ONE
THE KING came to Juuri on a third day, which meant that upon his arrival, Sofi was otherwise engaged. While her father welcomed King Jovan and his attendants in their parlor, Sofi pressed her knees against the firm floor of her closet and called out to the Muse.
āSing to me, O Muse, for without you I am lost. Pray for me, O Muse, for without you I am empty. Let your notes be played, let your song be sung. I will hear you, if only you will speak to me. Let me be worthyāā Her voice broke on the word, as it did each time she spoke the prayer. āLet me be heard.ā
Even though Sofi knew her father was downstairs, she could practically hear him on the other side of the door, commanding her to repeat the prayer: āAgain.ā
She obeyed. Even when Frederik Ollenholt was elsewhere, his voice still echoed in her head, as sharp and cold as a fresh layer of snow.
āSing to me, O Muse, for without you I am lost.ā
Sofiās father was not known for his kindness, but then, kindness and talent were not one and the same. What Frederik Ollenholt lacked in niceties he made up for in his command of the Muse, in the intricate, complex music that poured from his fingers to his lute. As one of the five members of the Guild of Musiks and the only lutenist licensed to cross the border of their Kingdom of Aell into the wider world, her father didnāt need to be kind. He needed talent. So if Sofi ever wanted to become her fatherās Apprenticeāwhich she desperately, gut-wrenchingly didāshe needed to ensure the Muse was on her side.
Sofi fumbled in the darkness for the dress nearest to her, tugging it from its hanger and pulling it tightly around her shoulders like a blanket. āPray for me, O Muse, for without you I am empty.ā
For ten of the sixteen years of her life, Sofi had prayed to the Muse every third day, yet there was something about that exact momentāthe scratch of wool against her cheek, the muted echo of the royal party downstairsāthat made the prayerās words ring differently in her ears. This time, her voice echoed around the closet like Sofi was at the bottom of a well, the prayer reverberating against ice and stone, hollow and sprawling.
Sprawling. That was it.
Sofi got to her feet so quickly she nearly smacked her head against the top of the closet. She had long grown out of the small, cramped space, but the dark helped her focus. Concentration was especially important on third days.
Third days were for praying.
Sunlight flooded into the small space as Sofi pushed open the closet door and spilled into her bedroom, heading directly for her desk. She rifled through the endless sheaf of papers littering its surface until she found a scrap that wasnāt covered with words she liked or the fragment of a concept or the sketch of a song. She fumbled for a pencil that had not yet been sharpened all the way to its nub, one that was long enough to still fit between her fingers.
Sofi scrambled to put down the lyric that had sprung fully formed into her head, her left hand smearing her words as it hurried across the page. Sheād been working on a song about Saint Brielle, but the final line of the chorus had eluded her for days.
Now the Muse had offered Sofi the missing piece, laid it out as neatly as a carpet unfurled at the feet of a king: Until deathās final, sprawling song called them back where they belonged.
She shivered gleefully. This line was further proof that Sofiās devotion to the Muse would always be rewarded. Proof that she was the clear choice to be named her fatherās Apprentice, the first step toward becoming a Musik in her own right.
Sofi wasnāt the only one who knew it, either. Only yesterday, another of Frederikās students, a girl called Neha who had been studying with Sofiās father for nearly five years, had walked in on Sofi composing in the parlor and sighed dramatically.
āI almost donāt know why I bother,ā she had grumbled as Sofi put the finishing touches on the thirteenth verse of āThe Song of Saint Brielle.ā āThe words fall out of you so effortlessly, itās almost like magic.ā
While to a non-musician, it might have sounded like a compliment, to Sofi those were fighting words. Using magic in music went against the highest tenet of the Guild of Musiks. It was a crime that could get a musician-in-training Redlisted, losing them the right to ever perform again.
āItās because I practice, Neha.ā Sofi had scowled from the settee. āYou should try it sometime.ā
āSomeoneās testy.ā Neha had tsked. āThey do say that using too many Papers makes a person mean. Of course, I wouldnāt know,ā sheād said smugly, tucking a strand of long black hair behind her ear, showing off the backs of her hands. Her brown skin was clearly absent of the words that identified a Paper-caster. On Nehaās dark shade of skin, the words would have gleamed as white as snow.
