(a) With healing in her wings: integration and repair in a self-destructive adolescent
Elizabeth Urban
INTRODUCTION
One of the most important of Jungâs concepts is that of the self. Although he used the term in a number of different ways, the one that predominates is Jungâs definition of the self as the totality of the personality: mind and body, conscious and unconscious, ego and archetypes (Jung, 1971). As a phenomenon, the self is characterized by totality and wholeness, and is the source of meaning. Functionally it is an organizer and integrator, bringing together and structuring the inner world. Because the self is the totality of the personality, it contains or, rather, transcends opposites.
For Jung, meaning and the pressure to become whole are the motivating drives behind development. From his work with adults in mid-life, he conceived development as a process, termed âindividuationâ, in which the individual becomes more deeply and truly himself. Individuation is ongoing; one individuates but is never individuated. Technically, it is a process by which the ego, the centre of perception, time and again confronts conflicting and opposite forces, say between good and evil, or being dependent and being separate. The consequence of the conflict between opposites isâand here is Jungâs optimism (Fordham, 1985a)âa new resolution, symbol or insight arising in the ego. Individuation thus involves the ego and a pair of opposites, and this triangulation is a cornerstone in Jungian understanding of development (Jung, 1955â6, 1959; Fordham, 1985b).
FORDHAMâS MODEL
Drawing upon Jungâs concept of the self, Fordham postulated a primary integrate before birth, which he termed the primary self. Taking Jungâs concept of the self as a psychic integrator and organizer, he added his own original concept, that the primary self divides up, or deintegrates, in order to relate to the environment. The self then assimilates the experience by reintegrating it (Fordham, 1976, 1994).
Freud used the protozoa amoeba as an analogy for the ego (Laplanche and Pontalis, 1973), and it can also be used as a model for the deintegrating and reintegrating primary self. The pseudopod of the amoeba reaches out into the environment and takes in food (deintegration). What is taken in is then assimilated into the nucleated endoplasm (reintegration). The pseudopod does not become detached from the rest of the amoeba, but remains part of it; just as deintegrates remain part of the primary self. If the deintegrate (experience) becomes cut off from the self, then splitting occurs. In other words, according to Fordham, splitting refers to experiences that have pathologically become detached from the self (Fordham, 1987, 1993).
Fordham cites a typical example of deintegration and reintegration in infancy. An infant wakes up from sleep, a state of integration, and relates to the breast during a feed. Following the feed, the baby sleeps again, assimilating, or reintegrating, the milk and the experience (Fordham, 1987). A fuller description, which takes into account the interactive dimension of Fordhamâs model, would be as follows. The infant wakes from a state of integration, having an archetypal predisposition towards that which fills his need (cf. Bionâs preconception (Bion, 1962)). He gives signals, such as crying, to his mother. The mother takes these signals into herself, does something with them, and then responds to her baby, such as putting him to the breast. The baby feeds, and takes in not only the milk but something of the motherâs way of feeding and responding. In assimilating the milk and the experience, the baby adds something of his own, such as meaning, the way the mother added something of her own, such as alpha function, when she took in the babyâs signals. What is done within the baby is the result of actions of the self. I shall return to this.
The organizing functions of the self differ from those of the ego. It is the self that accounts for the overall, archetypally shaped unfolding of the personality, and for the organization of the infantâs personality. However, infants also exhibit rapidly fluctuating states, which Fordham understands as evidence of the fragile and unstable infant ego. There are bits of ego at birth, because early experiences (deintegrates) include bits of perception or awareness. Only in the course of development, that is, as the self deintegrates and reintegrates, do they coalesce into a stable ego.
The unfolding of the personality proceeds in surges, which can be understood as periods of massive deintegration. The findings of experimental researchers indicate that surges within the first year occur at birth, at about two months, to a lesser degree at three to five months, and again at ten to twelve months (Stern, 1985; Trevarthen, 1980; Trevarthen and Marwick, 1986).
