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ACT ONE
Scene One
Near Janet Horneās house ā a midsummer afternoon.
The house overlooks the hill behind and the shore below.
It is a warm summer afternoon, a rare northern treat.
JANET is standing soaking in the sun, her face turned up to the sky, muttering to herself. HELEN, her daughter, enters, she watches her mother for a while.
HELEN. Mother?
JANET goes on muttering.
Mother, what are you doing?
JANET stops. Looks at her daughter in exasperation.
JANET. Why canāt I be a crow?
HELEN. Mother, thereās no peat in the stack.
JANET. Why not? The charmās easy to see, to imagine.
She looks at the sky, raises her arms.
(This is what sheās been muttering.) Make my fingers black, make my bones grow to thin feathers, let me rustle and shine with dark-blue, oily light. Crumple me into a pinioned, prickling ball and throw me up onto the wind!
HELEN. The fireās out! JANET. Oh, of course it is!
Of course it is.
Staring up into the clouds a moment longer.
And the wind is sulking in some cavern in the sky. It wonāt come out for all my calling.
Bad dog.
Bad, bad, bad, bad dog.
HELEN (quiet). You canāt call the wind.
JANET. What are you talking about? Youāve seen me do it. A hundred times.
HELEN. Once.
JANET. A score of times. Whatās the matter with you?
HELEN says nothing.
There was something in the air today. A warmer air. Reminding me of what I could be. I thought to raise a hot wind and fly upon it.
HELEN. Iād like to see that. Iāve never seen you fly.
JANET. Nor will you. You decided to fix your eyes on the ground the first time you stood up and youāve scarce looked up since. Have you?
Iām surprised you know the skyās above you. You donāt look up even when itās raining on your head.
HELEN. I watch the sky.
JANET. And can you fly in it? No. Youāve a head full of dry beans and a voice full of moaning like a wet wind.
(Imitating.) āThereās no peat, thereās no bread, thereās stones in my bedā¦ā
If I hadnāt pulled your head out of my own body Iād doubt you were mine.
A beat.
HELEN. I donāt think youāve ever flown.
JANET. Well, you would think that.
HELEN. Why?
JANET. Because Iām your mother. I can do the great magic⦠I just need to remember⦠another windā¦
Sheās searching the air with her fingers.
HELEN. Make me pretty, then.
JANET. Mary MacKenzie believes in me. I cured her pig. You canāt deny that pigās grunting happier since I put my hand on it.
HELEN. Make me beautiful.
JANET. You are beautiful.
HELEN. To you. What use is that?
Make us a fire and a pot of soup to hang on it.
JANET. Thatās your job.
HELEN. Thereās no peat in the stack!
JANET. Whoās stolen our peat?!
HELEN. I donāt know. Someone. There was scarce a crumb of mud left anyway.
JANET. Iāll charm the truth out and then Iāll curse them. That peatāll burn so dark and drear the smokeāll shrivel their lungs.
HELEN. No you wonāt.
JANET. Whatās the matter with you today?!
A beat.
HELEN. What are we going to eat?
JANET. Honeycomb.
HELEN. Oh aye? And where are we finding that?
JANET (unconvinced). Iām going to become a bee.
A beat. They look together over the hills, the distant sea.
Why are you so restless?
HELEN. Iām hot.
A beat.
William Mackenzie wants me to sit in his cart when we go to the peats.
JANET. Ah! And hereās the matter. Iāve told you.
Youāre not for William Mackenzie.
HELEN. Why not?
JANET. Until youāve the sense to know that, youāre not fit to be let out of my sight. Youāll stay here till you learn youāre not fit for anyone within a hundred miles of here.
HELEN. So what will I do then? When Iāve learned that?
JANET. You canāt learn that. Look at you, bursting out your dress but still rooted here like a bush of gorse⦠Canāt put your hand on it, canāt dig it upā¦
A beat.
Can you hear them? Droning in the heather bells.
HELEN. It will be months before we go to cut the peats again anyway.
JANET. I can hear them. I can see them shimmering in thousands over the hillā¦
HELEN. You donāt know how it is at the peats. Weād have no fire all winter if the Beggs didnāt take me to cut it. I cut our warmth. I travel out under a sky full of ice.
JANET. Silver wings. Peppery little bodies full of sharp sting. I can feel what a bee is all right.
HELEN. I didnāt close my eyes all night. There was someone singing in the darkness behind me. I looked up at the stars and there were different hilltops between me and their sparkle.
JANET. Mouths like little black straws, sucking the sweet heart of every flower. I can taste it.
HELEN. I was somewhere else. I was on the other side of the hills. Cutting peat in the cold morning and bringing it home. Two days under another piece of sky.
JANET. Shatter myself into a thousand sweet buzzing pieces. Make me a swarm of bees.
HELEN holds out a little silver knife.
HELEN. I cut this out of the darkest earth, damp, black soil, crumbling with sleeping fire. I found silver. It might be fairy silver buried in the hill, I found it⦠Lookā¦
JANET doesnāt even hear her, murmuring to the sky.
(Putting the knife away.) Fine then. Youāll never know what I have. I shanāt tell you. Ever.
JANET. Nothing.
The words arenāt the charm. The words donāt make it happen.
HELEN. William doesnāt mind my handsā¦
JANET. Mind!? Why should he mind!?
All heās thinking is they work well enough to push a hoe! If he saw you as you should be seen heād never be thinking about your hands at all! Why are you so stupid youāll never learn that!? God, I wish Iād never dropped you out at all! Keeping me here, stuck in mud that canāt even grow weeds with no one to talk to but rocks and a daughter thatās stupider than a lump of cow shite!
A moment. HELEN is too upset to answer. JANET softens at once.
Oh⦠my tongueās straight off the whetstone. I didnāt mean it, pet. Come here.
JANET puts her arms round HELEN. HELEN lets herself be comforted.
Iām sorry.
HELEN. All right.
JANET. Elspeth Begg only loves you because she lost her own daughter. You know that?
HELEN. Y...