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A GOOD REASON TO WRITE
âWriting is easy. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein.â
â Red Smith â
People have all manner of reasons for writing a memoir. If youâve picked up this book, you probably already have your own reasons. Far be it from me to second-guess them. Maybe youâre writing your memoirs because you want some record of your life to survive you after death, a lasting mark that you were here, something your grandkids and potentially your great-great-grandkids might one day read. Thatâs a good reason. Maybe youâre writing your memoirs because, over the years, youâve learned some very important things about life that you believe others might be able to benefit from hearing, lessons you learned the hard way. Youâve overcome huge obstacles. Or mistakes. Maybe you have a story of inspiration to share. Thatâs a good reason, too.
Or maybe you havenât overcome, and therein lies your story. Yours is a cautionary tale. Maybe youâre writing because youâre trying to make sense of a tragedy. Or maybe you just feel like your life would make more sense somehow if you saw it in print. (Remember the old Eagles song âJames Deanâ? Dean is imagined as believing that his life would âlook all rightâ if he could just âsee it on the silver screen.â)
Maybe by revealing the story of your life, youâll get some publicity thatâll be good for your business. Itâs an advertisement of sorts. Maybe youâre retired and you just want a nice, neat collection of all the successes (and failures?) from your long and storied career. Maybe your story can help advance a social or political cause thatâs important to you. Maybe youâve lived a life you know others are intensely curious aboutâthat of a combat veteran, leader of an outlaw motorcycle gang, circus performer, porn star, drug addict, sports celebrity. Maybe you feel the need to tell your side of a story that someone else has publicly characterized wrongly, maybe even egregiously so.
Maybe you just want people to understand you better.
Maybe you want to understand yourself better.
These are all legitimate reasons, and while ghostwriting thirty or so memoirs, Iâve heard every one of these and more. But that last one...that might be the best reason of all. Maybe you want to understand yourself better. âWe do not write in order to be understood,â the English poet Cecil Day-Lewis once said. âWe write in order to understand.â No matter what reason you have for writing your memoir, Iâll guarantee one thing: if you write honestly, if you really plumb the depths of your own story, if you seek to tell the account of your life (or some part of your life) as objectively as you can, youâre going to learn something about yourself in the process. Something you never knew before.
âWe do not write in order to be understood. We write in order to understand.â
âCecil Day-Lewis
An Honest Memoir
Know thyself, goes the ancient proverb, and I donât know of a better way to accomplish that than by examining oneâs life with the level of objectivity thatâs required to write an honest memoir. This, of course, assumes an honest memoir is the kind of memoir you want to write. Are there other kinds? I imagine a lot of memoirs have been written that werenât honest. Some were probably written that way intentionally, and some were probably written that way unintentionally. Iâm not referring here, of course, to the minor details. Weâll talk in the next chapter about how memory can sometimes fail us (her dress was really blue even though you can swear it was red), or about how itâs okay (sometimes) to fudge a minor point, or how sometimes you might have to conjure up some dialogue that may not be how it went down word for word. Much of this is unavoidable. Rather, the kind of dishonesty Iâm referring to here is the kind of dishonesty where the memoirist ends up portraying him or herself as a different person from the one he or she is. Weâre not talking about fudging the details. Weâre talking about fudging the main character.
Thereâs a word for a book like that, and that word is fiction. Fiction is a fine thing to write, but fiction is not memoir. Fiction is fiction. Memoir is memoir. Weâre not writing novels here. To characterize your piece of fiction as true does a disservice to the reader, and it doesnât do you any good, either. Memoirs often live and die on their level of authenticity. Thereâs just something about disingenuous writing that people can see through. Itâs hard to mislead or pull off embellishment or produce outright fakery over the course of an entire book. And the moment the reader senses the memoirist isnât being sincere, the memoirist loses the reader.
Memoirs live and die on their level of authenticity.
In truth, most cases of insincere memoir writing come about unintentionally. Yes, there are memoirs where the author purposely exaggerated the events of his or her life to portray a âbetterâ or more âinterestingâ person, but most cases of disingenuous writing come about simply because the memoirist hasnât dug deep enough, perhaps hasnât thoroughly examined her motivations or the consequences of her actions. The result is, at best, a superficial story; at worst, a phony one. This is often what happens when writers lack a certain level of self-awareness.
Aha!
Self-awareness brings us back to the idea of understanding, of knowing thyself. Hereâs where it gets interesting. Writing an honest memoir requires self-awareness, and self-awareness is often the result of writing an honest memoir. It might seem like a catch-22, but itâs not. The writing feeds off the honesty, and the honesty, in turn, feeds off the writing. Itâs a beautiful symbiosis. And it is in that symbiosis that you can learn something about yourself, something important, something you never knew before. Iâve never had a single client who, somewhere along the course of writing his or her memoir, didnât have at least one aha! moment. Something epiphanic always occurs. Something hidden is revealed. Always. And I would submit that it is in that aha! moment (or those aha! moments) that you have every reason you ever need to write a memoir. Trust me on this.
