ELISE COMBED her fingers through her hair. āMy daughterās been missing for over twenty-four hours,ā she told police officer Roger Foley. āJulia Wilson,ā she said, āthatās my daughterās name. Sheās five foot two. She turned sixteen in July.ā Elise knew she sounded business-like, curtāalmost as if sheād been rehearsing these details. She watched the gangly officer collect a form from a drawer and scribble down information, then she reached into her handbag and pulled out a picture. It was a recent school photo in which Julia appeared clean, well-cared for and happy. The picture was encased in a delicate antique frame.
āSheās pretty,ā Roger commented, feeling his heart skip.
āYes,ā Eliseās voice was impatient.
āWas there trouble at home?ā he asked.
Elise pointed at Juliaās face in the photo: laughing brown eyes, thick black hair that swept over one shoulder, a perfect smile. āDoes that look like a troubled child?ā
The officer glanced at the photograph. āNo hard words pass between you?ā
āWe quarrelled now and again,ā Elise confessed, ābut Julia would never run off. She wasnāt like that. She was an angel.ā
Roger shook his head. āKids can do crazy things sometimes.ā
āMy daughter was extremely sensible,ā Elise said firmly. āSheād never allow an impulsive heart to rule her head. Sheād never run away.ā
āWas there anyone who she was particularly close to? Any friends?ā He tapped the pictureās frame.
āJulia had many acquaintances, but no one sheād consider a real friend, except for me. We were very close. Most of the girls she went to school with, understandably, were jealous.ā
āAny boyfriends?ā the officer proceeded.
āThere were no boys,ā Elise said. āJulia was shy with the opposite sex.ā
āHow did she get on with Mr. Wilson?ā he asked.
āThere is no Mr. Wilson,ā Elise said.
āI donāt mean to offend, Maāam, but sometimes an estranged husband...ā
āIām a widow, sir.ā Eliseās eyes met Rogerās.
āIām sorry,ā Roger said, and he sincerely meant it. There was so much pain and suffering in the world, so much misery. He felt the familiar disconnect, which sent his observing consciousness to the upper corner of the room and turned his body into nothing more than a functional husk.
āBelieve me, Iāve thought of everyone. Iāve phoned everyone. No one knows where she is.ā
āIād better have a list of names, anyway, Maāam,ā he said mechanically, witnessing his own exquisite composure. āJust for the record... of people youāve phoned, and teachers at her school, and anyone else sheās had contact with. Weāll do our best. In the meantime, go home and wait. Sheāll come home on her own, thatās my bet.ā
āI wish I shared your confidence,ā Elise said. āI just have the feeling she wonāt be found alive.ā
Roger was having another out-of-body experience. He watched himself set a ham and lettuce sandwich on a desk. āShe stood there and said she knew we wouldnāt recover her daughter alive. Itās creepy.ā He was up by the top shelves in Detective Sergeant Gary Gilleyās office, listening to his own tough voice rant.
āAfter youāve been around a while, nothingās creepy,ā Gilley said.
āBut she was so certain.ā Roger marvelled at his performance, his ability to keep his weighty tearful grief in check. āI was sure it was just a little battle, you know, the kid asserting some independence. āSheāll come home,ā I told her. You could have knocked me down with a feather this morning when we got news she was the Detroit River corpse. Who in hell would do a thing like that to a pretty, well-brought up kid like her?ā
āThere are some real sick bastards out there,ā Gilley said. āYou want a root beer?ā
āI mean this kid came from a good home. She was an honour roll student. Her mother doted on her,ā Rogerās voice mechanically continued. āI was sure sheād show up in a day or two, say sheād been hiding out at a friendās place, even maybe a boyfriendās place.ā
āBut not a very pretty cadaver, eh?ā Gilley said, popping the tab on his root beer. āWell, at least it caught your attention. Maybe now you can stop all of your ocDing over that missing deformed kid, whatās her name, āStarfreak?ā and get your real work done.ā
āThe nameās Celeste and I wasnāt ocDing,ā Rogerās voice was belligerent. Heād been sure the remains dredged from the Detroit River had belonged to her. He was only waiting for confirmationāonly waiting, to tell Celesteās sister, Lizzie, and end what he imagined must be unbearable suffering. Now, Lizzieās ordeal would continue and pretty Julia Wilson was gone, instead of a kid with fused legs and missing organsāa kid, though heād never say this to Lizzie, whoād probably be better off dead.
