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Who was R. D. Laing?
Peter Mezan, PhD*
I met R. D. Laing the end of 1970, beginning of 1971. This was around six months after Kingsley Hall shut its doors and shortly before he closed his Wimpole Street psychoanalytic practice, packed up his family, and went off to Ceylon and India to study yoga and meditation. I donāt know how many of you remember 1970. How many of you were even born in 1970? That was 43 years ago ā 43 years! Wow, it makes me want to keel over right here and now.
By 1971, Laing had become a major culture hero and the most famous living psychiatrist in the world. To explain how that happened, let me give you a brief reminder of what was going on in those days. Revolution was in the air, everywhere you looked. The political culture, the social culture, the artistic culture, the intellectual culture ā all of it was in an uproar. In this country, thereād been the unthinkable assassinations, the Vietnam War was raging, there was the civil rights movement, the womenās rights movement, protests everywhere you turned.
All this was following an era of social and political conformity, or what I would call the culture of āBecause I Say Soā: because the president said so, because the generals and politicians said so, because the local draft board said so, because the police said so, because the doctors and the psychiatrists said so, because the teachers and professors said so, because everybodyās parents said so. The assumption was that power and authority were benign and could be trusted to be more or less looking after your best interests. And suddenly it seemed they werenāt.
Nothing seemed to be working the way it was supposed to. Police who were supposed to be protecting you were beating up students who were protesting the war, civil rights marchers were being beaten and killed on the orders of governors and sheriffs, and the soldiers, who were no more than kids themselves, were either being slaughtered in Vietnam or shooting and killing college students at Kent State, right here at home. And everyone was watching in horror and confusion as all of this played out right in front of them every night on their TVs. It was not very hard to feel as though either the world had gone crazy or you had.
Enter R. D. Laing.
I was living in London at the time. I was an editor of Nature, the British science journal, and commuting to Cambridge where I was teaching literature. Somehow I got it into my head that I wanted to try writing for a living and thought Iād start by doing some freelance journalism for American magazines. I had no idea how to go about this, so in a burst of preposterous optimism and naivetĆ© I wrote a letter to Tom Wolfe, one of my literary heroes ever since Iād read The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test, and asked him what I should do. Amazingly, he wrote back. He said all you have to do is get something published in one of the following five magazines, and youāll have a career: The New Yorker, Esquire, The Atlantic, Harperās or Playboy. No problem.
So I wrote to the editors of all five magazines, told them a little about myself, said Iād be in New York in a couple weeks and had some ideas about articles that I was sure would be perfect for them. All five said great and gave me appointments to meet when I was in the city. I made up a list of subjects I wanted to write about ā one of them was to do a profile of R. D. Laing.
Hereās one reason I was interested in R. D. Laing. When I was a Harvard medical student, a professor from the psychiatry department took a bunch of us on a tour of the Metropolitan State Hospital in Belmont, Massachusetts. It was reputed to be one of the worst state mental hospitals in the country. I think it was ranked 43rd or 44th. After we spent a couple hours roaming in and out of the wards filled with chronic schizophrenics, some of whom had been there for years, I remember there was a long hallway down in the basement, and three lines of patients quietly waiting. One line was waiting for electroconvulsive therapy, one for insulin coma therapy, and one for a prefrontal leucotomy. As medical students, we were invited to observe each of these treatments in action. By the time I watched some poor woman strapped down and being put into an insulin coma, I was close to throwing up. That was 1966.
Then it was 1968, and I had moved to England, and I came across The Divided Self. Me and everybody else. Out of nowhere, as it seemed to me, everybody was talking about R. D. Laing. Radicals were honoring him as a philosopher of revolution. Intellectuals were coming close to blows about him, unsure whether he was a demagogue or a thinker to be reckoned with. Psychiatrists were going berserk with indignation, feeling as though he was not only attacking what they did but also undermining their authority about mental illness of any kind. And then there were the masses of people who felt he was talking directly to them ā that he was expressing something they had been feeling but had never articulated to themselves. People from all over the world were actually picking up and moving their whole families to London to be near him and be part of things.
And, of course, there were all the rumors and opinions about him, that couldnāt help but make me curious. People who had never met him had it on good authority that he was an illuminated saint, a charlatan, a bourgeois revisionist, a dangerous paranoid-schizophrenic whoād had multiple hospitalizations, that he gave all his patients LSD, that he was in the habit of punching some of his patients in the nose (I kid you not), that his once wonderful mind had been ruined by alcohol or mushrooms or what have you and on and on.
