Chapter One
Hester, UtahāArchieās Bar
May, Present Day
āIN HINDSIGHT,ā LILY said, wincing, āI know better than to ignore a bar fight going on behind me.ā
Archie extended a meaty hand, passing her a dripping cloth full of ice. āIām more concerned you took an elbow to the back of the head and barely flinched.ā
āIs that a joke about me being hardheaded?ā She sucked in a breath at the shock of ice against the nape of her neck.
Archie leaned over the bar. āIām saying youāre a tough little cowgirl, Lily Wilder.ā
Lily shoved him away with a laugh. āKiss my ass, Arch.ā
āAny time you want, Lil.ā
With an elbow resting on the scuffed wood, she held the ice in place and watched condensation track in slow, fat streams down her pint glass. But as soon as she dragged a finger through it, the glass got muddy. All day long, wind worked the red desert dust into the creases of her clothing, into her hair. Hands, arms, face. Thank God for showers and sunscreen. With the kind of crowd one found at Archieās, though, it was never worth showering before coming ināwhether Lily was sitting at the bar with a beer or working behind it in the off-season. The errant elbow to the back of her head was proof enough.
The door opened, briefly blasting the dim room with light, and Nicole arrived in a flash of messy blond hair and checked red-and-blue flannel. Sliding onto the stool beside Lilyās, Nicole lifted her chin to Archie in both silent greeting and beverage order. He pulled a lager into a questionably clean glass and slid an even more questionably clean bowl of peanuts toward the women. More starving than fastidious, Lily dug in.
Nicole gestured to the ice pack. āWhat the hell?ā
āPetey and Lou were at it. I was collateral damage.ā
āNeed me to kick their asses?ā She moved to stand, but Lily stopped her with a hand on the arm.
Nicole was taller and stronger than Lily, and her loyalty made her nearly feral when provoked. Lily wagered that Petey and Lou would have a pretty fair fight on their hands. If Lily gestured for Nic to go at it, sheād die trying. But Nic was all she had, so Lily tipped her head instead toward the small stack of papers on the bar near her friendās arm. āIs that the new group?ā
Nicole nodded. āArriving tomorrow.ā
āDudes?ā Lily asked. Their clients were almost always men coming out to hunt treasure and play at being outlaws. A group of women felt like a breath of fresh air. Those trips were quieter, more easygoing. They almost made the job worth it. Almost.
āYeah. Four of them.ā
āBachelor party? Birthday?ā
Nic shook her head. āLooks like itās a group of friends just taking a trip together.ā
At this, Lily groaned. At least bachelor parties were on some kind of mission, usually to sneak booze and have a week of debauchery theyād talk about for years to come. But the groups that came to Lilyās tourist expedition company, Wilder Adventures, just to āget awayā always needed more babysitting, more structure. Sometimes that was fineāhelping people enjoy a vacation on horseback had been Lilyās joy growing up and was to this dayābut right now she was running on fumes.
āAll of them signed the waiver?ā Lily asked.
Nic scratched her cheek, hesitating. āYeah.ā
Pointing, Lily asked, āWhatās that mean?ā
āWell,ā Nicole said, āit kind of looks like they were all signed by the same person.ā
Lifting her beer to her lips, Lily muttered a quiet āShit.ā
āDub, itās a formality.ā
āUnless it isnāt,ā she said. āI canāt afford a lawsuit.ā
āGirl, you can barely afford this beer.ā When she ducked to catch Lilyās gaze, Nicās wild hair fell over half her face, leaving one glimmering blue eye free to study her best friend. āHow are you thinking this will be our last trip out?ā
Lily squinted down at the whorls in the scuffed wood bar. Truthfully, she had been hoping more than anything that this would be the last hurrah for Wilder Adventures. She wanted this to be the last time she took city slickers out into the desert to team-build and ārough itā and hunt for fake treasure. She wanted to put her dadās journal away and never have to look at it again. She wanted to live where no one asked her about Duke Wilderās maps or his stories and she could forget all about Butch Cassidy. Lily wanted to never again see a man wear polished dress shoes while riding a horse or hear another woman wearing a Prada āwesternā shirt complain how sore her ass was after a half hour in a saddle. She wanted to be running a ranch, to tack up Bonnie at sunrise and wrangle her own horses across sagebrush and frost-tipped grass that glimmered like diamonds and crunched beneath hooves. She wanted enough money to move out of her dadās old run-down cabin and leave this dusty shit town. She wanted this to be her last trip out more than anything.
But wanting didnāt get her anywhere. Sheād learned that lesson a long time ago.
Still, quitting this gig consumed Lilyās every waking thought; seven years into this business and she felt trapped. She scraped by leading tourists around the desert, but horses were expensive, and Lily needed horses to lead tourists around the desert in order to scrape by. Chicken, meet egg.
āHow did things go at the bank?ā Nic asked, coming at it from a different angle.
Lily shook her head.
āAgain?ā
āWhoās going to give someone like me a loan? Whatās my income going to be if I stop leading treasure hunts?ā
Nicole leaned in again. āDid you tell them that was your plan? What do they even know?ā
Lily looked over at her. āI didnāt, Nic, but theyāre not dumb. The guy said, āSo if you buy some land and start up a new outfit, how are you going to make money until itās solvent?ā And I told him that it would take a couple years but that I knew the area, knew the business, and knew what people wanted in a Wild West vacation, but it didnāt matter. It doesnāt matter what I say; Iām not a good investment.ā
Nicole blew out a breath and stared down at her hands. It was then that Lily noticed an envelope with her name poking out of the stack of mail and liability waivers. Sheād recognize the return address anywhere. It used to be hers.
