Healer of our evâry ill, light of each tomorrow, give us peace beyond our fear, and hope beyond our sorrow.
âMarty Haugen
Near Tampa many years ago for a conference exploring modern implications of the historic catechumenate (the ancient protracted process preparing adult candidates for baptism), I heard a story offered by an Episcopal bishop who described a congregationânear the Smokies in the mountains of East Tennesseeâwithin his diocese and general oversight.1
Due to a shrinking membership census, the congregation was served by seminary interns in a succession of one-year stints. One seminarian, poring over past sacramental history in the church archives, came upon an entry with a name, date, and cryptic two-word comment alongside an eye-catching asterisk: âGrover Crockett*, Partially Baptized.â
Perplexed, salvifically vigilant, and more than a little curious, the seminary intern (Iâll call her Ginny) phoned her pastoral supervisor thirty miles away. âAsk around,â he said. âYouâre not there for very long, but part of this year is learning how to become something of a clergy sleuth. I suspect thereâs an interesting story among your older parishioners.â
Vicar Ginny visited Milt and Garnettâboth born near the church and married in the sanctuaryâwho recalled Grover, then in his late eighties, whoâd never been baptized but grew up in the Baptist tradition. He wanted to be baptized during the Easter season and fully immersed in the creek that ran below the church building.
Easter came early that year. âAbout as early as it could possibly fall,â Milt said.
âLate March,â said Garnett. âOn the second Sunday of the season, after a stirring sermon about that rascal Thomas, my favorite disciple, most of the congregation hiked down the hill and assembled on the creek bank. It was a warm day in early April, but let me tell you, that water was cold from snow-melt from way up in the national park.â
âOur pastor at the time wore fishing waders for the baptism,â Milt continued. âOld Grover went all the way under once and then again, holding his nose throughout. Nobody so much as coughed. It was pretty dramatic and all.â
âWhen he came up that second time, though, sputtering and shaking,â Garnett said, âyou could have heard Grover yell all the way up to Clingmanâs Dome. That old man was practically running, yelling, as he made for the creek bank and a dry towel.â
Milt and Garnett looked at Vicar Ginny and quoted Groverâs chilly groan in unison:
âThe Father and Son were hard enough. I canât take the Holy Spirit!â
*
In her short story âThe Riverâ (first published in 1955), Flannery OâConnor writes about a young boy, Harry Ashfield, whose need to belong to something larger than his strange family causes him to deceive his new babysitter, Mrs. Connin, and adopt the first name of a local preacher, Bevel Summers, who draws crowds to an âold red water riverâ where people come for baptism outside an unnamed Southern town. Harry/Bevel walks to the river one day with Mrs. Connin, a fervent believer, and decides to come forward for the sacrament:
âHave you ever been Baptized?â the preacher asked.
âWhatâs that?â he murmured.
âIf I baptize you,â the preacher said, âyouâll be able to go to the Kingdom of Christ. Youâll be washed in the river of suffering, son, and youâll go by the deep river of life. Do you want that?â
âYes,â the child said, and thought, I wonât go back to the apartment then; Iâll go under the river.
âYou wonât be the same again,â the preacher said. âYouâll count.â . . . He held him under while he said the words of Baptism and then he jerked him up again and looked sternly at the gasping child . . . âYou count now,â the preacher said. âYou didnât even count before.â
The little boy was too shocked to cry. He spit out the muddy water and rubbed his wet sleeve into his eyes and over his face.2
A bevel in carpentry is âa sloping surface.â The arc of the story suggests this preacher (and the boy) may indeed be on a theologically slippery slope in their understanding of baptism. The babysitterâs last name reveals Flanneryâs own theological suspicions that many of her regional kindred are âconnedâ by promises of a false identity composed of now âcountingâ in the Lordâs eyes only as a result of baptism. Itâs also entirely possible that the similarity of the writerâs own last name to Mrs. Conninâs may reveal Flanneryâs own sometimes silent complicity in such an understanding. OâConnor was a savvy and committed Roman Catholic churchgoer her entire adult life before succumbing to lupus at age thirty-nine. She also was well aware of the flaws and foibles of the church and local theology applied misguidedly.3 OâConnor deftly recognized that the Christian vision in her stories, addressed to a culture that increasingly did not share this vision, should often be administered âby shockâto the hard of hearing you shout, and for the almost-blind you draw large and startling figures.â4 In her novel The Violent Bear It Away (1960), a baptism shockingly results in an actual drowning.