By then Sofi had removed her lute from her lap and rested her hands on her knees. Had she been employing Paper magic, the words would have shone black as ink on her white skin. āWhy donāt you come take a closer look if youāre so concerned about the integrity of my music?ā
āNo, thank you.ā Neha had rolled her eyes. āIāve heard enough stories of your famous temper. I donāt need firsthand experience. Now, if youāll excuse me, itās time for my lesson.ā She had flounced away, leaving Sofi stewing.
The implication that she was using magic in her music was insulting. The Papers Neha had mentioned had been published thirty years prior, after the Hollow Godās gospel spread throughout the world. To escape persecution from his fanatical followers, witches fled north to Aell, whose aging, greedy King Ashe had offered the covens safety and security within his borders in exchange for some of their magic. The desperate witches worked with his men of science to make magic accessible to all. Thus the Papers were published.
Now, for a price, anyone in Aell could purchase a piece of parchment, offer it a drop of blood, and reap the rewards of that particular spell. A Paper for āsketchā would allow the Paper-caster to draw a perfect rendering of the king. A Paper for āchignonā would guide the Paper-casterās hand to pin their hair into a perfect twist. A Paper for āwarmthā would start a fire, and a Paper for āblushā would turn the Paper-casterās cheeks as pink as a sunrise without the aid of face paint.
Overnight, the Papers had turned the extraordinary ordinary. And if there was one thing Sofi Ollenholt refused to be, it was ordinary.
The implication that she was using magic in her music was also damning. Musiks were musicians who lived, composed, and performed without the assistance of magicāPaper or otherwise. Any student hoping to ascend to the rank of Apprentice had to keep their hands clean and their art pure.
Even the rumor of a musician using magic was enough to destroy their career entirelyāand hers hadnāt even begun.
Sofi shook away the memory of the interaction. Neha had always been jealous of Sofiās innate ability, her natural talent. Sofi would not let the other girlās baseless accusations get to her. She had never even touched a Paper, so strongly did she eschew magic, so hard did she work to keep herself clean. Deserving. Worthy of one day becoming a Musik herself.
Sofi grabbed her lute from its place on her pillow and brushed the strings lightly, patiently adjusting the tuning pegs. Aellās perpetual cold meant her strings tended to tense, and if she wasnāt tender with them, the catgut would snap. The body of her lute pressed gently against her stomach, held in place by the crook of her right arm. That hand plucked the strings while her left hand fingered the notes up and down the instrumentās neck.
That shiver returned, the hair on her arms standing at attention as Sofi coaxed sound from her instrument, notes ringing out soft and sincere in her small room. While sometimes the more familiar pieces of her training routine felt tedious, this part never got old: the playing. Piecing her words and her melodies together. Using her hands and her voice and her mind to create something entirely new, something that would not exist were it not for her.
When Sofi played, she had power.
āDid bright Brielle put forth the snow, from where deathās sweaty hand would go,ā Sofi sang, her left ring finger pressed tight upon the two strings of her luteās fourth course. āThe devilās hot, candescent glow did urge her boldly on.ā
Sofi played her way through the story of Saint Brielle, the woman who ended the devilās scorching summer nearly two centuries ago. As Sofi sang her praise for the saint who commanded winterās wind, the snow outside her bedroom window turned to sleet, hammering against the glass and displacing the crow that had been roosting beneath the slats of the roof. Ice collected in the windowās corners as the view of the snowcapped trees was blurred by wretched, unending white. Sofi sighed bitterly, her fingers falling from her instrument.
Lingering seasons werenāt uncommon in Aell. The Saintās Summer, when Saint Evaline brought forth the harvest from the icy ground, had come after six years of cold. Saint Brielleās winter ended ten agonizing years of summer. But Aellās current winter was pushing seventeen years, longer than any in the history books or the epic tales sung by Musiks.
Sixteen years of snow. A season as old as Sofi.
The cold was all sheād ever known.
She pressed a hand to the frigid windowpane above her desk. Heat from her fingertips leached onto the glass, leaving marks that disappeared almost instantly. Sofi was afraid of fading away that easily, of leaving not a single visible mark on the world.
It was why she worked so hard. Played so often. Practiced so frequently. Why she obeyed her fatherās orders and followed the training routine heād set for her. So many years after its creation, it now held the monotonous familiarity of a lullaby: The first day was for listening, the second for wanting, the third for praying, the fourth for feeling, and the fifth for repenting. But sixth days were special.
