(1988â1999)
ALK: You talk about some pretty wild stuff in this interview and even more extensively in the following interview with Christine Weilandâan âextra-terrestrial spirit,â different spirits entering your body, past-life regression, reincarnation, psychic readers, and more. How do you feel about these ideas being out there, in print?
GEA: I think itâs about time for these ideas to be in print. I went to psychic readers and workshops in psychic development right after one of my near-death experiences, and these saved my life. It really helped me get in touch with who I was and what I wanted to do. Iâm happy itâs going to be in my interview book. People should know about this aspect of me and my life.
ALK: Donât you think itâs going to make you less respectable and less reputableâbecause a lot of scholars donât believe in such things?
GEA: Tough shit! Once I get past my own censorship of what I should write about, I donât care what other people say. Some things were hard for me to reveal but my strong vocation for writing makes me more open. To be a writer means to communicate, to tell stories that other people havenât told, to describe experiences that people normally donât find in books (or at least in mainstream books).
ALK: This is just a different kind of risk-taking?
GEA: Yes. As you said, Iâll be ridiculed and some academics will lose their respect for my work. A small numberâone-half of one percentâwill applaud me for talking about these things. Scholars connected to universitiesâwhat I call the âdependent scholars,â dependent on their discipline and their school in order to surviveâwill object to this material, while independent scholars like myself who arenât tied up to any institution will applaud my discussions of spiritual realities, imaginal realities, and the inner subjective life.
The scientific storyâwhich has no way of measuring subjectivityâis losing validity. It has created an industrial consumer society thatâs exploited the environment and put us in this crisis situation where weâre running out of resources. Many people live by the paradigm that progress means to produce and therefore consume more, so weâre in this race to consume and expand, to grow and to control the environment. As everyone knows, itâs not working. Science has to change its story: it must accept information that goes beyond the five senses. So right away you get into subjectivity, the inner life, thoughts, and feelings. You get into intuition, which is a very maligned sense; in fact, people donât even think of it as a sense.
ALK: Are you saying that some of your statementsâwhich might strike readers as âway out thereââare actually alternate ways of knowing that youâve accessed, ways of knowing which have enriched your writing and which provide alternatives for all of us to think about?
GEA: Right, and I think these ideas will find legitimacy after the turn of the century. But thereâs a lot of resistence when people are changing the way they perceive reality, the way they look at relationships and their environment. People want the old familiar ways. Traditional science has such a grip on us, itâs become the only way to describe reality. Every other way has been trivialized. I talk about this in Borderlands, where if you believe in some of these other ways youâre labeled superstitious. Once the century turns, more people will believe in the existence of something greater than the physical world. If you think of reality as a continuum or a spectrum, the reality we see with our eyes, hear with our ears, smell with our nose, and touch with our fingersâthat spectrum is a skinny little territory. Parts of a person are unknown to that person or to the culture but are known through dreams, imagination, spiritual experiences, or intuitive feelings. If science is going to continue as the reigning paradigm, it will have to change its story, change the way it controls reality, and begin acknowledging the paranormal, intuition, and subjective inner life. A few physicists, like Fred Allen Wolfe, have already begun this exploration. The ideas I talk about and am currently writing about will probably be frowned upon during the next couple of decades, but if my writing lasts, it will eventually be respected.
ALK: May your words be prophetic. In this interview you associate your early menstruation with your theory concerning your four death experiences, when different spirits entered your body each time you died. Do you still hold this theory or has your perspective changed, and if so, how?
GEA: I still hold this theory. I checked it out with a Russian psychic reader in San Francisco and with Luisah Teish, and they both agreed with my theory. Luisah Teish did a pretty detailed reading for me (she told me my mothers are Yemanja and Oya). Aurora Levins Morales also did a very good reading; she went into a trance and told me some things Iâd been thinking about: that I felt scattered and needed to put myself together again, very much like my reading of Coyolxauhqui. I felt a calling to be an artist in the sense of a shamanâhealing through words, using words as a medium for expressing the flights of the soul, communing with the spirit, having access to these other realities or worlds. At that time I felt pulled away from my calling as a writer because so many people around me needed some kind of healing. (People saw me as a healer; one person even said, âÂĄTĂș eres una curandera!â) I was doing tarot and psychic readings for other people, and it was taking up a lot of my energy. I thought, âDo I want to be a healer or do I want to heal through other means?â I backed away from those other types of healing and concentrated more on the writing. When Aurora Levins Morales did her reading, I was at that juncture, at that turning point, where I needed to rededicate myself to being an artist, a writer.
