CHAPTER ONE
School has been out for exactly thirty-two days.
Will and I have already watched a horror movie in my basement (we kept the lights on, but next time we wonāt chicken outāor Iāll at least bring down my little brothersā night-light) and finished off the extra-large pizza at Goodfellows (which barely fits between us in the back seat of the car without jabbing into our ribs), and today at the pool, the water is finally warm enough that our lips arenāt turning blue. Thereās no new challenge for us here. The scariest thing is the high dive, and weāve been jumping off that since we passed our swim test in second grade. We agreed that the pool would be a good place to come up with our next summer challenge, but so far Will is letting me make up the rules of the game and asking pointless questions like if he should get sunglasses or if his swimming shirt looks dumb.
āLook around, Alex. None of the other boys are wearing one,ā Will says, and pulls on the shirt. Heās sitting across from me on a blow-up pool raft. The top of the raft is clear and you can see through it to the silvery bottom. It shimmers, and I half expect an answer to pop up like how it does in a Magic 8 Ball.
āWho cares?ā I say. Since when does Will worry about what he looks like? My foot presses against the hot concrete, and I push us out into the middle of the water for our second round of Deep-Sea Diver. The diving sticks are in a pile between Will and me on the raft. My older brother, Brian, bought the raft for us with his employee discount at Big Lots. Even though he has a job, heās a cheapskate and wouldnāt spend more than $3.99 on something weāll use all summer.
The sun hits the raft at a slight angle, reflecting right into my eyes.
I swear I only squint for a second.
One second feels like a forgettable moment, but things that happen in a single second might just change your whole summer.
One second. Thatās all it takes for Will to look away⦠and see Rebekah walk over.
Green bikini bottoms sit low on her hips, and the top is a mix between a sports bra and a regular bra. She stops at the edge of the water, looks right at Will, and says, āHi. Do you guys want to get ice cream?ā
I know Rebekah is not asking me, even though she said āyou guys.ā Her eyes are trained on Will.
Will practically jumps off the raft.
āWhat about the dolphins?ā I yell. I want to say something that only Will understands, but once I hear it out loud, I feel like a little kid. It was my idea to pretend the diving sticks are dolphins.
He doesnāt even turn around as he follows her to the snack bar.
Rebekah does. She gives me this confused smile like sheās trying to be nice. But do nice people steal your best friend when youāre in the middle of a game? Iāll answer that for you. No.
As she turns back to Will and they make their way to the other side of the community pool, I canāt hear her, but she moves her mouth to say what looks like ādolphin.ā Her hands turn up to the sky like she put a question mark after it. I dip my face underwater to cool my cheeks down. I should have just said ādiving sticks.ā
I squint hard at Willās back. The back Iāve seen slathered in mud when we played war in the creek; that was covered in poison ivy the time we unknowingly lay in a bed of it, eating mulberries from Mrs. Bransonās trees. Itās a back with the right shoulder blade sticking out more than the left because of his scoliosis. I wait for Will to explain to Rebekah that Deep-Sea Diver is only the best game ever but she canāt play because itās our game.
Instead he shrugs, and orders his usual chocolate Ć©clair ice cream from his mom, who runs the snack bar. Rebekah orders a plain vanilla cone. Figures. Even though Rebekah has gone to school with us since we were eight, Will and I donāt know too much about her. Sheās always hung out with the more popular kids. But you can tell a lot about a personās character from their ice cream selection.
She leads him to a table in the shade. Will slides onto the bench. Rebekah waits and slides right next to him. Will scoots over a little more, but Rebekah just laughs and scoots so close that their arms touch!
The only reason Rebekah probably even said hello was for free dessert.
Rebekah says something that makes Will laugh. His real laugh is loud and comes out in ba-has instead of ha-has, which makes me laugh harder. But his laugh right now is way too shrill for a twelve-year-old boy. It sounds more like a yelp. Their mouths move and they keep smiling and eating. Which, by the way, looks disgusting.
I turn away and paddle out to the middle of the deep end. Paddling with one arm while holding diving sticks in the other makes me spin in circles. I yank on my one-piece as it rides up with all the paddling. You canāt deep-sea dive in a bikini.
I imagine myself in the middle of the ocean. I take a deep breath, filling my mouth with the sour, salty ocean smell, letting it burn all the way up through my nose and deep into my chest. The squeals of the little kids in the baby pool are seagulls. Unlike Will, I have a great imagination. I create all the games we play, and if I were going to ditch him for someone else, Iād choose someone way more imaginative than plain-vanilla-cone Rebekah Benton.
Still, when I close my eyes, all I can see is Will talking to Rebekah. What could he possibly be saying to her? Didnāt she notice the way the chocolate cookie pieces stuck to his bottom lip when he laughed? Or was that why she was laughing? Like chocolate crumbs and melted vanilla ice cream are so funny.
Whatever. I have more important stuff to do anyway. I lob the diving sticks into the water one by one. After counting to ten slowly, I roll off the back of the raft like scuba divers do and sink to the bottom of the pool. Itās important to collect as many diving sticks as I can before coming up for air. There are only three left, but my lungs are about to burst. Who knew your best friend talking to a girl in a bikini could be so distracting?
I hang onto the side of the raft for a few extra moments and arrange the sticks. I donāt care if Will and Rebekah are practically sitting on top of each other at the snack bar eating ice cream. Everyone knows the ice cream is way better at Mr. Dreamyās on Main Street.
I head back underwater, grab the three diving sticks, and pretend to struggle with a fishing net, but manage to break away at the last minute.
