THE DIARIES
Harry St. John Dixon
We talked loud, laughed loud, danced loud and kept âracketâ in most every form. Who will make old fogies of âYoung Americansâ? Go it while you are young for when you get old you canât go! ⌠Is happiness a crime? Then let the fiends of hell reign in your sullen heaven. âAugust 2, 1860
Sunday, January 1, 1860
Clear and coldâground frozen all day. Attended church in the forenoonâread and wrote in the afternoon. Just before sundown I went down to Judge Rucksâs1 for a music book of Miss Ella Brownâs,2 and after she came into the parlor to get it for me, I found it extremely difficult to tear myself away from such a fair and interesting lady. She is undoubtedly one of the nicest ladies I ever knew.
Before going down I copied a piece of poetry called âMedoraâ but put the name âEllaâ in its place and quietly put it on the keyboard before she came in and before I left asked her to play a certain piece for me at 11 oâclk tomorrow which she promised. At the close of the piece I wrote, âFrom one whose friendship is as pure as the sunbeams are clear that are now shining upon this pageâ and something more in hieroglyphics3 and signed my name in them so that it might puzzle her.
Monday, January 2, 1860
No change in the weather. I repaired to the schoolhouse this morning with the determination to entirely stop visiting the ladies and to deny myself the pleasure of their company in toto and occupy myself exclusively with my books.
Tuesday, January 3, 1860
Weather the same. School. Yesterday Miss Ella and Miss Marian4 stopped in a few minutes but did not get off. I took Miss Ellaâs book back yesterday evening about sundown. After coming from school I was just practising my music lesson when my dear old friend Hal5 rode up to bid me goodby before he left for Oxford. Our parting was truly painfulâat least it was to me. I cannot tell whether it was to him or not. Poor fellow! I can pity him. He leaves behind his love, his angel as he calls her, Miss <Mary Wingate>.6
Mrs. James Yerger7 having come to see Ma about dark, I went home with her as an escortâwe met Miss Dellie8 and Miss Jenny.9
Wednesday, January 4, 1860
Cool and somewhat cloudy. School.
A boy came from Maj. Leeâs10 about dusk to invite me down there to tea. Pa11 at first said not go, but Ma12 having just returned from Greenville told me to go as there would be but few gentlemen. It is well I did for including myself there were but four and only four ladies. We first had a pleasant chat and then a little danceâsupperâagain a danceâand in about one hour and a half had wines, &c. after which we had a little chat and soon retired to our respective homesteads.
Thursday, January 5, 1860
Clear and cool. School. Read after coming from school. I omitted to say in my last entry that during a conversation I had with Miss Ella [I] asked her if her curiosity had lately been excited (referring to the poetry and hieroglyphics). She looked very knowing and said yes, and she believed I could gratify it by translating to her some hieroglyphical writing lately addressed to her in a very mischievous manner. She earnestly entreated me to give her an alphabet, which I of course refused, alleging as an excuse that my honor was pledged not to.
Friday, January 6, 1860
Cold, cloudy, and drizzly. School. Read after coming from school. My journal suffers woefully for some substance or something to feed on as Uncle Jack13 would say.
Saturday, January 7, 1860
Clear and pleasant. Little or no fire needed. I took my music lesson late and was sitting in the parlor reading when Miss Ella and Miss Dellie rode up and Ma had welcomed them in before I saw them but met them at the door and exercised my conversational powers to entertain Miss Dellie.
They invited us all down to a private theatrical play at Judge Rucksâs tonight. The young ladies were to be the actors. The evening occupied in making a sword for Miss Ella. I sent it down in the dark.
As they were about to depart they kissed Ma, and I remarked, âMiss Ella, do you believe a kiss is a sin?â She answered, âNo.â I said, âdo you think it does any good?â âNo.â I then said, âthen if it does no good it must do harm, so you will admit it is a slight iniquity.â She reluctantly agreed with me, and I said, âas long, Miss Ella, as it is an iniquity and as long as a matter of course you believe in the Bible, it says that the iniquities of the parents shall be visited upon their children to the third and fourth generation and I think that this one at least should descend to the firstâso Miss Ella, I am at your service.â She blushed beautifully and with not a little embarrassment playfully struck me over the shoulders with her riding whip. I then helped her on her horse and she rode off.
I went down to see the play and liked it much better than I expected. It was the Lady of Lyons.14 The hugging part was acted admirably. I wish I had been in either Miss Ellaâs place or Miss Marianâs. After they got through we danced til 12 oâclk.
