XX
Along Shore
ONE DAY as I went along the shore beyond the old wharves and the newer, high-stepped fabric of the steamer landing, I saw that all the boats were beached, and the slack water period of the early afternoon prevailed. Nothing was going on, not even the most leisurely of occupations, like baiting trawls or mending nets, or repairing lobster pots; the very boats seemed to be taking an afternoon nap in the sun. I could hardly discover a distant sail as I looked seaward, except a weather-beaten lobster smack, which seemed to have been taken for a plaything by the light airs that blew about the bay. It drifted and turned about so aimlessly in the wide reach off Burnt Island, that I suspected there was nobody at the wheel, or that she might have parted her rusty anchor chain while all the crew were asleep.
I watched her for a minute or two; she was the old Miranda, owned by some of the Caplins, and I knew her by an odd shaped patch of newish duck that was set into the peak of her dingy mainsail. Her vagaries offered such an exciting subject for conversation that my heart rejoiced at the sound of a hoarse voice behind me. At that moment, before I had time to answer, I saw something large and shapeless flung from the Mirandaâs deck that splashed the water high against her black side, and my companion gave a satisfied chuckle. The old lobster smackâs sail caught the breeze again at this moment, and she moved off down the bay. Turning, I found old Elijah Tilley, who had come softly out of his dark fish-house, as if it were a burrow.
âBoy got kind oâ drowsy steerinâ of her; Monroe he hove him right overboard; âwake now fast enough,â explained Mr. Tilley, and we laughed together.
I was delighted, for my part, that the vicissitudes and dangers of the Miranda, in a rocky channel, should have given me this opportunity to make acquaintance with an old fisherman to whom I had never spoken. At first he had seemed to be one of those evasive and uncomfortable persons who are so suspicious of you that they make you almost suspicious of yourself. Mr. Elijah Tilley appeared to regard a stranger with scornful indifference. You might see him standing on the pebble beach or in a fish-house doorway, but when you came nearer he was gone. He was one of the small company of elderly, gaunt-shaped great fisherman whom I used to like to see leading up a deep-laden boat by the head, as if it were a horse, from the waterâs edge to the steep slope of the pebble beach. There were four of these large old men at the Landing, who were the survivors of an earlier and more vigorous generation. There was an alliance and understanding between them, so close that it was apparently speechless. They gave much time to watching one anotherâs boats go out or come in; they lent a ready hand at tending one anotherâs lobster traps in rough weather; they helped to clean the fish or to sliver porgies for the trawls, as if they were in close partnership; and when a boat came in from deep-sea fishing they were never too far out of the way, and hastened to help carry it ashore, two by, two, splashing alongside, or holding its steady head, as if it were a willful sea colt. As a matter of fact no boat could help being steady and way-wise under their instant direction and companionship. Abelâs boat and Jonathan Bowdenâs boat were as distinct and experienced personalities as the men themselves, and as inexpressive. Arguments and opinions were unknown to the conversation of these ancient friends; you would as soon have expected to hear small talk in a company of elephants as to hear old Mr. Bowden or Elijah Tilley and their two mates waste breath upon any form of trivial gossip. They made brief statements to one another from time to time. As you came to know them you wondered more and more that they should talk at all. Speech seemed to be a light and elegant accomplishment, and their unexpected acquaintance with its arts made them of new value to the listener. You felt almost as if a landmark pine should suddenly address you in regard to the weather, or a lofty-minded old camel make a remark as you stood respectfully near him under the circus tent.
I often wondered a great deal about the inner life and thought of these self-contained old fishermen; their minds seemed to be fixed upon nature and the elements rather than upon any contrivances of man, like politics or theology. My friend, Captain Bowden, who was the nephew of the eldest of this group, regarded them with deference; but he did not belong to their secret companionship, though he was neither young nor talkative.
âTheyâve gone together ever since they were boys, they know most everything about the sea amonâst them,â he told me once. âThey was always just as you see âem now since the memory of man.â
These ancient seafarers had houses and lands not outwardly different from other Dunnet Landing dwellings, and two of them were fathers of families, but their true dwelling places were the sea, and the stony beach that edged its familiar shore, and the fish-houses, where much salt brine from the mackerel kits had soaked the very timbers into a state of brown permanence and petrifaction. It had also affected the old fishermenâs hard complexions, until one fancied that when Death claimed them it could only be with the aid, not of any slender modern dart, but the good serviceable harpoon of a seventeenth century woodcut.
