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THE DAY I got my feet frostbitten was March 25, 1942. The green-edged progress chart in the hospital was explicit: Toes second degree, left heel third degree, right heel second to third degree. I learned only later how near I got to losing my feet. âYou may be lucky,â the field surgeon had said âand I was.
When the sun was beginning to thaw the snow and the hard-frozen earth, and when the whole country turned into an incredible morass, my feet slowly returned to life. The doctors had cut out the rotting flesh and prescribed ointments that stank to high heaven. The numbness gradually gave way to pain, and then the changing of dressings âthe slightest touchâwas hell. I kept my feet high, so as not to feel the blood pulsing in them. It wasnât for some weeks that the pain began to subside. And when the roads at last became usable one day, together with some wounded, scarlet fever and jaundice cases I was bundled into an ambulance and taken to a hospital farther to the rear. Here I met the Sheikh again.
The term hospital was somewhat exaggerated, suggesting as it did snow-white linen and neat Red Cross nurses, whereas we just lay in our underwear and sweaters in long rows on dusty mattresses on the floor and our only attendants were the peasant-faced regulars. The medic, a young physician with a Prussian manner, used to make his rounds once a day to register our complaints. Even while we were flat on our backs, he insisted on military bearing and discipline. But his main concern was to pick those men he could pack off back to the front.
The Sheikh was just beginning to get on his feet again. I, too, had recovered far enough, so we spent our days hobbling around together trying to kill time. At first we played chess with a vengeance, but soon it palled on us, so we were full of enthusiasm when on the first floor we found a little gambling den.
Outwardly indifferent, a man picks up the cards; outwardly indifferent, he makes his contribution to the pool; outwardly indifferent the banker shows his cards. But if you looked closer, you could see the glitter of eyes, the jerky movements of hands and the voracious way the winner grabbed his pile. You could catch the quiver in the menâs voices and feel the excitement which triumphed over the numbness that comes with a long service in the army.
At first we played it safe, then it got hold of us. The excitement gradually entered our blood. The first evening the Sheikh lost two monthsâ pay, but the next day he won back twice as much. We became regulars and for hours would be lost to the world.
One evening while we were gambling a medical NCO came in and asked whether weâd all taken our smears. âWhat the hell does he mean?â I asked one of the men. âYou innocent bastard,â he said with a grin. âDonât tell me you hadnât noticed that most of the guys here got VD?â
âAnd whatâs VD?â I asked.
âFor Christâs sake, the clap, man, the clap!â
âItâs not half as bad,â another man said. âNowadays itâs just a joke. Why, theyâve got some dope now thatâs first class; it hardly lasts a fortnight, and then itâs all over, but it means a fortnightâs leave.â
âYou mean, since itâs so harmless, the thing to do is to get it on purpose?â
âWhy, of course, you damn fool! Whatâll you give me if I let you in on a whore near here whoâs absolutely surefire? All she wants is some cigarettes, and youâve got it. Best thing to do is to get a dose just before they discharge you. Only, donât report it the very first day, or all youâll get is a shot and all your troubleâs been for nothing.â
âBut donât you get three days in solitary if you report it too late?â
âOf course! So you spend three days in the doghouse, which means three days less at the front.â
I said thanks, I would think it over. Itâs a wonder, I said to myself, what some people will dream up. But the Sheikh turned like a shot to the fellow whoâd given me such disinterested advice. âI suppose you wouldnât know of any other tarts within reach,â he said. âOne that hasnât got the clap but also doesnât look like an animated broomstick. Itâs worth ten cigarettes to me.â
âYou donât want much, do you?â said the other. âYou get the doctor to write you out a prescription.â
Besides the Croats, who were the most persistent gamblers, there were also a few young Walloons in the hospital. They kept to themselves and would often carry on whispered debates for hours. Only one of them was wounded. The others were down with Volhynia fever, which was widespread, a little-known variety of trench fever with periodical rise and fall of temperature coupled with severe headaches and pains in the limbs.
I decided to talk to them, and the Sheikh joined me. We sat down beside them and with our school French tried to carry on a conversation. First we talked about our ailments, then about the terrible cold of the past winter and the new German offensive which was in the offing. Then the Sheikh put it to them straight: why on earth had they, as Belgians, volunteered to fight on the eastern front?
They seemed surprised he should ask the question. Why were we here? they asked. Why, that was obviousâto keep Bolshevism at a good distance from our homeland! Wasnât all Europe doing its best to that end?
The Sheikh wanted to know what they thought of the war in Russia. Yes, they admitted, theyâd expected it to be quite different. Most of all theyâd underestimated the mental strain. They made no bones about the fact that their initial enthusiasm had given way to a more fatalistic attitude. But they would go on fighting, that was their duty as they saw it. They knew very well why they were here, they said, but they felt the average German soldier wasnât at all clear about it. And a dark-haired fellow with intelligent eyes and pallid, sunken cheeks said: âYou Germans are strong because youâre united and have a strong man at the helm. For that, we envy you. But youâre strong only as a mass. You fight like the devil, but the individual does it without conviction. He fights only because heâs learned to obey orders.â
Later, when we stretched out on our mattresses, the Sheikh said: âPoor loonies, volunteering to go through all this mess just for the fun of it!â
I said they were real idealists.
