Chapter 7
Mr. Wesley Ball is the first to take the governmentās offer, and even though it will still be more than a year until he absolutely has to be out, he decided to get it over with now. He and his family have packed up everything theyāre taking with them and word has gone around that anything left that anyone might want, theyāre welcome to take it before the house is burned tonight. Mostly this means things like doors and light fixtures, but they also had to leave some furniture. The Ballsā new place in Saint John is small, and they only had enough money for one trip with the moving truck anyway. Itās what Mr. Ball tells Miss Stairs when Iām in Fosterās Store getting sugar and heās buying matches. He says heāll be damned if heās going to let anyone else light up the house.
āSo are you coming tonight?ā he asks her.
āOh my soul, I wouldnāt miss it,ā Miss Stairs says.
He grins and nods. āAnd everyone, everyone, please, come,ā he announces, turning around to me and the other five or six customers in the store. āCome and bring your families.ā
Itās a bit strange. I mean, heās acting almost as if heās throwing a big party. But then I guess who knows how youāre supposed to act in a
situation like this because when else does this situation ever come up?
āRuby Carson,ā he says to me, āI can count on you, right?ā
I was planning on it. But up until ten seconds ago I would never have said so with excitement in my voice for fear of putting another strike against myself: aspiring pyromaniac.
āLove to,ā I say.
No response.
Mr. Ball stares at me, expressionless. Two seconds pass. Three. I fight the urge to flee.
āMarshmallows!ā he says. Now his eyes are twinkling. He isnāt joking. āLet me buy you a bag so you and Rhona can roast them tonight!ā
Rhona is his daughter, who hasnāt talked to me since June Crouse tangled up all my lines of communication.
I politely refuse, saying itās not necessary, but he is insistent and goes down the aisles to look for a bag. Wonderful. Now Iāll have to take them. Iāll choose to look ridiculous rather than forget them and feel guilty. Of course Iām only included in this public event by doing something exclusionary.
I see Mr. Ball coming back with not one bag but two. I squeeze out a smile. I was standing in the wrong place at the wrong time. Mr. Ball hasnāt done more than say hello after church or smile at me for years, but now Iām part of this memory heās making, his daughterās friend in good old Haven Town where everyone knew everyone and everyone helped everyone out. I thank him for the marshmallows and say Iāll be there tonight.
Rhona Ball put her winter boots on once when she was nine or ten and there was a mouse in one toe. She had them almost all tied up before she felt something wiggling. She screamed and hopped and kicked and flung herself backwards and burned the whole palm of her right hand on the woodstove. She finally got the boot thrown off and when it landed the mouse ran out, unsquished and unharmed. If it had been me, I never, ever would have told the story at school, but everyone wondered how sheād hurt her hand. To this day, she wonāt put on shoes, boots, even sandals, without first stepping on the toes, then turning them upside down and shaking. She does it every day changing from her boots to shoes at school. Sometimes she makes other people paranoid and they look too. There hasnāt been another mouse, even though once last year a piece of cheese that a boy either put in as bait or a joke shook out. I bet she will keep looking for the rest of her life. This might be the one and only thing Iāll remember about Rhona Ball.
I buy the sugar and leave Fosterās Store with it ā and the marshmallows. I look at the map in the window for a bit, then start the walk home. I donāt get too far before Miss Stairs pulls her car up beside me. Sheās finished her shift and offers me a ride.
āBut one stop first,ā she says. āWesley Ballās.ā
Iām already in the car so Iām not going to refuse. Sheās probably glad she caught up to me because she wanted to go, but not alone.
It isnāt far. We drive down into the new flood plain. The Ballsā house sits on an acre back at the end of a long driveway. Itās a two-storey white house with a little porch on the side. Thereās a spray-painted chipboard sign as we turn in: āFire 6:00 Help Yourself Til Then.ā
Miss Stairs parks and starts to get out, but I donāt budge. Iām coming to the burning tonight, but this is different. Iāve never been in the Ballsā house and now weāre going to walk right in?
āI know itās odd,ā Miss Stairs says. āBut itāll be fun to have a little look.ā
I see other people through the windows upstairs and someone walking out the door with a bathroom sink. Miss Stairs walks around to my door and opens it.
Inside the lights are off because the powerās already been disconnected. Even though there are no curtains left on the windows, not much light seems to be coming in and itās dark. And cold. Other people are walking around quietly, sometimes whispering. It feels gloomy, without any of the thrill youād expect when youāre somewhere you probably shouldnāt be. Miss Stairs and I look through the living room, the dining room, and the kitchen. Then thereās the loud sound of wood being pulled with a crowbar and the eerie quiet is broken.
