Koolaids

Rabih Alameddine

• Verlag: Grove Press
• Jahr: 2015
• ISBN:
  9780802190970
• Thema: Literatur
• Thema: Literatur Allgemein

"Daring, dazzling... A tough, funny, heart-breaking book" by the National Book Award–nominated author of An Unnecessary Woman ( The Seattle Times ). Detailing the impact of the AIDS epidemic in America and the Lebanese civil war in Beirut on a circle of friends and their families during the 1980s and 1990s, this "absolutely brilliant" novel mines the chaos of contemporary experience, telling the stories of characters who can no longer love or think except in fragments (Amy Tan). Clips and quips, vignettes and hallucinations, tragic news reports and hilarious short plays, conversations with both the quick and the dead, all shine their combined lights to reveal the way we experience life today in the debut novel of the author Michael Chabon calls "one of our most daring writers." "A provocative, emotionally searing series of connected vignettes... For a nonlinear novel the images chosen retain a remarkable cohesion. Often sexually frank or jarringly violent, they merge into a graphic portrait of two cultures torn from the inside." — Publishers Weekly "[A] refreshing statement of honesty and endurance... Funny, brave, full of heart and willing to say things about war and disease, sexual and cultural politics that have rarely been said so boldly or directly before." — The Oregonian "Rabih Alameddine is one rare writer who not only breaks our hearts but gives every broken piece a new life." —Yiyun Li

Also by Rabih Alameddine

An Unnecessary Woman

The Hakawati

I, The Divine

The Perv

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Copyright © 2015 by Rabih Alameddine

“Israel Spurs Lebanon Exodus,” © The Associated Press, 14 April 1996, reprinted by permission; “Why Beirut and Not Damascus?” by Arthur K. Vogel, Tages-Anzeiger, reprinted by permission of the author and Tages-Anzeiger; “Yet pray even while . . . ,” translation by Lionel Saler of “Bete aber auch dabei” © 1997. Reprinted by permission of the translator; “Parliamentary Elections” and “What Is a Lebanese Anyway?” by Joseph L. Boohaker, reprinted by permission of the author; “Lebanon First,” © The Jerusalem Post, 13 August 1996, reprinted with the consent of The Jerusalem Post.

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First published in 1998 by Picador USA

Published simultaneously in Canada

Printed in the United States of America

ISBN 978-0-8021-2414-2

eISBN 978-0-8021-9097-0

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To my father,

May he forgive me once more

I wonder if being sane means

disregarding the chaos that is life,

pretending only an infinitesimal segment of it is reality.

Death comes in many shapes and sizes, but it always comes. No one escapes the little tag on the big toe.

The four horsemen approach.

The rider on the red horse says, “This good and faithful servant is ready. He knoweth war.”

The rider on the black horse says, “This good and faithful servant is ready. He knoweth plague.”

The rider on the pale horse says, “This good and faithful servant is ready. He knoweth death.”

The rider on the white horse says, “Fuck this good and faithful servant. He is a non-Christian homosexual, for God’s sake. You brought me all the way out here for a fucking fag, a heathen. I didn’t die for this dingbat’s sins.”

The irascible rider on the white horse leads the other three lemmings away.

The hospital bed hurts my back.

…

Time. Time is what I need right now. I can’t think straight anymore. I should not have said that. I try never saying the word straight. Let’s say I can’t concentrate. That describes my predicament accurately. I can’t speak English anymore either. Really. I can’t think in English. It’s back to my roots. I now think and dream only in Arabic. I haven’t done that for the longest time.

James was here the other day. Or was it today? I can’t think straight. Time gets very confusing.

James says something to me. I reply. He has that look of utter confusion. He doesn’t understand a word I say. I switch to English. It’s really easy for me to switch between two languages. I actually can communicate clearly in three. French is my second language. English is my third. Most Lebanese can speak three languages. I can really speak only two. French has been completely forgotten. I have not dreamed in French since I was a boy. I spoke English when I was a boy. It actually was the first language I spoke. I had a nanny who spoke only English. She was from Liberia. She was black. So is James.

James sits on the chair in front of my bed. I lie down quite a bit these days. He always asks how I am feeling. Great, James, I am feeling great. I am not dying. He always implies that I am. James sits on the chair in front of my bed. James looks tired. He is slouching. His socks don’t match. It isn’t as if they don’t match in the classic sense. That is, they do not match anything he is wearing. My father says a man’s socks must first match his tie. If that doesn’t work, they must match the shirt; followed by the jacket, if it is different from the pants. Pants should be the last match. If none of that works, one is supposed to wear black socks. But if you ask me, one should go out and buy socks which match. James is wearing white tube socks, and that simply does not work since he is wearing nothing else which is white. He is slipping. I tell him, but he doesn’t understand me. I must have said it in French and he doesn’t speak French. Most Americans speak nothing other than English. Hold on a second. I am an American and I speak French, so that statement does not describe my predicament accurately. Actually, French has been completely forgotten and that describes my predicament more accurately.

James sits on the chair in front of my bed. He looks tired. At thirty-nine, he no longer looks as young as he did. Neither does my father. There was a time when James was handsome. Or was he just nice-looking? I can’t remember that far. I ask him why he comes so often to visit me. His mouth drops. I guess he understood what I said. I must have said it in English. James looks so cute when he is shocked. His eyes get so wide.

…

I open the door for Kurt. “Hi there,” he says cheerfully. I grunt acknowledgment and head back to my chair. He comes into the living room, where Scott and I are sitting. Scott puts his book down to receive a kiss from his latest boyfriend.

“What are you reading?” Kurt asks, picking up the book. He sits on the arm of the chair and tousles Scott’s hair. “Spanking the Maid? That’s a provocative title. What’s it about?”

“Spanking the maid, of course,” Scott replies. He picks...