Elijah Tilley was such an evasive, discouraged-looking person, heavy-headed, and stooping so that one could never look him in the face, that even after his friendly exclamation about Monroe Pennell, the lobster smackâs skipper, and the sleepy boy, I did not venture at once to speak again. Mr. Tilley was carrying a small haddock in one hand, and presently shifted it to the other hand lest it might touch my skirt. I knew that my company was accepted, and we walked together a little way.
âYou mean to have a good supper,â I ventured to say, by way of friendliness.
âGoinâ to have this âere haddock anâ some oâ my good baked potatoes; must eat to live,â responded my companion with great pleasantness and open approval. I found that I had suddenly left the forbidding coast and come into the smooth little harbor of friendship.
âYou ainât never been up to my place,â said the old man. âFolks donât come now as they used to; no, âtainât no use to ask folks now. My poor dear she was a great hand to draw young company.â
I remembered that Mrs. Todd had once said that this old fisherman had been sore stricken and unconsoled at the death of his wife.
âI should like very much to come,â said I. âPerhaps you are going to be at home later on?â
Mr. Tilley agreed, by a sober nod, and went his way bent-shouldered and with a rolling gait. There was a new patch high on the shoulder of his old waistcoat, which corresponded to the renewing of the Mirandaâs mainsail down the bay, and I wondered if his own fingers, clumsy with much deep-sea fishing, had set it in.
âWas there a good catch to-day?â I asked, stopping a moment. âI didnât happen to be on the shore when the boats came in.â
âNo; all come in pretty light,â answered Mr. Tilley. âAddicks anâ Bowden they done the best; Abel anâ me we had but a slim fare. We went out âarly, but not so âarly as sometimes; looked like a poor morninâ. I got nine haddick, all small, and seven fish; the rest on âem got more fish than haddick. Well, I donât expect they feel like bitinâ every day; we lâ am to humor âem a little, anâ let âem have their way âbout it. These plaguey dog-fish kind of worry âem.â Mr. Tilley pronounced the last sentence with much sympathy, as if he looked upon himself as a true friend of all the haddock and codfish that lived on the fishing grounds, and so we parted.
Later in the afternoon I went along the beach again until I came to the foot of Mr. Tilleyâs land, and found his rough track across the cobblestones and rocks to the field edge, where there was a heavy piece of old wreck timber, like a shipâs bone, full of tree-nails. From this a little footpath, narrow with one manâs treading, led up across the small green field that made Mr. Tilleyâs whole estate, except a straggling pasture that tilted on edge up the steep hillside beyond the house and road. I could hear the tinkle-tankle of a cow-bell somewhere among the spruces by which the pasture was being walked over and forested from every side; it was likely to be called the wood lot before long, but the field was unmolested. I could not see a bush or a brier anywhere within its walls, and hardly a stray pebble showed itself. This was most surprising in that country of firm ledges, and scattered stones which all the walls that industry could devise had hardly begun to clear away off the land. In the narrow field I noticed some stout stakes; apparently planted at random in the grass and among the hills of potatoes, but carefully painted yellow and white to match the house, a neat sharp-edged little dwelling, which looked strangely modern for its owner. I should have much sooner believed that the smart young wholesale egg merchant of the Landing was its occupant than Mr. Tilley, since a manâs house is really but his larger body, and expresses in a way his nature and character.
I went up the field, following the smooth little path to the side door. As for using the front door, that was a matter of great ceremony; the long grass grew close against the high stone step, and a snowberry bush leaned over it, top-heavy with the weight of a morning-glory vine that had managed to take what the fishermen might call a half hitch about the door-knob. Elijah Tilley came to the side door to receive me; he was knitting a blue yarn stocking without looking on, and was warmly dressed for the season in a thick blue flannel shirt with white crockery buttons, a faded waistcoat and trousers heavily patched at the knees. These were not his fishing clothes. There was something delightful in the grasp of his hand, warm and clean, as if it never touched anything but the comfortable woolen yarn, instead of cold sea water and slippery fish.
âWhat are the painted stakes for, down in the field?â I hastened to ask, and he came out a step or two along the path to see; and looked at the stakes as if his attention were called to them for the first time.
