We had finished our supper and were taking our tea in my motherās morning room.
Itās quite a lovely room, the long windows open to a surprisingly mild spring evening, and a bit of a breeze pleasantly lifting the lilac curtains just a little, so that we could hear the nightingale singing in the tree by the garden gate.
The very picture of a happy family enjoying a companionable silence as we listened.
The only thing that spoiled this charming scene were the expressions on our faces.
Simon Brandon, home from whatever it was that had taken him to Scotland while I was in Paris, was trying his best not to look grim.
I had come home from Paris to discover that I was on extended leave while the Queen Alexandraās Imperial Military Nursing Service decided what to do with me. It was especially disappointing to me, because Iād expected to return to one of the clinics for the wounded who were still in our care. But for my parentsā sake, I was trying to put a brave face on waiting for news.
My mother, as always sensitive to the feelings of those around her, was doing her best not to look worried.
And my father, on a brief leave from the Peace Talks in Paris, was attempting to hide his frustration with the direction the talks were taking, because he was privy to much of the behind-the-scenes maneuveringsāmaneuverings he couldnāt discuss, bottling them up inside instead. He hadnāt even complimented Cook on dinner, a measure of his preoccupation.
Adding to this merry evening was my own mention of the wedding in Ireland that I was to attend in a fortnightās time.
One of the Irish nurses who had been aboard Britannic with me when it sank off the Greek coast had nearly died from severe injuries to her legs when we abandoned ship. I had barely managed to pull her into one of the lifeboats and stop the bleeding. Then as we waited for rescue, several of the doctors and I had done our best to save her left leg, and miracle of miracles, we had succeeded. Eileen had been able to walk again after several months of intensive rehabilitation, and she was so grateful that she asked me to be her attendant at her wedding in Ireland when the war ended and both she and her fiancƩ were free to marry.
My parents and Simon were against my going there.
The problem was the Easter Rising in Ireland in 1916, an attempt to break away from England and set up home rule. It had been put down ruthlessly, and that had only aggravated the situation, hardening the Irish determination to be independent. The English position was that whatever their goals, to openly rebel while Britain was engaged in the Great War was little short of treason, and several of the ringleaders were shot. In 1916, we werenāt certain of victory in France, and then on the heels of the Easter Rising, the Somme Offensive in July had dragged on for months, killing thousands of men. The Government wasnāt in a mood of clemency.
The Irish, on the other hand, had felt they had waited long enough for independence, and many were tired of promises. There were only about four hundred people involved in the revolt, but it had set a spark alight across the countryside. Those at home, bearing the brunt of Britainās displeasure, turned on their own and considered the Irishmen who were fighting in the trenches as traitors to the Cause, and there had been incidents that kept the anger on both sides of the issue very close to the boiling point. Some of the worse attacks had been reported in the British press, and of course my parents had read about them.
I could understand my parentsā position. On the other hand, Eileen had told me that I would be safe, and her familyās protection would be more than enough for the short time I would be in Ireland. Indeed, her cousin had been one of the defenders at the Post Office in Dublin during the worst of the fighting, and he was looked upon as a hero. Whatās more, he had written to my fatherāas if they were equals! Unheard of! After all, the Colonel Sahib, as we called him, was a high-ranking British Army officer and Eileenās cousin had a price on his headāto assure him I would be taken care of. Another English officer would also be presentāhe was to be the groomās best manāand he would certainly see that I traveled safely to and from Ireland.
We had left the discussion at the supper table and were drinking our tea in a far-from-comfortable silence. But I couldnāt leave the matter there. I owed it to Eileen to let her know if I wasnāt able to come. Still, considering what I had done in France, on my own, while I was serving there, I was better prepared than most young women to take care of myself in hostile situations.
Our nearest neighborās daughter, Sara, had never been out of Somerset. I could understand if her parents had told her she oughtnāt go. Iād have agreed.
And so I said now, offering a compromise, āI wonāt go as a nursing Sister, in uniform. Iāll dress very simply, so as not to attract attention.ā
āYou must cross Ireland, my dear,ā my father said. āBy train. And it isnāt a direct connection. Youāll change twice. The last ten miles you must travel by motorcar. Or dogcart for all I know. And come back in reverse.ā
I glanced at Simon, hoping he might suggest that he accompany me. Then I looked away. He would be less safe than I was, with his English accent and his soldierās stride.
āSurely Eileen could have someone meet me in Dublin?ā But she hadnāt suggested it . . .
I sighed.
Accustomed to making my own decisions for four years, I was finding it hard to be the dutiful daughter Iād been in 1914. Much as I adored my parents, Iād changed.
My mother seemed to grasp that. She said, finding a smile, āThere have been several murders lately, darling. Of English travelers. In France, you had the Armyās protectionāwell, umbrella. You were a Sister, an officer. It gave you a standing that everyone understood. That wonāt exist in Ireland. You will be seen as a target, if someone wishes to make a name for himself by shooting at you. You must see that.ā
It was a different argument from my fatherās or Simonās. They had been worried about travel, about finding my way in an unfriendly country, about the difficulties of being a bridesmaid when the English were anathema in most quarters. Everyone at the wedding would know who I was, and while I might not be in trouble there, it was possible that between the wedding and the ferry to England, someone might decide to do something rash.
My mother did have a point. I finished my tea and set the cup on the table as I considered what sheād said.
And then I remembered something.
I glanced at Simon, then looked away again. He hadnāt been himself since Scotland. The easy friendship that had always been between us had been replaced by a stiffness that had left me to wonder what Iād done to deserve it. And so I hesitated to mention what had just occurred to me.
There had been a flyer in France, while I was in Paris, an American. As I was leaving the country, boarding my ship in Calais, Captain Jackson had asked me to tell Simon hello for him. Iād suspected at the time that the Captain might have been keeping an eye on me at Simonās request. It would have been typical of Simonāthen. And much as that annoyed me in hindsight, Iād found the pilot very helpful indeed and couldnāt very well complain.
The question now was, how did I bring Captain Jackson into the conversation without letting Simon know what Iād guessed?
I took a deep breath. In for a penny, in for a pound . . .
āI think thereās a way we could avoid all the problems of traveling in Ireland. What if I could fly from England to Eileenās village? And back again. Iād be there just for the wedding, and with her family the entire time.ā
There was a smile on my motherās face as she turned to the Colonel Sahib. But my fatherās frown had deepened. āI could probably find someone to fly you. But Iām not sure I could do that in time.ā
āYou donāt need to find anyone. Simon? Captain Jackson is eager for any opportunity to fly. Do you think he might come to England and take me to Ireland?ā
The surprise on Simonās face was quickly covered.
I could see that Captain Jackson hadnāt told him that I knew about his friendship with Simon.
āI can ask him,ā he said. āCertainly.ā
āDo you think heāll agree? Iāll make it worth his while,ā my father said.
And thatās how I got to attend a wedding in Ireland.