A parish pastor for thirty-one years in four different localesârural, small town, and urban settingsâI received more than one frantic phone call from a worried parent eager to schedule the sacrament lest some dark event might befall their child. This lingering perception of the sacrament suggests magical inclusion, a protective shield from all evil, and minimal understanding of baptismâs biblical purpose.
âWhatâs that?â the child asks of baptism in OâConnorâs story. According to Rev. Bevel Summers (and many other clergy of my acquaintance still mired in a missionary understanding that once fueled arduous journeys across the world primarily initiated to save heathens from hell), baptism is centrally a âcountingâ exercise and little more.
I canât take the Holy Spirit. Perhaps Grover Crockettâs amusing âpartialâ dunking unintentionally reveals whatâs truly at stake in baptism with a Spirit that brings âa new creationâ (2 Cor 5:17) into being whose identity is so grounded in the promises of the Holy Trinity that any threat, any fear (future or present) is given relative and persistent demotion in a believerâs daily existence.
If this is indeed a central part of the Holy Spiritâs job description, as I intend to clarify in these pages, then such a dunking for many can be quite a lot to âtake.â Relying on God rather than myriad supplemental protections may indeed cause one to run like hell toward the hills with Grover. But such a radical identity can also certainly form an enviable âpeace of God, which surpasses all understandingâ (Phil 4:7), guarding the hearts and minds of the baptized to face any obstacle or perceived threat.
Iâm thinking here of the amazing peace and calm exhibited by Paul and Silas, who land in prison after healing a soothsaying slave girl (Acts 16:16â40) possessed by âa spirit of divinationâ (16:16).5 Her mother may have been happy after the healing, but the Chamber of Commerce is livid. For Philippi, a town only a couple miles from the Aegean Sea with a fair number of seafaring tourists, the girl was something of an economic boon.
Money isnât funny. People vote with their pocketbooks, then and now. Two disruptive pastorsâperhaps emboldened from a fresh encounter with Lydia and other converts down by the river (16:13) in the local congregationâs origin storyâare perceived as threats to the local economy, âdisturbing our cityâ (16:20). Paul and Silas are stripped naked, beaten with rods, and placed âin the innermost cellâ (16:24) of the prison with their feet in stocksâbasically âunder the jailâ as my public defender daughter puts it when she visits clients whoâve really messed up.
I (a sometimes-jaded pastor) can imagine any number of jaded responses from these two river preachers with bloodied backs and nobody to call. Instead, around midnight, âPaul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to Godâ6 (16:25) in a surprising choral testimony to other prisoners listening nearby. God apparently heard them also. An earthquake liberates the two pastors and the entire inmate population, but you really have to conclude that the hymn-singers possessed an enviable freedom long before the chains fell off. Their true liberation resided in an identity capable of withstanding this or any bruising, bloody night that might come their way.
This truth is underscored, in contrast, by the reaction of the jailer, roused from the rumbling, who comes close to dying by suicide (16:27) upon discovering (on his watch) a seemingly empty jail. The man holding all the keys to the placeâjangling in his pocket, surely reminding him who was in chargeâis actually in bondage to great fear and trepidation, under the thumb of another perceived power. Itâs a delicious literary twist and conjures several important questions: Who in this story is really free? Who is imprisoned by what? What ultimate power truly holds the keys to liberation?
