CHAPTER 1
OFF TO WAR AGAIN
1939
Whitehaven, England
There are times in a manâs life when he must search deep inside himself. When he must strip away all that he thinks he isâor isnâtâ and rely on his very essence in order to survive. War is one of those times, perhaps the most fundamental of times. I know this, having served my country before.
I was but a mere boy when I ran away from home and my job at a colliery to fight Jerry in World War Iâfoolish lad that I was back then. The recruitment officer knew I was too young; I could see it in his smirk when I turned up to enlist. God, one look at my scrawny body, scraggly neck and sunken chest and he would have knownâof course he would have. But the two bob and sixpence I waved under his nose for taking underage chaps the likes of me did the trick. Britain was getting desperate for men and, with a wink and a wave of his hand, the recruitment officer pointed me to the long line of new recruits. He said the food would do me some goodâfatten me up a bit.
By the time I returned at the end of 1918 from what was named The Great War, I had just turned 20 years of age, but I felt like an old man, I can tell you. There had been nothing âgreatâ about it. The wind had been knocked out of me and I was no longer as puffed up as a toad by cockinessâmore like a subdued pet frog. Working down the Haig Pit here in Whitehaven alongside my dad had been a haven compared to the muddy trenches Iâd come to call my home. At least at the colliery Iâd been able to return to a comfortable home to eat and sleep after work. At war, weâd bunkered down like scared rabbits in a warren, huddled together in dark, damp tunnels deep underground, tons upon tons of dirt above us as we attempted to sleep in airless quarters far underneath the trenches where we fought by day. As for the food, well, I certainly didnât âfatten upâ.
My poor dad and mam were so pleased to see me return in one piece that they forgave me everything, and my skipping off to fight was never mentioned again. Still, I was pleased that weâd defeated the Germans, not that the bastards were admitting anything of the sort. They said it was simply an armisticeâor something just as stupid. Said they couldâve won had they continued on fightingâsaid theyâd been forced into agreeing to the terms of the armistice. But our country stood firm in the belief that Germany would never again be a threat to Britain.
How wrong we were.
Ever since that Hitler fellow in Germany became Fuhrer in August 1934, the pompous little man had continued to stir the pot; ranting and raving about the fact that we hadnât actually defeated Germany in The Great War and blaming the Jews for undermining him. Then in late 1938, after Germany had reoccupied the Rhineland and annexed Austria, Hitler turned his attention to Sudetenland in Czechoslovakia. We Brits were getting increasingly anxious. Where would Hitler set his sights on next?
In order to prevent another war, our prime minister, Neville Chamberlain, tried to appease Hitler by meeting him in Munich to sign an agreement, in effect giving Hitler Sudetenland on the promise that he would not invade the whole of Czechoslovakia. The prime minister arrived back in Blighty satisfied that he had achieved his goal of lasting peace. It was to be one of his greatest misjudgements.
Hitler had lied. Germany took Czechoslovakia in March 1939, and invaded Poland on 1 September the same year.
On 3 September 1939, Chamberlain gave a long speech from the cabinet room of Number 10, Downing Street in London which was broadcast on the wireless all over Britain. He told us that we were again at war with Germany. I shall never forget his closing words, which I have memorised: âNow may God bless you all. May He defend the right. It is the evil things that we shall be fighting againstâbrute force, bad faith, injustice, oppression, and persecutionâand against them, I am certain that the right will prevail.â
Being a drum major in the Territorial Army, I knew it was only a matter of time before I was called upon to serve my country. That time came in mid-September, and my first thought was: Two wars in one lifetime, so much for never having to face the Jerries again, and I prayed, along with the rest of my countrymen and women, that Chamberlain would be proven correct. That God would be on our side. I was no churchgoing man, but I knew I would certainly need His assistance if I was to make it through another war.
I was ordered to join my battalion, 5th Border Regiment, in the Wooler region in Northumberland, North-East England, and was advised that I would likely be in regimental aid, helping the poor chaps who were injured. I was not so stupid as to think there wouldnât be plenty of them. No, experience had taught me that much. I was no longer a naĂŻve young lad; in fact, my fellow comrades considered me an old soldier, being that I was the ripe old age of 40.
I looked on the brighter side, which for me always meant the musical side. I was to lead the drum and bugle corps during drills, and I could take along my music sheets and some instruments to accompany me, which I hoped would offer my fellow men some entertainment during whatever leisure time we had.
The wife and our youngest girl were on holidays, visiting relatives in the south of England when I received my orders. Young Joan had been sick, the wife Mabel also sick before her, both of them hospitalised, and they needed the break to help them recuperate. When I contacted Mabel to tell her the news, I told her to stay where she was; that the eldest girl, Nelly, could continue to watch over her sisters and my dad. But the wife wouldnât hear of it and insisted on returning home. She is a good one, my wifeâshe was a strong woman in those days, and I needed her to stay strong, because she had to take full control as caretaker of the Whitehaven Town Hall, a position we shared.
