Vicky Beeching, called “arguably the most influential Christian of her generation” in The Guardian, began writing songs for the church in her teens. By the time she reached her early thirties, Vicky was a household name in churches on both sides of the pond. Recording multiple albums and singing in America’s largest megachurches, her music was used weekly around the globe and translated into numerous languages.
But this poster girl for evangelical Christianity lived with a debilitating inner battle: she was gay. The tens of thousands of traditional Christians she sang in front of were unanimous in their view – they staunchly opposed same-sex relationships and saw homosexuality as a grievous sin. Vicky knew if she ever spoke up about her identity it would cost her everything.
Faced with a major health crisis, at the age of thirty-five she decided to tell the world that she was gay. As a result, all hell broke loose. She lost her music career and livelihood, faced threats and vitriol from traditionalists, developed further health issues from the immense stress, and had to rebuild her life almost from scratch.
But despite losing so much she gained far more: she was finally able to live from a place of wholeness, vulnerability, and authenticity. She finally found peace. What’s more, Vicky became a champion for others, fighting for LGBT equality in the church and in the corporate sector. Her courageous work is creating change in the US and the UK, as she urges people to celebrate diversity, live authentically, and become undivided.
In this unforgettable memoir about faith, identity, and healing, Vicky shares her journey of:
- A Crisis of Faith and Identity: From the heights of the American megachurch stage to the depths of a nervous breakdown, discover the true cost of hiding who you are.
- The Fight for LGBTQ+ Inclusion: Go behind the scenes as Vicky challenges the church’s traditional teachings, armed with deep theological research and a refusal to be silenced.
- Overcoming Trauma: An unflinching look at the devastating impact of an exorcism, purity culture, and the immense stress that triggered a life-altering autoimmune disease.
- A Path to Wholeness: More than just a coming out story, this is a powerful guide to living an authentic, undivided life, free from shame and fear.