Please note that the jailbirds make no attempt to escape postearthquake. Give credit to the jailer, moved by the events of this night, for asking the right question: âSirs, what must I do to be saved?â (16:30)âa loaded evangelical question, centuries later, but here having loads more to do with this life than the next. The man could have put it another way: âHow in the world can I discover in my fear-filled life the freedom you two seem to presently have in yours?â
Paul and Silas reveal the true keeper of the keys to this frightened man and all in his household. The water used to wash pastoral wounds (16:33) undoubtedly flowed from the same local spring used that night for the baptisms of the jailer and his entire family.7 Unlike the superficial sacramental benefit espoused by Rev. Bevel Summers in OâConnorâs short story, these two river preachers share a gift with a spiritual depth far beyond âcountingâ new souls magically added to a faraway promised place.8 Paul and Silas are so secure in their conviction concerning the true possessor of the keys to freedom that they still make no attempt to flee the premises but decide to hang around until the next morning to confront the very men who bloodied their backs (16:37â39). Only then do they return to the relative safety of the home (16:40) of their early church council leader, Lydia, who sold purple cloth (16:14) and perhaps took note that some of her colorful cloth ironically matched their raised bruises.
Itâs natural for modern Christians to perhaps ponder with some envy the bravery of Paul and Silas and pose the understandable question of the man who jangled all the keys in his pocket: What must I do to get what youâve got? Future chapters of this book will address how pastors and local congregations might shape a vigorous process of Christian formation resulting in a holy confidence similar to these two jailed pastors. For now, however, I want to linger with this jailer; his initial fear and its paralysis are mirrored in the lives of many church people of my acquaintance.
*
Women received their dead by resurrection. Others were tortured, refusing to accept release, in order to obtain a better resurrection. Others suffered mocking and flogging, and even chains and imprisonment. They were stoned to death, they were sawn in two, they were killed by the sword; they went about in skins of sheep and goats, destitute, persecuted, tormentedâof whom the world was not worthy. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.
âHebrews 11:35â38
People of faith have historically resided in a world full of violence, unexpected disease, and various maladies associated with aging.9 I suspect at least part of the spike in personal and corporate fear (along with the erosion of ultimate trust) among baptized Christians early in the twenty-first centuryâand the accompanying advance of protection devices ranging from gun technology to home surveillance gizmosâfinds a direct correlation in the rapid increase in general life expectancy over the last fifty years.
Followers of Jesus know that life generally has a finite term limit,10 but medical and health discoveries have undeniably extended the sense that weâll all live appreciably longer than our forebears, postponing conversations about death and common mortality far into the future, if indeed they ever occur at all.
Sherwin Nuland, a doctor and writer who admits that he knows better, describes his familyâs reaction to the approaching death of his beloved Aunt Rose: âIt was like the old scenario that so often throws a shadow over the last days of people with cancer: we knewâshe knewâwe knew she knewâshe knew we knewâand none of us would talk about it when we were all together. We kept up the charade until the end.â11
My father, a wonderful man and active each Sunday in his Lutheran church choir for decades, surprised me a bit on a visit. My mom had died in the previous year. Several health setbacks left Dad largely confined to a wheelchair and under the care of an excellent nursing staff in a nearby residential facilityâabout the best possible outcome given the circumstances. One day, as it often did, the conversation drifted to a litany of his health woes. âI never thought this would happen to me,â he said, with head in hands. My brothers and I sometimes smiled about my fatherâs penchant for âthe singleâ (head resting in one hand) or âthe doubleâ (head in both hands). This was decidedly a day for the double. âWhat did you think would happen?â the pastor-son (câest moi) inquired. âI donât know,â Dad replied. âNot this.â
My wife, Cindy, and I were heading somewhere special recently, a rare date out, both of us standing in front of the bathroom mirror preparing to depart. âWhich of us do you think will die first?â I asked, out of the blue. âI donât know, but I hope itâs you,â she said. âWhy would you say that?â I responded, rather stunned. âBecause,â Cindy replied, âwomen handle the death of a spouse better than men.â Sheâs generally right, I suspect.
The sisterly reaction to their brotherâs death in Johnâs Gospel, however, suggests mortality paralysis is not gender specific. Martha and Mary each confront their friend Jesus on the road and levy a duplicate and rather brassy accusation not long after Lazarusâs demise: âLord, if you had been here, my brother would not have diedâ (John 11:21, 32).
Their words here serve as an honest internal gut check for many (including myself) whose emotions at untimely death are almost closer to anger than grief. Itâs not hard to imagine what the sisters were really thinkingâmaybe this chastising internal zinger: âIf youâd gotten off your ass, Jesus, if youâd stopped screwing around with your pals for almost a week after you first he...