I left Whitehaven on 29 September, a day shy of my 41st birthday. My Mabel led the farewell party, her beautiful liquid-centred toffee-brown eyes as sad as a lost dogâs, my four daughters and my dear old dad all lined up on Bransty Railway Station beside her. Nine-yearold Joan jumped from one foot to the other on gangly legs, her red hair flashing in the sunlight, and I noted that she was already head and shoulders above her poor older sister Mona, 16, who was born with a âgrowth defectâ. My eyes swept over our third eldest daughter, Betty, who, although only 14, was a true beauty. She bore all of her motherâs attractive features apart from one differenceâher striking blonde hair. Rather a headstrong young woman was Betty but, no doubt about it, she was me all over in temperament. Not so the eldest daughter, 18-year-old Nelly, who was more like her mam in nature; sensible and far more compliant than her sister Betty. But there we have it. They were all there to bid me farewell. And, for that, I felt very honoured.
I choked up when I saw the boys from my local band arrive and when they broke into a tune to farewell me, their old bandleader, I had to swallow rapidly in order to keep my welling emotions in check. I didnât want the memory of me sobbing like a sissy remaining with them throughout the war. My band! How Iâd loved every moment of being a part of it: the street parades, the conducting, the concert halls, balls and dances. Well, it was no longer to be and it saddened me that my Golden Age of Music, as it was then named, was over.
The drummer, my dearest mate and Mabelâs younger brother, 26-year-old Ernie, had a tear in his eye. He was like a son to me, the son Iâd never had. He hadnât been called up as yet, but I suspected it would only be a matter of time. Not so for some of the lads in the band who were staying behind for various reasons: age, reserved occupations, medical conditions and the like. They all assured me they would keep an eye on my family, and in them I had complete confidence. We were a close-knit lot in Whitehaven.
My emotional old dad was the last to hug me goodbye. He pressed a small gold clock into my hand, his consumptive cough masking his last words. I turned quickly to leave before I completely broke down.
And I was off. With a final wave as the train shunted out, I tried to take in everyoneâs features. I wantedâneededâan image firmly imprinted in my mind, although I couldnât help but wonder how much this picture would change by the time I returned. And, make no mistake, I was determined to return.
The train stations I passed through on my way to Wooler were filled with similar scenes to Bransty, and my spirits were buoyed by the crowds waving flags and calling out in patriotic cheers as I made my way to join my battalion. I finally settled back into my seat, my mind still focused on who I had left behind; foremost my darling wife.
Ah, my wifeâŚ
It was in the main street of Whitehaven, in April 1919, when I first saw herâmy Mabel. I still love saying thatâmy Mabel. Iâd taken a lunchbreak from work to get a bite to eat and perhaps down a quick pint of stout, and there she stood, patiently waiting her turn at the counter of Penneyâs Fish and Chip Shop. Oh, my Lord, was she ever a good-looking lass. She took the very breath out of me and I could hardly manage to voice my order for a tuppence worth of chips. Mabel Cranston was, and remains to this day, the finest woman ever to be put on this earthâand Iâll not be disputed on that fact.
The first thing I noticed were her large brown eyes; they were ever so expressive, so much so they shone with every smile. Yes, her features were angelic, only to be matched by her soul, and I swear you could not have met a real angel to rival her, not even if youâd visited Heaven. And Mabelâs skin, oh, it was so soft. Like rich, creamy milk. Her pert little nose was perfectly positioned on that wonderful face, and her naturally blushed cheeks looked as if theyâd been smeared with ripe strawberries. As you can see, I fell hard, and it took me going to the local chippy many times in the hope of seeing her before I did once more. I was eating that many chips it was a wonder I wasnât the size of a barrel when I finally bumped into Mabel again, and by that time I was in such an anxious state I just blurted out a request for a date. Well, when Mabel nodded her head in the affirmative, I was dancing in clover.
But that was all in the past. The train began to slow, releasing hisses and sighs, smoke whirling through the air, and my thoughts returned to the present and to the task ahead. I was no longer a family man; I was now a soldier of war. My heart would not get me through the weeks, months, and perhaps years that lay ahead. From that moment forth I knew I had to start thinking with my head.
Wooler to Felton
By early December, after two months of basic training and lectures, which we found relatively undemanding, we moved from Wooler to the Felton area to undergo more intense training; Felton being a town approximately 30 miles south of Wooler. Our training schedule was certainly ramped up during our six-week stay at Felton, and the weather also made it hard going as winter came early and it was the coldest in living memory with many heavy snowfalls and ice making for challenging conditions.
1940
Felton to Swindon
In mid-January the battalion left Felton and headed for Camp Chiseldon in Swindon, Wiltshire, in the south-west of England, to make our final preparations for war. We moved by road and, despite the weather still being atrocious and our lorries sliding every which way, we arrived safely.
We were housed in timber huts, which were very coldâfrigidly soâas the big freeze across Britain was still on, chilling us all to the bone. Having only one small heater per hut and the showers being icy cold, the pipes often completely frozen, it was rough going, but the food wasnât too bad, and we couldnât complain due to there being rationing on throughout Blighty at the time. So, we were mindful of that, of what our families were enduring, and camp spirits remained high.
