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College Dreams, College Plans
When I asked Genesis how old she was when she first started thinking about college, she scrunched up her face as she thought back. She had been thinking about and planning for college through high school, but before that as well: âI think middle school, like eighth grade I started thinking about college. I remember working really hard in high school, and my main motivation working so hard was to get into a good college.â College loomed large for Genesis in high school as a motivating factor and central concern, linked to other goals for adulthood such as career choice.
Genesisâs account of college preparation sounds like that of many young American college students: years of planning, months of worrying over applications, anxiety while waiting for acceptance or rejection, joy at admission to a hoped-for school. However, Genesis, Violet, and other students from socioeconomically marginalized backgrounds who attend selective and highly selective colleges are by definition exceptional. The rates of low-income, first-generation, and working-class students attending four-year colleges immediately after high school are far lower than those of middle and upper socioeconomic status students. It is not an exaggeration to say that their representation at the top 146 most selective colleges and universities is tiny: according to one estimate, only 3 percent of students at these campuses come from the bottom income quartile, and only 10 percent from the bottom half.1 I therefore begin this book by examining how these particular respondents began their lives at Linden by zeroing in on their decision to go to college, how they chose Linden, and their recollections of arriving on campus.
In examining this precollege process, I also highlight some of the ways in which moral questions related to class inequality were already coming into play as respondents and their families thought about college and the meanings of class mobility. In particular, I pay attention to respondentsâ motivations for attending college and for selecting Linden. Respondents indicated generally that they were seeking greater economic stability than they grew up with, and this positioned college as a path âout,â as Genesis put it later in our conversation, but also a path away from the lives their parents and home-community friends typically led. I discuss parents both as sources of support and as what I call âconflicted role models.â In this light, college aspirations often become tinged with moral associations, making the route toward enrollment and the thinking about what type of college to select more complicated. I close by discussing respondentsâ first impressions of Linden formed during visits or arrival on campus, the first face-to-face interactions between students and the new community they are about to join.
Parents: Sources of Support and Conflicted Role Models
In most cases, as we saw in Genesisâs recollections, respondents had been thinking seriously about college since junior high or earlier. When asked how long they had known they wanted to go to college, some told me that they had always known; one respondent held out her hands about two feet off the ground to show the height of a young child and said, âSince I was this tall.â Evelyn, for example, told me, she had âalwaysâ planned to go to college:
Always. And my parents, I have to say, they were so good about saying, âWe didnât go to college, and we want you to go to college and use your brain.â Which is weird. They were so good with positive affirmation about my brainâŚ. Doing whatever I wanted to set my mind to do as far as going to college and becoming something. Especially my mom. Not so much my dad, but especially my mom. She was always, âGo to college. Go to college.â So I just have always thought, âWell, I guess Iâm going to go to college.â And I wanted to as well.
The language that Evelyn attributes to her parents is evocative: going to college and âus[ing] your brainâ means âbecoming something.â Evelyn portrays her parents as supportive of these goals, as we see through their long-term encouragement about using her abilities. Indeed, Evelyn seems to position her motherâs push toward college as foundational and her own desire as almost secondary when she states, âI guess Iâm going to college. And I wanted to as well.â Many respondents shared this narrative of parental support and emphasis on higher education as an important goal.
We can also see a second kind of parental influence in Evelynâs description, positioning college as a way to avoid following their own pathways. Going to college not only means âbecoming somethingâ but also highlights an implied contrast to her parentsâ achievements. Evelynâs parents are equally clear about this as they are about their encouragement: they tell Evelyn, âWe didnât go to college, and we want you toâŚuse your brain.â In Evelynâs and other studentsâ narratives, this comparison positioned parents or other family as a kind of reverse role models in ways that could be uncomfortable for respondents. Parents play a key role in this chapter and in the broader sociological literature about educational outcomes. Sociologists have long been interested in the ways that parentsâ aspirations and expectations influence childrenâs grades, progression through school, and indeed studentsâ own goals for educational attainment.2 Sociologists such as Annette Lareau, however, caution that we must also pay attention to the resources that parents have available at their disposal to support those aspirations.3 While Lareauâs interest is especially in cultural capital, other scholars have directed our attention to the role of information or âcollege knowledgeâ: parents who themselves attended college not only understand the process of applying for admission more clearly than parents who have not but are also more likely to be immersed in communities that provide additional sources of information for their children, which increases the available sources of information exponentially. We might think of cultural capital and information as crucial for a shift from college dreams to college plans. Although most respondents reported the positive support of their parents, many also described this more complex undertone. I focus on this aspect because it tells us more about the complicated moral issues associated with college and has been less widely documented in the literature on parentsâ aspirations for their childrenâs educations.4
Victoriaâs story is emblematic of this duality. When I asked Victoria about how she first began thinking about college, she was definite about how college had become a priority for her.
| Liz: | Did you always know when you were in high school that you wanted to go to college? Was it always clear to you? |
| Victoria: | Yes. I think I started looking at colleges when I was in seventh grade. |
| Liz: | Wow. How come? Was there some place specific that prompted that, and did your folks tell you that you needed to go to college or⌠|
| Victoria: | No. |
| Liz: | Cousins or anything? |
| Victoria: | No, no one told me. I think it was justâthis sounds really bad. I think it was that I didnât want to end up livingâthis sounds terribleâbecause I love my mother and I admire my mother so, so much. And Iâm so proud of her and everything that sheâs done for my sister and I. I think that I didnât want to end up repeating the cycle. I think in my day-to-day life Iâm very, very conscious all the time, maybe overly soâIâm always very afraid of making a choice thatâs gonna repeat the cycle that my mother didâŚ. It kind of, it scares me to think that if I donât go to school, if I donât educate myself, if I donât really learn how to support myself that Iâll end up in some kind of bad relationship. And a situation where Iâm stuck and I canât get out. |
Victoriaâs emotional conflict comes through in her description of the role college plays in her thinkingânamely, something that will hopefully ensure that she does not ârepeatâ her motherâs life, not only in terms of work but in even more personal ways, like âend[ing] up in a bad relationship.â Again, this positioning is a difficult one, seeming to show Victoria wanting something more or better than her family, which âsounds terribleâ to Victoria as she compares her own lifeâs path favorably to her motherâs. She worries that she may be implicitly positioning herself as better than her mother, an impression she rushes to correct by mentioning how much she loves and respects her. We begin to see here the ways in which college plans, even when shared and honored by parents, can evoke fraught moral worries.
