CHAPTER I
Though I havenāt ever been on the screen I was brought up in pictures. Rudolph Valentino came to my fifth birthday partyāor so I was told. I put this down only to indicate that even before the age of reason I was in a position to watch the wheels go round.
I was going to write my memoirs once, āThe Producerās Daughter,ā but at eighteen you never quite get around to anything like that. Itās just as wellāit would have been as flat as an old column of Lolly Parsonsā. My father was in the picture business as another man might be in cotton or steel, and I took it tranquilly. At the worst I accepted Hollywood with the resignation of a ghost assigned to a haunted house. I knew what you were supposed to think about it but I was obstinately unhorrified.
This is easy to say, but harder to make people understand. When I was at Bennington some of the English teachers who pretended an indifference to Hollywood or its products really hated it. Hated it way down deep as a threat to their existence. Even before that, when I was in a convent, a sweet little nun asked me to get her a script of a screen play so she could āteach her class about movie writingā as she had taught them about the essay and the short story. I got the script for her and I suppose she puzzled over it and puzzled over it but it was never mentioned in class and she gave it back to me with an air of offended surprise and not a single comment. Thatās what I half expect to happen to this story.
You can take Hollywood for granted like I did, or you can dismiss it with the contempt we reserve for what we donāt understand. It can be understood too, but only dimly and in flashes. Not half a dozen men have ever been able to keep the whole equation of pictures in their heads. And perhaps the closest a woman can come to the set-up is to try and understand one of those men.
The world from an airplane I knew. Father always had us travel back and forth that way from school and college. After my sister died when I was a junior, I travelled to and fro alone and the journey always made me think of her, made me somewhat solemn and subdued. Sometimes there were picture people I knew on board the plane, and occasionally there was an attractive college boyābut not often during the Depression. I seldom really fell asleep during the trip, what with thoughts of Eleanor and the sense of that sharp rip between coast and coastāat least not till we had left those lonely little airports in Tennessee.
This trip was so rough that the passengers divided early into those who turned in right away and those who didnāt want to turn in at all. There were two of these latter right across from me and I was pretty sure from their fragmentary conversation that they were from Hollywoodāone of them because he looked like it, a middle-aged Jew who alternately talked with nervous excitement or else crouched as if ready to spring, in a harrowing silence; the other a pale, plain, stocky man of thirty, whom I was sure I had seen before. He had been to the house or something. But it might have been when I was a little girl, and so I wasnāt offended that he didnāt recognize me.
The stewardessāshe was tall, handsome and flashing dark, a type that they seemed to run toāasked me if she could make up my berth.
āāand, dear, do you want an aspirin?ā She perched on the side of the seat and rocked precariously to and fro with the June hurricane, āāor a Nembutal?ā
āNo.ā
āIāve been so busy with everyone else that Iāve had no time to ask you.ā She sat down beside me and buckled us both in. āDo you want some gum?ā
This reminded me to get rid of the piece that had been boring me for hours. I wrapped it in a piece of magazine and put it into the automatic ash-holder.
āI can always tell people are niceāā the stewardess said approvingly āāif they wrap their gum in paper before they put it in there.ā
We sat for a while in the half-light of the swaying car. It was vaguely like a swanky restaurant at that twilight time between meals. We were all lingeringāand not quite on purpose. Even the stewardess, I think, had to keep reminding herself why she was there.
She and I talked about a young actress I knew, whom she had flown west with two years before. It was in the very lowest time of the Depression and the young actress kept staring out the window in such an intent way that the stewardess was afraid she was contemplating a leap. It appeared though that she was not afraid of poverty, but only of revolution.
āI know what Mother and I are going to do,ā she confided to the stewardess. āWeāre coming out to the Yellowstone and weāre just going to live simply till it all blows over. Then weāll come back. They donāt kill artistsāyou know?ā
The proposition pleased me. It conjured up a pretty picture of the actress and her mother being fed by kind Tory bears who brought them honey, and by gentle fawns who fetched extra milk from the does and then lingered near to make pillows for their heads at night. In turn I told the stewardess about the lawyer and the director who told their plans to Father one night in those brave days. If the bonus army conquered Washington the lawyer had a boat hidden in the Sacramento River, and he was going to row upstream for a few months and then come back ābecause they always needed lawyers after a revolution to straighten out the legal side.ā
The director had tended more toward defeatism. He had an old suit, shirt and shoes in waitingāhe never did say whether they were his own or whether he got them from the prop departmentāand he was going to Disappear into the Crowd. I remember Father saying: āBut theyāll look at your hands! Theyāll know you havenāt done manual work for years. And theyāll ask for your union card.ā And I remember how the directorās face fell, and how gloomy he was while he ate his dessert, and how funny and puny they sounded to me.
āIs your father an actor, Miss Brady?ā asked the stewardess. āIāve certainly heard the name.ā
At the name Brady both the men across the aisle looked up. Sidewiseāthat Hollywood look, that always seems thrown over one shoulder. Then the young, pale, stocky man unbuttoned his safety strap and stood in the aisle beside us.
āAre you Cecelia Brady?ā he demanded accusingly, as if Iād been holding out on him. āI thought I recognized you. Iām Wylie White.ā
He could have omitted thisāfor at the same moment a new voice said, āWatch your step, Wylie!ā and another man brushed by him in the aisle and went forward in the direction of the cockpit. Wylie White started, and a little too late called after him defiantly.
āI only take orders from the pilot.ā
I recognized the kind of pleasantry that goes on between the powers in Hollywood and their satellites.
The stewardess reproved him:
āNot so loud, pleaseāsome of the passengers are asleep.ā
I saw now that the other man across the aisle, the middle-aged Jew, was on his feet also, staring, with shameless economic lechery, after the man who had just gone by. Or rather at the back of the man, who gestured sideways with his hand in a sort of farewell, as he went out of my sight.