Our company commander at Chiseldon was named Captain Sewell, and he proved to be a fine chap and quickly gained the respect of all. Camp Chiseldon indeed brought back memories to me, and I was familiar with the drill from the last war: practice on the firing range, using live hand grenades on the bombing range, and combat training in the nearby woods and local countryside. There was only one major change from the training schedule for The Great War and that was motor trainingâdriving motorcycles, lorries and Bren gun carriersâour troopsâ general mode of getting around in the last war being on foot or on horseback. To add to all this, I found I was to study first aid and the basics of medicine in order to be in regimental aid, and so my days and nights were full with not too much time spare to pine for my family.
Speaking of families, the locals in Swindon were wonderful people, very tolerant of the thousands of troops amassed in their locale, and they kindly offered accommodation to the wives and girlfriends of soldiers when they visited. Iâm sad to say my Mabel wasnât among those visitors, seeing as she had so much on her hands, what with her having to look after our girls, my dad, and tending to her demanding duties at the town hall. Still, as I said previously, I also had much on my plate with the intensity of training and my medical studies, and if there was any shard of time left to me, I played my music. I managed to put on a few musical shows which, as Iâd hoped, were much appreciated by all the troops. As had long been the case, none of the lads called me by my proper name, Henry Jackson (Harry to my family and friends at home) when off duty, rather by my nickname âDrummieâ, and there was many a night when that name was called out in good cheer. It was very humbling indeed.
Iâm delighted to report that on completion of training for overseas service we were given final embarkation leave of 48 hours. At the end of March, the lads and I gleefully jumped aboard trains and headed home, the atmosphere jubilant as we sang and laughed all the way and, oh, what a joy it was to see my family once more before I headed off to war.
CHAPTER 2
BLOODY BATTLES AND GRAND PIANOS
1940
England
18 AprilâWe are as ready for war as we will ever be and our battalion leaves Swindon early this morning. Now that Germany has invaded neutral Denmark and Norway, the call for arms becomes more desperate than ever. We arrive at Southampton docks this same day and board a troopship. After getting instructions on the use of lifeboats, we find our bunks and drop our kits before getting some grub.
The ship sails at night and anchors in the dark Solent and Southampton Water. Iâm restless, so I go up on deck to clear the old head. The weather is cloudy and rain drizzles, but every now and again I can see glimpses of the half-moon through the clouds. I like to think I can see the face of the man in the moon smiling down on us. My gaze shifts to the deep, swollen black waters below, and I breathe in the salty air, and then watch on in awe as more and more ships anchor close by. Iâm comforted by the sheer might of our force. As the last ship arrives, I retire for the night, for I shall need to be well rested for the days, weeks and months aheadâas I am now a man at war.
France
20 AprilâItâs a mighty show of strength as our convoy of troopships, including the HMS Ben-my-Chree, the pride of the Isle of Man Steam Packet Company, arrive at Le Havre, France at first light today. This is the same port I landed at during the last war, and once again, as with Camp Chiseldon, memories flood back to me. I have to admit to my nerves jumping with a right mix of excitement and trepidation. Excitement at the thought of serving my country, as one canât help but be swept along with the fervour now infiltrating the ship, but trepidation for the imminent war I am about to enter.
This same night we board lorries and travel for three days to a small village called Bouessay in the north-west of France. This place gives no impression of war.
23 AprilâWe set up our regimental aid post in a small two-room house that appears to have been occupied up until very recently. The larger room leads out to the main street via glass doors and has two sizeable beds in it, which will be perfect to accommodate our wounded. The smaller room has a huge barrel in it, and later in the day, when Lieutenant Sergeant Crosby and I arrive back at the house, we learn that the barrel contains undiluted whiskyâour medical officer is in a proper dilemma because he cannot get any sense out of an orderly, who has sampled the whisky, and he finds him wandering around in a complete stupor. More men arrive to witness the scene, and itâs an amusing distraction. After we have tired of the orderlyâs antics, and he falls into deep slumber on the floor, we are all allowed a small tot of whisky, which is enough to blow our bloody heads off. We have ourselves a merry old time for a short while, but the rest of the night is a bit of a blur! Somehow, we find our way to a shed to sleep, the larger room of the house being occupied by the medical officer and another officer.
The following day we are told that we are to stay here in Bouessay for six weeks of training on the tactics of war on foreign soil. Many of the boys feel this is not necessary, that they are well and truly ready to take on the Germans, some muttering their disappointment, and others not so quietly espousing their fervour to do battle with Jerryâtheir eagerness to kill. They complain at being further from the firing line than they would like to be. I keep my mouth shut. While I donât wish to douse the ladsâ zeal for action, experience has taught me that being on the front line is anything but fun. Indeed, some men are acting as if theyâre simply about to take a thrill ride at Butlins Holiday Camp.
On the third day the officers find themselves a better billet and an orderly, a driver, the medical officerâs batman and I grab their beds. We just start to get down to it when weâre called out. A Royal Army Medical Corps dispatch rider has run into four men, two having to be transported to hospital. Then, as ...