1916
TO ARTHUR GREEVES, his oldest friend: On the book that baptized Lewisâs imaginationâsee Surprised by Joy, 180-181. Anodos is the hero of the book Phantastes; Cosmo is the hero of a story Anodos tells in the book.1
7 MARCH 1916
Of course it is hopeless for me to try and describe it, but when you have followed the hero Anodos along that little stream to the faery wood, have heard about the terrible ash tree and how the shadow of his gnarled, knotted hand falls upon the book the hero is reading, when you have read about the faery palaceâŚand heard the episode of Cosmo, I know that you will quite agree with me. You must not be disappointed at the first chapter which is rather conventional faery tale style, and after it you wonât be able to stop until you have finished. There are one or two poems in the taleâas in the Morris tales you knowâwhich, with one or two exceptions are shockingly bad, so donât try to appreciate them: it is just a sign, isnât it, of how some geniuses canât work in metrical formsâanother example being the BrontĂŤs.
12 OCTOBER 1916
Thus religion, that is to say mythology grew up. Often, too, great men were regarded as gods after their deathâsuch as Heracles or Odin: thus after the death of a Hebrew philosopher Yeshua (whose name we have corrupted into Jesus) he became regarded as a god, a cult sprang up, which was afterwards connected with the ancient Hebrew Jahweh-worship, and so Christianity came into beingâone mythology among many, but the one that we happen to have been brought up in.
Now all this you must have heard before: it is the recognised scientific account of the growth of religions. Superstition of course in every age has held the common people, but in every age the educated and thinking ones have stood outside it, though usually outwardly conceding to it for convenience. I had thought that you were gradually being emancipated from the old beliefs, but if this is not so, I hope we are too sensible to quarrel about abstract ideas. I must only add that oneâs views on religious subjects donât make any difference in morals, of course. A good member of society must of course try to be honest, chaste, truthful, kindly et cetera: these are things we owe to our own manhood and dignity and not to any imagined god or gods.
Of course, mind you, I am not laying down as a certainty that there is nothing outside the material world: considering the discoveries that are always being made, this would be foolish. Anything may exist: but until we know that it does, we canât make any assumptions. The universe is an absolute mystery: man has made many guesses at it, but the answer is yet to seek. Whenever any new light can be got as to such matters, I will be glad to welcome it. In the meantime I am not going to go back to the bondage of believing in any old (and already decaying) superstition.
15 NOVEMBER 1916
1920
TO LEO BAKER an actor, a teacher of acting, and a friend Lewis made in Oxford in 1919, who introduced Lewis to Owen Barfield, a fellow anthroposophist: On Lewisâs growing sense of God.1
5 SEPTEMBER 1920
1921
TO HIS BROTHER, WARREN LEWIS: On prayer as writing letters to someone who never replies.1
1 JULY 1921
1929
Sometime in the spring (Trinity Sunday was May 22 that year) Lewis came to believe in God, though not yet in Christ:
You must picture me alone in that room in Magdalen, night after night, feeling, whenever my mind lifted even for a second from my work, the steady, unrelenting approach of Him of whom I so earnestly desired not to meet. That which I greatly feared had at last come upon me. In the Trinity Term of 1929 I gave in, and admitted that God was God, and knelt and prayed: perhaps, that night, the most dejected and reluctant convert in all England. I did not then see what is now the most shining and obvious thing; the Divine humility which will accept a convert even on such terms. The Prodigal Son at least walked home on his own feet. But who can duly adore that Love which will open the high gates to a prodigal who is brought in kicking, struggling, resentful, and darting his eyes in every direction for a chance of escape? The words compelle intrare, compel them to come in, have been so abused by wicked men that we shudder at them; but, properly understood, they plumb the depth of the Divine mercy. The hardness of God is kinder than the softness of men, and His compulsion is our liberation. (Surprised by Joy, Chapter 14)
TO ARTHUR GREEVES: On Lewisâs praise for MacDonaldâs cycle of prayer-poems.1
10 OCTOBER 1929
1930
TO ARTHUR GREEVES: On the seven deadly sins.1
10 FEBRUARY 1930