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A Steady Fall of Rain
GABRIEL YORK wears a raincoat and stands beneath a black umbrella.
People pass him by. Back and forth. Back and forth. Like GABRIEL, they carry umbrellas and wear raincoats. Their heads are bent against the relentless weather and against their relentless lives. Back and forth. Back and forth. Until in unison they stop.
And GABRIEL opens his mouth and screams.
And a woman falls to her knees in the street.
And a fish falls from the sky and lands at GABRIELās feet.
Black.
Gabriel Yorkās Room
Alice Springs 2039
GABRIEL YORK stands holding the fish.
GABRIEL. I do not believe in God. I do not believe in miracles. I cannot explain this.
It began with a phone call. It was Friday evening. About 10 p.m. Which was unusual. The phone rarely rings and never at that hour. I was reading. As I do before bed. A history. The Decline and Fall of the American Empire 1975ā2015. I am fascinated by the past. Which may, at least in part, explain the fish.
I have not seen a fish like this for many years. Not since I was a boy. I mean, I have seen pictures of them but not one in the flesh. They are, after all, or at least they are meant to be, extinct.
Though I have heard rumours that they are still occasionally caught and served, secretly, in the most exclusive of restaurants, but only for the select few and only for those who can pay. If I was to purchase such a fish, if purchasing such a fish as this was still possible for the man in the street, it would cost me a yearās wages. I could never dream of affording such a delicacy. If such a delicacy still existed.
He looks at the fish.
Which strangely, it seems to do.
He lays the fish on the table.
I hesitated before answering the phone. Wrong number, I thought. Surely. Who would call me? Me? At this hour?
It was my son. Andrew.
The name was his motherās choice. I had wanted to call him Joe. After a man I once knew. Joe was a good man. He told me he only swore once in his life and that was the day he met my mother. And he was always losing his hat. He liked to walk and one day he went for a walk and never came back so it was probably better that it was Andrew and not Joe.
I havenāt seen Andrew for many years. I left when he was a boy. It was cowardly of me, I know. But I was not the fathering type and to be perfectly honest I thought the boy had a better chance without me. I sent money, of course. When I could. And a card. Now and then. For the first few years. Iām not proud of it.
Anyway there he was⦠this Andrew, this son of mine, on the phone at 10 p.m. on a Friday night. āHello? Is this Gabriel York? Itās Andrew here. Your son. I hope you donāt mind me calling you like this. I hope you donāt mind. Itās just that Iām in Alice. And I was wondering if I could see you. Dad?ā Only it went more like. āHello?⦠Is this⦠Gabriel York?⦠Itās Andrew here⦠Your son⦠I hope you donāt mind me calling you like this⦠I hope you donāt mind⦠Itās just that⦠Iām in Alice⦠And ⦠I was wondering if I could see you?⦠Dad?ā
And my mind was racing, trying to stay calm, trying to take each piece of information in and just as I came to terms with one extraordinary fact, such as āItās Andrewā, he would say something else, like āYour sonā, until I felt unable to reply and the longer I said nothing, the harder it became to say anything at all and so I hung up. And returned to my book. The Decline and Fall of the American Empire⦠1975ā2015.
I canāt imagine what he thought of me.
I tried to concentrate on the page I was reading but found myself rereading the same line over and over again, its meaning escaping me, when I tasted something salty in the corner of my mouth and realised that I was crying. The tears were falling from my eyes, rolling across my cheeks and gathering in the corners of my mouth. And of course I knew I was crying because of him, hearing his voice, the voice of an adult now when I could only remember the child but it also felt like I was crying for so much more.
So I lifted the receiver and recalled the last number. āAndrew?⦠Iām sorry. That was unforgivable of me.ā And he didnāt say anything and I realised that he was crying too and I wondered whether his tears tasted as bitter as mine. I hoped not⦠āIām so sorry,ā I said⦠āIād like to see you very much. Why donāt you come for lunch tomorrow?ā
And as soon as I had given him my address and hung up I knew that it was a mistake. Lunch? What was I thinking? What would I give him? I can hardly feed myself, let alone a son I havenāt seen for what⦠twenty years? What do you serve for lunch in circumstances like that? I mean, lunch hardly seems the point.
And besides, what will he ...