Oh, and one other reason I wanted to write about him. I had actually met him once in a shoe store on the Kingās Road in Chelsea, and the encounter had stuck in my mind. I recognized him from the spooky cover photograph of The Self and Others ā deep-set, shadowy, X-ray eyes beneath a high-angled brow. I was returning a pair of fine Italian footwear that had fallen apart in a week, and R. D. Laing was being extremely patient with a longhaired salesman who kept bringing him the wrong sandals. When the salesman went back to the storeroom for the third time, Laing smiled, hunched his shoulders and walked over to me: āI hope you donāt mind my asking like this, but I was wondering where you got that bush jacket youāre wearing. Itās just the sort of thing I could use ā lots of pockets.ā I stifled an impulse to just give it to him right off my back, then and there, and explained it came from Africa. He nodded amiably and went back to dealing with the salesman who had reappeared with yet another pair of the wrong sandals. Laing sighed. āI suppose I could go barefoot, but Iām a doctor, you see, and there are some people who might think it a bit odd.ā
So fast-forward, and Iām in New York, heading to my appointments with the editors. This was not the New York I remembered from 1966: A computer in Grand Central Station cast my horoscope, people in saffron robes were chanting Hare Krishna in front of my bank, some stockbrokers I knew were playing the market by casting the I Ching (and swearing by it, incidentally), Allen Ginsberg was singing āOm Mani Padme Humā in a Chicago courtroom and some of the most sober and intelligent of my friends were into the Tibetan Book of the Dead, the Kabbalah and the Tarot.
All five editors were enthusiastic about one subject or another, but the editor of Esquire, Don Erikson, was especially excited about a profile of Laing, because since the demise of Kingsley Hall, Laing had withdrawn from the public eye and refused to give interviews to anybody.
āI guarantee you I can get to him,ā I told Erikson.
How hard could it be? Iād already bumped into him in a shoe store, and Iād had no problem getting a quick response from no less a famous writer than Tom Wolfe.
Three months later I was ready to write an article about how I never got to R. D. Laing. For three months Iād written him letters that disappeared without trace ā any of you remember how people used to write actual letters? Iād called his Wimpole Street office umpteen times, and either nobody answered, or somebody answered and said theyād give him a message, maybe they did, maybe they didnāt, but I never heard back. Then one day a woman answered who said she was a friend of his who just happened to be in his office and told me she thought Laing probably wouldnāt give anybody an interview ā ever.
By this time, I had talked to more than two dozen of his colleagues, friends, patients and acquaintances, all of whom had been interesting to meet in their own right but who brought me no closer to the man. Not to mention that the pictures they gave me of him were hard to reconcile, to the point that sometimes I wondered if they were talking about the same person. I was sure some of these people had known him pretty well, and yet they disagreed about whether he was serene or cruel or reckless or cold or warm or compassionate or manipulative or arrogant or humble.
Then one of the Philadelphia Association therapists (this was the umbrella organization of asylum communities that began with Kingsley Hall) said to me, āWhy donāt you go ask some schizophrenics about him.ā Okay, Iāll go ask some schizophrenics. I went to visit one of the communities in a condemned row house in North London. Understand that, up until then, my assumption from having been a medical student was that patients are sick, doctors are not ā or at least patients are sicker than their doctors. So on my way there, I kept reminding myself, āNo doctors, no patients ā just people.ā
There was no doorbell, so I just walked in. It wasnāt the most welcoming scene. There was none of the social niceties I was accustomed to, which I soon discovered was the norm in the Laing world. No hellos, no good to meet yous, no take a seat, no introductions, so I had to pick up on who everybody was by listening. There was somebody tall by the door sucking like crazy on an unlit pipe, and Mike from Phoenix, and Mary Ann from Kentucky, and Tom from Harvard, and Sadie from Los Angeles, and Gregorio from Buenos Aires and David Bell, a charming schizophrenic gentleman who had formerly been a computer engineer who now went by such names as Little Lamb, My Sweet Blue Angel and Oedipus of the Rex family. The conversation was serious and earnest and like no other conversation Iād ever heard, with a lot of mentions of mystifications and invalidations and reifications, like so many pages out of Laingās books. This I found a little disconcerting, so at a moment of calm, when someone got up to make brownies, I made a mild comment that everybody was sounding a bit Laingianized. Some didnāt know what I was talking about. Others maybe yes, maybe no. David Bell, who the whole time was quietly muttering to himself about how Oedipus was a man of no social intelligence, suddenly said to me, āYes, itās an interesting problem.ā It was the only normal, thoughtful response I got.
Finally one day, in a last gasp of hope, I called up Leon Redler, an American psychiatrist who was one of the original people involved with Laing in Kingsley Hall, and asked him the next time he spoke to Laing to please mention that I was still here, still trying and eager to meet him. As an afterthought, I also said maybe tell him that weād met once before: āTell him I was the guy with the bush jacket in the shoe store last spring.ā
Later the same afternoon a lady called up claiming to be Laingās secretary: āDr. Laing will see you tomorrow morning at eleven. Oh, and Dr. Redler said to tell you that the bush jacket helped.ā
Laing was smaller and slighter than I recalled and looking that day, a bit like a leprechaun. Under a brown suede jacket he was wearing a green work shirt buttoned up to the neck, partly hanging out of green velvet trousers. I, of course, was wearing the bush jacket. He nodded at the jacket. āI remember,ā he said.
