Fan Appreciation no.1
Ash48: The Vidder
Interview by Lynn Zubernis
Supernatural has inspired a rich variety of technically impressive fan videos, from humorous âcrackâ vids to emotional reflections of canon to âalternate universe (AU)â vids that tell stories canon has never explored. One of the most prolific and well-known vidders, Sarah House, known within fandom as Ash48, discusses the reasons sheâs passionate about Supernatural, and the story behind some of her most popular vids.
Lynn Zubernis (LZ): What is it about Supernatural that makes you want to create fan videos about the show?
Ash48: Thatâs THE question. What exactly is it about SPN that makes it so compelling? How can a show, that can be flawed at times, create such an intense passion with so many people? I ask myself that many times. Supernatural is still the only show I feel passionate about and connected to in a way that inspires me to vid (or write meta, make picspams, etc.). I love and enjoy many other shows but they donât really inspire me to want to search through hours and hours of footage and extract what I need to make a fanvid.
In a nutshell, the appeal and passion comes down to the characters of Sam and Dean. I have always enjoyed bromance (a big fan of Starsky & Hutch [William Frederick Blinn, ABC, 1975-1979], Simon and Simon [Philip DeGuere, CBS, 1981-1989] and The Professionals [Brian Clemens, ITV, 1977-1983]) so a show featuring brothers working together was something that would appeal to me. It also helps that itâs a genre show. I particularly enjoy thrillers, horror, mystery and science fiction so I knew the style of the show would also be something I would like. It doesnât hurt that they are extremely good looking and have amazing on-screen chemistry. They have a powerful and fluctuating dynamic that is fascinating and wonderful to watch. The myth arc (especially the first five years), is intriguing enough to keep me hooked. Even now, as they work through a variety of different seasonal arcs, I am emotionally invested because I have history with the show and I have found a place (fandom) that I love and donât want to give up any time soon.
LZ: What are some of the songs that youâve been inspired to vid because of their relevance to SPN?
Ash48: When I heard Johnny Cashâs âHurtâ (2002) I immediately pictured Deanâs story and the idea of Dean and the deal. Itâs probably one of my favourite vids â in terms of a song relating to a characterâs arc AND it telling the story I wanted to for Dean. It was actually the last verse that really cemented the song for me:
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
I am completely fascinated by Deanâs decision to sell his soul to bring Sam back. At the end of the vid I wanted to pose the question: if Dean knew the pain and torment he and Sam were going to suffer in the future, would he still make the deal? I am also fascinated by Deanâs inner turmoil â this song really spoke to me about that. At the time I made that vid, Dean was drinking a lot and, as I saw it, self-harming. Even though the song was about drug use, I extended it to cover drinking, so it fit Dean.
Dolly Partonâs â9 to 5â (1980) is particularly weird choice to vid because it doesnât really have the SPN feel about it at all â but I felt the lyrics were perfect for the Winchesters.
Workinâ 9 to 5
What a way to make a livinâ
Barely gettinâ by
Itâs all takinâ
And no givinâ
They just use your mind
And you never get the credit
Itâs enough to drive you
Crazy if you let it
I always see them as working hard and not being rewarded (outside of their own satisfaction of saving people) and the notion of connecting the mundane and normal â9 to 5â job with the job they do rather tickled me. I picked the song and knew I wanted to vid it before I had the idea of using the episode âItâs a Terrible Lifeâ (Season 4, Episode 17). Once I figured out how to use that episode to structure the vid, I was confident I could make it work.
Figure 2: âNo Braveryâ
I sat on the song âNo Braveryâ (James Blunt, 2006) for ages. It was a song that had the feel I was after but I was concerned about it being too melodramatic and too sentimental. After sitting on it for months, I bit the bullet and just did it. Iâve always wanted to highlight the plight of the victims in the show, so this song was the perfect vehicle for that. Supernatural often shows us children suffering and so these lyrics became a major inspiration for making this vid.
There are children standing here,
Arms outstretched into the sky,
But no one asks the question why,
He has been here.
Brothers lie in shallow graves.
Fathers lost without a trace.
A nation blind to their disgrace,
Since heâs been here.
I translated âheâ to be a personification of evil.
âWhere Do We Draw the Lineâ is a vid I hold very close to me. Looking back itâs probably not as well edited as it could have been, but I remember working really closely with the song and mapping out each visual. I am constantly fascinated by the thin line the boys walk â in what they are prepared to do for each other. This song really spoke to me about how far theyâd take it. I remember watching âAll Hell Breaks Looseâ (Season 2, Episodes 21-22) and freaking out when Sam was about to hit Jake with the iron bar. It was a line I didnât want Sam to cross. He didnât, and for that he was killed. Itâs a fabulous conflict. Similarly with Dean making the deal for Samâs life and John making the deal for Deanâs. That was the central idea behind this vid.
Figure 3: âBehind Blue Eyesâ
What does tomorrow want with me
What does it matter what I see
If I canât choose my own design
Tell me where do we draw the line
âBehind Blue Eyesâ (The Who, 1971) is another song I listened to over and over. In my mind it was the perfect Sam song because it talks about what goes on in Samâs troubled mind. It not only reflects what he thinks of himself but what (I thought) fandom was thinking of him at the time.
No one knows what itâs like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
And no one knows
What itâs like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
The comments I often get are: âbut Sam doesnât have blue eyes.â Itâs a sure sign that the viewer hasnât understood what I was trying to do with the video. I did take a risk with the interpretation of âblueâ as sad rather than eye colour.
LZ: Your process in creating fanvids is in some ways similar to the process in creating fanfic, including the tension between wanting the fanwork to be well received and wanting to express something thatâs personal.
Ash48: I imagine the thinking process is much the same. I always have my audience in mind when I make a vid. I think we can say âI am doing this for myself,â but in reality weâre not. Sure, we enjoy that creative process and it gives us pleasure, but without an audience I think the experience is incomplete. If something fails we can say âitâs ok because I am doing it for myselfâ but, personally, that argument stopped working for me early on. Thereâs no doubt I want a vid to be enjoyed, accepted and understood, so the questions I always ask myself relate directly to what the viewer will get out of it. Thatâs not to say that I only make vids for an audience. I want to enjoy the finished product as much as I want to enjoy the process. I ask myself âwhat do I want to sayâ and âwhat do I want the audience to feelâ so I donât lose focus.
LZ: One of the things you identify as a goal in vidding is telling a clear, complex story. How do you accomplish this?
Ash48: This is tricky because I feel I am yet to achieve a vid that âreally achieved a coherent narrative, or told a particularly compelling storyâ. Structuring a clear narrative is difficult for me and itâs why I donât do AU vids very often. My idea of narrative in a video is the journey it takes from the beginning to the end. If the vid starts with a character in a certain âplaceâ (frame of mind, situation, etc.) and ends with them in another âplaceâ, then I consider the vid to have a narrative structure. With that in mind, the ones that I think came close would be âHurtâ and âWrongâ. âHurtâ had a distinctive ending (Dean reflecting on his decision to sell his soul) and therefore I think the vid had a narrative flow to get to that point (that was my aim anyway). âWrongâ started by telling three separate character stories and ended with all three coming together to show how each of their stories (or individual battles) helped them fight together as Team Free Will.
The other style of narrative is when I specifically set out to tell a story. I have only ever attempted that twice â âViolence and Sexâ and âWinter-songâ. âViolence and Sexâ was a massive challenge as I attempted to tell a distinct AU narrative (for the first time). The biggest difficulty was creating a moment at the end that showed Sam âtamingâ Dean by fighting back and them then coming together without Dean having...