āThe worst is that the guy who did it is probably long gone,ā Gilley said, ignoring Rogerās tone and demeanour. āHeās probably celebrating in some crack house in Detroit. Heāll probably practice his little hemicor... hemicorporectomy,ā Gilley stumbled over the word, āon a few more pretty girls before someone figures out who he is.ā
āYouāre too cynical,ā Roger said.
āYouāre just new,ā Gilley leaned back in his chair. āOnce youāve been here a while, youāll see. Sickos like that donāt live in communities where everyone knows everyone elseās business. Itās too risky. Just draw your blinds too often and people start talking.ā
āSo this place is okay to murder in, but he wouldnāt want to live here?ā Roger noticed his tone growing more confrontational. He didnāt like it, but sometimes his voice had a will of its own. āAre you saying we donāt even try to find this guy?ā
āIām not saying we donāt try.ā Gilley rolled his brown paper lunch bag into a ball and aimed at the garbage. āIām just saying we shouldnāt be hard on ourselves if we fail.ā
The bell rang and the rush of noise in the stark school halls sounded like an explosion.
Roger Foley, in plain clothes and sunglasses, was having a good dayāa day in which he hadnāt once slipped beyond the bounds of his body or experienced that weird helpless disconnect that heād come to loathe.
He followed a group of boys from Juliaās former homeroom class out into the smoking area. āWhat are you, a narc?ā Larry Grant, a thin, stroppy boy asked. āAnd donāt give me youāre a student here, ācause youāll make me laugh so hard Iāll piss myself.ā
āNeither,ā Roger said. āI just want to know what you can tell me about Julia Wilson.ā
āStacked,ā rasped Chuck Evans, a boy with spiky blond hair and black leather boots.
āYou her boyfriend or something?ā He lit his cigarette.
āNo, I thought you might be,ā Roger said.
āHa, I wish.ā The boy leered. Smoke streamed through a gap in his teeth.
āShe wouldnāt have you?ā Roger asked.
āLetās just say, she liked older men... old enough to own their own wheels... their own companies preferred.ā He took another drag of his shabby cigarette. āWhy do you care? You a cop?ā
āDoes it make a difference?ā Roger asked.
āTalk to my lawyer,ā Evans said.
āWhy? You guilty of something?ā
āI aināt done nothinā,ā Evans said, āI just try to stay away from cops, thatās all. I have a kind of allergic reaction.ā The other boys snickered.
āThen, itās probably more comfortable for you to talk to me here than down at the station,ā Roger said.
āOh Jeez, a cop! What is it, Friday the thirteenth?ā
These boys reminded Roger of the teenager heād been: adrift, angry, a prison term waiting to happen. āTell me,ā Roger said more patiently, āa lot of people seem to think Julia stayed away from boys, do you know why?ā
āDuh... you ever met her old lady? Mrs. Tight Ass Wilson? She wouldnāt let her perfect daughter crap alone. Used to bring her to school every day in that Lincoln and pick her up every afternoon. Julia used to sneak around like a rat. Climb out of her bedroom window at night. She used to skip classes, too. Weād watch her from here, all us guys. Sheād check to make sure there were no teachers around, then sheād split. There was this old guy in a bright blue Firebird convertible who used to wait for her at the end of the street. He was some ex-teacher from some public school, or something, the guys said. I donāt know where he took her, but they tore out of here almost every day. Heād always have her back by 3:00, though.ā
āAny idea what his name was?ā
āNone,ā the boy said. āWe just called him Juliaās old guy. She liked old guys. I told you that already, didnāt I?ā
āYou did,ā Roger said.
āThe only young guy she ever had anything to do with was Chet Edwards. Heās a quarterback on the football team. That didnāt last too long.ā A bell rang and Evans dropped his partially smoked butt on the ground. āGotta go,ā he told Roger.
āWhy didnāt it last?ā Roger asked.
āBecause she was a bitch,ā Evans said. The other boys were already filing out of the smoking area.
āIf I think of more questions, Iāll know where to find you, right?ā Roger said.
āOh Jeez,ā Evans responded, āI wonāt be holding my breath.ā
Coach Hanley signalled Chet Edwards, a huge, well-built athlete, who looked more like a giant...