Chapter 1
OLIVIA
2014
Only one member of the jury glances in my direction as they file back into the room: sheās early-forties with long dark hair and a soft, round face. She looks like a Sarah or a Helen and her heavy gaze has rested on me for the last five days. Weāre around the same age and I hope thatās made her sympathetic towards me; there but for the grace of god go I and all that. Or maybe she believes that Iām the monster the prosecutor has painted me out to be: a liar and a cheat, a woman riddled with hatred and obsessed with money and death.
The truth is, I have no idea how Sarah-Helen views me, or what sheās been thinking over the course of my trial. If our roles had been reversed and I were on the jury rather than in the dock, Iād have been watching the defendant for signs of guilt: fidgeting, nervousness, swallowing and shifty eyes. I have avoided doing any of those things. I hold myself still, shoulders back, feet wide, hands interlaced, fighting the urge to lick my dry lips.
The only time my composure slipped was when my husband took the stand yesterday to give evidence for the prosecution. I hadnāt seen him in weeks and he looked tired and sallow-skinned. His hair needed a cut and the skin around his jaw looked ruddy and dry from a hasty shave. Dominic and I had not been in a good place before I was arrested but I trusted that heād rebut the prosecuting barristerās suggestion that I was a woman so keen to keep my house, my lifestyle, my daughter and my lover that Iād arranged to have my husband killed. Dominic did not defend me. Instead he talked, at length, about how toxic our marriage had become (true) and how much heād wanted to mend things (not true) and how horrified and shocked heād been to discover that Iād increased his life insurance policy and attempted to contact a hitman on the Dark Web (not as shocked as I was).
I gnawed at the raggedy cuticle on my thumb and beamed my thoughts at the witness box: Dominic, tell them the truth. Tell him! In my mind my thoughts were as powerful as a haulage truckās headlights floodlighting a dark countryside road, but my husband didnāt look at me once. His eyes flicked from the barrister to the jury, to the judge, to the gallery, but they never rested on me. It was as though there was a force field masking me from view or maybe I wasnāt there at all; I was an invisible woman, or dead.
When Dominic finally left the stand, my cuticles were bleeding.
Now, as the jury take their seats, it isnāt my husbandās face I seek out; my fate is no longer in his hands. Sarah-Helen meets my gaze for a split second before she looks away sharply but what I see hits me in the guts like an anvil. My fate is written across her face.
Before the session my barrister Peter Stimson had told me he was still very optimistic that Iād be found not guilty, that heād given the jury enough cause for reasonable doubt. I want to believe him but the look I saw on Sarah-Helenās face is making it hard.
Hope is the only thing thatās got me through these last few weeks. Hope that the jury will see beyond the story the prosecutor has concocted, hope that theyāll realise Iāve been set up. Iām a thirty-nine-year-old woman, a mother, an art gallery owner, a wife and a friend. I can tell a Jan van Goyen from a Rembrandt and make a lovely batch of brownies for the school PTA sale but I canāt get past week five of Couch to 5k without running out of puff.
A frisson of excitement fills the courtroom. The judge has beckoned the court usher to come forward. Her low heels clack on the wooden floorboards as she crosses the room; the sound reverberates in my chest, matching the pounding of my heart. The judge speaks in a low voice as the usher approaches the podium. My barrister and solicitor both sit up taller in their seats.
The usher turns to address the court and a wave of fear crashes over me. It doesnāt feel real, this, me in a courtroom, waiting for a verdict. If they find me guilty, Iāll get between seven and ten years. Grace is only seven. Sheāll be a teenager before I am free.
The usher turns to the jury. āWould the foreman please stand.ā
Sarah-Helen rises from her seat and smooths the crumpled skirt of her cotton floral dress. Sheās nervous. That makes me feel worse.
āMadam Foreman,ā the usherās voice rings out through the wood-panelled courtroom. āOn this indictment have the jury reached a verdict upon which you are all agreed?ā
Sarah-Helen clears her throat lightly. All eyes are on her and the stress of the spotlight pinkens her cheeks. āYes, we have.ā
āOn count one,ā the usher says, ādo you find the defendant guilty or not guilty?ā
Time slows as Sarah-Helenās lips part. Please, I silently pray, please, please. I didnāt conspire to have Dominic murdered. I donāt know who did but it wasnāt me.
