CASE ONE
Jim, a 25-year-old Marine, came in two weeks before his second deployment to Iraq. Newly shorn and unnervingly polite, he would have looked more like a 16-year-old high school student were it not for the telltale thousand-yard stare that marks those who have seen entirely too much. He sat stiffly in my office, eyes cast down. He reflected on the ways in which he had changed and wondered if he would ever be the same. He was embarrassed to admit that he was actually anxious to get back to the field where he felt confident and his so-called symptoms were adaptive. On the other hand, he had a tremendous sense of fatalism regarding his redeployment.
THERAPIST: Well, when you come back we can begin to make some sense of what youâve been through.
JIM: [Looking up, making eye contact for the first time in a piercing way] Iâm not coming back.
THERAPIST: [Speechless] What do you mean?
JIM: Iâm not going to make it this time.
THERAPIST: So why go back?
JIM: My men need me. They will be safer with me.
THERAPIST: So youâll have to stay safe to make sure that they are safe.
JIM: And if not, at least weâll die together.
CASE THREE
I had been working with a major in the Army Reserves who was a head nurse in a medical-surgical hospital attached to Abu Ghraib prison, one year after the well-publicized scandal there. A strong, articulate woman in her 50s, she had nearly 20 years in the Army Reserves and was near retirement from the service. She was uncharacteristically late for one of her appointments. I received a call 10 minutes into the session.
LOIS: Sorry I didnât call. Iâm in Texas at Ft. Sam Houston. A few of us were ordered to go for advanced training to do emergency work in the field at FOBâs (i.e., Forward Observation Bases).
THERAPIST: But you are getting out soon.
LOIS: I guess Uncle Sam has other plans for me.
I have worked with combat veterans for over 20 years. The vast majority have been Vietnam veterans with a smaller group of World War II, Korea, and Persian Gulf vets. In all cases, the war was literally over, although the âwar withinâ still raged on. When people in treatment would say that they felt like they were back in combat, both they, and I, were safe in the notion that the war was removed in time and space. It was both post- and tele- (i.e., distant in time and space). I began working with the Vietnam vets 10 years after the war had officially ended. Many of the vets had already tried a number of avoidant solutions in drugs, alcohol, and angry confrontations. They had no place to turn other than therapy.
I am also 10 years younger than the Vietnam veterans. When I first started, I became the âkid brotherâ too young to have faced the draft, and therefore not morally culpable when asked the question, âWere you there?â âOf course not. Youâre like my kid brother. He would have gone but he was too young.â This implies that I would have gone too.
I was also a kid therapist cutting my therapeutic milk teeth with these men. I use this image with all of the parental nurturance that this implies. For these men did become nurturing older brothers who discussed the horrors of war and its aftermath while also trying to protect me from their rage. There was also a tacit understanding, âI went so that you didnât have to.â I became Telemachus, the dutiful son willing to hear of his father Odysseusâ combat and 10 years of wandering among the monsters of intrusive memories and the lotus eaterâs trap of drug-induced forgetfulness (Shay, 2000). As the name translates, I too was âfar from the battle.â
Perhaps every combatant naively hopes that theirs is âthe war to end all wars,â and that they fought so that their sons and now daughters would not have to. I had a complementary naive fantasy that I was the last of war therapists. Since the Vietnam War was seemingly the last major conflict involving the United States, there would be no need for readjustment counseling or for the Department of Veterans Affairs for that matter. We would peacefully grow old together. In the same way that all trauma survivors long to return to their pretraumatized, innocent selves, I too long for the perhaps false sense of safety and security of wars long ago and far away.
Inherent in the diagnostic term posttraumatic stress disorder is the distance of time and space. The therapist and the survivor begin in a safe place to explore explosive material with the reassurance that the trauma is unlikely to reoccur. Indeed the very word survivor implies that the person is now no longer at risk; otherwise they would be only potential survivors.
Many of us who treat trauma survivors are now thrust into an unaccustomed role in which the traumatic situation is not post. The survivor is an ongoing participant or is being revictimized in various ways. The traditional safety of time and space evaporates as we, ourselves, go into the war zones to debrief those who are sometimes in the midst of traumatic situations. Or, in the case of 9/11, the trauma is brought to our doorstep threatening our own assumptions of safety.
This state of affairs is familiar to those who work with first responders, as well as those whose clients live in violent inner-city neighborhoods or whose clients are in abusive domestic relationships. Our patients are preparing for, or defending against, the very real probability of future trauma. Indeed, for some, trauma becomes routine, and mundane experiences are regarded as childish fantasies. The traumatized person views us, the âyet to be traumatized,â as naive children believing in the fairy tale notions of personal safety, agency, and faith in the possibility of interpersonal healing. The therapist is forced to look at what we all take for granted living day to day. What does this do to our faith in psychotherapeutic theories, practice, professional, and personal ethics? Indeed what does this do to our sanity when we are living in an insanely traumatized world?
Working with those who are in or soon to return to the war zone also opens up the possibility of actively intervening in someoneâs life perhaps to prevent retraumatization. What are the ethical, therapeutic, and existential dimensions of such interventions or decisions not to intervene?
There is also the issue of the type of work that can be done with those who are on alert to return to the battlefield or the inner city. Is not a certain amount of emotional numbing and guardedness essential for survival? In brief interventions, we may suggest that someone refrain from speaking about past traumas in order to not compromise their defensive alertness. This is certainly a major consideration when seeing first responders at their work site and now especially true for those who face redeployment. Jim, the Marine from the first vignette, was emotionally prepared for battle and for the reality that he might die. It was neither the time nor the place to ask about his first deployment other than in the most cursory way.
Time is a matter in another way. Those who work psychoanalytically are used to working over a period of years, multiple times a week. As the staccato rhythms of my initial vignettes suggest, I often see more people for far fewer sessions, often one or two. For those who stay, their concern is often a circumscribed, practica...