Rediscovering psychoanalysis
From the time I was six or seven years old, I was aware of psychoanalysis as a form of treatment for psychological problems, such as feeling unhappy and frightened all the time; but it was not until I was 16, on reading Freudâs (1916â1917) Introductory Lectures on Psycho-Analysis, that I first discovered psychoanalysis as a set of ideas concerning how we come to be who we are. In using the term discovered, I am borrowing a word from a memorable sentence in that introductory lecture series: âI shall not, however, tell it [psychoanalysis as a therapeutic method] to you but shall insist on your discovering it yourselfâ (1916â1917, p. 431). How better to be introduced to psychoanalysis than by means of an invitation not to be taught, but to discover?
I have spent a good deal of my life since that initial discovery rediscovering psychoanalysis. In an important sense, a psychoanalytic life cannot be spent in any other way. After all, psychoanalysis, both as a set of ideas and as a therapeutic method, is from beginning to end a process of thinking and rethinking, dreaming and re-dreaming, discovering and rediscovering.
The thread that weaves through every page of this book is the idea that it is the analystâs task to engage in a process of rediscovering psychoanalysis in everything that he or she does: in each analytic session, in each supervisory hour, in each meeting of a psychoanalytic seminar, in each reading of an analytic work, and so on.
Rediscovering psychoanalysis entails an act of freedom of thought and an act of humility; an act of renewal and an act of fresh discovery; an act of thinking for oneself and an act of recognition that
no one who attempts to put forward to-day his views on hysteria and its psychical basis [or any other aspect of psychoanalysis] can avoid repeating a great quantity of other peopleâs thoughts . . . Originality is claimed for very little of what will be found in the following pages.
(Breuer and Freud, 1893â1895, pp. 185â186)
In this book, I will discuss three overlapping and interwoven forms of my own experience of rediscovering psychoanalysis: (1) creating psychoanalysis freshly in the process of talking with each patient in each analytic session; (2) rediscovering psychoanalysis in the experience of supervising and teaching psychoanalysis; and (3) âdreaming upâ psychoanalysis for oneself in the act of reading and writing about analytic texts and literary works. Although I discuss each of these forms of rediscovery as separate subjects, the topics refuse to keep an orderly queue: thoughts on supervision creep into discussions of talking with patients; close readings of analytic texts invite themselves into discussions of supervision and teaching; responses to creative literature show up in analytic case discussions; and so on. In fact, all three of these forms of rediscovering psychoanalysis are in conversation with one another in each section of this chapter and in each of the succeeding chapters of this book.
Rediscovering psychoanalysis in the experience of talking with patients
A principal medium, perhaps the principal medium, in which I have the opportunity and the responsibility to engage in the work of rediscovering psychoanalysis (and, in so doing, rediscovering what it is to be a psychoanalyst) is the work of being with and talking with patients. Specifically, I view it as my role to create psychoanalysis freshly with each patient in each session of the analysis. A critically important aspect of this rediscovery of psychoanalysis is the creation of ways of talking with each patient that are unique to that patient in that moment of the analysis. When I speak of talking differently with each patient, I am referring not simply to the unselfconscious use of different tones of voice, rhythms of speech, choice of words, types of formality and informality, and so on, but also to particular ways of being with, and communicating with, another person that could exist between no other two people on this planet.
There are occasions when I am more aware than usual that the patient and I are talking in a way that I talk with no other person in my life. At these moments I have a strong feeling that I am a fortunate man to be able to spend so much of my life inventing with another person ways of talking about what is most important to the patient and to me. In this experience, I am being drawn upon, and am drawing upon myself, emotionally and intellectually, in ways that do not occur in any other part of my life. In this regard, Searles has put into words what I have often felt and thought but have not often had the courage to say, much less write. In discussing an experience that occurred in the psychotherapy of a schizophrenic patient, Searles (1959) states (in a way that only he could have put it), âWhile we were sitting in silence and a radio not far away was playing a tenderly romantic song . . . I suddenly felt that this man [the patient] was dearer to me than anyone else in the world, including my wifeâ (p. 294). (See Chapter 8 for a discussion of this and other aspects of Searlesâs contribution to psychoanalysis.)
It requires a very long time â in my experience, something on the order of a decade or two of full-time clinical practice â to mature as an analyst to a point where one is able, with some consistency, to talk with each of oneâs patients in a way that is uniquely oneâs own, and unique to that moment in the analytic conversation with that particular patient. One must have thoroughly learned psychoanalytic technique before one is in a position to âforget itâ â that is, to rediscover it for oneself. Talking with patients in the way I am describing requires that the analyst pay very careful attention to the analytic frame. When I am able to speak with a patient in this way, it feels to me that I have ceased âmaking interpretationsâ and offering other forms of âanalytic interventions,â and am instead âsimply talkingâ with the patient. âSimply talkingâ to a patient, in my experience, usually involves âtalking simplyâ â that is, talking in a simple, clear way that is free of clichĂ©, jargon, and âtherapeuticâ and other âknowingâ tones of voice.
