One
When youāre climbing the ladder, always assume someone is looking up your skirt.
āPaige
āPromotion. I think it might be my favorite word. You have no idea how long Iāve been waiting for this.ā Swept along by the tide of commuters, Paige Walker followed her two friends Eva and Frankie up the steps from the subway and emerged to blue skies and sunshine. Far above her the skyscrapers of Manhattan reached up to fluffy clouds, a forest of steel and glass winking in the bright morning sunlight, each competing to be taller than the next. The Empire State Building. The Rockefeller Center. Higher, bigger, better. Look at me.
Paige looked, and smiled. Today was the day. Even the weather was celebrating.
New York had to be the most exciting city in the world. She loved the vibrancy, the promise, the pace.
Sheād landed a job at Star Events straight out of college and had been unable to believe her luck, especially when her two best friends got jobs there, too. Working for a big company headquartered in Manhattan was her dream. The sheer energy of the city seeped through her skin and into her veins, like a shot of adrenaline. Here, she could be whoever she wanted to be. She could live her life without being asked how she was feeling twenty-five times a day. In the breathless bustle that was New York City, people were too busy thinking about themselves to have time to think about other people. Interaction skimmed the surface and never went deep. She blended into the crowd and that suited her just fine.
Paige didnāt want to stand out. She didnāt want to be different, precious or special. She didnāt want to be anyoneās poster girl for brave.
She wanted to be anonymous. Normal, whatever that was. And here in New York, finally it had happened.
Urban chaos offered its own type of privacy. Everything moved faster.
Everything, that was, except her friend Eva, who was not a morning person.
āPromotion isnāt my favorite word. Love is probably my favorite word.ā Eva yawned sleepily. āOr maybe sex, which is the next best thing. I think. I canāt honestly remember because I havenāt had it in so long. Iām worried Iāve forgotten all the moves. If I ever get naked with a guy again, I might have to buy a āhow toā book. Why is no one in Manhattan interested in a relationship? I donāt want a hookup. I want to mate for life. Ducks can do itāwhy canāt we?ā She stopped to adjust her shoe and soft waves of blond hair bounced forward along with her breasts, as generously curved as the plumpest cupcake. The man walking toward her stopped abruptly, mouth open, and four other men slammed into him.
Attempting to avert a human pileup, Paige grabbed Evaās arm and pulled her to one side. āYouāre a walking hazard.ā
āIs it my fault my laces untie themselves?ā
āYour laces arenāt the problem. The problem is that you just announced to the whole of Manhattan that you havenāt had sex in ages.ā
āThe problem,ā Frankie said, closing in to form a blockade, āis that a dozen investment bankers are now getting in line to manage your assets. And Iām not talking about your finances. Stand up, Sleeping Beauty. Iāll tie your shoe.ā
āI donāt have any finances to manage, but at least that means I donāt lie awake at night worrying about yield and interest rates. Thatās a bonus, although not quite the bonus those bankers are probably used to.ā Eva stood up and rubbed her eyes. Before ten in the morning, she had trouble focusing. āYou donāt have to tie my shoe. I am not six years old.ā
āYou werenāt this lethal when you were six years old. Itās safer if I do it. I donāt have cleavage that should come with a health warning or a brain incapable of filtering what comes out of my mouth. And move to the side. This is New York City. Itās virtually a criminal offense to block the flow of commuters.ā There was a hint of irritation in Frankieās voice, enough to make Eva frown as she stuck her foot out.
