā¦I donāt know what Iām trying to say but itās about getting the job done isnāt it? And sheās alright. This one. You know what I mean? Something about her makes me hope that sheāll make it somehow. Thatās all I can do now. Hope.
(Short beat.)
I usually get there before the vultures but today theyāre early. And I can see them. The drug dealers. Circling and preying. Even in the morning rain theyāre there waiting to peddle temptation. Waiting to steal the fucking hope. I shouldnāt go on but it makes me so angry. Vultures.
Itās a wait but I have Scrabble on my phone. And Radio 2. I hear the gates go and I see her come out. And you canāt miss her. Her long legs. Forgot how tall she is. Hands in her pockets and head down. I know itās her by the way she plays with her hair. She always plays with her hair. I jump out the cab and I wave at her. She seems nervous but no more than usual. And I say ā
Remember me? I came a couple of weeks ago to talk about what weāre going to do today. And the week before that. And a couple of weeks before that too.
Nothingā¦
ā¦Remember you said I talk too much?
That breaks the ice. This is the bit of the job I love. Loved. The human-contact bit, the breaking-the-ice bit. The breaking-into-a-smile bit. And thereās that feeling.
The reason why we do it. That thing that makes you wake up every morning to do it.
(Short beat.
STELLA steps down from the table. She sits on the edge of it.)
The cab drives away from those gates. She looks cold. And sheās just sitting there counting the money over and over. Ten pounds, twenty pounds, thirty pounds, forty. Forty-six pounds thatās what she gets for making it out. I give her the mobile phone which Iāve brought for her. With credit. Most jump on it and before long youāre listening to non-stop chat with friends, with family, about all sortsā¦
ā¦But not her. She just stares at itā¦
ā¦I donāt know what sheās thinking. But I look out at the rushing world outside the window too and Iām thinking how today and tomorrow are as far apart as winter and summer. And tomorrowā¦
ā¦That reminds me of something my gran would have said. She was always saying things like that. I remember once she took me to the park. Middle of summer. All the other kids playing. I was holding her knitting. Suddenly she walked us to the edge of the pond in the park. Stood right on the edge of it holding my hand. And I look at her like donāt you dare. Iām five and thatās what Iām thinking. She looks at me and says ā
āFear is your worst enemy and your closest friend. Learn to live with it!ā
And just like that she lets go of my hand and jumps in.
(STELLA cups her mouth with her hands.)
That was my gran Jan. She definitely needed psychiatric assistance. But see that never left me. Her words. Her honestyā¦
ā¦And I want to be honest with Joanne. And she looks like the type they might scare so I tell ...