A recent experience in supervision comes to mind in this regard. A seasoned analyst consulted me regarding an analysis that he felt had âground to a halt.â He told me about the various types of interpretations that he had made, none of which seemed to be of any value to the patient. As he spoke, I found myself feeling curious about the analyst. He seemed like an âodd duckâ in an interesting and appealing way. Where had he grown up? Probably in the South â maybe Tennessee. What sort of boy had he been? Maybe a little lost, doing the right thing, but with a rebellious streak that he kept a well-guarded secret.
I said to the analyst that it seemed to me that the only thing he had not tried was talking to the patient. I suggested that he stop interpreting and, instead, try simply to talk with the patient as a person who had come to him with the hope and the fear of talking about what was most disturbing in her life. He responded by saying, âYou mean I should stop doing analysis with this patient?â I responded by saying, âYes, if âdoing analysisâ means speaking and listening as the analyst you already know how to be. Why donât you see what it would feel like to be an analyst with the patient who is different from the analyst youâve been for any other patient youâve ever worked with?â
At the end of the consultation session, the analyst said that he felt at a loss to know how to proceed with his patient. I thought that this response to the consultation was a good indication that the analyst had made use of our conversation. When we next met six weeks later, the analyst told me that after our consultation, he felt so lost that during the sessions with his patient that took place in the weeks immediately following the one he had read to me, he found himself saying very little. âInstead, I tried to listen for what Iâve been missing. Being quiet helped clear my mind, but straining to listen in that way, session after session, was exhausting. I found myself dreading the patientâs sessions.â The analyst then told me that at the beginning of a session about a month after our consultation, he finally âgave upâ and asked the patient, âHow can I be of help to you today?â He said that the patient seemed surprised by his question and responded by saying, âIâm so glad you asked me that. Iâve been feeling like such a failure at psychoanalysis that Iâve been thinking for a long time that I shouldnât waste your time. I just donât know how to think and talk the way you do. I was afraid before coming here today that you would tell me that you would be ending the analysis.â The patient was silent for a couple of minutes and then said, âIf you really meant what you said, what Iâd like your help with is how to be a better mother to my children. Iâve been a dreadful mother.â
The analyst then told me that for the first time in a very long time he had found what the patient was saying in that session to be genuinely interesting. I was reminded of my own curiosity and imaginings about the analyst in the first consultation session. It seemed to me in retrospect that I was âdreaming upâ the analyst in response to his difficulty in âdreaming himself upâ as an analyst in his own terms. The analyst responded to his patient by saying, âI think that you are full of dread when you try to be a mother and that makes you feel like a dreadful mother. I think that you find that trying to be a mother is not at all the same as simply being a mother. I think it terrifies you to feel that you have no idea how to go about just being a mother in a way that feels natural to you.â
I said to the analyst that there was no doubt in my mind that he and the patient had begun to talk with one another in a way that they had never before talked with one another, and that it seemed possible to me that neither of them had ever in their lives talked with anyone else in quite that way.
In the sequence described, it was necessary for the analyst to rediscover for himself the experience of becoming an analyst by âgiving upâ on being the analyst he already knew how to be. In so doing, the analyst began to be able to make room in himself for the experience of being at a loss to know how to be an analyst â how to listen to and how to talk with the patient. The patient was clearly relieved by her conscious and unconscious perception that the analyst had become better able to think and talk for himself and to live with the experience of being a âdreadful analystâ who had no idea what he was doing. It was only at that point that the patient was able to recognize and talk about her feeling of being a dreadful mother. Of course, what I have quoted is not taken from a transcript of what the patient and the analyst said; rather, it is my construction of the analystâs construction of what occurred in the session. This is not a deficiency inherent in the method of enquiry I am using; it is an important element of that method in that it helps capture something of what was true to what occurred at an unconscious level in the analysis, in the supervision, and in the relationship between the analytic experience and the supervisory experience. (In Chapter 3, I discuss this and other aspects of the analytic supervisory experience.)
