1.
He wakes up after 100 years, in the middle of a wood.
Shivering. Fearful. Blind.
Thereās no light.
Yes there is light, just not much of it, not sun, but a lightening of the dark.
Dawn.
He jumps as a crow takes off from an unseen branch, scattering the silence.
He lies, half-buried, within and between the roots of an ancient hornbeam. Heās in considerable pain. Stiff and brittle. He checks himself over. Hands. Head. Arms. Legs. Feet. Everything is present and correct, thank God. His entire body is encased in mud and wetness ā sweat, dew, vomit, blood ā he has no idea. He has seven round holes in his shirt. The wind whistles right through him.
He gets to his feet. Thereās no sign of another soul. He closes his eyes and listens but the darkness frightens him so he opens his eyes again. Everything feels close in the half-light. He smells something burning far away.
A church-bell?
Thatās not possible.
First the crow now this.
He canāt remember how long itās been since he heard these sounds.
And thatās when it occurs to him, it dawns on him, you might say, as the dawn steps slowly through the trees and across the ground, giving shape to the world that was previously only blackness, it dawns on him that he has absolutely no idea where he is.
Or who he is.
He canāt remember his name.
He canāt ā
He canāt remember ā
Sweat breaks out on his forehead.
He opens his mouth to scream but itās full of cobwebs.
He holds up his hands in front of his face. Hard and cracked like dry wood. He tries to recall something, anything that these hands have done, but he canāt.
Alone in a wood, freezing, exhausted, starving. No memory of who he is or what he is doing. No clue as to what he should do next.
What happened?
Someone must have hit him. Yes. He must have been in a fight. Or he fell over, knocked himself against a tree branch. Possibly there was an explosion of some kind.
There was violence, he is sure.
He watches the light brighten in the canopies of the trees and listens to the crows.
Thereās something off about this place, something wrong.
Itās more silent and still than a wood has a right to be.
More like a church.
Or a cemetery.
He sees that he is a soldier. He is wearing a soldierās uniform and soldierās boots. But instead of feeling reassured by this fact, he has only questions. What war am I fighting? Where is my regiment? Where are my mates? What happened to my weapon? What happened? What happened?
He notices that he knows the names of trees. Oak. Lime. Beech. Thatās something, at least.
He rests his hand against the broad trunk of an oak tree.
Thereās a song too, a random melody, the rise and fall, on the tip of his tongue. He believes that if he can somehow remember the song that everything else will reappear.
He gives up.
He punches the oak tree and says fuck.
Itās his first word in a long time and he scares himself half to death.
He says it again to make sure he wasnāt imagining it.
The light grows every minute.
As the sun rises to meet him, as the first rays of day hit him in the face with the force of a slap ā no warmth in the light just colour, yellow, cold, unforgiving ā itās then that he remembers ā
He remembers he is dead.
He remembers ā
He remembers everything.
2.1
RACHEL: First thing I do when I wake up is check the news on my phone.
A mistake.
Nuclear threats. An unstoppable wildfire burning a hole in the atmosphere. Fucking Trump. Fucking Brexit.
I know I should relax.
I know I should be stronger.
I know I should block out the noise and the violence of everything.
The baby is kicking and I desperately need a piss.
I have the feeling that something is about to break.
*
I lead the kids into the woods and have them line up beside the memorial.
The veterans form similar ranks opposite.
Medals tinkle like rain on glass.
You can tell how old each regiment is by height. The younger, more recent soldiers are big, upright. The older ones bent and small.
They seem to be having a smashing time.
Chatting, back-slapping, telling jokes.
Itās a party!
One by one the kids fall silent as they observe the soldiers.
Theyāve never seen real soldiers before.
Not what they imagined.
Not big, brave, bloody heroes.
Their ordinarin...