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āPrisoner 8214 is obediently reporting to the Strafrapport (Penal Registry) . . .ā SS-Hauptsturmführer (Captain), Fritzsch, the Lagerführer (camp leader) of the KZ Auschwitz, was sitting behind a wide desk beneath a picture of the Führer. He raised his head . . .
āWell . . .ā Small, black, goggle eyes were scrutinizing my erect posture. āWhat mischief have you been up to?ā
āI have taken two dishes of garbage from the SS kitchen,ā I shouted as loudly as I could.
Fritzschās eyes flared up . . .
āWhat? You have taken? You have stolen, you, you dog! The garbage from the kitchen is designated for the fattening of the pigs, and the pigs are for the SS . . . Sabotage!!!ā For a moment, he broke off, and then: āHave you already been punished??ā
āNo.ā
He looked at me inquisitively.
āHow long have you been in the camp?ā
āA half year.ā
SSāHauptsturmführer Fritzsch stood up. Slowly he swayed on his comically thin X-legs toward me. The pale yellow face of the liver patient began to crimson . . .
āA half year,ā he repeated. āSince when have you been stealing from the German state?ā
āThis was the first time,ā I began, but a well-aimed punch in the stomach prevented me from finishing the sentence.
āShut up, you are lying! If you had not been stealing, you would have already been flying through the chimney during the last three months; that has been calculated scientifically.ā Briefly he looked at me. āYou are living too long.ā He turned to the prisoner in the orderly room (Schreibstube), who had been silent until now. ā25 and SK. Out!ā The latter was again aimed at me.
I clicked my heels.
āPrisoner 8214 is asking permission to leave,ā
āGet out!ā
Within the next moment, I was outside. Mechanically I registered at the gate and continued to walk towards the Block. I felt as if drunk. The unexpectedly harsh sentencing made me numb. I was so depressed that I could not think straight. Obtrusively, it was booming in my ears:
SK . . . SK . . . SK . . . (SK=Strafkompanie. Punishment Company, SK).
āYou stupid dog!ā I suddenly heard it yelled, and at the same moment, I felt a punch in my teeth. In a split second, I came to my senses . . .
In front of me stood the block leader (Blockführer), whom we called Tom Mix. When I passed by him, I had not taken off my cap, as was required by camp protocol.
āPrisoner 8214,ā I noisily introduced myself while I was clicking my wooden clogs.
āYou surely are drunk, arenāt you?ā With a charming smile, he belted a second punch into my stomach, which threw me to the ground. However, I immediately forced myself to get up because I remembered that the SS men had the habit of kicking prisoners who were lying on the ground.
āI beg your pardon, but I didnāt notice you because I have an important order from the reporting officer (Rapportführer) for the hospital barrack,ā I lied outrightly.
Tom Mix became more condescending.
āWell, thatās certainly your luck, get lost!ā
āI ask permission to leave!ā I was already running away in a complete about-face.
At this point, I had really regained my senses and was coolheaded. When I had reached the Block, I crawled into the cellar and rolled myself a cigarette from the tobacco waste that I had found on the previous day. Now I could indeed deliberate more calmly and purposefully.
Well then, SK! . . .
What the entire camp considered more horrible than an execution: The Punishment Company! (SK) . . .
Instinctively, there arose before my mindās eyes the daily image of the people in the SK column as they were returning from work.
A long line of human shadows that came staggering on their legs and with their wooden clogs made the cobblestone pavement resound in marching step. At the end of the line, they always carried the victims of the day . . . corpses of those who had been shot to death, murdered, or beaten to death with clubs, or those who had, during work, died of ānatural causes.ā And the marching step was drowned by the song of the Punishment Company (SK), āThe blue dragons they are riding . . .ā which they screamed out with their last strength.
As soon as this song started resounding, bit by bit the streets were deserted. For a too curious glance at the lines of the Punishment Company (SK), one could end up in there oneself . . .
During the following days, I ate. I ate in the camp as never before and as never afterwards. The block senior (BlockƤltester), actually a rather decent chap, relieved me from work for the rest of the days which still separated yet from the day on which I would be walking through the gate of the Punishment Company [SK]. The comrades slipped me some of their own meager portions. And in the evening, after the roll call, I was ordered to come to the block clerk, where a bucket of soup was awaiting me . . .
I ate. With cold calculation, I ate until I got stomach cramps. Whenever I became nauseated, I paused, lay down for one or two hours, and then continued to eat. Keep eating, eating as much as possible! . . .
About a week later, after the morning roll call, my number was called. A handshake from my comrades, a pat on the shoulder, an encouraging glance. āHang in there!ā
An hour later, accompanied by the camp senior (Lagerältester) and the Blockführer, I walked through the gate of Block Number 11.
In the square, which was enclosed by three high walls, there were three similarly convicted prisoners. Across from the stairs which led to the SK,...