WALKING WITH GOD THROUGH PAIN AND SUFFERING
Timothy Keller
Contents
Title Page
Dedication
Introduction: The Rumble of Panic Beneath Everything
PART ONE: Understanding the Furnace
ONE: The Cultures of Suffering
TWO: The Victory of Christianity
THREE: The Challenge to the Secular
FOUR: The Problem of Evil
PART TWO: Facing the Furnace
FIVE: The Challenge to Faith
SIX: The Sovereignty of God
SEVEN: The Suffering of God
EIGHT: The Reason for Suffering
NINE: Learning to Walk
TEN: The Varieties of Suffering
PART THREE: Walking with God in the Furnace
ELEVEN: Walking
TWELVE: Weeping
THIRTEEN: Trusting
FOURTEEN: Praying
FIFTEEN: Thinking, Thanking, Loving
SIXTEEN: Hoping
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
Notes
To my sister Sharon Johnson, one of the most patient and joyful people I know, who has taught me much about bearing burdens, facing grief, and trusting God.
Introduction
The Rumble of Panic beneath Everything
I think that taking life seriously means something like this: that whatever man does on this planet has to be done in the lived truth of the terror of creation ⌠of the rumble of panic underneath everything. Otherwise it is false.
âErnest Becker, The Denial of Death1
I will bless the LORD at all times; his praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul makes its boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and be glad. O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together! (Psalm 34:1â3)2
Suffering is everywhere, unavoidable, and its scope often overwhelms. If you spend one hour reading this book, more than five children throughout the world will have died from abuse and violence during that time.3 If you give the entire day to reading, more than one hundred children will have died violently. But this is, of course, only one of innumerable forms and modes of suffering. Thousands die from traffic accidents or cancer every hour, and hundreds of thousands learn that their loved ones are suddenly gone. That is comparable to the population of a small city being swept away every day, leaving families and friends devastated in the wake.
When enormous numbers of deaths happen in one massive eventâsuch as the 1970 Bhola cyclone in Bangladesh, the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami, or the 2010 Haiti earthquakeâeach of which killed 300,000 or more at onceâit makes headlines around the world and everyone reels from the devastation. But statistics are misleading. Such historic disasters do not really change the suffering rate. Tens of thousands of people die every day in unexpected tragedies, and hundreds of thousands around them are crushed by grief and shock. The majority of them trigger no headlines because pain and misery is the norm in this world.
Shakespeare understood this when he wrote:
Each new morn
New widows howl, new orphans cry,
New sorrows strike heaven on the face.4
Evil and suffering are so pervasive that the statistics I just recounted hardly make us blink. Yet we must blink. Author Ernest Becker spoke about the danger of denying the misery of life and the randomness of suffering. When we hear of a tragedy, there is a deep-seated psychological defense mechanism that goes to work. We think to ourselves that such things happen to other people, to poor people, or to people who do not take precautions. Or we tell ourselves that if only we get the right people into office and get our social systems right, nothing like this will happen again.
But Becker believed such thinking fails to âtake life seriouslyâ or to admit the âlived truth of the terror of creation ⌠of the rumble of panic underneath everything.â5 That panic comes from death. Death is irreducibly unpredictable and inexorable.
The same message comes through in an article written in The New York Times Magazine during the time of the âBeltway Sniper,â who was shooting people in the Washington, DC, area in what appeared to be a completely random way, without concern for race or age. Ann Patchett wrote:
Patchett and Becker expose the common ways we seek to deny the rumble of panic. This book is an effort to do what they urgeâto take life seriously. I want to help readers live life well and even joyfully against the background of these terrible realities. The loss of loved ones, debilitating and fatal illnesses, personal betrayals, financial reversals, and moral failuresâall of these will eventually come upon you if you live out a normal life span. No one is immune.
Therefore, no matter what precautions we take, no matter how well we have put together a good life, no matter how hard we have worked to be healthy, wealthy, comfortable with friends and family, and successful with our careerâsomething will inevitably ruin it. No amount of money, power, and planning can prevent bereavement, dire illness, relationship betrayal, financial disaster, or a host of other troubles from entering your life. Human life is fatally fragile and subject to forces beyond our power to manage. Life is tragic.
We all know this intuitively, and those who face the challenge of suffering and pain learn all too well that it is impossible to do so using only our own resources. We all need support if we are not to succumb to despair. In this book we will argue that inevitably this support must be spiritual.
âLet the Afflicted Hear and Be Gladâ
On our wedding day, Kathy and I spoke our vows to each other in front of our friends and families. To the traditional words of commitment we added a passage of ScriptureâPsalm 34:1â3âwhich is engraved on the inside of our wedding rings.
I will bless the Lord at all times; his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul makes its boast in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and be glad.
O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together!