āGuilty.ā Sarah-Helenās voice rings out clear and loud then I hear nothing at all. The judgeās lips move and the usher stalks back across the floor. Thereās motion from the gallery, shifting and whispering. Faces, faces, faces, all looking at me. The dock, once so solid beneath my feet, becomes marshmallow soft. A hand to my elbow keeps me upright, leads me out.
I seek out my husband as I am ushered towards the door that leads to the cells. Heās sitting next to Lee, my business partner, and theyāre deep in conversation. Stand up. I turn on the headlights again, beaming my thoughts into his. Tell them you set me up. Tell them that Iām innocent. Tell them what you did. My husband shifts in his seat and glances across the courtroom, as though he senses the weight of my gaze. His eyes meet mine and he smirks.
Chapter 2
DOMINIC
2014
Dominic Sutherland braces himself as he approaches the side exit of the Old Bailey and hears the roar of the press pack outside as his solicitor opens the door. Over the last five days of the court case, he hasnāt been able to enter or leave without being surrounded by journalists and photographers, all shouting his name, firing camera flashes in his face and blocking his way. So far heās managed to avoid giving them a single comment, despite the shouts of āCan you ever forgive Olivia?ā and āWill you stand by your wife if sheās found guilty?ā that trailed after him wherever he went. But heās going to have to say something now.
The press have been chasing the story for weeks, intrigued by the tale of the suave chartered surveyor in his late thirties, his adorable ringleted daughter, his blonde wife, her lover and the crime that nearly cost Dominic his life. Theyāve been picking over the details of the case: Livās affair, the life insurance policy she increased, the unknown hitman she tried to hire on the Dark Web and her confession to Danielle Anderson, personal trainer at Fit4Life gym and a serving detective in the Metropolitan Police.
Why? That was the question the press returned to. Why would a woman who had it all choose to have her husband murdered? Why not just leave him instead?
āEverything okay, Dominic?ā Melanie Price, the CPSās solicitor, puts a hand on his shoulder. āIf you need a couple of minutes toāā
āIām fine.ā He smiles tightly and steps through the door.
Flash bulbs fire in his direction, making him blink, and a chorus of voices shout his name.
āDominic! How do you feel?ā
āAre you pleased with the verdict?ā
āDominic! Rosie Jones from the Mirror, can Iāā
āLadies and gents!ā Melanie raises a hand and the noise abates. āMr Sutherland has prepared a statement. There are to be no questions afterwards, thank you.ā
Dominic snatches a breath as he reaches inside his suit jacket for the statement he scribbled out at the kitchen table that morning as Grace banged around upstairs, getting herself ready for school. Heās already dreading the conversation heāll have to have with her when he collects her from her friendās house later.
He clears his throat and reads. āI would like to thank the Metropolitan Police Force, the CPS and the judge and jury for ensuring that justice has been done today. The sentence awarded to Olivia means that, for the first time in a long time, I will be able to sleep soundly tonight. Whilst our marriage was not perfect, I cannot fully express the horror I felt when I discovered that my wife and her lover were conspiring to have me killed.ā He pauses to take a breath. āIt was down to the swift action of the police that their plan was foiled and I am able to address you all today. I would like to request privacy at this time as my daughter and I come to terms with what has happened and attempt to pick up the threads of our life. Thank you very much.ā
Thereās a lull of no more than a split second then the questions from the press start up again. Dominic ignores them.
āThank you.ā He shakes hands with Melanie and his family liaison officer and then squeezes his way through bodies, microphones and television cameras to reach the black BMW waiting for him further down the road. He slides into the back seat, closes his eyes and blows out his cheeks in a noisy sigh.
āYou all right there, mate?ā
The driver is watching him in the rear-view mirror. His shoulders are wider than his seat and his neck is thick and lined beneath close-cropped hair. Dominic can almost imagine the man reaching into the glove box, pulling out a gun and twisting round to point it directly between his eyes. He chuckles at the irony of the thought.