I should now like to focus on three corollaries of Fordhamâs postulate of a deintegrating and reintegrating primary self, which pertain to whole and part objects and the depressive position. I shall attempt to expand upon each by drawing upon infant studies.
FIRST COROLLARY: WHOLE OBJECTS PRECEDE PART OBJECTS
For Fordham, the primary self begins before birth. Unlike Freudâs primary narcissism with its libidinous and destructive energies, the energy of the primary self is neutral. Interaction between archetypally (biologically) determined expectations and the intra-uterine environment produces the first objects, which Fordham terms âself objectsâ (Fordham, 1994). These are pre-image and pre-symbol, and, as I understand them, are what Alvarez is describing when she refers to the pre-objects of autistic children (Alvarez, 1992).
Self objects are imbued with the self, that is, with feelings of wholeness, at-oneness, altogetherness, together-with-me-ness. At the beginning of life, these qualities pervade experiences, thus creating states of fusion via the processes of projective and introjective identification, early processes that initially are probably very close to one another. Foetal swallowing provides a picture of how the experience of being at one with that which one is inside (projective identification) can be very close to that of being at one with that which one has inside (introjecitive identification). According to Milakovic, the foetus âat willâ swallows amniotic fluid in order to regulate the imbalance of fluids in its body (Milakovic, 1967). It is easy to imagine that, because what provides relief is of minimum texture and the same temperature as the foetus, what envelops and what is taken in is experienced by the foetus as being part of itself.
After birth, early feeds (deintegrations) are typified by the infantâs total absorption in the experience, eyes closed, body still, and mouth sucking rhythmically, as if the breast were the whole of his universe and he was giving himself entirely to it. Visual, aural and tactile aspects of the mother become incorporated into the wholeness characterizing early self objects. From the observerâs point of view, the baby is relating to parts of the mother, but from the infantâs point of view, the part is the whole (Fordham, 1987; Astor, 1989).
Earlier, I stated that, when the infant assimilates an experience (reintegration), he adds something to it. An example is amodal perception and cross-modal fluency. Because the newborn can fluently translate amodal experiences from one sense into another, Stern concludes that the âseenâ breast is experienced by the infant to be the same as the âsuckedâ breast (Stern, 1985). In Fordhamâs model, the global, whole nature of the infantâs perceptions is an expression of actions of the self that make them so. According to the infantâs experience, self objects are whole objects. However, even in infancy, self objects come and go, and so do experiences of wholeness and fusion (Fordham, 1985b).
SECOND COROLLARY: PART OBJECTS ARE A RESULT OF DEINTEGRATION AND REINTEGRATION
Self objects arise out of and represent the satisfied needs of the foetus and, later, the infant, and quickly develop into good objects. Early on, other concurrent sense data, for example, commotion from an older sibling, do not become integrated (Stern, 1985; Brazelton, 1991), or are experienced as not-self: if not-self objects are felt to be frustrating or unpleasant, they initially are rejected, attacked or evacuated (Fordham, 1976), and can later become bad objects. The intensification of and differentiation between âgoodâ and âbadâ, which can be observed in young infants, is a result of early actions of the self, creating parts out of the whole.
At about six weeks to two months, dramatic changes occur in the infant, indicating a new surge of deintegration. Trevarthen details the considerable changes that occur in the area of communication. He describes in fascinating detail the intricate, alternating behaviours of infant and mother that develop into protoconversations. Later, at three to five months and given a secure relationship with a present mother, the infant turns away from face-to-face conversations in order to engage with an object animated by the mother (Trevarthen, 1980; Trevarthen and Marwick, 1986). Psychoanalytic baby observations show how babies this age explore objects on their own through mouthing and handling. Taken all together, these observations show how animate and inanimate become firmly differentiated.