Saying our vows was a heady moment, and the lofty words of the text enhanced it. We were embarking on a lifetime of Christian ministry together, and we anticipated boldly presenting the God we knew to the world. At the time, however, we almost completely ignored the words at the center of the passage. The textâs definition of ministry success is that âthe afflicted hear and be glad.â One of the reasons that phrase was lost on us then was because, as Kathy said later, âat that age neither of us had suffered so much as an ingrown toenail.â We were young, and the hubris of youth does not imagine pain and suffering. Little did we understand how crucial it would be to help people understand and face affliction, and to face it well ourselves.
As I took up life as a minister, I tried to understand why so many people resisted and rejected God. I soon realized that perhaps the main reason was affliction and suffering. How could a good God, a just God, a loving God, allow such misery, depravity, pain, and anguish? Doubts in the mind can grow along with pain in the heart. When I sat with sufferers, I often found myself fielding white-hot objections to Godâs existence and to Christian faith. Some years ago, a Hollywood actress was interviewed after her lover had died suddenly in an accident. She had been living without thought or reference to God for a long time, but once this happened she said, âHow could a loving God let this happen?â In an instant she went from indifference to God to anger toward him.7 It is this kind of experience that has led a host of thinkers to argue, as the writer Stendhal (Marie-Henri Beyle) did, that âthe only excuse for God is that he doesnât exist.â8
But at the same time, I learned that just as many people find God through affliction and suffering. They find that adversity moves them toward God rather than away. Troubled times awaken them out of their haunted sleep of spiritual self-sufficiency into a serious search for the divine. Suffering âplants the flag of truth within the fortress of a rebel soul.â9 It is an exaggeration to say that no one finds God unless suffering comes into their livesâbut it is not a big one. When pain and suffering come upon us, we finally see not only that we are not in control of our lives but that we never were.
Over the years, I also came to realize that adversity did not merely lead people to believe in Godâs existence. It pulled those who already believed into a deeper experience of Godâs reality, love, and grace. One of the main ways we move from abstract knowledge about God to a personal encounter with him as a living reality is through the furnace of affliction. As C. S. Lewis famously put it, âGod whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pain.â10 Believers understand many doctrinal truths in the mind, but those truths seldom make the journey down into the heart except through disappointment, failure, and loss. As a man who seemed about to lose both his career and his family once said to me, âI always knew, in principle, that âJesus is all you needâ to get through. But you donât really know Jesus is all you need until Jesus is all you have.â
Finally, as I grew in my understanding of the Bible itself, I came to see that the reality of suffering was one of its main themes. The book of Genesis begins with an account of how evil and death came into the world. The book of Exodus recounts Israelâs forty years in the wilderness, a time of intense testing and trial. The wisdom literature of the Old Testament is largely dedicated to the problem of suffering. The book of Psalms provides a prayer for every possible situation in life, and so it is striking how filled it is with cries of pain and with blunt questions to God about the seeming randomness and injustice of suffering. In Psalm 44, the writer looks at the devastation of his country and calls, âAwake, O Lord! Why do you sleep?. ⌠Why do you hide your face and forget our misery and oppression?â (Ps 44:23â24) The books of Job and Ecclesiastes are almost wholly dedicated to deep reflection on unjust suffering and on the frustrating pointlessness that characterizes so much of life. The prophets Jeremiah and Habakkuk give searing expression to the human complaint that evil seems to rule history. New Testament books such as Hebrews and 1 Peter are almost entirely devoted to helping people face relentless sorrows and troubles. And towering over all, the central figure of the whole of Scripture, Jesus Christ, is a man of sorrows. The Bible, therefore, is about suffering as much as it is about anything.
Inevitably, Kathy and I found ourselves facing our own griefs. In 2002, I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and went through surgery and treatment. Around the same time, Kathyâs Crohnâs disease became acute and she had to undergo numerous surgeries over the next few years, once enduring seven in one year. At one point, I found myself facing the agonizing possibility that I should leave the pastoral ministry because of my wifeâs chronic illness. It was the darkest time of our lives so far. And we know for certain, from Scripture and experience, that there are more dark times to come. And yet also more joy than we can now imagine.
Looking back on our lives, Kathy and I came to realize that at the heart of why people disbelieve and believe in God, of why people decline and grow in character, of how God becomes less real and more real to usâis suffering. And when we looked to the Bible to understand this deep pattern, we came to see that the great theme of the Bible itself is how God brings fullness of joy not just despite but through suffering, just as Jesus saved us not in spite of but because of what he endured on the cross. And so there is a peculiar, rich, and poignant joy that seems to come to us only through and in suffering.
What we have learned from these years of ministry to âthe afflictedâ is in this volume. Simone Weil writes that suffering makes God âappear to be absent.â She is right. But in Psalm 34, David counters that though God feels absent, it does not mean he actually is. Looking back at a time when his life had been in grave danger and all seemed lost, David concludes, âThe Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spiritâ (v. 18).
Iâm writing this book because we have found in our own lives that this is true.
The Fiery Furnace and the Plan for This Book
So is this a book for sufferers? Yes, but we must make some distinctions. We are all sufferers, or we will be. But not all of us are currently in an experie...