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Before I Was A Bear
Eleanor Tindall
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Before I Was A Bear
Eleanor Tindall
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On a rainy Wednesday evening, Cally sits at her local pub waiting for her best friend. She notices someone in the corner. She recognises them. It's her celebrity crush. It can't be them though, can it? It isn't. This doesn't happen. She won't go over. She won't... A darkly comedic coming-of-age solo play, Before I Was A Bear is a modern myth about the power dynamics of sexuality and shame, women's relationships with each other, and an affair with a hot TV detective.
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âOn a Missionâ by Katy B plays.
CALLY dances. Itâs joyful and a bit erratic. After a while she gets out of breath. The music stops. She stands and gets her breath back.
I know what youâre thinking.
That expression, Iâve seen it before
Iâve seen it a million times before, Iâm used to it
Youâre not the first person to look at me like that and
youâre definitely not going to be the last
Beat.
I think you should know though, first things first,
before I start
before I start
That I wasnât always like this actually
I used to be Normal
I know what youâre gonna say, âWhatâs normalâ, yeah
well wait a second, because I mean normal as in I
didnât use to have fur or sharp teeth or claws or huge
heavy monstrous feet,
obviously
well wait a second, because I mean normal as in I
didnât use to have fur or sharp teeth or claws or huge
heavy monstrous feet,
obviously
As in I was not a fucking bear, obviously
Iâm Cally
And I used to be like you
I used to wear jeans and trainers
and bras, sometimes
and bras, sometimes
I used to drink beer and wine and glens vodka mixed
with Tesco brand energy drinks
with Tesco brand energy drinks
I used to buy lettuce with good intentions only for it to
turn black and make the whole kitchen smell
turn black and make the whole kitchen smell
I used to hurt people by accident and I used to hurt
people on purpose
people on purpose
People used to hurt me by accident and people used to
hurt me on purpose
hurt me on purpose
I used to laugh until I almost split into pieces and I
used to get pissed off and piss people off, did that a lot,
used to get pissed off and piss people off, did that a lot,
I used to post dumb shit on Twitter and Instagram and
wait for the likes and the retweets and I used to stay up
all night talking my mouth off and arguing about stuff I
didnât know enough about
wait for the likes and the retweets and I used to stay up
all night talking my mouth off and arguing about stuff I
didnât know enough about
I used to kiss people who I really wanted to kiss and
I used to kiss people who I really did not want to kiss
and I used to cry on night buses and I used to cry in
and I used to cry on night buses and I used to cry in
Ubers and I used to cry on the Victoria line and the
Bakerloo line and the Jubilee line and the Piccadilly
line and the Hammersmith and City line and the
line and the Hammersmith and City line and the
Central line, mostly the Central line, basically every
line though apart from the Waterloo and City line
because who actually uses that
line though apart from the Waterloo and City line
because who actually uses that
I used to have panic attacks in lifts and I used to throw
up on the street
up on the street
I used to be so happy I felt like the edges of my body
were made of cotton wool
were made of cotton wool
I used to be so sad I felt like I was at the bottom of a
well with no way up
well with no way up
I used to have sex
I used to have a lot of sex
I used to have sex with men and women and women
and men and both at the same time though I wouldnât
recommend that, nice in theory but in practice a bit
too much, I found it a bit too much, a bit too much to
concentrate on, each to their own though
and men and both at the same time though I wouldnât
recommend that, nice in theory but in practice a bit
too much, I found it a bit too much, a bit too much to
concentrate on, each to their own though
I used to not have sex
At all
With anyone
For months
I used to be like you, before
So if you wait for a second
If you just wait, and you listen
Open your ears and listen
Open your eyes and listen
You need a lot of listening space because my voice is
bountiful and heavy and full
bountiful and heavy and full
You need a lot of empty space in your ears ready
I know what youâre thinking
Just listen
A change.
Parents didnât like me much when I was a kid
Other peopleâs parents, though also my own to be
honest
honest
I was really obnoxious and said what I thought without
a care for anyone else and had a compulsion to break
every rule put on me
a care for anyone else and had a compulsion to break
every rule put on me
I had this mate called Remy, sheâs at my house one
day and weâre playing with Beanie Babies and Iâm
bored cos I fucking hate Beanie Babies so I decide to
root though my parentsâ stuff instead
day and weâre playing with Beanie Babies and Iâm
bored cos I fucking hate Beanie Babies so I decide to
root though my parentsâ stuff instead
Remyâs like: âDonât, weâll get in trouble, what about
the Beanie Babies???â
the Beanie Babies???â
I find this book and I open it and itâs filled with
pictures of people contorted into weird positions and
titles like
pictures of people contorted into weird positions and
titles like
The Cat, Doggy Style, Reverse Cowgirl
I laugh cos itâs funny and I show Remy and she laughs
too but then she tells her mum and they donât let her
come over anymore and from then on Iâm known as
too but then she tells her mum and they donât let her
come over anymore and from then on Iâm known as
âA Bad Influenceâ
which Iâm actually quite proud of
which Iâm actually quite proud of
My brother Leo whoâs barely a year older than me
and the worst person in the world has all these almost-
naked posters of Holly Valance and Beyoncé and JLo
up on his wall
and the worst person in the world has all these almost-
naked posters of Holly Valance and Beyoncé and JLo
up on his wall
I remember Iâd stare at their smooth stomachs and
shiny thighs and itâd make me feel something that I
couldnât name
shiny thighs and itâd make me feel something that I
couldnât name
I go past his room one day, Iâm nine
I can hear these noises coming from inside so I open
his door and see him and his mates crowded around
the TV watching something
his door and see him and his mates crowded around
the TV watching something
CALLY watches her brother and his friends watch the TV.
Everyone on the TV is naked
Everyone is so naked Iâve never seen anyone as naked
in my life
in my life
I remember thinking that I for sure could never be
that naked
that naked
My body feels h...