Both Not Half

'Few people write about identity with such fluency and sincerity' SATHNAM SANGHERA

Jassa Ahluwalia

• Publisher: Blink Publishing
• Year: 2024
• Topic: Social Sciences
• eBook ISBN:
  9781788708302
• Subtopic: Social Science Biographies
• Index: Social Sciences

'Full of warmth, humour, optimism and sometimes painful honesty' WILLIAM DALRYMPLE
'Anyone who's ever struggled to make sense of who they are and where they belong should read this book' NADIA WHITTOME MP
'An important voice of our generation' PARMINDER NAGRA

'This guy has better Punjabi than both of us and he's only half Punjabi.' Only. Half. I stared at those words. The intent behind the comment was in no way malicious, but it hurt. I felt diminished. I felt like I was being robbed of something essential to me. And as I stared at my screen, realisation dawned. '#bothnothalf' I replied.

For over twenty-five years, actor Jassa Ahluwalia described himself as 'half Indian, half English'. His fluent Punjabi always prompted bewilderment, medical staff questioned the legitimacy of his name, and the world of casting taught him he wasn't 'the right kind of mixed-race'. Feeling caught between two worlds, it wasn't long before Jassa embarked on a call to action: we need to change how we think and talk about mixed identity.

By delving into the media we grew up consuming and the legacies of empire we have been taught, Ahluwalia asks: is there anything to be learnt from Rudyard Kipling? Why were movie stars urged to hide their mixed identities? To what extent did colonialism encourage or hinder mixed marriages? Is nationalism outdated? How can the politics of class and queer liberation inform our understanding of mixed identity?

Both Not Half is a rallying cry for a new and inclusive future. It's a journey of self-discovery that unearths the historical roots of modern mixed identity as we know it, braving to deconstruct the binaries we have inherited and the narratives we passively accept. Part-memoir, part-manifesto: this is a campaign for belonging in a divided world.

Table of contents

• Cover
• Praise
• About the Author
• Title Page
• Copyright
• Dedication
• Epigraph
• Contents
• 1. Alone in the Jungle
• 2. My Name Is Jassa Ahluwalia and I Have Imperial Nostalgia
• 3. Half-Casting
• 4. Both Not Half
• 5. Useful Fictions, Dangerous Narratives
• 6. Adventures in Masculinity
• 7. Occupy the Back Seats
• 8. One Not Both
• Acknowledgements
• Endnotes