Blanche is known for her perfectionism and discipline. She is a floor manager at one of the biggest luxury goods shops in London, responsible for seven members of staff and for the recent 20% increase in sales in her department. It was Christmas, the busiest period of the year, when some strange issues appeared. Once working tirelessly, 12-hours a day, now Blanche felt tired and achy from the minute she woke up. Arriving home, all she wanted to do was lie in bed. The fatigue and the pain increased over time, causing anxiety, perplexity, fear – and sometimes, guilt. For Blanche was always a reliable worker, always on top of things and now she was distracted and forgetful and too tired after work to spend time with her husband and two young daughters, three and five years old. Blanche did not want to disappoint her employers, especially during the Christmas period, so she pushed through. Every single day was a struggle, but every single day she was there, at the shop. Finally, Christmas day arrived, and she spent all day in bed, unable to do as much as sit up to eat some of the Christmas dinner her husband had prepared. Well aware that a combination of the flu and work stress could have played havoc with her body, Blanche decided to take a week off work to rest. The week that followed was one of the strangest in her life. She could not move her body. Blanche felt like she was trapped in a jelly-like world, and every move required ten times the effort. A week passed, two weeks passed, and things did not improve. Blanche thought it was time to see her doctor, who took a careful medical history, took her blood pressure and some blood samples. The blood pressure was good, and the blood samples did not show anaemia, under-active thyroid or any liver or kidney problems, yet the lymph nodes in her neck were enlarged, indicating an infection. Unable to diagnose anything, her doctor sent her home with the instruction to rest for two more weeks hoping the symptoms will clear up. Unfortunately, things did not improve, but nevertheless, Blanche tried to get back to work, albeit, with not much success. The days she managed to get in the store, she could not think clearly and felt she was more of a hindrance than a help. Her doctor signed her off work for two months, which was then extended to four months and finally to six months. Blanche was devastated. It was so difficult for her not to work. She liked to give advice to less-experienced staff members, she loved the buzz of the shop floor, but she could not cope anymore with the stress of her work or the long hours.
After a few months and numerous medical tests, she was told that she had Myalgic Encephalitis, also known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. The causes and timeline of the condition are unclear. Her doctor suggested reserving her energy, getting into a regular but gentle exercise routine, a balanced diet and recommended going to a 6-week stress-management course.
For the best part of a year, Blanche was hindered by her condition, confused and worried about what was going on. But over time her condition became a smaller feature in her life. Once she had a name for her condition, she was able to make peace with the fact that this was something that she would need to deal with in the long run. She decided “It’s best to outsmart your condition, rather than battle it head on”. Leaving emotions aside, she tried to solve each medical issue methodically, the way she approached work issues, examining what was wrong and brainstorming how best to solve them. Blanche was able to let go of wanting things to be different, of wanting her condition to be cured, and she started to live her life.
Preceding lengthy periods of medical tests, hospital appointments and uncertainty, the diagnosis comes with mixed emotions. Finding out about your condition can be upsetting, but also it can be a relief. When diagnosed you might have felt devastated, overwhelmed or completely numb. There are no right or wrong ways to feel. Emotions have a ‘mind’ of their own; they come up without an invitation.
Feeling anxious is very common and usual in the early stages of the condition and after significant changes. When living with a long-term condition, it might be difficult at times to keep a positive attitude, especially when you feel unwell and your future appears uncertain. As a result, you may feel frustrated, angry, demoralised, worried, anxious or depressed at times. Feeling low and at a loss is normal and to be expected. Although small levels of distress can push us into action and motivate changes, being significantly depressed or anxious might have an adverse impact on the prognosis of the condition or even worsen the symptoms.
There are two ways that the emotional response can affect the condition: via behaviour or via the physiological changes that emotions create. Feeling tense, angry, embarrassed, stressed, anxious or low in mood produces physiological changes such as increased tremor and muscle pain, impaired memory and concentration, and poor sleep. Even if we try to shut out these emotions or ignore them, we usually still suffer the physiological effects. There are also some indications that depression is linked to alterations in the immune system,3 including for example in MS, researchers found depression was linked with increases in proinflammatory cytokine activity and inflammation.4 Research has shown that chronic depression is associated with clinical and immunological progression of HIV/AIDS, i.e. decline in CD4+ T cells.5 However, it is still unclear whether the depression caused the changes in the immune response or whether the immune response changes caused either depressive symptoms or progression of the condition which then led to depression. Furthermore, low mood and feeling numb may rob us of the motivation to make necessary lifestyle changes, such as changing eating habits, quitting smoking, exercising or taking medications as prescribed. Consequently, these behaviours can exacerbate the condition. For example, 18% of people living with a long-term condition smoke1 and the people who smoke are more likely to have flare-ups in their condition and therefore more likely to be admitted to hospital.