Immediately, she was buried under a deluge of memoriesāthe astringent, crisp punch of sagebrush; herding horses as the sun tipped its hat over the top of the mountains; fat, warm butter biscuits in the mornings; the precise moment sheād laid eyes on him, and, weeks later, the heat and fever of his bodyā
Rubbing the ache beneath her breastbone, Lily cut those thoughts off at the pass, pointing at the envelope. āWhatās that?ā
Nic tucked the envelope away again. āNothing.ā
āItās from Wilder Ranch. And itās got my name on it.ā She reached for it. āGive it.ā
But Nicole slapped her away. āYou donāt want it right now, Dub, trust me.ā
Right now?
āIs it about the ranch?ā
āLet it go, Lil.ā
A rare fire ignited in Lilyās veins. āDid you open it? I swear to God, Nic, you are the nosiest littleāā She went for it again, but Nicole dodged to the side, evading.
āI said no.ā
Lilyās blood turned to steam at the implication that she couldnāt handle whatever was in there. Nic was the hothead; Lily was the measured one. But suddenly, sheād never wanted anything more than she wanted to see the contents of the nondescript white envelope.
Lily shoved Nicās arm, but Nic knew it was coming and leaned in, caging around the papers, unmoving. Diving for her midsection, Lily knocked Nic off the stool and tackled her onto the floor. Suddenly paling in importance, the liability waivers rained around them, landing among the discarded peanut shells in the layer of sticky beer on the floor. Behind the wrestling women, men hooted and clapped, cheering them on. Normally Lily would get up and take this argument elsewhere, but she had a singular focus, and it was to dig that envelope out from under where Nicole had rolled onto her stomach, covering it with her body.
āNo fucking way,ā Nic yelled into the floor, even as Lily smacked uselessly at her shoulders, tickled her ribs, and then began to punch her ass.
āIt has my name on it, you dick.ā
āYou donāt want it!ā
āYouāre committing a felony!ā Lily glanced over her shoulder. āPetey! Youāre a cop.ā
āOff duty,ā he answered, laughing into his beer. āPunch her in the ass again.ā
āIām gonna punch you in the dick next if you donāt help me.ā
āHoney, youāre welcome to hit on any part of me.ā
With a savage growl, she dug with all her strength under her friendās body, reaching blindly for the envelope. She got her fingers around it, tearing off a corner as she yanked it free. Lily scrambled up and away, hiding behind Big Eddie near the dartboard in case Nicole decided to come for her.
āIām telling you,ā Nic warned, āyou donāt want it.ā Defeated, she stood, swiping bar floor grime from her cheek with the back of her hand. She returned to her stool, and her beer, and the bowl of nuts. āJust donāt come pouting to me when you see what it is.ā
Back in the corner, Lily pulled the letter free. A bar full of eyes lingered on her as she read it, at first uncomprehendingāthe words swam in swirls of black and whiteāand remained glued to her face as she returned to the beginning to start again. Sentences took shape, meaning coalesced, and all of the ache and loss and empty blackness sheād packed into a solid brick in her chest broke free, becoming a swarm of horseflies.
The letter was from the man who now owned her familyās land. A man sheād met only once, barely a week after that other, brutal heartbreak. As much as Lily hated Jonathan Cross, sheād wanted to read these words every day for ten years.
⦠retiring⦠ranch up for sale⦠like to give you the first opportunityā¦
It didnāt matter how good a deal he was offering her. There wasnāt a single thing she could do to get her familyās ranch back.
Once something was gone, it was gone. Lily thought sheād dealt with her sorrow, her longing for that place, but she felt bruised all over again.
It took every ounce of physical strength she had to maintain her composure. She tacked her lower lip to her teeth, nailed her jaw shut. She forced her shoulders steady, working to keep them from rising up around her neck, to keep her back from curling. No one aliveāat least, no one in this roomāhad ever seen her break. Finally, when everyone had lost interest or turned away out of respect, she made her way back to the bar.
Nicole had already ordered her friend a fresh beer and pushed it over as Lily settled onto the stool beside her.
āTold you,ā Nic said.
āYou did.ā
āWhatāre you going to do about it?ā she asked.
āIām going to do a whole lot of nothing,ā Lily said, and brought the glass to her lips.
Chapter Two
New York City
May, Present Day
THE DOWNSIDE TO leaving for JFK at 8:15 a.m.: in the past twenty minutes, the tangle of morning rush-hour traffic had not once moved faster than ten miles an hour. Potential upside: Leo was free to answer the litany of questions his boss could ask literally anyone else still at the office⦠but wouldnāt.
When his phone chimed with the tenth text in five minutes, Leo closed his eyes, groaning.
āJust put it on silent,ā Bradley said, rolling the cab window down as far as it would go, then quickly rolling it back up against the plume of truck exhaust that barreled inside.
Leo typed out a quick reply. āItās fine.ā
The phone immediately chimed again.
āLeo, this happens every year.ā
Typing, Leo said, āItās just how Alton gets when Iām going to be out of the office.ā
āExactly my point. He acts like thereās no one else in the tristate area who can use a calculator.ā
This time, the phone rang in Leoās hand.
Bradley gave him a warning look. āLeave it.ā
Shrugging helplessly, Leo gestured to Altonās name on the screen. āTheyāre making decisions about the VP role next week and Iām on vacation. I canāt not answer.ā
āLeave it.ā
Leo brought the phone to his ear. āHello?ā
Bradley groaned and leaned forward to tell the cabdriverāwho absolutely did not careāāHe never lets his boss go to voicemail.ā
āI do,ā Leo whisper-hissed bef...