Sunday, January 8, 1860
Partially clear and pleasantly warm. Morning was occupied at church. I walked home with Miss Dellie and took a ride with her in the evening.
Monday, January 9, 1860
Cloudy and cool. Read and took a walk after coming to school.
Tuesday, January 10, 1860
Cloudy and rainy, ground perfectly saturated with water. School.
Wednesday, January 11, 1860
Cold, rainy and disagreeable all day. No school. Read and studied all day.
Thursday, January 12, 1860
Cold, rainy and wet. School.
Friday, January 13, 1860
Cold, cloudy, and rainy. School was dismissed earlier than usual on account of our speeches not being memorised.
Saturday, January 14, 1860
Weather the same. Staid in doors all day reading and studying.
Sunday, January 15, 1860
Clear and pleasant day. As usual I arose late this morning and in due course of time attended church for the last time to hear Miss Ellaâs sweet voice mingle in the Holy chanting.
Studied my lessons after dinner and then went down to Judge Rucksâs about four oâclk to call on Miss Lou15 and Miss Jenny. They being absent I pursued my original design of going to see Miss Dellie. I did so, and she was absent. It was then nearly dark. I started back when I met Mr. Hal Rucks16 and stood talking in the road and while there I saw her (Miss Lou and Miss Jenny being with her) coming. I rode back and helped Miss Dellie out of the carriage and staid til after supper. Miss Jenny and Miss Lou did not get out. The principal topic of conversation was what I had said about having such a nice flirting with her when I went to Nashville. She most generously forgave me the foolish remark I had made.
As I came back I thought I would then call in and see Miss Jennie and Miss Lou. Miss Lou did not appear on account of a headache, but I found Miss Marian and Miss Jenny in the parlor with Andrew Carson.17 They attacked me furiously about the poetry, and nothing I could say would do any goodâthey declared I did it. Miss Marian and myself had a private little quarrel about it while we were sitting on the sofa and while Andrew was talking to Miss Jenny. I told them if they could by any means prove that I did it then I would acknowledge it but not without. It had no signature to it and that of course favored me. I went home about 11 oâclk and got a scolding from the old folks for my late hours.
Monday, January 16, 1860
Clear and cool. School. I rode from school this evening.
Tuesday, January 17, 1860
Clear and cool. School. Read after coming from school this evening.
Wednesday, January 18, 1860
Clear and pleasantly cool. Left school at 12 to get ready to attend a party to be given at Mr. Bowenâs out on Blâk Bayou tonight. Uncle Jack, Bill Yerger, and George,18 and myself got there about dark and in âlittle or no time had on our duddsâ ready for the galls. The gayety commenced unusually early. I was among the first in the parlor and engaged to dance with every lady in the room except Miss Kate Lee19 on account of a remark she made to me at a party at Maj. Leeâs during Christmas week. I tore her dress accidentally and she turned very primly round and said something to this effect (as I was afterwards informed by Bill who was dancing with her: âGo to the place where it is hot.â I did not hear it but thought it was some thing very harsh. If I had heard it I should have said, âIf I do Miss Kate it is more than probable that I shall renew your acquaintance.â
Oh I had such a splendid time! We danced til broad daylight. The fancy dances seemed to be more popular (as Major Jones Courtship20 would say) than usual. I danced many times with Miss Ella (the fancy dances) as well as with the other ladies, but particularly with her. I was obliged to dance with Miss Leeâshe asked me and I felt a delicacy in refusing so I put my paw around her and whirled away. She does not dance like Miss Ellaânot near so goodâshe laid <âŚ. >.21 I do think Miss Ella waltzed nicer than any lady I ever had the pleasure of waltzing with!
We retired at daylight. The young ladies did not go to sleep but serenaded a set of âtightâ gallants with their sweet voices. Bill and Valliant spoiled it all by calling up two drunken fiddlers with their crazy violins to return the compliment but only spoiled all my pleasure. I had come into the hall next to the ladies room in my stocking feet to listen to it and felt like knocking them down when they came up.
I did not start home till about 8 oâclk on account of my horse being loose. I saw them once more when I went to start and gave their sweet little hands a parting squeeze. John McCutchen rode with me as far as his house. I took breakfast with him about 10 oâclk on
Thursday, January 19, 1860
Which was as clear as a bell but as cold as an iceburg. I got home about 12 oâclk. By this time I suppose the young ladies are puffing down the âmighty riverâ at the rate of ten miles an hour.
