2004
MOUNTAINTOP REMOVAL
When it became unavoidable that Richard Katz return to the studio with his eager young bandmates and start recording a second Walnut Surprise albumāwhen heād exhausted all modes of procrastination and flight, first playing every receptive city in America and then touring progressively more remote foreign countries, until his bandmates rebelled at adding Cyprus to their Turkish trip, and then breaking his left index finger while fielding a paperback copy of Samantha Powerās seminal survey of world genocide flung too violently by the bandās drummer, Tim, across a hotel room in Ankara, and then retreating solo to a cabin in the Adirondacks to score a Danish art film and, in his utter boredom with the project, seeking out a coke dealer in Plattsburgh and taking 5,000 euros of Danish government arts funding up his nose, and then going AWOL for a stretch of costly dissipation in New York and Florida which didnāt end until he was busted in Miami for DWI and possession, and then checking himself into the Gubser Clinic in Tallahassee for six weeks of detox and snide resistance to the gospel of recovery, and then recuperating from the shingles heād taken insufficient care to avoid contracting during a chicken-pox outbreak at the Gubser, and then performing 250 hours of agreeably mindless community service at a Dade County park, and then simply refusing to answer his phone or check his e-mail while he read books in his apartment on the pretext of shoring up his defenses against the chicks and drugs that his bandmates all seemed able to enjoy without too seriously overdoing itāhe sent Tim a postcard and told him to tell the others that he was dead broke and going back to building rooftop decks full-time; and the rest of Walnut Surprise began to feel like idiots for having waited.
Not that it mattered, but Katz really was broke. Income and outlays had more or less balanced during the bandās year and a half of touring; whenever thereād been danger of a surplus, heād upgraded their hotels and bought drinks for bars full of fans and strangers. Though Nameless Lake and the newly kindled consumer interest in old Traumatics recordings had brought him more money than his previous twenty years of work combined, heād managed to blow every dime of it in his quest to relocate the self heād misplaced. The most traumatic events ever to befall the longtime front man of the Traumatics had been (1) receiving a Grammy nomination, (2) hearing his music played on National Public Radio, and (3) deducing, from December sales figures, that Nameless Lake had made the perfect little Christmas gift to leave beneath tastefully trimmed trees in several hundred thousand NPR-listening households. The Grammy nomination had been a particularly disorienting embarrassment.
Katz had read extensively in popular sociobiology, and his understanding of the depressive personality type and its seemingly perverse persistence in the human gene pool was that depression was a successful adaptation to ceaseless pain and hardship. Pessimism, feelings of worthlessness and lack of entitlement, inability to derive satisfaction from pleasure, a tormenting awareness of the worldās general crappiness: for Katzās Jewish paternal forebears, whoād been driven from shtetl to shtetl by implacable anti-Semites, as for the old Angles and Saxons on his motherās side, whoād labored to grow rye and barley in the poor soils and short summers of northern Europe, feeling bad all the time and expecting the worst had been natural ways of equilibriating themselves with the lousiness of their circumstances. Few things gratified depressives, after all, more than really bad news. This obviously wasnāt an optimal way to live, but it had its evolutionary advantages. Depressives in grim situations handed down their genes, however despairingly, while the self-improvers converted to Christianity or moved away to sunnier locales. Grim situations were Katzās niche the way murky water was a carpās. His best years with the Traumatics had coincided with Reagan I, Reagan II, and Bush I; Bill Clinton (at least pre-Lewinsky) had been something of a trial for him. Now came Bush II, the worst regime of all, and he might well have started making music again, had it not been for the accident of success. He flopped around on the ground, heavily carplike, his psychic gills straining futilely to extract dark sustenance from an atmosphere of approval and plenitude. He was at once freer than heād been since puberty and closer than heād ever been to suicide. In the last days of 2003, he went back to building decks.