Violet, whom we met in the introduction, described how her mother had always encouraged her to go to college in similar terms, also highlighting the way that college was a way of avoiding the economic instability in which she had grown up: âMy mom said you have to go to college. She didnât know what that meant or what [that might] look like, but this is what you do if you want to not clean houses. I didnât know anything about college at all.â Thus, the idea of college was significant for making sure Violet did not end up repeating her motherâs work history, even though neither of them knew exactly how to make the actual process happen.
For many respondents, then, college represented a âway out,â a phrase that Genesis usedâa way out of both specific childhood circumstances and a prospective undesired future: âI guess maybe I always knew I always wanted to get out, and I didnât like my childhood and teenager years so much. I wanted toâŚget out. Everything I did, doing it to get out, I knew college was like one way out, if I wanted a good job, a better life.â
We see here strong links to what Richard Sennett and Jonathan Cobb referred to as the âhidden injuriesâ of class.5 In thinking about college, respondents were often confronting difficult questions about what kind of life they and their parents envisioned for themselves and whether that life would be different, âbetterâ than that of their upbringing. College was thus a source of desired mobility into a more stable economic position but also a path away from family and community. As we see in Victoriaâs response, this presented emotional conflicts for many respondents.
Immigration History as College Context
Respondents whose families had immigrated to the United States did not share this duality. These respondents did not report the same kinds of internal conflict about surpassing parentsâ educational or occupational attainments; rather, their families had come to the United States for this purpose, though this did not prevent later struggles with these same issues. First- and second-generation immigrants are more likely to attend college than those young adults whose families have been in the United States over multiple generations. This link between parentsâ immigration histories and studentsâ college framing could be seen in my interviews with several respondents. Genesis, Alyssa, Georgina, Alexandra, Fiona, and Isabel were all children of parents who had immigrated to the United States. Alyssa told me that college was a priority in her family because her parentsâ âwhole purposeâŚfor coming to this country is so we could have the opportunity, that opportunity and so, they wouldnât want us to fall backâŚthey only want to see us to go forward. So that was a big deal for them.â Alyssaâs sister was six years older, and Alyssa said that in her memories of childhood, âall I know is that she [her sister] was [applying to college], that college is a must in my family. Itâs either you go to school or you have to split the bills in the house. So it was: you do what you got to do, and so thatâs how that works.â Alyssaâs parents were also clear about what they saw as the benefits of a college degree: âIt was definitely like, âYouâre going to college. Itâs either you go to college or donât think youâre going to come sit down [at home]âŚ. Youâre going to beâŚeither youâre going to grow up really fast and have to split the cost of the bills or you can go to school and sit behind your own desk and do what you like.ââ A college degree would bring the kind of extended transition into adulthood and independence as a worker that Alyssaâs parents wished for their childrenââsit[ting] behind your own desk and do[ing] what you likeâ rather than âgrow[ing] up really fast.â
Similarly, Georginaâs parents, who had emigrated from China before she was born, recalled that her parents âdidnât know [about Linden]. They said, âYouâre going to college.â Okay, my family, my parents are first-generation immigrants. [In] Asian American families, in general itâs a big [thing].â Like most students whose parents came to the United States, college was âa big thingâ in Georginaâs family, inextricable from family reasons for immigrating. Georginaâs noting that her parents werenât aware of Linden as a college highlights an issue that a number of respondents described, that of needing to convince their parents and families about the importance of going to a college like Linden. For many families, simply going to college would have been sufficient, and staying close to home or going to a school with a lower sticker price might have been preferable. The ability to distinguish between types of colleges is yet another kind of âcollege knowledge.â6
Exceptions: Unconvincing Role Models
The vast majority of respondents described family members as being strongly and explicitly supportive of their plans to attend college generally, even if not Linden College specifically. For most respondents, this consistent support was an important factor in their college stories. In some cases, however, respondents described their parentsâ efforts at convincing them to go to college as unconvincing. Harmony, for example, knew that her parents believed college to be important, but she did not see them as credible role models. She recalled: âMy parents would stress education, but my father went to school and he dropped out, and my mom went to school after she had all of her kids, so it wasnât like [trails off]. And both went in the areaâŚso I didnât really have an idea of all the schools that were out there.â For Harmony, neither the full range of college possibilities nor higher education as something to be accomplished in her young adult life were represented in her parentsâ experiences.
Becca found that her parents also were not fully credible college advocates. She told me, âMy parents would always be extremely kind of big proponents of college, but they also had jobs that you donât need a college degree [for].â Their support for college as a priority shifted over time. During her teenage years, when maintaining a college track in school seemed to represent a safe alternative to risky adolescent behaviors, Beccaâs parents stressed college: âThey pushed college until I was older because itâs a lot easier to explain to a sixteen to seventeen year old, who, if they didnât go to college would develop drinking problems or hang out on college campuses, get wasted then go to workâit was a lot easier to say no, you really nee...