Iāve heard rumours of an insurrection in Greenland: some of the Inuit people there are said to have risen up against the settlers who outnumber them these days ten or even twenty to one. Iāve seen grainy pictures, taken from planes or satellites, of streets in tropical cities strewn with skeletons, killed not by war or famine or disease but by pulses of heat so intense that the human body canāt endure it for more than an hour or two. Iāve heard that the fine grey dust that falls on London from time to time comes from vast forest fires in the tropical zone. Large areas of the Earth these days are barely habitable, and very little news comes out of them. There are whole nations that are completely silent. But then again, news is carefully filtered for us by the Guiding Body in the interests of social cohesion and psychological health, so we can never be sure that we have the whole picture. This may very well be wise. It reduces the risk of widespread panic. But it also means that the present time is rather a mystery. One of the attractions of the past is that itās easier to see. Cally wanted to know why we should care about the lives of people two and a half centuries ago, and I think thatās one of the reasons. And its remoteness makes it comforting.
*
Harry arrived back in Breckham, that nondescript little town with its Victorian clock tower, its war memorial, its slightly shabby old-fashioned hotel. An app in his phone directed him. āAt the roundabout, take the third exit onto Thetford Road.ā āIn one hundred yards, turn left on to Forest Drive.ā He entered the former council estate where Michelle lived.
The drive from North London had taken him about two hours, back up the M11 and then on to the A11 and the A14, switching back and forth between the parallel streams of metal and plastic and rubber. It wasnāt very far at all back in those days, but it struck him that Breckham was more remote from the world he knew than cities on other continents like New York or Sydney or Toronto.
āTurn right on to Woodland Road . . . You have reached your destination.ā
He parked his car and climbed out. He remembered standing here in almost this same spot, before heād even met Michelle, and for a few seconds he stood there again, under a flat grey sky. He was wearing that smart blue jacket of his, and, after much deliberation, a white and blue striped shirt without a tie. His feelings were extraordinarily intense, but so confused that he couldnāt name them, or even tell whether they were positive or negative overall.
He pressed the bell. A few seconds passed and then there was movement behind the frosted glass. The door opened and there she was.
Just for a moment she was simply a human being standing there, a human being like any other, no more and no less, so that it seemed strange that he had expended so very much time and emotion on thinking about her. But in the space of about a second, all the connotations that sheād acquired in his mind came flooding back, wrapping themselves around her again, clothing her in meaning, turning her into a kind of miracle in human form, an idea that had become flesh.
āMichelle!ā he croaked, wondering what kind of hug or kiss was appropriate when you greeted someone youād only met once but had slept with. She solved the problem for him by kissing him lightly on the lips.
āHello, Harry. Nice to see you. Iāll just go upstairs and get my bag.ā She was wearing a brown leather skirt and matching boots, and a cream polo-neck top. āCome inside for a minute.ā
He hadnāt expected it but there was someone else already there in the living room. āThis is Cheryl, Harry. My best friend. You remember I told you about her?ā
Cheryl stood up from the sofa. She was a tall black woman with light brown skin and curly fairish wavy hair that was very meticulously layered and highlighted. She wore a good deal of make-up and bright red lipstick. She had sharp, green, interrogative eyes.
She let him shake her hand, but did not grasp his as he did so. Michelle left the room.
āItās good to meet you, Cheryl. Michelle talked about you when I came here before. Youāre her business partner, right?ā
āThatās it. We run the salon between us. Youāre an architect in London, apparently?ā
He wondered whether Michelle had asked her friend to be here to give her a second opinion, or whether Cheryl herself had taken the initiative.
āI am,ā he told her. āIām afraid itās not quite as glamorous a job as it sounds. Itās mainly a matter ofāā
āMichelleās been through a lot of shit, you know. Sheās a lovely person. I couldnāt wish for a better friend. But sheās had a tough life. She doesnāt need anyone else to mess her around.ā
āI know sheās been through a lot. Sheās lost a child. I donāt know if she told you, but that happened to me as well, so I do know what it does to you.ā
Most people received the news of his loss of Danny with at least a nominal expression of sympathy, but Cheryl ignored it completely. āI wonāt lie to you, Harry, I donāt have a good feeling about this. If you havenāt got anything real to offer her, please, please for her sake, let her be.ā
āI appreciate your concern for your friend, Cheryl, but I can assure youāā
But then Michelle came back in. Sheād put on a short white coat and was holding a small cream-coloured bag with a gold chain. All three left the house together, Cheryl to climb into her own immaculate white car, Michelle and Harry to get into his battered red one. As he drove off, he glanced round at the woman beside him. He couldnāt quite believe she was really present.
