VI.
Between the Lines
Introduction
China Martens
I made my first zine, The Future Generation, in 1990, because motherhood was the impetus to communicate with others outside the lines like myself. I set out to help create an information-sharing network with others as we lived in this world and tried to build another world we wanted. My zineâs influences grew from the Reagan era âNo Business As Usualâ actions and anti-apartheid divestment sit ins, Rock Against Racism punk rock shows, those concerned for ecology, gender nonconformists, and anarchism in its many forms. I watched others make subculture media in the form of flyers, zines, records, and distros so I knew what to do when it was time for me to start something of my own. I wanted to create new alternatives and seek out new ways of living as well as many of my peers. As my daughter grew, the world changed and zines went through different periods of popularity, waning and waxing. At a certain period, zines seemed to me to lose some of their radical edge of understanding independent media made from those who seized control to print what the mainstream would not, but the creation of zines was always a small connection, a letter, not always hearing back, taking some dedication to remain part of and then on other days worth it. Over time, I made more connections until I found myself; through the internet, connected to others, and then one day connected to a whole new generation of radical mother of color bloggers. I learned about networks and communities they had been building for decades. My respect for these media makers renewed my faith again in the media we make. When I met her at the 2009 Allied Media Conference, Maegan âla Mamita Malaâ Ortiz (Vivirlatino) told me, âWe all move towards mediums of information sharing that feel organic to us and they are all valid.â Noemi Martinez (Hermana Resist) has been another influential media maker in my life, a zinester that helped me make the leap from zines to reading blogs. It is predominantly radical women of color media makers who have made the most use of the blogosphere, in my opinion, whose work has helped make greater connections as well as to give the best tools to fight against white supremacy, as well as racism, sexism, classism, and other injustices in this country. It has been women of color bloggers and other marginalized media makers who have most helped inform my rebel path, expanding clarification in continuing explorations of race and class to build the worlds we want and to reject what is killing us. So many letters and conversations, works, and efforts in a world where often for a mother there is no time to spare. No time to oneself to use the bathroom, no heaven of a morning alone, and no time to read beyond a short magazine article or online snippet.
Time traveling is a necessity. We need to tell our stories. Sometimes in a patchwork fashion like my grandmotherâs patchwork quilt across my parentsâ bed, we read each otherâs words in different places and timesâand read between the lines. This is essential for us to communicate with each other, to break our isolation into movement as well as to fall back into the spaces between space, now and again.
The purpose of writing, the sacred nature of writing, of self-expression via print, manifesta, collective testimony or theatrical scriptâto witness heal, resist, and build another way; shifting paradigms and universesâof creativity in its many forms, of exploring and organizing thoughts, making discoveries about yourself and the world, growing and communicatingâthis is for you. Respect, dignity, justice, this is for you and for everyone. Everyone has their part to play; we can do more together than alone. Actions and words, practical deeds and dreams, this is how we build tomorrow.
Collective Poem on Mothering
Mamas of Color Rising (Austin, Tejas)
Itâs Hard
Itâs Tiring
Itâs Painful
But
Itâs Love
Itâs Joy
Itâs Peace
Mothering is an act of social justice
Creating a community of solidarity and support
That models the way we want the world to be.
Using that collective strength to challenge
Injustice
And build alternatives for ourselves and our communities.
How are the children?
How are the weakest in our society treated?
Parenting socially just people.
There is enough for each of us.
Letâs share
Stories
Food
Hugs
And laughter.
If we can embrace
Ourselves
Our children
And our community
Give and find comfort and safety
Without hiding truths.
Mamas of Color Rising
Our Core Values
January 25, 2009
This poem was created through a collective process in which the members of Mamas of Color Rising individually and without knowing what the Mama before her had wrote, expressed what Mothering is.
Telling Our Truths to Live:
A Manifesta
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1. Telling our truths to live
In telling this, I am bearing witness to my own experience as a single, teen, welfare, queer-femme m/other at a private, liberal arts college, and I am bearing witness to my own experience as a student at a community college, because both of these experiences are equally important and valuable and are pieces of a larger, universal narrative. In telling this, I am bearing witness to mama-love, to days spent behind books and hands wrapped tight on steering wheels while the sun burns down, building worry filled pockets on foreheads cuz you canât afford to pay the late fee at the childcare and your professor wonât let you leave that class early and the electricity got shut off because your student loans ran out and you got just enough money to afford some gas to get to class today but not enough for heat this month.
I am bearing witness to the joy that comes from finally telling our truths; to sisterhoods and brotherhoods that form coalitions; to phamilies with a ph, that are chosen and stronger than blood; to life-sustaining networks full of our tribes, our communities, our peoples, the ones who âgetâ it and donât need no theory based language to express it cuz they can say it with their eyes.
2. Offering recognition
I sing praises and thank the sisters and m/others and mamaz who have paved our way, because they are so often overlooked, silenced and written out of our institutionalized histories.
Yet they havenât given up, and refuse to hold their tongues at institutions that will use voyeuristic lenses to construct elaborate ethnographic (read: anthropological) studies of âsingle-mother subcultures,â rather than support the actual m/others that are part of the institution and then question why retention rates arenât higher.
I give praise for mamaz, because we keep on âshowing upâ with our kids. We do more than discuss the theoretical value of liberation. We practice lived, beauty-full and fragile liberatory models in our daily lives, constructing curriculums far more intricate than anyone will ever use in any classroom and practicing on the very most precious relationships we hold, our families, our communities.
3. Honoring our collective histories
We know that many of us come from long-lines of storytellers and folklorists and artists and community builders who used popular education models, long before that phrase even existed, to subvert and resist. We come from a long legacy of community and individuals who knew how to survive. It is in our blood. We are prophets, future-readers, story-keepers, media-makers, and builders of schools with dreams. We hold graduations through ceremonies under stars, and in our legacies we are educators that hand down centuries-old knowledges.
4. Naming the ongoing work that m/others and mamaz are doing wordwide
We believe education is liberation.
We work to free ourselves.
We create our own models of lived educational structures.
We encourage and support each other and create communities and movements that include crafting, healing, transforming, liberating, and reclamation of agency through truth telling.
We do not distance ourselves from our personal truths while in academic settings because our personal is beyond political, it is quintessential.
So, we craft community classrooms, and serve as mentors, recognizing there are so many of us participating in these educational settings and that we wonât allow âopting outâ to be the only option. We wonât be squeezed out or silenced anymore.
We embody and model our vision for shared power and equity through being our sistersâ (and brothersâ) keepers. We create our own grassroots childcare systems, caring for each otherâs children and bearing witness to our sisters and brothers struggles. We accompany each other to medical, advisor, welfare, housing, court or any other form of bureaucratic appointments to advocate with each other and then provide each other the space to tell our truths and heal afterward.
We stand up for each other, straight, queer, gender variant, and trans when we are harassed by campus police who frequently are not held accountable for their actions and mirror the city and state police brutality that is so often found in our commu...