PART I. Walking Out
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Happy Birthday at Happy Valley
November 5, 1943, Knettishall, England.
âBramwellâs Crew! Grab your socks!â
I was startled out of a deep sleep. My watch said six oâclockâbut thereâd been no alert the night before, and they usually woke us between one and two-thirty when we were scheduled to fly.
Suddenly, I remembered that it was my thirtieth birthdayâone day I did not want to fly.
The night before, some of us had been sitting around the stove in our Quonset hut chewing the fat. âTomorrow is my birthday,â I said. âIâve always said if I live to thirty, Iâll live to a ripe old age. I have to confess,â I added, âfive years ago in Spain I was saying, âIf I live to twenty-five, Iâll live to a ripe old age.â â
âWhat were you doing in Spain?â Grundlach, a replacement gunner, piped up.
âI fought in the Spanish Civil War.â
âCome on! Youâre old, but not that old.â
âThe Spanish Civil War, not the Spanish American War.â I knew that was coming. Iâd heard it before.
âWhat the hell were you doing there? Were you a soldier of fortune or somethinâ?â
âYou kidding? At 100 pesetas a month? You couldnât buy Mexican chickpeas with that. No, I was a soldier of freedom.â It sounded pat, and I was immediately sorry Iâd said it. âActually it was the beginning of this war. We were fighting the same enemies, Hitler and Mussolini. They helped Franco overthrow the Spanish Republican government. I thought that if we stopped them there we might prevent this one.â
âBut why you? Why did you have to go?â
âI felt strongly about that son of a bitch Hitler and his concentration camps. I hated his master race crap. I felt I had to go. About 3,000 Americans felt the same way.â
The guys had gone on to kid me about my flexible superstition butâin deference to my advanced age, I supposeâassured me that I had made it. There would be no mission the next day; the fog was too thick. And it certainly looked that way from the weather reports weâd been getting all night. You never saw a bunch more sensitive to weather than these guys in my squadron. As each new airman came in from the movies or Aero club, we got a full report on clouds, stars, and moon. We asked if an alert was on. Did they load bombs? How many? How much gas in the tanks?
Their answers constituted our âbarracks briefing.â Thousand-pounders meant docks or submarine pens. Five-hundredpounders and incendiaries meant factories or rail centers. Full âTokyoâ (auxiliary belly) tanks threatened DPs (deep penetrations) into western or central Germany. Clear weather meant France or Belgium; 10/10th overcast (maximum cloud cover) spelled Germany.
Now, as I was getting dressed, I still didnât think weâd fly that morning. The fog had closed in thicker than ever, and I was sure the mission would be scrubbed. âWell, fellas,â I said cheerfully, âIâve reached my thirtieth, all right.â
âWait,â Oscar Land said. âThe day ainât over yet.â Reluctantly, I had to admit he was right.
âOkay. Weâll celebrate at the club tonight.â
The atmosphere was tense as we got to the briefing room. To tell the truth, it was always tense. But that particular morning, perhaps because it was my birthday, I was more uptight than usual. The enlisted men, wearing flight jackets with brightly painted namesââJohoâs Jokers,â âScreaminâ Red Ass,â âCock oâ the Walk,â âPrincess Pat,â âLittle Boy Blueââwere already seated and chattering noisily. We noncoms were always briefed before the officers.
Hidden behind a large screen, waiting for the âunveiling,â was the dreaded map that would show us the flight route to and from the target, with the concentrations of enemy flak marked by red cellophane overlay. Everyone was speculating about where we were going. When we were all seated, the bright young A2 (Air Intelligence) officer raised the screen.
We sat there in stunned silence, our eyes following the black ribbon to the solid red mass surrounding the target. There was a soft whistle. Someone said, âUh, uh!â That broke the spell. Now everyone was talking at once.
We were going to âHappy Valleyâ ! Weâd been expecting a mission to the Ruhr Valley for some time. But dammit, why did it have to be on my birthday?
It took some quieting down by the A2 officer before he was able to start the briefing. âMen, your target today is Gelsenkirchen, one of the most important rail centers in the Ruhr. You will leave the coast of England at this point.â He spoke in a cold, emotionless tone as he used a long pointer to trace our route. âOne group of P-47s will meet you here and take you to the IP (Initial Point, the last turn before the bomb run). Another group of P-47s will join you at the IP and take you past the target. You will have escort all the way to the target area and all the way back to the coast of Belgium.â
Escort all the way in! At least that was a consolation, and the first time weâd had it for a DP. I still shudder when I think of the Schweinfurt raid. Our fighters took us a little way past the English Channel and left us. As we approached the IP, we saw scores of parachutes floating in the air. These were our men whose planes had already gone down. It looked more like a parachute jump than an air raid. Then swarms of German fighters attacked us in force. Without any fighter escort, we caught hell. Sixty planes and six hundred men were lost that day. President Roosevelt said our country could not afford such losses.
Now, for the first time, our fighters were equipped with auxiliary belly tanks that could be jettisoned when they were emptied. This gave the fighters enough fuel to escort us all the way to the target and back.
âAs you see by the route,â the briefing officer continued in the same tone, âyou will encounter very little flak, except when you come to the Ruhr Valley. Here, of course, men, you will meet heavy antiaircraft fire from their 88s and 105s. You can also expect to be attacked by heavy concentrations of Focke-Wulf 190s and Messerschmidt 109s. There will be the usual diversionary attacks by medium bombers in order to draw off the enemy fighters.