âYes, I suppose thatâs one way of looking at it.â
Gambling was of course prohibited. If we were caught at it every penny on the table would be confiscated. For this reason one of us always stood guard, in case the chief physician or the paymaster turned up. All the same, one day we were taken by surprise. The warning whistle sounded at the last moment. Like lightning everybody grabbed his money and tried to rush off when the potbellied paymaster appeared in the doorway.
âGambling again, you hypocritical bastards!â he bellowed, his face flushed scarlet. âLet me catch you red-handed, just once!â
Then his eyes lit on the Sheikh. âWhat in the name of God are you doing up here? Donât you belong on the ground floor?â
The Sheikh was so rattled that for once his presence of mind failed him; he just stammered. The paymaster was thoroughly mad, because heâd raced up those stairs for nothing, so now he was letting off steam.
âIs that the proper way to speak to me?â he demanded. âStand at attention! You donât seem to be aware of the respect due an officer.â
Though he was only a damned clerk, he held officerâs rank and he particularly emphasized that magic word, Offizier. He had the Sheikh bubbling all over with âYessirsâ and âNosirs,â and all seething inside.
âGet down where you belong!â bellowed Potbelly. It irked the Sheikh to see his gloating roommates peering up the stairs. All he could think of was revenge. âYou just wait,â he said. âIâll get even with this bastard if itâs the last thing I do.â
A few days later, thatâs precisely what he did. It was a unique revenge. Only someone like the Sheikh could have dreamed it up.
Senta was the paymasterâs pure-blooded Alsatian bitch; he just adored that animal, and talked to her as if she were human. The Sheikh discovered that Senta was in heat. Then the fun began. All he needed to carry out his sinister plan was someone who could talk Russian. He soon found a man who was only too happy to cooperate. The two of them put their heads together at the window of our billet and called to a young Ukrainian who happened to pass. There was a brief confab, the boy scratched his head a moment, accepted some tobacco the Sheikh offered him and made off, grinning.
An hour later the young fellow was back, dragging a reluctant mangy hound on a leash.
âThat will do,â the Sheikh said authoritatively. âFinest mongrel I ever saw.â He ran to the paymasterâs room, where Senta usually was locked up. The key was outside. Out came Senta, tail-wagging and slobbering all over her liberator. âCome along, old girl,â said the Sheikh. âWhy shouldnât you have a bit of fun for once!â
That bitch didnât have to be told twice. Nor did the mongrel. When he scented her, there was no holding him. The Ukrainian slipped the line, and the dog leaped at Senta. Now the Sheikh was off to the paymasterâs office.
âQuick, sir,â he cried. âItâs your bitch! Sheâs going to be in trouble!â
Out rushed the paymaster, all puffing and blowing.
âSenta! In the name of heaven, what do you think youâre doing, Senta? Here, I tell you, come here!â he hollered.
But Senta no longer gave a damn. The desperate paymaster yelled for a bucket of water. But before this could be brought, he seized the stump of the houndâs tail with both hands, tugging hard to terminate the shameful proceedings. The hound growled and snapped at him, but without letting go his grip. Cursing, the paymaster rushed to meet the medical orderly with the bucket and sluiced its contents over both sinners. The startled mongrel ducked, shook his coat, looked around suspiciously and ambled off. The whole hospital was at the windows, hysterical with laughter. The Sheikh turned to the men around him. âNow weâve got to get that dogâs name and find out where he lives,â he said dryly.
âWhat for?â
âSlow on the uptake, eh? For alimony, of course!â
The hospital roared.
The weather was fine now. The sun was blazing down on the dusty streets. There was an uninterrupted flow of men and munitions to the front. The big new German offensive had begun. The whole of that tremendous front was set in motion.
A bomb fell in the street in front of the hospital. The window panes splintered all over the place. The blast swept us back against the walls. Half across the deep crater was an army officerâs car, front wheels hanging over the rim, but apparently undamaged. Two dazed officers clambered out, a colonel and a lieutenant, both white as a sheet.
At one go fifty men were discharged from hospital. The Sheikh and I were among them. With heavy hearts we made our way back to the front.
We hitchhiked on army trucks, gradually feeling our way from one front-line position to another. We were told our division was somewhere near Kharkov. That didnât cheer us particularly, seeing that Kharkov always seemed to be in the news as being in the thick of the fighting.
Behind our truck trailed a cloud of dust, and in no time there was a thin gray coating on uniform, hair and face. The dust clogged up our noses and mouths, and parched our throats. Everything was shimmering with the heat.
There was a dead man lying beside the road. A Russian, in his earth-brown uniform. Since we were still a long way from the front, we wondered how heâd got there. A few minutes later the Sheikh pointed to the other side of the roadââBut thereâs another!â After that we saw more and more corpses. For many miles the bodies we...