âFolks laughed at me when I first bought this place anâ come here to live,â he explained. âThey said âtwaânât no kind of a field privilege at all; no place to raise anything, all full oâ stones. I was aware âtwas good land, anâ I worked some on it â odd times when I didnât have nothinâ else on hand â till I cleared them loose stones all out. You never see a prettier piece than âtis now; now did ye? Well, as for them painted marks, themâs my buoys. I struck on to some heavy rocks that didnât show none, but a plowâd be liable to ground on âem, anâ so I ketched holt anâ buoyed âem sameâs you see. They donât trouble me no moreân if they waânât there.â
âYou havenât been to sea for nothing,â I said laughing.
âOne trade helps another,â said Elijah with an amiable smile. âCome right in anâ set down. Come in anâ rest ye,â he exclaimed, and led the way into his comfortable kitchen. The sunshine poured in at the two further windows, and a cat was curled up sound asleep on the table that stood between them. There was a new-looking light oilcloth of a tiled pattern on the floor, and a crockery teapot, large for a household of only one person, stood on the bright stove. I ventured to say that somebody must be a very good housekeeper.
âThatâs me,â acknowledged the old fisherman with frankness. âThere ainât nobody here but me. I try to keep things looking right, sameâs poor dear left âem. You set down here in this chair, then you can look off anâ see the water. None on âem thought I was goinâ to get along alone, no way, but I waânât goinâ to have my house turned upsiâ down anâ all changed about; no, not to please nobody. I was the only one knew just how she liked to have things set, poor dear, anâ I said I was goinâ to make shift, and I have made shift. Iâd rather tough it out alone.â And he sighed heavily, as if to sigh were his familiar consolation.
We were both silent for a minute; the old man looked out the window, as if he had forgotten I was there.
âYou must miss her very much?â I said at last.
âI do miss her,â he answered, and sighed again. âFolks all kepâ repeatinâ that time would ease me, but I canât find it does. No, I miss her just the same every day.â
âHow long is it since she died?â I asked.
âEight year now, come the first of October. It donât seem near so long. Iâve got a sister that comes and stops âlong oâ me a little spell, spring anâ fall, anâ odd times if I send after her. I ainât near so good a hand to sew as I be to knit, and sheâs very quick to set everything to rights. Sheâs a married woman with a family; her sonâs folks lives at home, anâ I canât make no great claim on her time. But it makes me a kind oâ good excuse, when I do send, to help her a little; she ainât none too well off. Poor dear always liked her, and we used to contrive our ways together. âTis full as easy to be alone. I set here anâ think it all over, anâ think considerable when the weatherâs bad to go outside. I get so some days it feels as if poor dear might step right back into this kitchen. I keep a-watchinâ them doors as if she might step in to ary one. Yes, maâam, I keep a-lookinâ off anâ droppinâ oâ my stitches; thatâs just how it seems. I canât git over losinâ of her no way nor no how. Yes, maâam, thatâs just how it seems to me.â
I did not say anything, and he did not look up.
âI git feelinâ so sometimes I have to lay everything by anâ go out door. She was a sweet pretty creaturâ longâs she lived,â the old man added mournfully. âThereâs that little rockinâ chair oâ herân, I set anâ notice it anâ think how strange âtis a creaturâ like her should be gone anâ that chair be here right in its old place.â
âI wish I had known her; Mrs. Todd told me about your wife one day,â I said.
âYouâd have liked to come and see her; all the folks did,â said poor Elijah. âSheâd been so pleased to hear everything and see somebody new that took such an intârest. She had a kind oâ gift to make it pleasant for folks. I guess likely Almiry Todd told you she was a pretty woman, especially in her young days; late years, too, she kepâ her looks and come to be so pleasant lookinâ. There, ât ainât so much matter, I shall be done afore a great while. No; I shaânât trouble the fish a great sight more.â
The old widower sat with his head bowed over his knitting, as if he were hastily shortening the very thread of time. The minutes went slowly by. He stopped his work and clasped his hands firmly together. I saw he had forgotten his guest, and I kept the afternoon watch with him. At last he looked up as if but a moment had passed of his continual loneliness.
âYes, maâam, Iâm one that has seen trouble,â he said, and began to knit again.