In discussing this supervisory experience, I have used the term dreaming in the phrase ââdreaming upâ the analyst.â The conception of dreaming that underlies the idea of dreaming up another person or dreaming oneself into being plays a fundamental role in all that follows in this book. In the tradition of Bion (1962a), I use the term dreaming to refer to unconscious psychological work that one does with oneâs emotional experience. This work of dreaming is achieved by means of a conversation between different aspects of the personality (for example, Freudâs [1900] unconscious and preconscious mind, Bionâs [1957] psychotic and non-psychotic parts of the personality, Grotsteinâs [2000] âdreamer who dreams the dreamâ and the âdreamer who understands a dream,â and Sandlerâs [1976] âdream-workâ and âunderstanding workâ). When an individualâs emotional experience is so disturbing that he is unable to dream it (i.e. to do unconscious psychological work with it), he requires the help of another person to dream his formerly undreamable experience. Under these circumstances, it requires two people to think. In the analytic setting, the other person is the analyst; in supervision, it is the supervisor; and in a seminar setting, it is the group leader and the work group mentality (Bion, 1959).
Dreaming occurs continually both during sleep and in waking life, although we have little awareness of our dreaming while we are awake. Reverie (Bion, 1962a; see also Ogden, 1997a,b) and free association constitute forms of preconscious waking dreaming. Dreaming conceived of in this way is not a process of making the unconscious conscious (i.e. making derivatives of the unconscious available to conscious secondary process thinking); rather, it is a process of making the conscious unconscious (i.e. making conscious lived experience available to the richer thought processes involved in unconscious psychological work) (Bion, 1962a). Dreaming is the process by which we attribute personal symbolic meaning to our lived experience, and, in this sense, we dream ourselves and other people into existence. By extension, when an analyst helps a patient or a supervisee to dream his formerly undreamable experience, he is assisting the patient or supervisee in dreaming himself into existence (as an individual or as an analyst).
With this conception of dreaming in mind, I will turn to a form of rediscovery of psychoanalysis that occurred in the course of my work with patients who have very little, if any, capacity for waking dreaming (for example, free association) in the analytic setting. After years of analytic work with a number of such patients, I have found myself (without conscious intention) engaging in seemingly âunanalyticâ conversations with these analysands about books, plays, art exhibits, politics, and so on. It took me some time to realize that many of these conversations constituted a form of waking dreaming which I came to think of as âtalking-as-dreaming.â These conversations tended to be loosely structured, marked by mixtures of primary and secondary process thinking and replete with apparent non sequiturs. âTalking-as-dreamingâ superficially appears to be unanalytic; but, to my mind, in the analyses to which I am referring, it represented a significant achievement in that it was often the first form of conversation to take place in these analyses that felt real and alive to both the patient and me.
As time went on in the work with these patients, talking-as-dreaming became established as a natural part of the give-and-take of the analytic relationship and began to move unobtrusively into and out of âtalking about dreamingâ â that is, self-reflective talk about what was occurring in the analytic relationship and in other parts of the patientâs life (past and present). These patients experienced their enhanced capacity to dream and to think and talk about their dreaming as an experience of âwaking upâ to themselves. Once able to âwake up,â their relationship to their waking and sleeping dreaming was profoundly altered â they could begin to think about their dreams as expressions of personal symbolic meaning. In our âdiscoveryâ of talking-as-dreaming, these patients and I were rediscovering dreaming and free association.
Dreaming up psychoanalysis in analytic supervision and teaching
Analytic supervision and the teaching of psychoanalysis in a seminar setting have been, for me, important forms of analytic work in which rediscovery of psychoanalysis takes place. I view not only the clinical practice of psychoanalysis but also analytic supervision and teaching as forms of âguided dream[ing]â (Borges, 1970a, p. 13). In analytic supervision and in case presentations that take place in the seminar setting, it is the task of the supervisory pair and the seminar group to âdream upâ the patient whose analysis is being discussed. The patient being presented is not the person who lies down on the couch in the analystâs consulting room. Rather, the patient is a fiction, a character in a story that the supervisee or presenter is creating (dreaming up) in the process of presenting the case. The creation of a fiction is not to be confused with lying. In fact, the two, in the sense I am using the terms, are opposites. Since the analyst cannot bring the patient to the supervisory meeting or to the seminar, he must create in words a fiction that conveys the emotional truth of the experience that he is living with his patient.
From this perspective, the presenter consciously and unconsciously not only tells, but also shows, the supervisor (or seminar group) the limits of his capacity to dream (to do conscious and unconscious psychological work with) what is occurring in the analysis. The function of the supervisor and the seminar group is that of helping the analyst to dream aspects of the experience with the patient that the analyst has been unable to dream.
Regardless of how many times I take part in the experience of dreaming with a patient, a supervisee, or a presenter, I am each time taken by surprise by the psychological event, and each time find that I have rediscovered the concept of projective identification. Projective identification at its core is a conception of one person participating in thinking/dreaming what another person has been unable to think/dream on his own. I have spent the past thirty-five years rediscovering this concept.
I will close this section by briefly mentioning two areas of ongoing discovery and r...