We go upstairs. We walk through three bedrooms and I figure the one with the purple-striped wallpaper was Rhonaās. Out her window I see another car pulling up the driveway. Mr. and Mrs. Hogan are leaving. Tommy Cole is throwing a piece of moulding in the back of Mr. Coleās truck. He has a mountain of things piled up. A crowbar is hanging from his belt loop.
Miss Stairs touches me on the shoulder. She hasnāt said anything since we came in. Iāve just been following her along. We walk downstairs and she heads for the front door, which is fine by me. Tommyās still in the back of the truck fixing the load as we walk by and thankfully doesnāt see us.
We get in the car and tears start to well in Miss Stairsās eyes as she looks in her purse for her keys.
āI wouldnāt be able to do that,ā I say, ājust let anyone wander around ā even in my bedroom.ā
Miss Stairs dabs her eyelashes with her pinky finger. āThatās what Wesley wanted though, to share what little was left.ā
āCould you do it?ā
She looks out the car window back to the house.
āMaybe,ā she says. āMaybe.ā A pause. āOnce it was empty.ā
She starts the car.
Miss Stairs is quiet for most of the drive home, but when we pass a surveyor walking along the road she waves (I think sheās one of the very few people around who bother) and she seems to perk up ā as if sheās just remembered something.
āYou know Ruby, even though a lot of people are leaving, there will be lots of new people coming in too ā men to work on the construction.ā
āOn the new town,ā I say.
āYes, and more on the dam. And the new highway. And the mill theyāre building.ā She turns to me for a second and smiles and nods.
āIt should mean some new kids at school,ā she says. āIām sure there will be some new families ā some more chances to make friends.ā
Again she turns, smiles, and nods. Itās a bit much how convincing sheās trying to be, like sheās told herself to snap out of the depressing mood of the Ball house so now sheās going overboard with the optimism. But itās probably just how sheās found some goodness in all the changes. New people, new possible husbands, are something for her to look forward to.
We pull into the driveway. As I get out of the car Miss Stairs says, āBe sure to tell your mother you were talking to me,ā even though I can see her already, waving to us out the window.
I know all about Miss Stairsās wedding fantasy. She talks about it a lot with my mother. Itās a story they keep telling, editing, subtly changing, embellishing, streamlining, and perfecting. Sometimes when theyāre bored, or when itās dark and rainy, they get a bit adventurous and talk about exotic locations with white sand and palm trees or churches with gold-gilded angels and three-storey-high stained-glass windows. Neither of them has ever been to places with these things. The usual story they tell is better anyway.
Miss Stairs and her future husband will stand beside the Pokiok Stream, up above the Pokiok Falls. Theyāll stand under an archway of bent twigs; purple, pink, and white fresh lilacs and lupines (picked only a half-hour before the ceremony), since the wedding will be in June. The smell will be wonderful and the sun will be shining. My mother will be the matron of honour in a pale mauve dress. When they started telling the story when I was younger, I was the flower girl. Now Iāve been promoted to junior bridesmaid. Percy used to be figured in as the ring bearer, but now no one tricks themselves into believing he would enjoy that.
With the sound of the falls splashing and churning in the background, Miss Stairs and this usually tall, dark-haired future husband will repeat their vows. Her dress will be long and white with lace sleeves. Sheāll wear a necklace inherited from her mother, rhinestones, but good ones, clear sparkling crystal except for a centre one of pink. The necklace will be āthe old.ā A gift from her future husband, earrings she hopes, will be āthe new.ā A small pearl-encrusted hair comb from my mother will be āthe borrowed.ā The water nearby will be āthe blue.ā
The reception after will be at the Pokiok Lodge and the wedding night will be spent in one of the cabins. Iāve heard about it so many times I used to think it would come true. But now the dam is putting a big twist in the climax of the story. The Pokiok Falls will disappear into the rising river. The lodge and cabins must be moved or burned. Itās sad that theyāre messing with those little forest cabins. Sarah and I used to imagine they were a village of playhouses. Theyāre gingerbread-house cute ā tiny, white, with a single gable and a little porch. But I suppose if the falls are gone, it takes away the best reason tourists had to stop here. Even if the cabins werenāt in the flood plain, thereād be no need for them anymore.
I havenāt heard my mother and Miss Stairs go through the wedding fantasy since all of this started. I wonder if Miss Stairs is still holding on to it in her head or if sheās made adjustments. Maybe she does dream that somehow in the next year and a half she can meet one of these new men and get married before the flooding. It doesnāt seem likely to me, but not much thatās happened around here lately ever seemed likely. So who knows what Miss Stairs considers possible or probable? You really donāt know what other people think about. You canāt know what other people are saying to themselves when theyāre sitting home alone.
And probably the worst thing about it is this: if Miss Stairs canāt meet someone and get married, how can I ever expect a better result for myself? Everybody around here seems to like Miss Stairs. At the store I see people standing and chatting with her all the time ā even if theyāre holding up the line. After church...