âYou will now see a photo of the target. Lights out, please. Here you see the target, the railroad marshaling yards. You will approach the target at a heading of 180 degrees. That is all. Any questions? Good luck.â
We filed out, our faces grim. Waiting outside for the second briefing shift, the officersâpilots, navigators, and bombardiersâanxiously scanned our faces for clues to the nature of the mission. We were not permitted to talk to them. Breaking the rule, someone said, âThis is no milk run!â
We had about two hours till takeoff. That gave us plenty of time to collect our flying togs, place our guns in the ship, check them out, and bullshit with the ground crew.
I went down to the drying room to draw my electric-heated suit, then to the parachute shop for my chute pack. I picked up stuff from my locker, packed the whole load on my bicycle, and lumbered like a fully loaded bomber to the dispersal area where our B-17 Flying Fortress was waiting. She was battle scarred with hundreds of flak holes, but sheâd always brought us back. After each mission we counted the holes and counted our blessings as we went to debriefing.
I feel sorry to this day that we never got to paint her name on the fuselage. Long after the crew or ship is gone the name lives on. After a lot of haggling, we had finally chosen the name Butcher Boy. I didnât particularly like it but was willing to settle for it. The idea was Sageâs. We had planned to have it painted on that very day, if we didnât fly. The Butcher Boy was to be Porky, of Walt Disney fame, carrying a paper bag filled with sausages. The bag would be torn at one end, and as each sausage dropped out of the bag, it would turn into a bomb. Each bomb would then become the symbol for a mission completed.
Gun positions also had names. Some I still remember: âPete and Repete,â âBig Dick,â âShoot, Youâre Faded.â Sage, the other homesick New Yorker in our crew, named his ball turret guns â42nd Streetâ and âTimes Square.â I had wanted to call my waist gun âDoranâs Revengeâ for Dave Doran, a friend who was killed in Spain, but I decided it was too somber. So it becameâwhat else?ââWattâs Cookinâ.â
I was all set, with my gun and equipment in place, when I suddenly remembered I had a $50 money order in my wallet that should be sent home to my wife, Margie. I hopped on my bike, pedaled frantically back to the barracks, penned a short note, then rushed back to our pilot, Lieutenant Bramwell, to have it censored, and I still had twenty minutes to spare. What a relief that Iâd remembered in time!
We exchanged the ritual ribbing with the ground crewâour way of covering up how much we depended on those guys and how much they worried about our coming backâthen boarded our ship and got ready for takeoff.
Meader, Sage, and I always got into our flying togs while the ship taxied down the apron to takeoff position. It was quite a procedure. First, we took off our boots and stripped down to our long johns. Next, we donned electric-heated suits and electric-heated boots. Over the heated suit went a summer flying suit, and over the heated boots a pair of heavy fleece-lined flying boots. Then we put on a winter flying helmet with built-in earphones, snap-on oxygen mask, and connecting hose, and over the helmet we wore flying goggles. We had three pairs of glovesâsilk next to the skin, electrically heated gloves over the silk, and, aloft, a pair of heavy RAF fleece-lined mittens over the other two. Temperatures got to 55 below zero with the winds rushing up to 200 miles an hour through our open waist gun positions.
Then came a âMae Westâ inflatable life vest, and over that a parachute harness (the chute itself would be snapped on only if we had to use it). Later, over enemy territory, we would add an armored flak suit that weighed a ton, plus a steel infantry helmet. We were plugged into our gun positions by electric wire, interphone lines, and oxygen tubes. We would begin breathing oxygen at 10,000 feet in order to minimize the effects of the bends.
One important item that I forgot to take from my locker that day was an army issue .45 pistol with holster, belt, and two extra clips of ammunition.
We barely managed to complete all these preparations by the time Bramwell turned our Fort into takeoff position. The lead plane was just airborne as the second was lumbering down the middle and our own ship began rolling. Three fully loaded bombers on that one runway, just thirty seconds apart. How we sweated those takeoffs!
Soon we were aloft. What we did not know, as our giant Fortress flew blind through a heavy overcast, was that this was to be our longest misson.
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Here Comes the Flak
It was one of those drab autumn days you find so often in England. The sky was gray. The 10/10ths layer of clouds above us had to be scaled before we could rendezvous with our group.
When we finally came through the clouds, we saw hundreds of B-17s rattailing all over the sky. Gradually the formations began to take shape, but our own twenty-one-plane group was nowhere in sight. We were still chasing after the big âHâ on the tail and looking for the signal flares identifying our 388th Bomb Group when we made a disturbing discovery. Our ball turret was out of commission!
It had checked out okay on the ground. But now Sage, the ball turret gunner, could not disengage the electric clutch that allowed the turret to swing around from the stowed position.
We were frantic. We tried everything. We coaxed it gently. We pleaded with it. We kicked it, shook it, cursed it. Still it wouldnât give. While one man worked on the turret, the others kept providing refilled walk-around oxygen bottles. We were above 25,000 feet, where you cannot live more than a few minutes without oxygen. Every ounce of energy expended saps all your strength. We worked over that turret for at least an hourâto no avail.
We finally caught up with our group at 29,000 feet, just as it was beginning to head out across the Channel. Bramwell consulted the crew on whether to abort or go on. This was our seventh mission. The magic number was twenty-five; after that we could go home. Bramwell decided not to abort.
Sage sat down to sweat out the mission without his guns. We all sweated with him. The ball turret with its twin 50-caliber machine guns was not just another position. It commanded the entire hemisphere below.
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