We climbed the stairs to his consulting room and sat down and ⦠nothing. He said nothing, waiting for me to begin, watching me from a skew angle, and in a way that let me know heād be quite content to go right on saying nothing for as long as I cared to be watched.
I knew I had a lot of questions, but I couldnāt think of them. So I said, āWho are you, Dr. Laing?ā He looked bored and answered immediately. āWhat youāre really asking when you ask me who I am, where Iām at, is who are you.ā
Uh-oh.
I mumbled something to the effect that anything one asks about anything is in some respect a question about oneself. But I was nervous. I began talking faster and faster, saying god knows what. He was beginning to twitch and roll up his eyes, signs Iād been forewarned ether of impatience or of hard concentration. I was pretty sure it wasnāt the latter. Just please let me not give him an asthma attack, I thought. I had heard that some people bring on his asthma. But I couldnāt think I was up to that yet either.
Finally he made a sweeping motion with his hand. āIāve done nothing original, nothing that hasnāt been done before, that people donāt already know.ā
I was pretty sure he was overestimating what people know, but I said, āMaybe people donāt know they know.ā
Finally some kind of agreement, and for a second I felt confident enough to ask if I could turn on the tape recorder. āI donāt think so. Iād rather you didnāt,ā Laing said. āI canāt exactly explain why, but itās just whatever is going to happen between us isnāt going to happen there.ā He began fidgeting with some lint on his trouser leg. I was beginning to understand why some people found him a difficult man.
I took another stab at trying to find out how he came to be whoever he is.
āLook,ā he said, his eye rolling flipping into a higher gear, āin a sense I am whoever people observe me to be. I talk with a Scots accent, I wear these clothes, I work hereā ā gesturing at the analytic couch ā āIām a householder in Belsize Park Gardens with my wife and two children. And also thereās my presence ā whatever I communicate to people physically.ā
Suddenly I saw an opening and reminded him of what Iād overheard him telling the shoe salesman about the requirements of acting like a doctor ā for instance, not going barefoot, and a passage in The Self and Others about a little boy pretending that he was an explorer, then a lion, then a sea captain, then simply himself, just a little boy. And some years later, that he is a grown-up, and some years later, that he is an old man, when suddenly he remembers that it had all been a game of pretend from the start. Laingās point was that we take on different roles and are taught to pretend that we are not pretending and then to forget that we are only pretending that we are not pretending. So I suggested to Laing that, in a sense, he too is pretending ā to be a doctor, a householder, a Scotsman, the lot. āSo who,ā I ask, holding my breath, āis doing the pretending?ā
Laingās eyes stopped rolling, and he flashed me a smile. āYour diagnosis of my metaphysical disease is very astute.ā He laughed. I exhaled. And he went over to pick up a fat book with a gray cover. āLet me tell you where I am,ā he said. And for the next hour and a half, he read me passages from the Brahma-Sutra-Bhasya of Sri Sankaracarya, and we talked about such lighthearted subjects as the nature of mind and the phenomenology of experience. Of course, since he hadnāt allowed me to turn on my tape recorder, I had to go right out afterward and find a copy of the Brahma-Sutra to find the passages heād been reading to me.
He seemed tired. Iād heard he was a bit disillusioned and depressed about Kingsley Hall and about all the rumors and distortions and misunderstandings about what heād written and said and thought, including by his fans. This was partly why he was going to India and Ceylon, to take a break, collect himself, get away from all that.
Before we parted, he asked if he could try on the bush jacket. It was a loose fit.
The Esquire article came out in January 1972.
Given the things Iād heard about Laingās capacity to suddenly turn on people, it was a little worrying how heād react to whatever I wrote about him. But his only objections to the Esquire article were that I had gotten certain facts, certain concrete observations, wrong ā like the color of the paint on the walls (it was not the shade of green I said it was) and the location of his desk in the room (it was not by the windows facing some backyards).
When he got back from India, he seemed rejuvenated and agreed to do a coast-to-coast tour of America to straighten people out. I was asked to cover the New York leg of the tour. Laing joked that I was becoming his Boswell. He said that in a way Boswell was more famous than Dr. Johnson, cleverly appealing to my vanity.
I asked him what he was going to say in America.
āI really have no idea at all,ā he said.
I was hoping it would go better than the first time heād gone to New York, when he flew out again two hours later, having decided that was an environment he was just not at all ready to enter.
The New York tour headquarters was Suite 608 at the Algonquin Hotel. Aside from the big public talks and lectures and the television interviews, this was where all the one-on-one interviews took place, with Laing usually lounging on the sofa, barefoot (I guess doctors didnāt need shoes after all). There was a camera crew filming every moment of the tour, publicists, tour promoters, various other members of his entourage and an endless parade of reporters coming to interview him.
The young woman reporter from Newsweek started like this: āThis is going to be very superficial, Dr. Laing, because I donāt know anything about your work. All weād like, really, is something witty or shocking, so maybe you could just say what y...