He was lucky with his first two clients, a couple of private-equity boys who were into the Chili Peppers and didnāt know Richard Katz from Ludwig van Beethoven. He sawed and nail-gunned on their roofs in relative peace. Not until his third job, begun in February, did he have the misfortune of working for people who thought they knew who he was. The building was on White Street between Church and Broadway, and the client, an independently rich publisher of art books, owned the entire Traumatics oeuvre in vinyl and seemed hurt that Katz didnāt remember seeing his face in various sparse crowds at Maxwellās, in Hoboken, over the years.
āThere are so many faces,ā Katz said. āIām bad with faces.ā
āThat night when Molly fell off the stage, we all had drinks afterward. I still have her bloody napkin somewhere. You donāt remember?ā
āDrawing a blank. Sorry.ā
āWell, anyway, itās been great to see you getting some of the recognition you deserve.ā
āIād rather not talk about that,ā Katz said. āLetās talk about your roof instead.ā
āBasically, I want you to be creative and bill me,ā the client said. āI want to have a deck built by Richard Katz. I canāt imagine youāre going to be doing this for long. I couldnāt believe it when I heard you were in business.ā
āSome rough idea of square footage and preference in materials would nevertheless be useful.ā
āReally anything. Just be creative. It doesnāt even matter.ā
āBear with me, though, and pretend it does,ā Katz said. āBecause if it really doesnāt matter, Iām not sure Iāā
āCover the roof. OK? Make it vast.ā The client seemed annoyed with him. āLucy wants to have parties up here. Thatās one reason we bought this place.ā
The client had a son, Zachary, a Stuy High senior and hipster-in-training and apparently something of a guitarist, who came up to the roof after school on Katzās first day of work and, from a safe distance, as if Katz were a lion on a chain, peppered him with questions calculated to demonstrate his own knowledge of vintage guitars, which Katz considered a particularly tiresome commodity fetish. He said as much, and the kid went away annoyed with him.
On Katzās second day of work, while he was transporting lumber and Trex boards roofward, Zacharyās mother, Lucy, waylaid him on the third-floor landing and offered, unsolicited, her opinion that the Traumatics had been the kind of adolescently posturing, angst-mongering boy group that never interested her. Then she waited, with parted lips and a saucy challenge in her eyes, to see how her presenceāthe drama of being herāwas registering. In the way of such chicks, she seemed convinced of the originality of her provocation. Katz had encountered, practically verbatim, the same provocation a hundred times before, which put him in the ridiculous position now of feeling bad for being unable to pretend to be provoked: of pitying Lucyās doughty little ego, its flotation on a sea of aging-female insecurity. He doubted he could get anywhere with her even if he felt like trying, but he knew that her pride would be hurt if he didnāt make at least a token effort to be disagreeable.
āI know,ā he said, propping Trex against a wall. āThatās why it was such a breakthrough for me to produce a record of authentic adult feeling which women, too, could appreciate.ā
āWhat makes you think I liked Nameless Lake?ā Lucy said.
āWhat makes you think I care?ā Katz gamely rejoined. Heād been up and down the stairs all morning, but what really exhausted him was having to perform himself.
āI liked it OK,ā she said. āIt was maybe just a teeny bit overpraised.ā
āIām at a loss to disagree with you,ā Katz said.
She went away annoyed with him.
In the eighties and nineties, to avoid undercutting his best selling point as a contractorāthe fact that he was making unpopular music deserving of financial supportāKatz had been all but required to behave unprofessionally. His bread-and-butter clientele had been Tribeca artists and movie people whoād given him food and sometimes drugs and would have questioned his artistic commitment if heād shown up for work before midafternoon, refrained from hitting on unavailable females, or finished on schedule and within budget. Now, with Tribeca fully annexed by the financial industry, and with Lucy lingering on her DUX bed all morning, sitting cross-legged in a tank top and sheer bikini underpants while she read the Times or talked on the phone, waving up at him through the skylight whenever he passed it, her barely clothed bush and impressive thighs sustainedly observable, he became a demon of professionalism and Protestant virtue, arriving promptly at nine and working several hours past nightfall, trying to shave a day or two off the project and get the hell out of there.