āYou canāt be prosecuted for being in someoneās way. Whatās wrong with you this morning?ā
āNothing.ā
Paige exchanged glances with Eva. They both knew ānothingā meant āsomething,ā and both knew better than to push for answers. Frankie spoke when she was ready, which was usually only after sheād bottled it up for a while. āBlocking the flow of commuters could be deemed provocation.ā Paige said. āAnd she was this lethal. Youāve forgotten her eighth birthday party when Freddie Major threatened to beat up Paul Matthews if she didnāt agree to marry him.ā
āFreddie Major.ā The memory drew a ghost of a smile from Frankie. āI put a frog down his shirt.ā
Eva shuddered. āYou were an evil child.ā
āWhat can I say? Iām not good with men. Of any age.ā Frankie thrust her can of drink into Evaās hand. āHold that, and if you throw it in the trash our friendship is over.ā
āOur friendship has survived more than twenty years. I like to think it would survive me throwing your junk food in the trash.ā
āIt wouldnāt.ā Athletic and supple, Frankie dropped into a crouch. āEveryone is allowed a vice. Unhealthy eating is mine.ā
āDiet cola is not breakfast! Your eating habits are life threatening. Why wonāt you let me make you a delicious kale and spinach smoothie?ā Eva pleaded.
āBecause I like to keep my breakfast down once Iāve eaten it, and my eating habits are no more life threatening than your dress habits. Anyway, I wasnāt in a breakfast mood today.ā Frankie tied the laces of Evaās bright green Converse as a river of commuters flowed past them, all intent on reaching their destination as fast as possible. She winced as someone knocked into her. āWhy donāt you ever do a double knot, Ev?ā
āBecause I dressed in my sleep.ā
Frankie stood up and plucked her diet cola from Evaās hand, her hair tumbling in fiery flames past her shoulders. āOuch! Excuse me.ā She adjusted her glasses and turned her head to glare at the retreating figure of a man in a suit. āItās good manners to anesthetize someone before you remove their kidneys with your briefcase.ā Mumbling threats under her breath, she rubbed her ribs with her hand. āThere are days when I want to go back to living in a small town.ā
āYouāre kidding. Youād move back to Puffin Island?ā Paige shifted her bag onto the other shoulder. āI donāt ever feel that way, not even when Iām on the subway and Iām so squashed it feels as if Iām being hugged by a boa constrictor. Not that the island isnāt pretty, because it is, butāitās an island. Enough said.ā Sheād felt marooned from civilization by the choppy waters of Penobscot Bay, smothered by a thick blanket of parental anxiety. āI like living in a place where people donāt know every detail of my life.ā
At times it had felt like collective parenting. Paige, why arenāt you wearing a sweater? Paige, I saw the helicopter taking you to hospital again, you poor thing. Sheād felt trapped and constrained, as if someone had grasped her in a tight fist, determined to keep her from escaping.
Life had been all about keeping her well, keeping her safe, keeping her protected, until sheād wanted to scream out the question that had burned inside her for most of her childhoodā
What was the point in being alive if you werenāt allowed to live?
Moving to New York City was the best, most exciting thing that had ever happened to her and it was different from Puffin Island in every possible way. Some would have said worse.
Not Paige.
Frankie was frowning. āWe all know I canāt set foot on Puffin Island again. Iād be lynched. There are a few things I miss, but one thing I donāt miss is everyone staring at me angrily because my mother has had yet another affair with a husband who doesnāt belong to her.ā She shoved her hair out of her eyes and finished her drink. Anger, frustration and misery radiated from her and when she scrunched the empty can in her fist her knuckles were white. āAt least in Manhattan there are a couple of men my mother hasnāt had sex with. Although there is officially one fewer than yesterday.ā
āAgain?ā Finally Paige understood the reason her friend was so brittle. āShe texted you?ā
āOnly when I didnāt answer her fourteen calls.ā Frankie shrugged. āYou were asking why I wasnāt in the mood for breakfast, Evāapparently he was twenty-eight and banged like a barn door in a gale force wind. The level of detail kind of put me off my food.ā Her flippant tone did nothing to disguise how upset she was, and Paige slid her arm through Frankieās.
āIt wonāt last.ā
āOf course it wonāt last. My motherās relationships never last. But in the time sheās with him sheāll manage to strip him of a significant quantity of his assets. Donāt feel sorry for him. I blame him as much as her. Why canāt men keep it zipped? Why donāt they ever say no?ā
āPlenty of guys say no.ā Paige thought about her own parents and their long happy marriage.