āAlex!ā
Will stands at the side of the pool, smiling at me as I surface. I smile back and wipe hair out of my face. I knew Rebekah only wanted free ice cream.
āHey, can I borrow the raft? Rebekah and I want to float on it.ā
Rebekah walks up beside Will. āHey.ā
Did she forget she already said hello to me?
I open my mouth. The only reason I can think to say no is because I donāt want Rebekah on our raft, which isnāt the best reason. Technically Brian gave the raft to both Will and me, and Will had used just as much of his breath blowing this raft up as I had.
Since I donāt say anything, Will takes my silence as a yes and reaches in to pull the raft toward him. The diving sticks fall into the water. Will doesnāt even notice. Instead he waves his arm in this dramatic way that makes Rebekah laugh.
Really loud.
She holds on to the edge of the pool as she slides her legs across the surface and lies back, barely getting a splash on her. Who comes to a pool and tries to stay dry?
Will dives over her, even though youāre not allowed to dive anywhere but the diving board area. I swear, if Rebekah laughs again, that float is going over.
She doesnāt, but I also donāt see my raft for the rest of the afternoon.
CHAPTER TWO
The thing about Will is, heās practically my fourth brother. Weāve grown up right next door to each other since kindergarten. Sometimes we act more like brother and sister. Which, if you ask me, is better than being best friends.
So at first I pretend Will didnāt completely ditch me. Even though his questions about swim shirts and sunglasses echo around in my head, making my stomach feel like I swallowed a gallon of pool water.
Janice and Tanya are at the diving boards. Iām not best friends with them or anything. We run cross-country together, so weāre more like friends who hang out on the bus after meets and occasionally at school. I figure itās better to join them than sit by myself at the side of the poolāespecially now that I donāt have a raft to distract me. āHey, are you guys having a diving contest?ā I ask.
āNo,ā Janice says. Her hand goes to her hip. Sheās wearing a one-piece with stripes down the side; sometimes meanness isnāt as obvious as Rebekahās bright green two-piece bathing suit.
For a minute I think Janice is going to laugh or tell me to get lost. Then a smile spreads wide across her face, erasing my worries. āBut thatād be awesome.ā
āIāll judge,ā Tanya says.
It just so happens that the guard on duty for the diving pool is Samantha, my older brotherās girlfriend. āWeāll ask the lifeguard to judge,ā I tell them, and turn my head to the stand. āHey, Samantha,ā I call, even though itād be easier to call her Sam, the same way I go by Alex instead of Alexandria.
The first time Brian brought her home, she insisted on being called Sa-man-tha. She even said it like each syllable had its own zip code.
āCan you judge our dives?ā I ask.
Samantha swings a whistle around her fingers a few times and shrugs. āWhatever.ā
The three of us climb up our ladders. It takes Janice the longest because sheās on the high dive. Tanya and I are on the lower boards.
āOne. Two. Three,ā Samantha calls.
I dive, pointing my toes just right and keeping my arms pin-straight as I hit the water.
āYou in the blue,ā Samantha says, pointing to Tanya. āYou win.ā
āYou canāt judge it like that,ā I say. Samantha has no imagination. Which makes me think of Will, but Iāve got a diving contest to win, so I remain focused. āYou have to choose whoās first, second, and third.ā
āOkay, then you, you, and you,ā Samantha says, pointing at each of us.
āAll right, Tanya, you get three points. Janice, you get two, and I get one.ā
We switch boards and go again.
Samantha chooses Janice, me, and then Tanya this time. She isnāt really paying attention to us, but we keep score anyway.
āThis time letās see who makes the biggest splash,ā Janice says.
āOkay, Samantha?ā I call.
āYeah, sure. Itās almost time for my break.ā
Iām glad I have the high dive for this one because I need all the help I can get. Itās not only my lack of boobs that keeps me from looking like Rebekah in a bikini. Itās a lack of pretty much anything.
I run and hold my knees to my chest, waiting for the crash of water around me. Underwater, tiny bubbles explode, tickling my skin as I sink to the bottom. This is what summerās all about. The only thing missing is Will. My thoughts keep going back to him on that raft with Rebekah. On our raft. On the first warm-water day of our summer.
The summer that I thought was going well now has me wondering if maybe Will wanted this summer to be different. Or if maybe horror movies, pizza, and pool games arenāt enough.
I break through the surface, turning to Samantha, hoping the high dive gave me an advantage.
Sheās looking over at the snack bar, where the clock hangs. āBreak time,ā she says, throwing her head back and sighing. Another lifeguard walks toward her chair. āSee you later for sāmores, Alex.ā She climbs down the ladder.
āWho won?ā I yell after her.
āYouāre all winners.ā She flashes a fake smile and keeps walking.
āWeāve gotta go anyway,ā Tanya says. āMy momās waving us over.ā
āOkay, see ya.ā I swim to the ladder and climb out. Itās hard not to look for Will. I have to stop myself once I realize Iām doing it.
āAlex.ā Will pops up next to me. āMy mom said we can have these for our walk home.ā He holds out two Fudgsicles.
The concrete is hot under my feet, and my eyes burn from my jumping in and out of the water, making me feel tired. I really want to enjoy this moment. The routine of summerāmy eyes burning from the chlorine, my skin tingling from the sun, and the comfort of walking home with Will while we eat our Popsicles. I donāt want to ruin it by being mad at him.
So I take the Fudgsicle that Will holds out to me and decide not to ask where Rebekah is.
On the walk home I wonder why Will getting ice cream with Rebekah even bothers me. Sheās been going to school with us since third grade. Itās not like we hang out with any of the same...