āDid Cheryl come over just to check me out?ā he asked, when they were on the road through the forestry plantation that led to Breckham St Mary.
Michelle laughed. āWell, we do normally meet up on a Wednesday so we can catch up on paperwork. But yeah, she definitely wanted to have a look at you. She thinks Iām too trusting.ā
He glanced across at her again. Those grey, naked eyes. Then she laughed. āHey! Look at the fucking road, Harry!ā
āSorry. Truth is I canāt quite get my head round the fact that youāre actually here.ā
āWell, I am here and I donāt want to end up wrapped round a tree!ā
āCheryl seemed very worried that I might let you down in some way, or betray your trust.ā
āSheās very protective of me. She knows Iāve made some bad choices before.ā
āIām not sure what to say. We donāt know each other very well. We canāt know in advance what will happen, can we, or how well weāll get on? So neither of us can guarantee anything. But I do want to be absolutely straight with you.ā
She laughed again, a little uncomfortably. He realized heād come over as intense. āOkay,ā she said. āI believe you.ā
āCherylās your closest friend, yes?ā
āYeah, weāve been friends since we were kids. We both started school in Breckham when we were fifteen, so we were like the two outsiders that none of the other girls wanted to be with because we werenāt from round here.ā
Harry laughed. āNo! Really? But you came from Romford. Itās not exactly the other side of the world!ā
āWell, it might not seem far away to you, but believe me thatās a long way in Breckham. Cheryl got teased for coming from Brandon, and thatās only ten miles away.ā
āYouāre joking?ā
āIām not. They gave her just as hard a time as me.ā
āBecause she came from Brandon? Not because sheās black?ā
āWell, that too, I suppose, but there were a few coloured kids in our school. Weāve got these big American bases round here, and women get together with black Air Force guys. It was more that no one wanted to hang out with people they hadnāt grown up with. And believe me, it wasnāt just the kids who were like that. It was the grown-ups too.ā
āBut youāre not like that. How can you bear to be in a town where people are so ā I donāt know ā intolerant?ā
āWhat? Youāre saying itās not like that in London?ā
His first impulse was to say that it wasnāt like that at all. Cosmopolitan, dynamic, Remain-voting London was one of the heroes of the story his friends were telling, along with wonderful progressive, Remain-voting Scotland. But he made himself reflect on what London was actually like, and not on the projections that were currently being laid over it. āI suppose itās more like that than we Londoners like to think. We stick with our own kind and keep our distance from the rest. You can get apps these days that tell you what kinds of newspapers people buy in the street youāre thinking of moving to, so Guardian-readers can avoid finding themselves among readers of the Mail or the Telegraph or the Sun. But we donāt really need the apps, if Iām honest. We can tell at a glance whether itās our kind of street, our kind of people, and if itās not we avoid it. I guess itās the same everywhere, one way or another. People feel threatened by folk who are different.ā
āI reckon. So yeah, anyway, me and Cheryl became best friends. Weāre good for each other. Sheās a bit harder than me. More of a fighter. So she stands up for me sometimes, or helps me stand up for myself.ā
āAnd what do you do for her?ā
āHmmm. Good question. I suppose I help her take her armour off a bit, if you know what I mean. Or I like to think so, anyway. Weāve had a few rough patches. It was difficult between us after I lost Caitlin. Lots of the other mums didnāt want to be around me at all, and she found it very hard. But we seem to have got through it.ā
āIt was like that with us, too. Our friends didnāt feel comfortable around us. But listen, Michelle. We have that loss in common, and that feels special, but if there was an app that worked on people instead of streets, it would tell us that we werenāt the same kind of people at all, wouldnāt it? We probably donāt read the same papers. We probably donāt have the same ideas.ā
āIāve never met an architect before, thatās for sure.ā
āIāve never met a hairdresser. Except when they cut my hair, obviously. I wonāt lie, I worry about that difference between us, but at the same time itās one of the things that fascinate me about you. I donāt know why, but it does. Itās as if Iāve grown bored of my own kind.ā
Michelle didnāt answer at first. Harryās exhaust pipe spewed sulphur dioxide into the wintry forest. āI donāt know what you want me to say,ā she finally said. āIām just . . . me, you know?ā
He realized heād said a stupid thing. It was as if heād told a black woman, āYou fascinate me because youāre black.ā Who wanted to be an object of fascination because of their demographic category?
āI put that badly. Iām sorry. You fascinate me full stop, Michelle. Iāve only spent one evening with you, after all, but I couldnāt put it out of my mind. And...