Iâve never had a single client who, somewhere along the course of writing his or her memoir, didnât have at least one aha! moment.
Hereâs an example. I once had a client who overcame a severe weight problem. The book started out as a motivational memoir, centering on how âTomâ lost over two hundred pounds. Kind of a âyou can do it, tooâ book. It was meant to be inspirational but also practical. There was a lot of technical stuff about diet and exercise and good nutrition. But a strange thing happened along the way. During the course of writing a couple of chapters about Tomâs backgroundâhis childhood and his adolescence, the times in his life when he really started putting all the weight on that he would eventually loseâTom started picking up on some psychological patterns. He began connecting some dots that led him to better understand why he had ultimately headed toward obesity in the first place. These discoveries also helped him realize that today, even with all he knows about exercise and nutrition, he still often struggles to keep his eating, and therefore his weight, under control. Tom took a break from the book, and during this time, he sought some professional analysis that helped him identify the very root of his weight problem. Delving into his underlying issues wasnât easy. But the result, about a year or so later, was a more self-aware person and, once we picked up the project again, a much different, and infinitely better, book.
Your epiphany might not be as life changing. It may, in fact, be small in the grand scheme of your life. Thatâs okay. It will still be worthwhile. And achieving it obviously doesnât make the other reasons for writing a memoir invalid. Heck, they may even be better for their respective purposes. Having something your great-great-grandkids may someday want to read is a good enough reason in and of itself. The same goes for writing something that helps your business or summarizes your career or helps your cause. Whatever your motivation is, so long as itâs honest, itâs good enough as far as Iâm concerned. Youâll never catch me trying to talk someone out of writing. But know that thereâs another reason out there, too, and you may not even grasp its significance until youâve finished your book. In the end, no matter your motivations, youâre going to be glad you wrote your book because of what you learned about yourself in the process.
Oprahâs Book Club
Okay, so maybe there is one reason I would question that would, in fact, cause me to try to talk you out of writing. If youâre looking to write a memoir because you think your book could be the next great bestseller, the next Educated or Tuesdays with Morrie or The Liarsâ Club, I would recommend that you reconsider. If you think youâre going to become wealthy with your book, if youâre thinking Oprahâs Book Club, or if you have visions of attending the Hollywood premier of the film version of your book, I would tell you to please come back down to earth. Weâre going to discuss publishing later. For now, suffice it to say that the odds of any of these things happening are slim to the point where youâd probably be better off playing the lottery. I know, I knowâbut your book is different. Your book is certain to be a bestseller. Believe me, Iâve seen enough great books get passed over, and I know enough about the economics and vagaries of the publishing industry to almost guarantee that your book will not make you a) wealthy or b) a household name. Sorry. Thatâs just the way it is.
Reality Check: Your book will not make you
a) wealthy or
b) a household name.
This doesnât mean you canât get published (or make a profit on your self-published book); it just means that you have to be more realistic and, hopefully, that your motivations for writing donât include potential fame and money. If you donât have different motivations, may I at least offer one: the opportunity to learn about yourself?
With all that said, and with your bubble hopefully not burst beyond repair (and maybe even your level of intrigue a little higher with all this talk about epiphanies and understanding), letâs now look a bit further into this idea of writing an honest book.
TWO
YOUR CONTRACT WITH THE READER. YOUR CONTRACT WITH YOURSELF
âA writerâs job is to tell the truth.â
â Ernest Hemingway â
If youâre going to write an honest memoir, maybe we should start by defining what a memoir isâand what it isnât. As you may guess, the word has a lot to do with the word memory. In fact, it comes to us from the Anglo-French mĂ©morie, meaning memory or remembrance. You often see it or hear it pluralized (âmemoirsâ) when the writer or speaker ought to have used the singular tense (âmemoirâ). Not that a personâs memoir wonât include a ton of individual memories, but the plural typically refers to enough memories to recall a personâs entire life, all (or most) of their memories. Thereâs another word for that kind of book: autobiography. You often hear about a retired general or politician or sports hero or business magnate writing his or her âmemoirs.â What theyâre doing is writing their life story, their autobiography.
In this case, we typically start by reading about the writerâs childhood and siblings and parents. Sometimes we even go back further in time, to their parentsâ lives and their grandparentsâ lives and even to the lives of their ancestors. We read about the writerâs schooling and home life and then about his young adulthood and his early influences. Then we read about his career: high points, low points, successes, failures, and all the moments in between. And we read about everything else, even up until the writing of the book itself! If youâre thinking about writing your âmemoirs,â your autobiography, thatâs okay. If youâre looking to make a record of your life for posterity, go for it. As youâll see, weâll be more concerned here with âmemoirâ than âmemoirs,â but the same ideas apply. They just apply over and over again. A memoir plus a memoir plus a memoir (plus however many more) equals memoirs. Told well, each memoir is a story unto itself. There should be an overall storyline (your life) with continuity, but any given memoir therein ou...