The visible tribute of his careful housekeeping, and the clean bright room which had once enshrined his wife, and now enshrined her memory, was very moving to me; he had no thought for any one else or for any other place. I began to see her myself in her home, â a delicate-looking, faded little woman, who leaned upon his rough strength and affectionate heart, who was always watching for his boat out of this very window, and who always opened the door and welcomed him when he came home.
âI used to laugh at her, poor dear,â said Elijah, as if he read my thought. âI used to make light of her timid notions. She used to be fearful when I was out in bad weather or baffled about gittinâ ashore. She used to say the time seemed long to her, but Iâve found out all about it now. I used to be dreadful thoughtless when I was a young man and the fish was bitinâ well. Iâd stay out late some oâ them days, anâ I expect sheâd watch anâ watch anâ lose heart a-waitinâ. My heart alive! what a supper sheâd git, anâ be right there watchinâ from the door, with somethinâ over her head if âtwas cold, waitinâ to hear all about it as I come up the field. Lord, how I think oâ all them little things!â
âThis was what she called the best room; in this way,â he said presently, laying his knitting on the table, and leading the way across the front entry and unlocking a door, which he threw open with an air of pride. The best room seemed to me a much sadder and more empty place than the kitchen; its conventionalities lacked the simple perfection of the humbler room and failed on the side of poor ambition; it was only when one remembered what patient saving, and what high respect for society in the abstract go to such furnishing that the little parlor was interesting at all. I could imagine the great day of certain purchases, the bewildering shops of the next large town, the aspiring anxious woman, the clumsy sea-tanned man in his best clothes, so eager to be pleased, but at ease only when they were safe back in the sailboat again, going down the bay with their precious freight, the hoarded money all spent and nothing to think of but tiller and sail. I looked at the unworn carpet, the glass vases on the mantelpiece with their prim bunches of bleached swamp grass and dusty marsh rosemary, and I could read the history of Mrs. Tilleyâs best room from its very beginning.
âYou see for yourself what beautiful rugs she could make; now Iâm going to show you her best tea things she thought so much of,â said the master of the house, opening the door of a shallow cupboard. âThatâs real chiny, all of it on those two shelves,â he told me proudly. âI bought it all myself, when we was first married, in the port of Bordeaux. There never was one single piece of it broke until â Well, I used to say, long as she lived, there never was a piece broke, but long at the last I noticed sheâd look kind oâ distressed, anâ I thought âtwas âcount oâ me boastinâ. When they asked if they should use it when the folks was here to supper, time oâ her funeral, I knew sheâd want to have everything nice, and I said âcertain.â Some oâ the women they come runninâ to me anâ called me, while they was takinâ of the chiny down, anâ showed me there was one oâ the cups broke anâ the pieces wropped in paper and pushed way back here, corner oâ the shelf. They didnât want me to go anâ think they done it. Poor dear! I had to put right out oâ the house when I see that. I knowed in one minute how âtwas. Weâd got so used to sayinâ âtwas all there justâs I fetched it home, anâ so when she broke that cup somehow orânother she couldnât frame no words to come an âtell me. She couldnât thinkâtwould vex me, âtwas her own hurt pride. I guess there waânât no other secret ever lay between us.â
The French cups with their gay sprigs of pink and blue, the best tumblers, an old flowered bowl and tea caddy, and a japanned waiter or two adorned the shelves. These, with a few daguerreotypes in a little square pile, had the closet to themselves, and I was conscious of much pleasure in seeing them. One is shown over many a house in these days where the interest may be more complex, but not more definite.
âThose were her best things, poor dear,â said Elijah as he locked the door again. âShe told me that last summer before she was taken away that she couldnât think oâ anything more she wanted, there was everything in the house, anâ all her rooms was furnished pretty. I was goinâ over to the Port, anâ inquired for errands. I used to ask her to say what she wanted, cost or no cost â she was a very reasonable woman, anâ âtwas the place where she done all but her extra shopping. It kind oâ chilled me up when she spoke so satisfied.â
âYou donât go out fishing after Christmas?â I asked, as we came back to the bright kitchen.
âNo; I take stiddy to my knitting after January sets in,â said the old seafarer. â âTainât worth while, fish make off into deeper water anâ you canât stand no such perishinâ for the sake oâ what you get. I leave out a few traps in sheltered coves anâ do a little lobsterinâ on fair days. The yo...