I asked the stewardess: āIs he the assistant pilot?ā
She was unbuckling our belt, about to abandon me to Wylie White.
āNo. Thatās Mr. Smith. He has the private compartment, the ābridal suiteāāonly he has it alone. The assistant pilot is always in uniform.ā She stood up. āI want to find out if weāre going to be grounded in Nashville.ā
Wylie White was aghast.
āWhy?ā
āItās a storm coming up the Mississippi Valley.ā
āDoes that mean weāll have to stay here all night?ā
āIf this keeps up!ā
A sudden dip indicated that it would. It tipped Wylie White into the seat opposite me, shunted the stewardess precipitately down in the direction of the cockpit, and plunked the Jewish man into a sitting position. After the studied, unruffled exclamations of distaste that befitted the air-minded, we settled down. There was an introduction.
āMiss BradyāMr. Schwartze,ā said Wylie White. āHeās a great friend of your fatherās too.ā
Mr. Schwartze nodded so vehemently that I could almost hear him saying, āItās true. As God is my judge, itās true!ā
He might have said this right out loud at one time in his lifeābut he was obviously a man to whom something had happened. Meeting him was like encountering a friend who has been in a fist fight or collision, and got flattened. You stare at your friend and say: āWhat happened to you?ā And he answers something unintelligible through broken teeth and swollen lips. He canāt even tell you about it.
Mr. Schwartze was physically unmarked; the exaggerated Persian nose and oblique eye-shadow were as congenital as the tip-tilted Irish redness around my fatherās nostrils.
āNashville!ā cried Wylie White. āThat means we go to a hotel. We donāt get to the coast till tomorrow nightāif then. My God! I was born in Nashville.ā
āI should think youād like to see it again.ā
āNeverāIāve kept away for fifteen years. I hope Iāll never see it again.ā
But he wouldāfor the plane was unmistakably going down, down, down, like Alice in the rabbit hole. Cupping my hand against the window I saw the blur of the city far away on the left. The green sign āFasten your beltsāNo smokingā had been on since we first rode into the storm.
āDid you hear what she said?ā said Mr. Schwartze from one of his fiery silences across the aisle.
āHear what?ā asked Wylie.
āHear what heās calling himself,ā said Schwartze. āMr. Smith!ā
āWhy not?ā asked Wylie.
āOh nothing,ā said Schwartze quickly. āI just thought it was funny, Smith.ā I never heard a laugh with less mirth in it: āSmith!ā
I suppose there has been nothing like the airports since the days of the stage-stopsānothing quite as lonely, as somber-silent. The old red-brick depots were built right into the towns they markedāpeople didnāt get off at those isolated stations unless they lived there. But airports lead you way back in history like oases, like the stops on the great trade routes. The sight of air travellers strolling in ones and twos into midnight airports will draw a small crowd any night up to two. The young people look at the planes, the older ones look at the passengers with a watchful incredulity. In the big transcontinental planes we were the coastal rich, who casually alighted from our cloud in mid-America. High adventure might be among us, disguised as a movie star. But mostly it wasnāt. And I always wished fervently that we looked more interesting than we didājust as I often have at premieres, when the fans look at you with scornful reproach because youāre not a star.
On the ground Wylie and I were suddenly friends, because he held out his arm to steady me when I got out of the plane. From then on, he made a dead set for meāand I didnāt mind. From the moment we walked into the airport it had become plain that if we were stranded here we were stranded here together. (It wasnāt like the time I lost my boyāthe time my boy played the piano with that girl Reina in a little New England farm house near Bennington, and I realized at last I wasnāt wanted. Guy Lombardo was on the air playing āTop Hatā and āCheek to Cheekā and she taught him the melodies. The keys falling like leaves and her hand splayed over his as she showed him a black chord. I was a freshman then.)
When we went into the airport Mr. Schwartze was along with us too but he seemed in a sort of dream. All the time we were trying to get accurate information at the desk he kept staring at the door that led out to the landing field, as if he were afraid the plane would leave without him. Then I excused myself for a few minutes and something happened that I didnāt see but when I came back he and White were standing close together, White talking and Schwartze looking twice as much as if a great truck had just backed up over him. He didnāt stare at the door to the landing field anymore. I heard the end of Wylie Whiteās remarkā¦.
āāI told you to shut up. It serves you right.ā
āI only saidāā
He broke off as I came up and asked if there was any news. It was then half past two in the morning.
āA little,ā said Wylie White. āThey donāt think weāll be able to start for three hours anyhow, so some of the softies are going to a hotel. But Iād like to take you out to The Hermitage, Home of Andrew Jackson.ā
āHow could we see it in the dark?ā demanded Schwartze.
āHell, itāll be sunrise in two hours.ā
āYou two go,ā said Schwartze.
āAll rightāyou take the bus to the hotel. Itās still waitingāheās in there.ā Wylieās voice had a taunt in it. āMaybe itād be a good thing.ā
āNo, Iāll go along with you,ā said Schwartze hastily.
We took a taxi in the sudden country dark outside, and he seemed to cheer up. He patted my kneecap encouragingly.
āI should go along,ā he said. āI should be chaperone. Once upon a time when I was in the big money, I had a daughterāa beautiful daughter.ā
He spoke as if she had been sold to creditors as a tangible asset.
āYouāll have another,ā Wylie assured him. āYouāll get it all back. Another turn of the wheel and youāll be where Ceceliaās papa is, wonāt he, Cecelia?ā
āWhere is this Hermitage?ā asked Schwartze presently. āFar away at the end of nowhere? Will we miss the plane?ā
āSkip it,ā said Wylie. āWe ought toāve brought the stewardess alo...