āIām good, thanks. Oakfield Road, please. Crouch End.ā
As the car pulls away he reaches into his inside pocket. His fingers touch the sleek, narrow shape of his mobile phone then slide away, to an altogether chunkier, cheaper phone. He takes it out and taps at the rubber buttons to access the unread text.
Itās just a single word: Well?
He taps out a reply: Sheās not a problem any more. She got ten years.
Chapter 3
OLIVIA
Now ā 2019
A fight has broken out in the middle of C Block. Itās been rumbling for a while and the wingās been buzzing all day. You know when a fightās coming because the air thrums with tension, like it does before a storm. For a lot of the women itās something to look forward to, a break from the mundanity of the daily routine. Given all the screeching and shouting from the circle of onlookers, the two women scrapping in the middle arenāt the only ones releasing their anger and frustration during the fight.
Iām not entirely sure why theyāre scrapping. Something about Sabrina disrespecting Gardoās girlfriend Chanelle. Theyāre really going for it ā grappling with each other and throwing punches, arms whirling, all elbows, nails and fists. Sabrinaās the shorter of the two women but what she loses in height she makes up for with her bulldog-like physique. Gardoās landed some hard punches but Sabrinaās giving as good as she gets, despite her bloody nose and torn lip.
Out of the corner of my eye I spot Vicki Kelk darting into a cell that isnāt hers. I step out of my own cell to take a closer look. Kelk is a crackhead whoād rob her own granny to get money for drugs. Sheās cruel too. She coerces girls into smoking spice then films them twitching and shuffling and staring like a zombie before uploading the videos onto YouTube via her smuggled mobile phone.
The cell beside the one Kelkās raiding belongs to Janet and Theresa. Janetās a lifer in her sixties. Sheās not much of a talker but she can give you a look that makes you feel like someoneās walking over your grave. Theresaās new and if sheās not in her cell sheās skulking around looking terrified.
In a lot of ways she reminds me of me.
It was the noise that got to me when I arrived, all the screaming and shouting and wailing and banging. I tried to hide in my room but my cellmate told me that if I didnāt go out onto the wing and mix with the others Iād be viewed as weak and attract the wrong kind of attention.
Thereās no sign of Janet but Theresa is standing alone at the back of the circle surrounding the fighters. Her mousey hair is tucked behind her ears, her arms are crossed over her heavy chest. Sheās watching whatās going on from beneath her eyebrows. As Kelk darts into Theresa and Janetās cell Theresa turns her head sharply to look at me, then heads after her. I slide closer so I can see whatās going on. I wouldnāt get involved normally but Iām getting out tomorrow so if Kelk decides to wage war on me the fight wonāt last very long.
āWhat are you doing?ā Theresaās voice rings out as I approach the doorway. Kelk is over by the kettle with two packets of ramen noodles in her hands.
Kelkās gaze slides towards me then returns to Theresa. āIāll pay you back.ā
āPut them back please.ā
Kelk lifts her sweatshirt and sticks the noodles into the waistband of her joggers then pulls the sweatshirt over the top. She smiles, her top lip curled back to reveal her teeth. āTake them back.ā
Theresa does nothing. Sheās paralysed by fear when what she needs to do is stand up to Kelk. If it ends up in a fight it ends up in a fight. Itās the only way sheāll earn her respect. But Kelk is dangerous. I wouldnāt put it past her to have a toilet brush rammed into her joggers, the brush removed and the plastic moulded into a spear-like point.
āGive me one.ā I step into the cell, pulling the door partly closed behind me.
āEh?ā Kelk shoots me a curious look.
āSheās got more ramen on the shelf. Chuck me one. And that bag of teabags while youāre at it.ā
A smirk spreads across Kelkās face. āI thought you were getting out tomorrow.ā
āI am. I want to give Smithy a leaving present.ā I glance at Theresa whoās still hovering near us, the base of her throat flushed red, her hands fluttering at her sides.
Kelk throws a packet of noodles and the clear bag of teabags at me.
I tuck them under my waistband the...