SONGS FOR BANDS
Not an Exit
N.D.
Ta-pocketa-pocketa-pocketa. â Walter Mitty
âWhen You Go Rowing with a Girl, She Looks Good Thereâ
Consequences, delusion, ire, the normal pieties, pity, gross neglect, and heavy-handed interpretation; not to mention intentional cruelty, flirts, no less, carpools, unction, severe chest pains, abecedarian stress, and the inklings that derive from staring long and hard at, starling, sanderling, piper, spit, cheap chiseler, adenoid arroyo, pockety-pock of soon-obscene amends (consequences then, too) brought gloamingâindemnify the purple crater while optimizing into frameless wet honorific where on City Earth. Call it.
December 1
Gloom and misery everywhere. Stormy weather.
Repairs
21st-Century Facts: Darkness, ignorance, absence of manners, nuance, tact. Something the magazine philosophersâaka âpublic intellectualsââwonât ponder. What a crock of shit that category has become: Begin with a perfectly diligent philosophy professor whose lectures have some spark, are compiled for his advancement in books that become the new âturnâ in scholastic thinking; next he is picked up by the art magazines as a name to parade on glossy cover stock. Accordingly, the stock goes down: M. Le Prof. is flattered beyond reason (French reason having spun its wheels since at latest the 1840s), flatters himself that he can quip his way into Theory Heaven, ends up speechifying at Chelsea dinners. Itâs like those old fight movies with John Garfield, boy violinist waylaid by the Mob, but thereâs no Lili Palmer to set the poor boy straight. Meanwhile, an aura of sanctity grows. Is M. Rancière copyedited the same as X, Y, Z? Or, why quote Agamben when John Dewey the Third already had that thought while stirring his froth at Papaya King some forty years prior?
Not Applicable
He is living proof that narcissism is an incurable disease.
Tell
I donât want to tell of something in the way of dictating a point of view, but to tell (like beads) the wordsâphrases you can turn here or there toward what might want to be said.
Feelings drawn from words: expressivity in reverse.
Extreme Reverie
An afterimage of my cousin Deborah Sudran at Kenneth Kochâs and my reading at St. Marksâand was my mother there? If so how was sheânice? not nice?âwith Deborah, my fatherâs niece? I slip slowly into my motherâs mind, tangle there so much that panic ensuesâIâm inside another personâs consciousness! What if I never returned? The strong sense that this is what it is to âgoâ mad.
March 5
Monday weather forecast, front page of todayâs New York Times, reads: âDull with possibility of snow in the High Sierras.â
Dyslexia (a simulcast with Clark Coolidge): âInvoid the affect.â
Doctor specializing in treating US Marinesâ post-Iraq trauma conditions at Walter Reed Medical Center, DC, is known as The Wizard.
Ancient section of Baghdad, site of book market & intellectualsâ/poetsâ hangouts bombed to ruin. On NPR, an Iraqi poet announces his mission and that of his peers, âto keep the language from going insane.â
The world helps the artist by revealing mystic truths.
June 2
Walking down a path in Grasmere with Tom Pickard behind the church where the Wordsworths are buried, suddenly I hiss thru teeth sharply, ouch, âtwas a nettle brushed by right little fingerâand Tom instantly dives to the right of the path, scoops up a handful of green leavesâdockâcrumples and hands them to me with a gesture that says, âRub.â The pain subsides almost immediately, but for the slight discomfort of a sticker embedded near the top joint. Susan Coolidge says, âWherever something poisonous is, the antidote usually grows nearby.â
All
All, all, everythingâ and oneâvariations on a theme.
November 23
I said to students in grad seminar last Wednesday: âNow I understand the great chasm that separates you from me. I belong to the last generation with immediate (grandparent) Victorian forebears. That world gone after WWI but lingering in speech, manners, habits for another fifty-plus years. I walk uphill, a woman comes down the street, âGood morning!â and I tip my cap. I can tip my cap, and you canât, not unself-consciously anyway!â
Try to Remember
Thirty days hath September,
April, June, and November;
All the rest have thirty-one,
Except for February
[whose days are funny, all screwed up].
Meaning
âMeaning is a peculiar thing in poetryâas peculiar as meaning in politics or loving. In writing poetry a poet can hardly say that he knows what he means. In writing he is more intimately concerned with holding ...