Read some and went to Dr. Percyâs22 in the evening to carry some notes for Mr. Herbert and wrote a long letter to Nat23 who is in Oxford with Hal.
Friday, January 20, 1860
Clear and cool. School. Times very dull. Read after coming from school.
Saturday, January 21, 1860
Clear and pleasant day. After taking my music lesson I dug some holes about in the yard for Ma so that she might plant some cedars. The old folks have taken up the idea that I donât take enough exercise and now wonât let me read half an hour scarcely without either telling me about taking exercise or telling me to go and do something. Read and studied in the evening.
Sunday, January 22, 1860
I arose late this morning. A beautiful day. I attended church, the singing was not near so good as usual because Miss Ellaâs sweet voice was absent, but she seems to have civilized our singing a little. Studied, read, and exercised the balance of the day.
Monday, January 23, 1860
Clear and pleasantly cool. School. Worked in the garden after coming from school and took my usual walk.
Tuesday, January 24, 1860
Clear and cool. School. After coming from school (which but half an hour before sundown) I read and then took my walk.
Wednesday, January 25, 1860
Weather the same. School. Took my usual walk.
Thursday, January 26, 1860
Little cooler but clear. Went to school but came home about 10 oâclk on account of having a chill. Sick the balance of the day.
Friday, January 27, 1860
Clear and cool. School. Read and exercised after coming from school.
Saturday, January 28, 1860
Clear and pretty day. Indoors all day taking quinine and in spite of it had a chill.
Sunday, January 29, 1860
Pretty and cool day. Went to church in the morning and played ball in the evening. Much better today.
Monday, January 30, 1860
Weather the same. Layed in bed till 2 oâclk taking quinine and missed my chill. Balance of the day occupied in reading.
Tuesday, January 31, 1860
Cloudy and rainy in the morning and warm. Turned colder in the evening and at dusk the water in the edges of the gallery was frozen. School.
Wednesday, February 1, 1860
Clear and very cold. I did not attend school today on account of Maâs, Loulyâs and the little babyâs leaving for New Orleans. May God bless them!
Thursday, February 2, 1860
Clear and cool. School. After coming from school practiced with my rifle.
Friday, February 3, 1860
Clear and cool. Just before school was dismissed John Byrne came in and after dismissal went home with me when I practiced my music lesson til 4 oâclk when we put on a clean shirt and went down to Maj. Leeâs to see the young ladies.
We had not been there long, I mean I thought Harry Percy would ask us into the parlor, not dreaming that he supposed I came for any thing else, but we sat for some time before he asked us in the parlor. Probably half an hour before he said a word about going and after Maj. Lee had come in and gone out with Cab Green, an acquaintance. I thought at first that as Dr. Percyâs family was there that the two waited to converse together privately but that Maj. Lee would invite me in after a while. I picked up a book and commenced reading and forgot all about it. I thought that we would go into the parlor after supper, but low and behold after a while here all the gentlemen (except Bill and Valliant who I afterwards found out were there) came into Natâs room picking their teeth. Maj. Lee remarked, âWhy donât you come in to supper we blew horns and many bells.â I did not hear them if they were and I did not like the way in which it was said. He then said, âJohn, wonât you and Harry go in and take some supper?â I said, âNo sir, I do not care about eating at allâ in as ironical a tone as I could in the mean time putting on my overcoat, and then told John to order his horse which he did and as I went out of the door I said as politely as my emotions would allow me, âGood evening gentlemenâ and went home. It was all I could do to keep my tongue in my mouth. I know my manner showâd my feelings. I must say candidly that it is the worst treatment I ever received from any person, and I donât intend to give an opportunity of its being repeated again soon. If my feelings are the same in the future that they are now I shall not go again til Nat comes home, and then only to see him. Not that I believe I am in any way annoying them, but that I believe it is my duty to myself. I believe I have been treated badly and I intend to let it be seen that I think so and am not such a fool as to think otherwise. I regret this thing exceedingly, more on Natâs account than on any other.
Saturday, February 4, 1860
Cloudy and drizzlyârain in the evening. Most of the morning occupied in practicing with my rifle. Mr. Wm. Percy24 was here and we had a good deal of fun with Jimmy25 and his shooting. He shoots very well. John Byrne left this morning. Read and studied all evening. I find that I am getting along very easy in Caesar now.
Sunday, February 5, 1860
Slightly cloudy. No church. Read and studied all day.
Monday, February 6, 1860
Clear and cool. School. Read and practised my music lesson after coming from school.
Tuesday, February 7, 1860
Clear and cool. School. My regular routine observed. My poo...