Stern describes the gradual differentiation between self and other. He details how the infant sifts invariant from variant features of experience and organizes them into clusters of experiences associated with self and experiences associated with another, resulting in the infantâs sense of core self and sense of core other: âSomehow, the different invariants of self-experience are integratedâŚ. Similarly, [the different invariants of different experiences of the mother] all get disentangled and sorted. âIslands of consistencyâ somehow form and coalesceâ (Stern, 1985:98).
In Fordhamâs model, the sorting of invariant from variant features and the organization of them into discrete clusters are actions of the integrating and organizing functions of the primary self. Fordham would consider Sternâs description of the coalescence of âislands of consistencyâ into a sense of self to be a description of ego formation. For Fordham, having a sense, a perception or an awarenessâno matter how primitiveâis a function of the ego (Fordham, 1994).
The self not only shapes the ego, it also adds something to the clustering of perceptions. This means that there is a fundamental difference between Fordhamâs and Sternâs concepts of the ego. This can be seen in their different views about selfrepresentations, which arise in the ego. Sternâs representations of interactions that have been generalised (RIGS) are mental prototypes of lived experience, that is, memories of actual experiences. For Fordham, the ego is born out of the self and despite the gradual boundary that is built up between them, the self remains partially represented in the ego. Hence self representations contain aspects of the self, and are more than memories of actual experiences (Fordham, 1985b).
In summary, through deintegration and reintegration, the original wholeness of self objects divides up into parts, such as good and bad, inside and outside, animate and inanimate, and self and other.
THIRD COROLLARY: INDIVIDUATION BEGINS WITH THE DEPRESSIVE POSITION
At about ten to twelve months there is another surge of new developments, or deintegrations. In the period Trevarthen terms âsecondary intersubjectivityâ, play between mother and infant becomes a shared activity. The baby begins to cooperate with the mother, anticipating her intentions and learning from her the purposes of certain objects, for instance, what to do with a comb. When the meaning of an object can be shared, the object becomes a potential symbol (Trevarthen, 1980; Trevarthen and Marwick, 1986). According to Stern, this is the period of establishing a sense of subjective self. As the infant discovers that inner experiences are shareable, he begins to relate to his motherâs mind and acquires âa âtheoryâ of separate mindsâ (Stern, 1985:124). Thus, Trevarthen and Stern demonstrate the enormous potential for cognitive development that comes out of the bringing together of self/other, animate/inanimate, and inside (the mind)/outside (behaviour).
Psychoanalytic baby observations during this period are usually concerned with the infantâs final weaning from the breast. An example is from the observation of Edward, at twelve months, one week. I am grateful to the observer in the BAP training who allowed me to use the following extracts from her notes.
Edward was completely weaned from the breast only a few weeks before. At the beginning of the observation, the observer watched him being given lunch from a bowl. When the bowl was emptied and taken away, Edward suddenly let out an intense wail, âmouth open wide and crying bitterly so that he was just exhaling in bursts. He was inconsolableâ.
His mother offered him the bowl and then juice, which he refused. Then she tried to hold him. Each effort on her part to comfort or distract seemed to escalate his screams. Eventually the mother took him into the lounge and cleared a space for him on the floor, while she sat close by. âFor fifteen or twenty minutes, he rolled on the floor and screamed, [writhing] back and forth.â Throughout this time the mother remained close and attentive.
Slowly the intensity of the screaming eased but did not stop, and Edward seemed able to tolerate his motherâs soothing. The screams had changed into something more regular and rhythmic, but [eventually] they stopped altogether and at last he lay still and quietâŚ. He stared at the ceiling, exhaustedâŚ. His mother bent over him after a while and he smiled slowly in response. Within minutes he was smiling and seemed quite happy.
The seminar group found this observation quite upsetting, and considered that Edwardâs loss of the bowl might be an expression of his loss of the breast. Nothing external in the observation accounted for the unreachable depth and intensity of his response; he was responding to something internal. In thwarting his motherâs efforts to console or distract, he seemed to be âtrueâ to his experience of his loss and to show a depth of character. Eventually and of its own accord, the intensity subsided, disappeared, and a good relationship with the mother was resto...