āNot the ones my mother hooks. My biggest dread is that one day Iām going to meet one of them at an event. Can you imagine that? Maybe I should change my name.ā
āYouāre never going to bump into them. New York City is a crowded place.ā
Eva took Frankieās other arm. āOne day she is going to fall in love, and all this will stop.ā
āOh please! Even you canāt romanticize this situation. Love has nothing to do with it,ā Frankie said. āMen are my motherās job. Her income. She is the CEO of the BMD corporation, otherwise known as Bleed Men Dry.ā
Eva sighed. āSheās very troubled.ā
āTroubled?ā Frankie stopped dead. āEv, my mother left troubled behind five stops ago. Can we talk about something else? I should never have mentioned it. Itās a guaranteed way to ruin my day and it isnāt as if it hasnāt happened before. Living in New York has many advantages, but being able to avoid my mother most of the time is the biggest one.ā
Paige thought for the millionth time how lucky she was with her parents. True, they worried and fussed a bit too much, which drove her insane, but compared to Frankieās mother they were wonderfully normal. āLiving in New York is the best thing that ever happened to any of us. How did we survive without Bloomingdaleās and the Magnolia Bakery?ā
āOr feeding the ducks in Central Park,ā Eva said wistfully. āThatās my favorite thing. I used to do it with my grandmother every weekend.ā
Frankieās gaze softened. āYou miss her horribly, donāt you?ā
āIām doing okay.ā Evaās smile dimmed a little. āGood days and bad days. Itās not as bad as it was a year ago. She was ninety-three so I can hardly complain, can I? Itās just that it feels weird not having her around. She was the one constant in my life and now sheās gone. And I have no one. Iām not connected to anyone.ā
āYouāre connected to us,ā Paige said. āWeāre your family. We should go out this weekend. Shopping? We could hit the makeup counter at Saks Fifth Avenue and then go dancing.ā
āDancing? I love dancing.ā Eva wiggled her hips provocatively and almost caused another pileup.
Frankie urged her forward. āThere arenāt enough gel inserts in the world to cope with shopping and dancing in the same trip. And Saturday night is movie night. I vote for a horror fest.ā
Eva recoiled. āNo way. Iād be awake all night.ā
āIt wouldnāt get my vote, either.ā Paige pulled a face. āMaybe Matt would let us have chick flick night to celebrate my promotion.ā
āNo chance.ā Frankie straightened her glasses. āYour brother would jump off his own roof before he agreed to chick flick night. Thank goodness.ā
Eva shrugged. āHow about going out tonight instead of Saturday? Iām never going to meet someone if I donāt go out.ā
āPeople donāt come to New York to meet someone. They come for the culture, the experience, the moneyāthe list is long, but meeting the man youāre going to marry isnāt on it.ā
āSo why did you come here?ā
āBecause I needed to live somewhere big and anonymous and my best friends were here. And I love certain parts of it,ā Frankie conceded. āI love The High Line, the Botanical Gardens and our secret little corner of Brooklyn. I love our brownstone and I will be forever grateful to your brother for letting us rent the place from him.ā
āDid you hear that?ā Eva nudged Paige. āFrankie said something positive about a man.ā
āMatt is one of the few decent men on the planet. Heās a friend, thatās all. I happen to enjoy being single. Whatās wrong with that?ā Frankieās tone was cool. āI am self-sufficient and proud of it. I make my own money and I answer to no one. Being single is a choice, not a disease.ā
āAnd my choice would be to not be single. Thatās not wrong either, so donāt lecture me. I canāt help feeling a little despondent that the condom in my purse has passed its expiry date.ā Eva tucked a wayward blond curl behind her ear and skillfully steered the conversation away from relationships. āI love summer. Sundresses, flip-flops, Shakespeare in the Park, sailing on the Hudson, long evenings up on our roof terrace. I still canāt believe your brother built that. Heās so damn smart.ā
Paige didnāt disagree.
Older by eight years, her brother had left their island home long before she had. Heād chosen to start his landscape architecture business right here in New York City and now that business was thriving.
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