Sixth days were for music.
It was a routine more extreme than the methods required of her fatherās other students. But that was by choice. Sofi had always been willing to work harder. Push herself further. She would do whatever it took to become her fatherās Apprentice and finally be able to perform publicly. Without the Apprentice title, musicians could only play and compose within their own homes. Sofi was far too talented for her songs to be confined within the four walls of her bedroom.
She placed her fingers back on the luteās strings, picking the song up from its second chorus.
āThatās new.ā
Sofi yelped, nearly falling off her chair as Jakko, her best friend and her fatherās only live-in student, smiled at her from the doorway, his glossy black curls tumbling dramatically into his eyes.
āWhat are you doing in here?ā Sofi settled her lute carefully back into its case. āThe kingās downstairs. Shouldnāt you be groveling?ā
Jakko sighed dramatically and flung himself onto her bed, hugging a pillow to his chest. āJasper didnāt come this time. Whatās the point of making an appearance if the prince canāt see me?ā
Sofi rolled her eyes as she swept the papers littering her desk into a haphazard pile. āI still think that the alliteration is a little showy, even for you.ā She threw her bare foot onto the mattress, nudging Jakkoās side. āI mean, Jasper and Jakko?ā She wrinkled her nose in mock distaste. Jakko reached out a hand to tickle her, his golden-brown fingers warm against her toes. She kicked his hand away playfully.
āWhat are you wearing tonight?ā Sofi cast a glance at the dress form that held her ruby-red gown for that eveningās performance. Most days she opted for shapeless, gray wool shifts. Function rather than form. It was a shock each time her father performed publicly: the jewel-toned dresses that appeared in her bedroom; the paint Marie, their housekeeper, would smear on her lips and cheeks; the way Sofi was flaunted about. That public display of self was a different sort of performance entirely.
āWellāāJakko ran a hand through his curlsāānow that Jasperās not here, I have half a mind not to attend the performance at all.ā
āYou are,ā Sofi laughed, āthe least devoted student my father has ever had.ā
āUntrue,ā Jakko volleyed back. āRemember Thea?ā
Sofi put a hand to her heart in mock pain. āLow blow.ā Thea had been Sofiās first crush. Luckily, there had never been any awkwardness or competition between the two of them because Thea was so useless at the lute that Sofiās father had refused to teach her any further after only three lessons.
Frederik Ollenholt had quite a lot of what he called āartistic integrityā and what other people called āimpossible standards.ā
āAll my blows are low.ā Jakko wagged a finger at her. āI shouldāve been a flautist.ā
Sofi snorted. āYou should have. There wasnāt any competition for that Apprenticeship. The only musician that showed up to audition was Therolious Amborās own son, Barton.ā She made a face her best friend didnāt return. Jakko had suddenly become very interested in her duvet cover.
āWhatās wrong?ā Sofi moved onto the bed, sticking a finger under Jakkoās chin and tilting it up, forcing him to meet her eyes.
āIām almost eighteen, Sof.ā His voice was soft like a swaying breeze. āIf your father doesnāt take his Apprentice in the next few months, Iāve got nothing.ā His eyes flitted away from hers again.
āAnd?ā Sofi prompted, even as her stomach squirmed guiltily. She knew Jakko well enough to know when he had more to say.
āAndā¦,ā he started, looking pained. āIf he chooses me, what does that mean for you?ā
It was Sofiās turn to look away.
While anyone couldāfor the right priceātake lessons from a Musik, the position of a Musikās Apprentice was both highly coveted and highly competitive. Each Musik took on only one Apprentice in their lifetime. That Apprentice was granted their mentorās treble clef pin, which allowed them to inherit the title of Musik when the reigning Musik retired or passed on. If Sofi wasnāt chosen as her fatherās Apprentice, she would lose the chance of ever becoming a Musik, and the talent she had spent her life honing would become nothing more meaningful than a party trick. Without the title of Musik, Sofi would never make her mark on the world.
āIād figure something out.ā But Sofiās lie fell flat. There was no other option.
Not for her.
Not every musician had the willpower or discipline to become a Musik. But Sofi, with a dead mother and a father who spent most of his life on the road, had nothing but time. She had dedicated her entire life to ensuring the Muse was on her side. She had been handed a lute at four years old and could read music before she could write her own ...