Heād returned from Florida feeling equally averse to sex and to music. This sort of aversion was new to him, and he was rational enough to recognize that it had everything to do with his mental state and little or nothing to do with reality. Just as the fundamental sameness of female bodies in no way precluded unending variety, there was no rational reason to despair about the sameness of popular musicās building blocks, the major and minor power chords, the 2/4 and the 4/4, the A-B-A-B-C. Every hour of the day, somewhere in greater New York, some energetic young person was working on a song that would sound, at least for a few listeningsāmaybe for as many as twenty or thirty listeningsāas fresh as the morning of Creation. Since receiving his walking papers from Florida Probations and taking leave of his large-titted Parks Department supervisor, Marta Molina, Katz had been unable to turn on his stereo or touch an instrument or imagine letting anybody else into his bed, ever again. Hardly a day went by without his hearing an arresting new sound leaking from somebodyās basement practice room or even (it could happen) from the street doors of a Banana Republic or a Gap, and without his seeing, on the streets of Lower Manhattan, a young chick who was going to change somebodyās life; but heād stopped believing this somebody could be him.
Then came a freezing Thursday afternoon, a sky of uniform grayness, a light snow that made the downtown skylineās negative space less negative, blurring the Woolworth Building and its fairy-tale turrets, gently slanting in the weatherās tensors down the Hudson and out into the dark Atlantic, and distancing Katz from the scrum of pedestrians and traffic four stories below. The melty wetness of the streets nicely raised the treble of the trafficās hiss and negated most of his tinnitus. He felt doubly enwombed, by the snow and by his manual labor, as he cut and fitted Trex into the intricate spaces between three chimneys. Midday turned to twilight without his thinking once of cigarettes, and since the interval between cigarettes was how he was currently sectioning his days into swallowable bites, he had the feeling that no more than fifteen minutes had passed between his eating of his lunchtime sandwich and the sudden, unwelcome looming-up of Zachary.
The kid was wearing a hoodie and the sort of low-cut skinny pants that Katz had first observed in London. āWhat do you think of Tutsi Picnic?ā he said. āYou into them?ā
āDonāt know āem,ā Katz said.
āNo way! I canāt believe that.ā
āAnd yet itās the truth,ā Katz said.
āWhat about the Flagrants? Arenāt they awesome? That thirty-seven-minute song of theirs?ā
āHavenāt had the pleasure.ā
āHey,ā Zachary said, undiscouraged, āwhat do you think about those psychedelic Houston bands that were recording on Pink Pillow in the late sixties? Some of their sound really reminds me of your early stuff.ā
āI need the piece of material youāre standing on,ā Katz said.
āI thought some of those guys might be influences. Especially Peshawar Rickshaw.ā
āIf you could just raise your left foot for a second.ā
āHey, can I ask you another question?ā
āAnd this saw will be making some noise now.ā
āJust one other question.ā
āAll right.ā
āIs this part of your musical process? Going back to work at your old day job?ā
āI hadnāt really thought about it.ā
āSee, because my friends at school are asking. I told them I thought this was part of your process. Like, maybe you were reconnecting with the working man to gather material for your next record.ā
āDo me a favor,ā Katz said, āand tell your friends to have their parents call me if they want a deck built. Iāll work anywhere below Fourteenth and west of Broadway.ā
āSeriously, is that why youāre doing this?ā
āThe saw is very loud.ā
āOK, but one more question? I swear this is my last question. Can I do an interview with you?ā
Katz revved the saw.
āPlease?ā Zachary said. āThereās this girl in my class thatās totally into Nameless Lake. It would be really helpful, in terms of getting her to talk to me, if I could digitally record one short interview and put it up online.ā
Katz set down the saw and regarded Zachary gravely. āYou play guitar and youāre telling me you have trouble interesting girls in you?ā
āWell, this particular one, yeah. Sheās got more mainstream taste. Itās been a real uphill battle.ā
āAnd sheās the one youāve got to have, canāt live without.ā
āPretty much.ā
āAnd sheās a senior,ā Katz said by old calculating reflex, before he could tell himself not to. āDidnāt skip any grades ...