The Fate of the Ideal
Rhodaās week at the seashore was spoilt by uncertain weather. Only two days of abiding sunshine; for the rest, mere fitful gleams across a sky heaped with stormclouds. Over Wastdale hung a black canopy; from Scawfell came mutterings of thunder; and on the last night of the weekāwhen Monica fled from her home in pelting rainātempest broke upon the mountains and the sea. Wakeful until early morning, and at times watching the sky from her inland-looking window, Rhoda saw the rocky heights that frown upon Wastwater illuminated by lightning-flare of such intensity and duration that miles of distance were annihilated, and it seemed but a step to these stern crags and precipices.
Sunday began with rain, but also with promise of better things; far over the sea was a broad expanse of blue, and before long the foam of the fallen tide glistened in strong, hopeful rays. Rhoda wandered about the shore towards St. Bees Head. A broad stream flowing into the sea stopped her progress before she had gone very far; the only way of crossing it was to go up on to the line of railway, which here runs along the edge of the sands. But she had little inclination to walk farther. No house, no person within sight, she sat down to gaze at the gulls fishing by the little river-mouth, their screams the only sound that blended with that of the subdued breakers.
On the horizon lay a long, low shape that might have been mistaken for cloud, though it resembled land. It was the Isle of Man. In an hour or two the outline had grown much clearer; the heights and hollows were no longer doubtful. In the north became visible another remote and hilly tract, it was the coast of Scotland beyond Solway Firth.
These distant objects acted as incentives to Rhodaās imagination. She heard Everard Barfootās voice as he talked of travelāof the Orient Express. That joy of freedom he had offered her. Perhaps he was now very near her, anxious to repeat his offer. If he carried out the project suggested at their last interview, she would see him to-day or to-morrow morningāthen she must make her choice. To have a dayās walk with him among the mountains would be practically deciding. But for what? If she rejected his proposal of a free union, was he prepared to marry her in legal form? Yes; she had enough power over him for that. But how would it affect his thought of her? Constraining him to legal marriage, would she not lower herself in his estimation, and make the endurance of his love less probable? Barfoot was not a man to accept with genuine satisfaction even the appearance of bondage, and more likely than not his love of her depended upon the belief that in her he had found a woman capable of regarding life from his own point of viewāa woman who, when she once, loved, would be scornful of the formalities clung to by feeble minds. He would yield to her if she demanded forms, but afterwardsāwhen passion had subsidedā.
A week had been none too long to ponder these considerations by themselves; but they were complicated with doubts of a more disturbing nature. Her mind could not free itself from the thought of Monica. That Mrs. Widdowson was not always truthful with her husband she had absolute proof; whether that supported her fear of an intimacy between Monica and Everard she was unable to determine. The grounds of suspicion seemed to her very grave; so grave, that during her first day or two in Cumberland she had all but renounced the hopes long secretly fostered. She knew herself well enough to understand how jealousy might wreck her lifeāeven if it were only retrospective. If she married Barfoot (forms or noneāthat question in no way touched this other), she would demand of him a flawless faith. Her pride revolted against the thought of possessing only a share in his devotion; the moment that any faithlessness came to her knowledge she would leave him, perforce, inevitablyāand what miseries were then before her!
Was flawless faith possible to Everard Barfoot? His cousin would ridicule the hope of any such thingāor so Rhoda believed. A conventional woman would of course see the completest evidence of his untrustworthiness in his dislike of legal marriage; but Rhoda knew the idleness of this argument. If love did not hold him, assuredly the forms of marriage could be no restraint upon Everard; married ten times over, he would still deem himself absolutely free from any obligation save that of love. Yet how did he think of that obligation? He might hold it perfectly compatible with the indulgence of casual impulse. And this (which she suspected to be the view of every man) Rhoda had no power of tolerating. It must be all or nothing, whole faith or none whatever.
In the afternoon she suffered from impatient expectancy. If Barfoot came to-dayāshe imagined him somewhere in the neighbour hood, approaching Seascale as the time of his appointment drew nearāwould he call at her lodgings? The address she had not given him, but doubtless he had obtained it from his cousin. Perhaps he would prefer to meet her unexpectedlyānot a difficult thing in this little place, with its handful of residents and visitors. Certain it was she desired his arrival. Her heart leapt with joy in the thought that this very evening might bring him. She wished to study him under new conditions, andāpossiblyāto talk with him even more frankly than ever yet, for there would be opportunity enough.
About six oāclock a train coming from the south stopped at the station, which was visible from Rhodaās sitting-room window. She had been waiting for this moment. She could not go to the station, and did not venture even to wait anywhere in sight of the exit. Whether any passenger had alighted must remain uncertain. If Everard had arrived by this train, doubtless he would go to the hotel, which stood only a few yards from the line. He would take a meal and presently come forth.
Having allowed half an hour to elapse, she dressed and walked shoreward. Seascale has no street, no shops; only two or three short rows of houses irregularly placed on the rising ground above the beach. To cross the intervening railway, Rhoda could either pass through the little station, in which case she would also pass the hotel and be observable from its chief windows, or descend by a longer road which led under a bridge, and in this way avoid the hotel altogether. She took the former route. On the sands were a few scattered people, and some children subdued to Sunday decorum. The tide was rising. She went down to the nearest tract of hard sand, and stood there for a long time, a soft western breeze playing upon her face.