I have a piece called âResisting the Spirit,â based on an out-of-body experience I had in Austin. Like a lot of other people at that time I was experimenting with drugs, but I was using them to gain access to other realities. One night I mixed alcohol with percada, a downer, and my body had a reaction. I thought I was dying. My soul left my body. This story may or may not go into La Prieta, The Dark One. Some editors and publishers may censor the drug stuff because drugs have become a major addiction in our society.
As to my bleeding at the age of three monthsâdoctors could never figure it out; itâs a very rare hormonal disturbance or dysfunction. As far as I know only two peopleâincluding myselfâhave ever been diagnosed with it. Dysfunction is not due to the physiology of the body alone, other things impact on it. In my case some other entity or spirit had entered my body. This spirit was not used to incarnating in human bodies. (I do believe that we incarnate into different bodies, different races, different genders. Most of the souls in people originated from and have lived on the earth, but other souls or spirits come from beyond the earth). I got this idea early on but I couldnât make sense of it and thought, âGloria youâre going crazy, entertaining such ideas.â When I talked about it to people they looked at me like I was crazy. But as I grew older I began exploring itâthrough psychic readers, books, meditationâand following my intuition. I realized that it didnât really matter whether an extraterrestrial spirit had actually entered my body or I had made it up. Human beingsâ whole struggle is to give meaning to their experience, to their condition, and this was my way of giving meaning to my early bleeding. People shape their experience, thatâs how reality is created. Thereâs no such thing as objective truth. Itâs similar to how I create a story or a poem. The universe is created jointly by all the human minds and the universal intelligence in the trees, the deer, the snakes, and so on. By jointly, I mean all forms of consciousness, not just human. Even the rocks have a certain kind of consciousness, the trees, everything. I see the world as a text created by this collective consciousness.
ALK: You make a very provocative comment in this interview when you claim that âthere are a lot of Indian souls inhabiting white bodies.â This statement is very antiessentialist (or perhaps essentialism done differently, taken into the spiritual). Do you still believe this, and if so could you explain in greater detail what you mean? Your statement could be seen as a different form of appropriation, because there are so many New Age people who claim to be Indian.
GEA: This belief is similar to my idea that the universe is a text. An individual is multiple and has multiple personalities and multiple little selves, along with the big self. Iâm an individual but because I inhabit many worlds I can go from being at my momâs little pueblito to an academic classroom to a lesbian musical event to a writerâs conference, and in each instance I can experience what the other people present are experiencing.
ALK: Iâm not sure I see the connection between these examples, where you as an embodied individual move from one location to another, and your statement about âIndian soulsâ inhabiting white bodies.
GEA: Itâs the same movement but instead of a concrete physical movement itâs the movement of the soul. The soul has little souls, just like the self has little selves, and these little souls can manifest in people who are white, black, men, women âŠ
ALK: So you donât really mean âIndianâ souls. You mean souls which were in âIndianâ bodies, now occupying âwhiteâ bodies. The souls themselves donât have any kind of ethnic marker like âIndianâ or âwhite.â
GEA: Right. I also believe we bring knowledge from previous existences with us each time weâre born. Youâre not born as a blank slate; something from your previous lives bleeds through. If youâre incarnated as a black person for many, many times, when you become Russian or European, or Japanese, it kind of leaves a little trail.
ALK: Itâs a form of growth?
GEA: Right! If I look at my experience with you and say, âOh, sheâs so typically Chinese,â or âOh, sheâs so typically Indian,â it just means that behind that soul is the other. Does that make sense to you?
ALK: Yes! It makes a lot more sense than the way you said it in the interview. In this early interview you discuss creating a âwriting of convergenceââthe coming together of â[t]he sexual, the mental, the emotional, the psychic, the supernatural.â Thatâs almost twenty years ago! Have you developed this theory and style of writing, abandoned it, changed it?
GEA: Iâve developed it in personal essay form and fiction. Itâs integral to my teaching, my guided meditations, and my writing exercises. I believe that weâre very complex beings. We canât just divide the mind from the body in sexuality, or creativity and rationality from intuition. One of the tasks Iâve chosen is to blur these boundaries. I try to do this with some of the Prieta stories where one reality bleeds into another, where fiction bleeds into concrete reality with dreams and visions, and the energy from sexuality is very much a part of mental thought and feelings. Itâs not so much that Iâve written down the ideas rationally or concretely or theoretically, itâs more like Iâm fooling around with stories and the impact the stories have on the reader. Itâs very hard to paraphrase a story because when you read it and youâre experiencing the charactersâ emotionsâwhether itâs elation, anger, or fearâyour body is experiencing an emotional and psychic process. At the end of the story, you canât sit down and say, âThis is what the story really meansâ because it impacts on your unconscious in a way that you canât articulate in your conscious mind. Itâs very hard to get these ideas across fiction-wise; itâs much easier to explain rationally. But fiction has a greater impact on the whole psyche than theory does.