If Barfoot were here he would now be coming out to look for her. From a distance he might not recognize her figure, clad as she was in a costume such as he had never seen her wearing. She might venture now to walk up towards the dry, white sandheaps, where the little convolvulus grew in abundance, and other flowers of which she neither knew nor cared to learn the names. Scarcely had she turned when she saw Everard approaching, still far off, but unmistakable. He signalled by taking off his hat, and quickly was beside her.
āDid you know me before I happened to look round?ā she asked laughingly.
āOf course I did. Up there by the station I caught sight of you. Who else bears herself as you doāwith splendid disdain of common mortals?ā
āPlease donāt make me think that my movements are ridiculous.ā
āThey are superb. The sea has already touched your cheeks. But I am afraid you have had abominable weather.ā
āYes, rather bad; but thereās hope to-day. Where do you come from?ā
āBy train, only from Carnforth. I left London yesterday morning, and stopped at Morecambeāsome people I know are there. As trains were awkward to-day, I drove from Morecambe to Carnforth. Did you expect me?ā
āI thought you might come, as you spoke of it.ā
āHow I have got through the week I couldnāt tell you. I should have been here days ago, but I was afraid. Let us go nearer to the sea. I was afraid of making you angry.ā
āItās better to keep oneās word.ā
āOf course it is. And I am all the more delighted to be with you for the miserable week of waiting. Have you bathed?ā
āOnce or twice.ā
āI had a swim this morning before breakfast, in pouring rain. Now you canāt swim.ā
āNo. I canāt. But why were you sure about it?ā
āOnly because itās so rare for any girl to learn swimming. A man who canāt swim is only half the man he might be, and to a woman I should think it must be of even more benefit. As in everything else, women are trammelled by their clothes; to be able to get rid of them, and to move about with free and brave exertion of all the body, must tend to every kind of health, physical, mental, and mortal.ā
āYes, I quite believe that,ā said Rhoda, gazing at the sea.
āI spoke rather exultantly, didnāt I? I like to feel myself superior to you in some things. You have so often pointed out to me what a paltry, ineffectual creature I am.ā
āI donāt remember ever using those words, or implying them.ā
āHow does the day stand with you?ā asked Everard in the tone of perfect comradeship. āHave you still to dine?ā
āMy dining is a very simple matter; it happens at one oāclock. About nine I shall have supper.ā
āLet us walk a little then. And may I smoke?ā
āWhy not?ā
Everard lit a cigar, and, as the tide drove them back, they moved eventually to the higher ground, whence there was a fine view of the mountains, rich in evening colours.
āTo-morrow you leave here?ā
āYes,ā Rhoda answered. āI shall go by railway to Coniston, and walk from there towards Helvellyn, as you suggested.ā
āI have something else to propose. A man I talked to in the train told me of a fine walk in this neighbourhood. From Ravenglass, just below here, thereās a little line runs up Eskdale to a terminus at the foot of Scawfell, a place called Boot. From Boot one can walk either over the top of Scawfell or by a lower track to Wastdale Head. Itās very grand, wild country, especially the last part, the going down to Wastwater, and not many miles in all. Suppose we have that walk to-morrow? From Wastdale we could drive back to Seascale in the evening, and then the next dayājust as you like.ā
āAre you quite sure about the distances?ā
āQuite. I have the Ordnance map in my pocket. Let me show you.ā
He spread the map on the top of a wall, and they stood side by side inspecting it.
āWe must take something to eat; Iāll provide for that. And at the Wastdale Head hotel we can have dinnerāabout three or four, probably. It would be enjoyable, wouldnāt it?ā
āIf it doesnāt rain.ā
āWeāll hope it wonāt. As we go back we can look out the trains at the station. No doubt thereās one soon after breakfast.ā
Their rambling, with talk in a strain of easy friendliness, brought them back to Seascale half an hour after sunset, which was of a kind that seemed to promise well for the morrow.
āWonāt you come out again after supper?ā Barfoot asked.
āNot again to-night.ā
āFor a quarter of an hour,ā he urged. āJust down to the sea and back.ā
āI have been walking all day. I shall be glad to rest and read.ā
āVery well. To-morrow morning.ā
Having discovered the train which would take them to Ravenglass, and connect with one on the Eskdale line, they agreed to meet at the station. Barfoot was to bring with him such refreshment as would be necessary.
Their hopes for the weather had complete fulfilment. The only fear was lest the sunās heat might be oppressive, but this anxiety could be cheerfully borne. Slung over his shoulders Barfoot had a small forage-bag, which gave him matter for talk on the railway journey; it had been his companion in many parts of the world, and had held strange kinds of food.
The journey up Eskdale, from Ravenglass to Boot, is by a miniature railway, with the oddest little engine and a carriage or two of primitive simplicity. At each station on the upward winding trackāstations represented only by a wooden shed like a tool-houseāthe guard jumps down and acts as booking-clerk, if passengers there be desirous of booking. In a few miles the scenery changes from beauty to grandeur, and at the terminus no further steaming would be possible, for the great flank of Scawfell bars the way.
Everard and his companion began their climb through the pretty straggling village of Boot. A mountain torrent roared by the wayside, and the course they had marked upon the map showed that they must follow this stream for some miles up to the tarn where it originated. Houses, human beings, and even trodden paths they soon left behind, coming out on to a vast moorland, with hill summits near and far. Scawfell they could not hope to ascend; with the walk that lay before them it was enough to make a way over one of his huge shoulders.
āIf your strength fails,ā said ...